Preventing Dysfunction in Children through Effective Parenting part 5

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe/feel that my children are in the way of me living the life I want.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define 'my life' as something separate from the reality that I currently within and within that to not realize that my purpose is to do what is best in any situation or context that I find myself within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my purpose in life is something unique to me, separate from others, and determined solely by me in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty about wanting to be away from my kids, able to do what I want, and free from the responsibility of giving attention to my kids.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like I am not able to focus because I have to constantly divert my attention from what I am wanting to do to paying attention to my kids.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that who I really am is free from desires and wants and needs and would be able and willing to stop in any moment and give attention to what is required in the context of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am in a world that is governed by a system that requires everyone to work to survive or at least focus on money in order to maintain a position in the system where one does not have to 'work' for survival but which depends on a lot of other people doing so and thus I do not have to feel guilty about the fact that it is challenging to both survive and give attention to what is best, and yet I see that I have still made excuses because I do spend plenty of time focusing on irrelevant shit that in no way serves what is best, it only serves the system, and which I use to distract myself or entertain myself to feel good rather than using that time to focus on something that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use my children as an excuse to not do what is best, blaming them and the context of having to be a parent for why I don't apparently have enough time to focus when if I am self-honest I know that I spend a lot of time doing things that don't matter, and if I were to add all that time up it would represent more than enough time to focus on what is best, which would in this current context represent me creating a situation or environment that would be better for me and my children so that we would have more time to spend together and for me to focus on points of standing up in this world in some capacity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the excuse that I must focus for long periods of time in order to do something that matters, when I could use short, small amounts of time that would typically use to distract myself in order to figure out what I could logically do next that would tangibly improve my situation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define parenting as a sacrifice, which is like a flower feeling like producing fruit and seeds for new plants is a sacrifice, which just shows the extent to which I have defined myself according to the mind instead of life as the physical.

Preventing Dysfunction in Children through Effective Parenting part 4

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is hard to educate a child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that only 'experts' certified by the system are qualified to educate a child, when the evidence that the experts are unqualified is clear because most if not all children end up with some form of dysfunction even after years and years of education within a system designed by the so-called experts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that a child is really just a copy of the parents and the environment in the first 3-7 years of their life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that a child should have at least one parent with them at all times until their vocabulary is developed to a point where the child can reason effectively and is no longer simply accepting what adults say in their environment by default.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question the influences on children that our system and society accepts as normal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that a parent who is stressed around their child will create a dysfunctional child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that a parent who is frustrated and angry around their child will create a dysfunctional child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that a parent who is impatient with their child will create a dysfunctional child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that a child creates themselves or that God creates a child, when the evidence is clear that the child is formed from DNA - which is accumulated memories of those that have gone before the child - the parents vocabularies/education levels, and the environment that the child is conceived in, that the pregnant mother is in, and that the child is in from birth, as well as the nutrition that is given or not given to the child in the formative years (the first 7 years).

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that very little education takes place in school or after the first 7 years of a child's life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that a child must be special in order to learn everything they need to learn.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not really investigate what a child really is and what they are really capable of.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project onto the child that they cannot understand what an adult understands, because they are inferior, when it is simply a matter of not yet having the vocabulary and context to understand, but this can be developed with patience and care by the parent or parents and can be developed much rapidly than most people think is possible, but most people do not take full responsibility for their child's education, leaving the vast majority to the 'expert's - even those who homeschool still use the curriculum created by 'experts' who do not have the evidence that it produces a child with 'superior' ability.

I commit myself to show parents that they can support their child to be orders of magnitude more effective than the parent realizes.

I commit myself to support my children to develop effective communication abilities, reasoning abilities, and an honor and respect of the equality of life in all and to document as much of it as practically possible so that others can see that it is possible and will have no excuse to not do the same.

I commit myself to prove, through myself, my children, and any and all who have the willingness to walk with me, that a child can be much more than what most realize, believe, or accept, and that a child can in fact become a human being who cares about others for real and has the skills and abilities to stand effectively in this world and contribute in a way that is best for all.

Preventing Dysfunction in Children through Effective Parenting part 3

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want my child to be better than others from the perspective of accepting the system as is, and wanting my child to be the best competitor in the system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want my child to be exceptional at something or many things in order that I may receive recognition as a great parent and as an exceptional person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my child is another being and not an object for me to satisfy a desire for acceptance, recognition, or praise from others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the best form of recognition is from my self when I see that I have supported my child to be the best possible within the context of what is best for all and that therefore I have done my best and thus I am self satisfied and self recognized because I SEE the reflection of my effort and application and patience to do what is best for my child reflected in their development.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I seek recognition from others because I do not recognize the equality of Life in all and thus in my self and my child equal and one.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want my child to love me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel and believe that I must control my child in order to ensure that they love me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that love is not something I feel but something that I give, and thus it is my responsibility as a parent to support my child in the best possible way, and that is real giving and thus real love, and thus if I support my child effectively and do what I practically can to ensure that this world is a place that is best for all, I trust that my child will recognize that and would be grateful, because I know I would if the roles were reversed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my child not taking care of me when I grow old.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to control and believe that I must control my child so that they will end up taking care of me when I am older, when the reality is that if I were to support my child to develop in the best possible way, then they would be in a position to support me if something were to happen when I am old where I cannot take care of myself and they would see the value in it because I have shown them that I was willing to do the same, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the reason I would not be taken care of when I am old, whether I have children or not, is because we have accepted and allowed and continued to accept and allow our world to be run by a system that is not best and thus creates consequences where those who cannot take care of themselves are left to suffer unless they can enslave another through money or guilt to take care of them, and thus I see that I must do whatever I practically can to ensure that this world system is changed so that all are taken care of according to what they need.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is a valid excuse to not support my child to be the best in the best possible context (what is best for all) because that was not done for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that as a parent I am the creator of the future of this world depending on my starting point as to how I support my children and what I do to change the system which would either create or alleviate survival pressures which would influence how children are raised and developed.

Preventing Dysfunction in Children through Effective Parenting part 2

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my child will not come to understand things on their own, generally speaking, because they are not born into this world with an ability to speak or think, that is something they learn from their parents and/or those in their environment from a young age.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is not my responsibility as a parent to explain and show to my child how reality works.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I do not know how reality works that I cannot support my child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my education as a child was not effective and did not prepare me to support a child of my own effectively and thus I must rebuild my understanding of reality, and this will take time, at least 7 years, because that is how long it took for me to build an understanding (albeit ineffectively) of reality as child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that parenting is less about 'how' and more about 'who' meaning that as a parent, I cannot impose something on my child that I am not, because they will learn from who I am more than they will learn from what I say that is in contradiction with who I am and how I behave and what I say in the moments where I am speaking and acting automatically.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that unless I rebuild my vocabulary from the ground up, I will influence my child with bias, incorrect definitions of words, and behavioral patterns that are not best, and thus if I am seeing behavioral patterns in my child that are not best, I must first check to see where I have accepted and allowed such a pattern within and address that before I will be able to effectively direct my child, and if I do not have children yet, then this is something I must do BEFORE I have children in order to prevent consequences that are much more difficult to change AFTER THE FACT.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I see behavior in my children that I cannot understand where it is coming from, I now understand that it is either coming from, my influence directly (in other words, something I said or did), from my DNA/memories (something that is within me or past generations that I transferred genetically), from another person in their environment, from an external influence like TV or the internet or an advertisement, or from the environment itself from the perspective of the system we live in creating stress for example in the body of the mother which would create stress/survival patterns in the developing fetus, or from an expectation that is being placed on them to behave within which they do not understand clearly what is expected, why they should act in a certain way, and/or do not have the vocabulary yet to either understand or express themselves in the expected way. In other words, the child comes into this world innocent and is influenced in many different ways to become the child I am now seeing that is behaving in a certain way, and thus it is not the child as who they are that is the issue, it is the influences, and thus I must stop in those moments when I get frustrated at their behavior and really look to see where is the influence that is creating this behavior.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to punish and control my child's behavior as a quick fix instead of doing the investigation necessary to really understand where the behavior is coming from.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/expect my child to just do what I tell them to rather than take the time and effort to explain things in as much detail as possible so the child understands clearly what I am saying and has as much context as possible to really process what I am asking them to do or not do and why it is best or not best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a parent to believe that I just have to get my child to survive long enough to leave the house and then they will be ok, when in reality it is the first 7 years and the influences and information that is programmed into the child that will determine what happens to them, what position they achieve in the system, and their emotional stability.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that children are programmable, and that just because I don't understand all the influences and how they have created my child as they are, that does not mean that a child is not programmed, it just means I don't see all the details, so it just looks like a child is born and then magically becomes who they are, but that is not how it works, and that is not how it worked for me, I was influenced to become the person I am today.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am the product of my parents and my environment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I do not investigate all the points where I act within self interest, then I am going to destroy my child's innocence and cause them to become someone I hate, even though I will make myself feel love towards them, it will always be an experience of swinging back and forth between the 2 extremes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that my responsibility as a parent is to develop my child to express themselves as Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have defined Life as survival, and thus I must begin the process of questioning the value of living only to survive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is nothing more than survival in this world other than experiencing temporary happiness, but when I am honest with myself I realize that I spend the vast majority of my life trying to survive and only fleeting moments of experiencing happy feelings, and thus what is the point of that?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that as a parent, I have the opportunity to influence another being in a way that would make the world a better place for all, and thus I have a great responsibility to change myself to be able to support another person from the very beginning, or to correct the points where I didn't direct things effectively from the beginning, and that this is the real purpose of being a parent, not just to get my child to survive until adulthood.

to be continued...

Preventing Dysfunction in Children through Effective Parenting part 1

See this Facebook post: Communicating with a 2 year old in the toy aisle and this Facebook post: communicating with a 2 year old before shopping for context.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, as a parent, fear my child throwing a tantrum in a store to beg me to buy something.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that, as a parent, my child is influenced by many things, especially if I am not specific with what I expose my child to, and thus when I take them to a store, depending on the type of store, the store is set up to activate desires within the child based on imagery and adverts that the child has seen previously or based on memories that I transferred to my child through DNA.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the many times I have thrown a tantrum for not getting my way, both outwardly and inwardly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that unless I prepare my child with an effective vocabulary from a young age, which means that I must prepare my own vocabulary to be effective, then I will not be able to communicate with my child what the expectations are when going into a store.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I prepare my child effectively before going to a store, then the chances of my child throwing a tantrum to get me to buy something are reduced considerably.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that a child doesn't just 'throw a tantrum' meaning that it is not just an isolated incident, it is a behavior based on the totality of who the child is, what they know, what influences have been imprinted in them, and the totality of how I have interacted with them, and the environment they have grown up in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize all of the times that I have been impatient within my interactions with my child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be concerned with what other people will think of me as a parent and a person if my child cries, or begs, or whines, or throws a fit or tantrum.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that every time I react or change my decision based on my child crying, begging, whining, etc it shows that I can be manipulated.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that every time I yell at or hit my child out of a reaction, it teaches them that I cannot be trusted and that they should fear me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel angry towards my child when they cry, hit, whine, beg, scream, whimper, or throw a fit or tantrum.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty about making mistakes with my children.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty about not being the best example of a living being for my children.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have participated in wanting to buy something out of the energy I would get from possessing it, owning it, playing with it, showing it off, or from the image I want to fulfill of having it in my life and experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to punish my child for something that exists within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that punishment itself is not the solution to supporting a child to develop as an effective human being, as it only creates fear of punishment, and therefore no real expression or living as creativity can exist when their is fear, and it will only create a dysfunctional character who tries to control themselves and others to prevent the experience of being punished.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that punishment is the only real solution to behavioral dysfunction in a child, that I would not consider to support them to develop their vocabulary, because I did not realize that vocabulary is the means through which they will understand the true consequences for their actions, and understand how reality works so that they can make decisions for themselves rather than having to be controlled by me as the parent, because I won't always be there, and I realize that if I instill fear of punishment and authority in my child, they will always be susceptible to control by others who present themselves as authorities even when they really aren't.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge parents who hit their children or yell at them as a form of punishment or behavioral control.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear hitting my child out of anger automatically and then regretting it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the experience of regretting hitting my child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my child hating me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to give my child the best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to other parents and feel bad about not being able to give my child what they give to theirs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the money system creates inequality in parenting.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize my responsibility towards supporting myself and others to be the best parents possible within the context of the limitations of this system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize my responsibility towards myself, Life, others, all children, to stand up and change the money system so that all are supported equally as what is best for all.

I commit myself to stand and support other parents and show that the best way to support a child to develop effectively in the best way is to develop for myself and my spouse an effective vocabulary and equal and one agreement of support in standing as what is best for all and to support my children to develop an effective vocabulary and equal and one agreement with themselves to always place what is best for all as the starting point of one's life.

Parental Fears

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being a parent.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being responsible for the creation of another human being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I will become my parents.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I will do the same to my children that my parents did to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my children not being stable and able to direct themselves in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that this world will corrupt my children.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my children hating me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear loving my children.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear becoming attached to my children, and within that fearing that they will be hurt or die and that I will experience the pain of loss.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my children.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my children dying.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my children developing a high fever and getting brain damage.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to prevent pain for my children.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the experience of watching my children suffer and feeling the pain within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear loving one child more than another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my children hating each other.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my children becoming spoiled rotten.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my children becoming just like me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear destroying my children's innocence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my children losing their innocence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being able to protect my children.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that by holding onto fear and accepting fear that I can protect my children from all harm.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying and not being here for my children.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that my children will get into a car accident and be injured or disfigured.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my children becoming fat and ugly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my children being too skinny.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear one of my children harming the other.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my children being beautiful.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making a mistake in front of my children.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my children surpassing me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my children being autistic.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my children being uneducated.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my children being emotionally unstable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my children being handicapped.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my children developing an uncurable disease.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being unified with my wife and not being able to raise my children effectively.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my children growing up and not being able to survive and earn a living in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my children not knowing how to navigate in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being a failure as a parent.

I commit myself to release all fears that I have as a parent, and otherwise, and to walk through all fear, to walk through all resistance to standing up for what is best, to supporting my children with the best possible education to become human beings that recognize and honor the equality of life in all and are able to walk effectively in this world and this system, to be a part of the change of the system, if necessary, for it to become best for all, and to support creation of the solutions to education and parenting so that all parents can prepare their children to be as effective and stable as possible in this world.

Stability

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go out looking for an argument or to create a conflict in order to prove that I am right or superior.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I seek out conflict in order to experience the energy within someone arguing with me and either feeling afraid or less than, which is an energy experience, which I then use to go back and argue again in order to win, or I experience the winning energy of superiority and righteousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have an addiction to the energy experience of feeling right or feeling like I have won or that someone thinks or believes that I am right or better than them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have a low self-esteem within this I attempt to 'make myself feel better' by creating conflicts where I can prove my superiority, but within this all that I am doing is feeding a constructs desire for energy that exists as a character in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to seek out and participate in conflicts and arguments in order get the experience of being right or winning because I think/feel that I need to prove to myself that I am strong and can win.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that as a young child, my life was quite unstable, and thus I have developed a personality and character that uses intellect, knowledge, and argument in order to have a sense of control over myself, my environment, and others to give myself the feeling of stability that I believe I lack.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that stability does not come from winning an argument with another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the only thing I am keeping 'stable' so to speak is the existence of a character/personality/construct that seeks out conflict and argument in order to try and win.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that stability is here as my physical body, breathing, and it is within physical structures, not energy, and thus I can establish myself in a moment as stable, here, by breathing and letting go of the energy experience and desire for energy experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it is by me and others participating in the mind in the pursuit of energy and ignoring what we are doing to physical reality in terms of how we are allowing it/creating it to be structured that is allowing/creating instability within the experiences/lives of so many beings on this planet, and I have placed my focus on trying to win in order to get a sense or feeling of stability instead being stable, breathing, looking at what is not best in my environment as structure that is creating instability in the world that is creating, for example, situations where parents are not able to give their children what they really require, as was the case with my childhood, and thus created the feeling and construct of seeking 'stability' as a feeling within me as a child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word 'stability' within the context of the mind/consciousness/energy within only a feeling that I personally have defined as the ability to win arguments through the use of my intellect and knowledge.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word stability within the context of feeling, as stability is the ability to maintain a feeling within myself of power, excitement, security, comfort.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that stability for it to be best for all, must create an OUTCOME for all that is best equally and within this I see that the word stability can be redefined to a structure that always produces what is best at all times with no whim or chance or bias, where for example a stable money system would be one that ensures that each child, adult, animal, plant, etc always receives what they required in order to exist in their specific form in the optimal way, in the way that supports them contributing to the balance of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that stability comes from who I am as the decision to apply myself within the tools of writing, self forgiveness, and self corrective application in order to change myself to remove that which is not best as who I am as what I have defined as my nature and to thus do the same without in the system to remove those elements that are creating instability in the lives of so many to recreate the system in the image and likeness of true stability which is directing resources, activity, etc to all parts equally according to what they require to exist in the best way at all times.

I commit myself to SHOW that stability is not something that one feels, it is something that one IS through being here, breathing, directing oneself within what is best for all, which in the current context of our system, is walking one's process consistently day by day, to eventually stand clearly in every moment - I realize that in moments I may fall as I walk through the layers of energy characters in my mind-physical, however within this context, stability would be the decision to always get back up, and to not dwell on the failure, but to forgive myself and to stand up and continue applying myself and to look at that which cause the fall, to remove that which is not best and then within that to continue walking in this world, supporting myself, others and standing up within the world in order to bring forth an equal money system to create the stability within money that will allow all to walk their process in stable, consistent manner, and to move the world towards the realization of the equality of Life and thus the establishment of ALL the necessary systems to create stable environment for Life to express itself fully at all times without limitation or fear..

I Had a Dream

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being trapped in something that I don't want to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define what I want to do based on my feelings and emotions instead of common sense as what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and participate in the character of feeling trapped within something, like for example school.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dream about being at school and facing the consequence of not having prepared effectively for a test and only realizing it at the last minute.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that this dream of being caught not being prepared is a character in which I am allowing within myself in order to not be prepared at death to face death fully without fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the dream of not being prepared for a final exam is the reflection of the fear of not being prepared at death.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I can study myself, disciplined, diligently, and prepare myself to face death fully and within that I realize that the character of being afraid of not being prepared does not serve me as what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dream about being trapped in a school or a job that I don't want, and feel no purpose within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to to dream about being trapped repeatedly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel relieved upon waking up from a dream where I was imagining being trapped and becoming aware that it was just a dream, when in fact am still allowing myself to be/become trapped within my mind on a moment to moment basis, and thus the feeling of relief does not serve me, nor does the dream, because neither are a practical solution.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear failing in life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear consequence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dream about failure.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a failure at some level, that I will ultimately, in the end, fail.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the dream of being trapped and the desire to escape is a game, when in reality, I am here and the trap is within participating in cycles of thoughts, feelings, emotions, and allowing myself to live as a character only pursuing self-interest, and thus the game of feeling trapped in a dream or even in real life, is still limited to the context of my self-interest as how I FEEL about myself in my experience and not looking at reality as what is not best and directing it to be best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the dream of being trapped shows that I am still accepting and allowing myself at a certain level, to believe that I am a victim of experience, of outside forces, not yet fully seeing/realizing/understanding that I create what is here, and within that, there is nothing to fear here, because I am able to stop and remove that which is not best within me and stand and direct and support the creation of what is best for all.

I commit myself to show that there is no reason to be afraid of the consequences that are here on this earth, and that because I see them, and because I am aware that I can change, I am responsible to stand up and direct things so that they are best for all, and within that to support others to see and to stand up and do the same.

I commit myself to support myself to realize fully, that I am here and I am not trapped and that I am able to stop living as my mind as the pursuit of happiness and within the focus of my own experience only, and I am able to stand within considering what is best for all and to direct what is in my awareness to be best, whether that means creating a new system or in a moment supporting myself to identify and correct a pattern that is not best within myself or another.

Fear and Anxiety within Facing Another as My Past

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value on the experience of anxiety.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I feel anxiety that it necessarily implies that I am doing something that is not best, to which the anxiety is feedback, rather than the anxiety being a pattern that I have not taken responsibility for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that anxiety is a pattern.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to feel anxious.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that anxiety is just a part of who I am and that I will always have it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that anxiety is fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be afraid.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that fear is justified.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the worst within doing something I haven't done before.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold on to the experience of doom within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that feeling doom and gloom from time to time is just a part of being alive, when in fact it is a pattern that has not been directed within myself and for which I have not taken full self responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that when I experience a feeling of doom, anxiety, or fear, that I am in fact participating in a character which wants things to go poorly or in a way that would create drama or something to be fearful about, instead of being here and directing what is required so that the system that distributes resources on this planet is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the fear I experience within me is the fear that all experience and is a product of our system that we have accepted that requires us to live in fear of not surviving so that we will go to work and produce things that only benefit a few and never question it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear another person not seeing who I really am, and within to fear that my current acceptances and allowances as being in fear will be the only thing another person sees in me, and not the point within myself which is stepping forth, which is growing, which is the REAL ME.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing that part of me that is REAL that wants what is best and that I am not enough to make this world a better place.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as afraid, to accept fear as who I am, as part of my being, not realizing that this was something that was added, so to speak, that I have accepted, it is not really who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear standing face to face with someone and not knowing what to say.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear experiencing the consequence of emotions and thoughts and feelings that I have built up regarding another person and to fear that I will lose myself in facing that person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not able to just breathe and let go of all that which I believe stands between me and another person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project fear onto another person that they will not be willing to let go of the past of what they believe I have done to harm them, when in reality, it is only me that requires to forgive myself, as any point within me that holds the other person within limitation means that I am the problem, and thus I can only solve that which I am responsible for, so I stop within myself, I stop the blame, I stop the fear, I stop the desire to be right, for the other person to be wrong, for the other person to forgive me, for the other person to realize that I am a good person or that I am doing what is best, when all that matters is that I forgive myself and within that I know that I can stand and face anyone and support them to look at themselves so that we can remove all fear between us and eventually in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in an idea about another person and their ability or willingness to change, and to thus try to create a personality or character to suit the idea I have of that person, instead of just forgiving myself and expressing myself and not focusing on trying to control the outcome of what the other person does or chooses, and to within that not limit myself in my expression with the other person, to use the resistance to push myself beyond my perceived limits of self expression.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that everything that is not best in this world comes down to fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear death.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing death and having to let go of the relationships that I have created on earth in this life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my children.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my wife.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my friends.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have enemies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the moment of never seeing my family again.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the special feeling that I have for my family is because we have a world that is not best for all, and as much as it seems like I should have a right to that special feeling, I know that it is actually just a fear of everyone who is not my family, and thus that special feeling makes me feel that at least there is someone I can love or trust, but that feeling comes with the fear of loss, and thus is not the solution to fearing everyone - the only solution is to create a world that is best for all where no fear exists, no reason to fear exists, to fear is valid or justifiable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to not realize that we live in a system that is not equal and thus it is limited and thus I do not have to judge myself for taking responsibility primarily for the survival of myself and my family, but that does not justify ONLY taking responsibility for that, thus I must push myself to take MORE responsibility, because the FEAR that I experience of losing my family - which is inevitable at death - is only existing because of the inequality in the system, and thus because I SEE that the system can change, I have the responsibility to do something about it and to call on all others to stand with me and work together to create a system where no one has to put their own family above another and to feel like they can only really love their family and no one else.

I commit myself to never give up on creating a world that is best for all.

I commit myself to face all resistance head on - to first forgive myself, and then to place myself practically in the physical position to walk through my fear and resistance.

I commit myself to support my children to realize and understand and see that Life is equal in all, that we have different levels of responsibility depending on our environment and the system that exists, and that the purpose of being here within the context of a system of inequality is to recreate it so that it is best for all.

The Excuse Within Expectation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, that as a being, nothing can actually hurt me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that another's words cannot actually hurt me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear experiencing fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the extent to which I am controlled within what I do or don't do based on the experience of fear or the fear of experiencing fear within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe there is anything that another can do that I cannot do, when in reality the other is actually me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value on the energetic experience of feeling bad and feeling good and feeling neutral.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel pressure around my eyes, in my chest, in my stomach and to then accept this pressure as feeling as something that directs me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to face how weak I have allowed myself to be within allowing myself to be directed by an energy experience within me, not realizing that who I really am is the principle which makes even the energy experience possible, so how can an energy experience really affect me if I do not accept it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself and become angry within myself for accepting and allowing myself to be directed by emotions and feelings, when in fact doing so is still accepting and allowing myself to be directed by such.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in feeling frustrated when things to do move as quickly as I want them to, when this happens because I have created an expectation within myself that something should happen and imbued this expectation with energy and I haven't really done my due diligence to see what is actually required and what it will take for what I would like to happen to in fact happen.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from that which I want to happen and thus not allow myself to really see clearly what is required to make it happen.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the energy of despondence when something doesn't happen as quickly as I would like.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in expectation of others and myself, instead of focusing on that which is required to be done that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use feeling frustrated as an excuse to participate in the mind as feelings and emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to second guess my actions based on feeling bad, without first checking where the 'negative' feeling is coming from within me and to instead base my assessment of my actions on common sense and measuring the physical result.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in anger instead of breathing and being here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in feeling afraid instead of being here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to control others in order to suppress my fear and anger, instead of breathing, and bringing the energy back to myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that things need to move quickly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is a pressure for me to get something done, when that is a feeling that my body is generating based on how I have accepted and allowed it to be programmed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am able to direct myself and others as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word patience and not realize that patience is simply letting go of expectation and supporting/directing what is required in the moment in a way that is best for all.

I commit myself to when the feeling of frustration about how things are moving comes up within me, to breathe, to let it go, to realize that this is a program and to once I am stable within breathing, look at what points I am not taking self-responsibility for that require direction.

I commit myself to push beyond all excuses to participate in the mind and learn what it means to live here physically without desire, without want, without feelings that direct me, but to direct myself as what is best.

I commit myself to never give up on myself, to stand up no matter how many times I fall into the mind, into energy, to get back up more quickly, to eventually never fall and remain here, stable, and support/direct the creation of a system that is best for all life, so that eventually every child born will not have to go through what I have had to go through, and instead can live Life fully without any fear.

How Do I Measure My Inner Change?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base my measurement of my inner change on how I feel day to day or moment to moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I feel good, then I am changing for the better, and if I feel bad, then I am not changing for the better, when in fact participating in feelings, per se, is not a valid measurement of self-change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wake up in the morning and assess how I feel and within that participate in thoughts of how the day will go based on how I feel upon waking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that, while it is not best to suppress my feelings and emotions, using them to determine whether I have changed for the better is not the best way to measure inner change, because feelings run on cycles and are based on acceptance of the mind as energy seeking device as the self-directive principle instead of myself here directing myself as what is best within common sense.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base my assessment of my interaction with another person on how I feel.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base my assessment as to whether I am supporting another person or myself based on whether I and/or the other person feels good or bad.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear speaking the truth to myself or another because this might cause me or the other person to feel bad, however if we do not face the negative feelings and only continue to suppress them, then how will we ever come to terms with reality as what it currently exists as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to hide from others and not face their wrath, just as I have wanted to hide from myself, from my mind, and not face the negative feelings that my mind will put me through when I challenge its authority as directive principle.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that even if I go too far with another person in terms of challenging their acceptances and allowances and they feel bad, they are ultimately responsible for themselves, and ultimately I know that I would and do forgive others who challenge me and say things that trigger negative emotions, and I know that I am willing to place myself in situations where I must face my negative emotions, and thus if someone is in my presence and I see that they are accepting something less than who they are, I must be willing to challenge it, in myself and in them, and face the negative feelings that come up within me towards another person either rejecting me, which is not really rejecting me, just rejecting self-honesty within letting go of their feelings and emotions as their directive principle.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for stepping out of character, for pushing myself beyond my comfort zone, within facing the negative thoughts, feelings, and emotions, as well as the positive ones, that exist in this world, as I realize that there is not real positivity in fact, just everyone covering up the negative with a positive veneer, and the only way for us to create a better world is to face this negativity, because we are using it to destroy ourselves and this earth and the Life that have been freely given.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being someone that others dislike.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be liked rather than focus on the real physical effect of my being here on this earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my potential to move past all limitations within myself and to support others to do the same.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want others to judge me and my process, when the only one who can know who I really am within is me, and yet it must show externally in what I do and the effect of my being here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear standing in the open and allowing others to see my current flaws, and yet within that give myself the opportunity to push beyond, to correct that within me which is not best, not looking for validation from others but looking for the physical change in reality where we are placing more and more focus on solving real problems, the primary one being the Money system, and in order to make a change in that, we must change how we are educating children.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for my past mistakes, and within that use them as an excuse to stay within my comfort zone, which is the zone where my mind reigns supreme and only my feelings matter.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place ANY VALUE on how another feels or how I feel, when the reality is that this is a complete distraction, because all feelings are coming from a system that is not best for all where all do not receive equally - and the more I allow my and others feelings to have validity and direction over what I say and do (which does not mean that I cannot consider where a person is at in order to direct them effectively, same as with myself), the less effect I will have in reality as what is best because we will never be able to change the money system to one of equality if people are placing their feelings as more important than common sense - if whether someone eats is based on the same type of up and down as feelings, then this world will always be a mess and this will only cause more suffering, thus I am willing to stop and to challenge my feelings, and that may mean at times challenging others to push myself beyond where I feel comfortable, but at the end of the day, every pattern I see in another is within me.

I commit myself to investigate all patterns in others towards which I react using writing, self forgiveness, and self correction to remove the pattern from within me, and then I am able to support another to remove the pattern within them, even if just by my example, my sharing of my process, or by being in their face and reflecting back what they are accepting and allowing.

I commit myself to push myself beyond where I FEEL that I want to go, to not use my feelings as the measurement of my effect in this world, but to instead measure my effect by: am I sharing more? Am I making more videos? am I writing SF consistently? Am I seeing more of others begin their process or push themselves within their process? Am I holding back or suppressing my expression in order to not feel something or am I doing what makes sense to me in the moment? Am I THINKING or am I expressing? Am I forgiving myself or am I justifying myself? Am I feeling or am I living and acting and expressing? Are MORE people walking this process in my environment? Am I taking on MORE responsibility or less? I will only accept MORE from myself as what is best.

Did You Hurt My Feelings?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is possible to have my feelings hurt, when feelings are not living beings, they are energy patterns that run within myself with my permission and participation over time until they have become automated and within which I have defined myself AS these feelings, and thus when I or someone says that their feelings are hurt, it shows the extent to which we have defined ourselves as our feelings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that participating in feelings is abuse to my physical body, because the physical body must be mined for energy, the energy doesn't come from nowhere, and it is abuse to everyone/everything else because I will do anything in order to get those feelings generated, and thus the money system is a reflection of my inner system, where the money system will do anything as long as money flows.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when someone or myself feels like their/my feelings are hurt, they/I are/am actually just attempting to manipulate another in order to continue participating in the energy game.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when my feelings are hurt, all that is happening is that I am experiencing feelings/energy that I have defined as negative, and this is fundamentally no different than experiencing positive feelings, as they are both only fuel for the mind and abusive to the physical by nature.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself blame another when I perceive my feelings or someone else's feelings have been hurt, which is to say that another person has done or said something which caused another person to have a negative feeling, but is this really the case or am I defending a person's right to feel good regardless of what they are participating within?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that I am being mocked when someone says something that triggers a negative feeling within me or thoughts within me that are negative according to how I have defined negative, when the reality is that if I did not exist as thoughts, feelings, and emotions, there would be nothing to trigger - if I had specified my vocabulary effectively, I would not be triggered by words, and if they person is doing something that has an effect that is physically not best for all, then I must first forgive myself for any feeling/thought/emotional reaction before I am able to see clearly that there is something that is not best for all within the other person's actions/words, otherwise it is quite possible that I am actually just reacting to an energy experience within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear triggering negative emotions in others, when in reality these are things they should face, as they are affecting everyone including me and them in a way that is not best, because the person is not living here as what is best for all, but rather living as the mind and thus not standing as what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist looking within myself when I feel justified within triggering another person to make sure that I am not placing responsibility outside of myself for the pattern that the other person is participating in which I am calling out, or mocking, or bringing to their attention.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word 'mock' as a negative word and associated with negative feelings, instead of understanding the word and living it in the best way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define 'mocking' as physically harming another person, and within that not want to accept it as a possible way to express myself, which is limiting me within saying what is required for another person to see what they are participating within, and within this it does not justify automatically mocking anyone at any/all times, however if I judge the act of mocking, then I am limiting myself, because it may be an effective expression to support either myself (by being mocked) or another (by mocking them) to see that they are accepting and allowing less than who they really are.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in mocking another in order to generate energy within myself to feel powerful at another's expense.

I commit myself to accept the expression of mocking and derision within myself towards patterns that are less than what is best and to stop the expression of mocking as attempting to gain energy within myself.

I commit myself to be aware when I am participating in a mocking expression of a pattern whether I am mocking a pattern that I have walked through and forgiven or whether I am mocking a pattern that is still existent within me, and thus would represent a projection of self-responsibility outside of myself for the pattern.

I commit myself to learn how to use what would typically be called negative expressions for the best benefit of myself and all in order to face the patterns that are existent in this world that must be changed to produce a world that considers all equally.

I commit myself to investigate all 'forbidden expressions' that would potentially support myself and others to wake up to what we are accepting and allowing, and to push myself to not have any limits within how I express myself.

I commit myself to push myself to remove all those reactions that would limit me in my expression in which I place value on how others perceive me or through which I judge myself, so that I may stand clearly and be able to support myself and others to let go of all that which is standing in the way of us creating a world that is best for all.

Male Ego

For context listen to the song Male Ego by the Beach Boys.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that, as a male, I have defined being male as the experience of power over another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as a male, to abuse this body as what is actually alive, in order to create the experience of power within myself in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed with images from media and the examples of other males in my environment, such as images like Jason Bourne, James Bond, Tom Cruise, Hugh Hefner, etc where the male is powerful, able to do superhuman feats and have lots of women whenever he wants, and within that to believe that this is my purpose as a male, to be/become/live out these images as myself in my own experience, and to not realize that by participating in these images and the energy experience I have imbued them with a life of their own, so to speak, and now these images and energies run rampant within me controlling my behavior, thoughts, words, and I realize that I will never be alive truly if I have not removed these images from within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as a male, to believe that I do not know how to remove these images, and that if I were to do so, that I would be nothing, have no reason to live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as a male, to believe that I am nothing if I do not have the opportunity of the embrace of a woman.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as a male, to see Life as a game of chasing women.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a male to not realize that everything I do, virtually, is an attempt to attract a woman, whether it be how I dress, how I talk, what I do for work, the value that I place on material possessions, the fame, the wealth, all of it boils down to the desire to have a woman or multiple women in my possession.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that just as I have accepted an image of the ideal man, to which I try to live up to, I have accepted images of the perfect female and never REALLY questioned their validity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the image of the perfect, beautiful, sexy female that I have accepted was given to me by the media and those who went before me, and has not practical relevance to being here in reality within the context of a world that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the standards of beauty that come from media and advertising, realizing that it is not about rejecting them completely, but about questioning and removing the energy association with them, and thus not being controlled by these images.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that what I have defined as beautiful and sexy within a woman has nothing to do with the woman per se but with the energy experience that comes up within me within the idea of possessing that woman, meaning having her be mine exclusively, which would represent to me the ultimate experience of power as being the best at surviving.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that, as a male, I have associated possessing a woman with survival, and within a system that requires us to compete to survive, sexual imagery has been used to manipulate myself and other males in the game of competition to buy products.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as a male, to not realize that females are beings equal to me, that I have only really ever viewed them from the perspective of what I can gain as an experience within myself by having the female in my presence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a male to not realize that I have accepted and allowed myself to become the slave of the mind - which is to say that I have defined my sole purpose in life as to gain energy experiences, not realizing that all I am doing is powering the existence of a system that requires energy to exist, and thus I am its slave by my own choice, and within that because the mind sees survival as the primary purpose of existence, because it cannot exist on its own, it requires me to pass it on and copy it, because it realizes that it sucks energy out of the physical body to exist, and thus it knows that the body will eventually die, and so the only way for it to exist infinitely is for me to pass on my mind in the form of my genetics to my offspring, and thus my mind uses the association with sexual imagery linked to the experience of sex to direct me to find women with whom I can pass on my genes, and as explained in Heaven's Journey to Life, all of my memories and characters as my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that as a male, the reason I want to possess a female is that it ensures a relatively secure way to pass on my mind to another copy of myself as a child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that all the desires for power and possession that come with the 'male ego' are really just ways that my mind manipulates me through my own acceptance and allowance so that it can survive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame society, culture, advertising, my ancestors for manipulating my mind with sexual imagery when it would have no effect if I had no desire to experience the energy of power, domination, possession, and winning.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a male to want to possess the most beautiful woman imaginable so that can be the greatest winner in this system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there is not such thing as a beautiful woman, because it only exists in my mind - what in fact exists is bodies made of flesh and bone that are in different shapes and the value that I place on the different shapes which I associate with a feeling of winning are only relevant in the game of competition for survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the desire for a beautiful woman is simply the evolution of the mind and it just a game with no practical value in terms of creating a world where I am able to live in complete expression, because as long as that game exists, there is no life, only the game, and in that game there can only be a few winners and mostly losers, and why would I want to play that game, because in fact I can never win, because to play the game, the cost is Life, the physical reality, look around at the world - it is fucked, because as males we are only looking for what we can fuck next, and so we end up fucking everyone over, animals, plants, Life itself - all so the mind can continue existing, which it can't because eventually there will be no Life left to destroy for energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that power is an experience, and is of no real value, because it only exists when I destroy something of real value - it only exists in the context of being more than something or someone else, and therefore will always lead to destruction and my own demise.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as a male, to not place value on what really matters, which is to create a world that is best for all, to utilize my male attributes of strength to support males and females alike to redesign the system in the image and likeness of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge females as weak and cowardly when the reality is that men are in fact by nature predatory because we have only ever cared about getting an energy experience, and that expresses itself in some very extreme ways in some men such as rape, murder, war, winning at all costs, but even if a man becomes meek and mild, it won't change a damn thing, because the system has not changed, and as long as there is a reason to fear for survival in any way, the mind has a way to generate fear - and thus the way to stop all fear - to really put an end to male domination and female weakness is for those who understand and see this point, to stand up, stop the games within us, and work together to change this system so that all may be supported to eventually transcend all fear of survival and thus the mind will have no soil to take root and thus life itself can take root and grow.

I commit myself to stand as an example of being a male within equality and oneness with females as support, and equal co-creation, to show other males that are willing to hear and see that we can stand together and end the battle of the sexes so that we can create that which we really desire which is a world where we can express ourselves fully without fear without shame, without desire to control or possess another, but to really be here and enjoy this physical existence.

I commit myself to through writing, self forgiveness, and self correction to identify and remove all those images and associated energies which cause me to act in automated ways to look for and fantasize about females, to look for things to possess to attract females from the perspective of being able to possess them.

I commit myself to move beyond being merely a male in this system to being a Man who is here to bring forth the new system of equality and oneness, to not judge my strength as a Man, but to utilize it for its best purpose and to encourage and support Women to stand fully in their strengths as Women, to not judge them or to demand that they submit themselves or hold back, and to show them that they can stand vulnerable within caring and within femininity that provides balance to the masculine forcefulness which at times is required to move into a new direction, but once that new direction occurs then we must ensure that it is being directed in a way that ALL benefit equally and this is one of the strengths of women is to ensure that what the Male brings forth is used and distributed equally according to what is best.

I commit myself to show and explain that just because a being is in a male body or a female body, that this in itself does not mean that a being should be limited in how they express themselves, however male and female bodies are different by design and thus I commit myself to show to Men how they can step into their full potential as male bodies and thus give Women the space and time to do the same.

Do You Realize Your Potential?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see my real potential.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist and reject my real potential.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to hold onto my potential AS potential and not realize it, as an excuse for not walking the discipline of self-change required to realize my potential as ACTUALITY.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not perform a self honest self assessment as to what my real potential, as life, as supporting the creation of a world that is best for all, and instead have defined potential within myself in comparison with others as to image, ability to make money, recognition from others as fame and pats on the back, and not consider that they only person I have to answer to is myself, within my own self honesty as to whether I am moving through resistance and changing myself or letting go of that which prevents me from speaking up, creating a world that is best, and DOING that which is best in each moment.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to succumb to the temptation of excuse, where I believe that I can excuse myself from having to do what is currently uncomfortable, what my mind considers boring, of no consequence or purpose, not exhilarating, or giving me a good feeling.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others whom I see are not living their full potential.

I forgive myself that I have judged myself for not living my full potential.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear standing up and having the spotlight on me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I change, the spotlight will be on me, because everyone fears change and I would represent what others fear, but I would also represent what others really want for themselves, and thus they would potentially be jealous, at least initially, but that is a point for them to face, as they will see that their jealousy and spite towards me will not change my standing up, and thus I would show them that it is ok to live as one's potential.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be jealous of others whom I perceive as living their potential to some degree, separating myself from them, and separating myself from the potential within myself and not giving myself the opportunity to step into, and walk into, my potential as Life, as expression and expansion, and doing what is best even in a limited context.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must impress anyone but myself, and within that the only thing that is worth considering as impressive is whether I stand up more and more each day, each moment, to speak up and share about what is best and to do what is best, and to support in the creation of a system that is best for all in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the excuse that others are not living their potential, whom I previously looked up to, as a way to excuse myself from standing up and being the example for them temporarily until all are walking this point, as equals and as one, within walking the process of expanding into each one's true potential as living what is best for all in all ways at all times.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to WANT to make an excuse to not realize my potential as activating it, living it, doing it and instead have feared what might happen, when the reality is, what WILL happen if I don't is that I will END and lose this ONE OPPORTUNITY to have BECOME MY REAL POTENTIAL AS LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that although I may see the potential in myself or another, it is up to the individual to live as that potential in reality, and the only thing I can do is SPEAK the truth in self honesty, and LIVE as what is best for all, which may be at times standing in the face of another and showing them their bullshit and showing them the path to self forgiveness and will also be in EVERY MOMENT standing in the mirror of reality seeing my reflection in everything as what is the truth of my inner world and thus every excuse I make will eventually become reflected and thus no amount of judgment will ever change anything, no amount of anger will ever change anything, no amount of frustration or begging or crying or yelling will ever change unless we are SELF HONEST and let go of ALL EXCUSES and stand up clearly in this world and support ourselves and each other to realize that WE ARE LIFE and we are currently living as equal to LESS than LIFE and yet we can change, it won't happen completely overnight, but the change in the moment happens in the moment, and the moment by moment changes WILL accumulate to eventually become the FINAL MOMENT of change that is necessary to shed all illusion and live here fully without fear, in total self trust, and ability to give as we would like to receive and thus give and receive life equally as one.

I commit myself to challenge EVERY excuse that comes up within me - every thought - and to dissolve every thought that repeats in my head with self-forgiveness, realizing that if I try to simply ignore my thoughts or suppress them, they will always come back in a more exaggerated form, and thus if I see something that I am continually judging or reacting to, that I MUST write and speak self-forgiveness on the point, I give myself NO CHOICE in this matter as it is the statement and ACTION of living as my full potential in the current context of where I am at in my process, and thus I realize that as I do this, I will express and live as my potential MORE AND MORE and eventually I will be EQUAL TO my full potential as an individual and within that I will support others through my example and through communication, through sharing, to do the same, and thus eventually the WORLD will be EQUAL TO its FULL POTENTIAL as a place that is best in all ways - thus - HEAVEN ON EARTH and HEAVEN AS EARTH Equal and One.

Did Jesus Say to Fear Our Neighbor?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have nothing to say.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak freely in my mind, but be afraid of speaking openly with others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear speaking up about what is best or the problems that I see in this world, because as a child, I was punished for questioning the status quo, I was belittled, I was hit, I was told to shut up.

I forgive myself as my parents for attempting to suppress the expression of a child questioning what the adults are doing, as I realize that they were just trying to survive and support me to survive, and they did not have the awareness as a parent that I have now, and yet they brought me into this world, and now I am here, and thus it is MY responsibility to speak up and stop all abuse on this planet.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is not my place to tell another what they are doing that is not best, and yet I would have no problem telling my child or someone who works for me to change their behavior.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being rejected by others for speaking the truth, when the acceptance that I currently feel is not real, it is only based on conforming to the standards of a system that is not best, and thus I would rather speak the truth, and support others to see through the illusion of this system within and without than be accepted by those who only want to system to continue as is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that as soon as I begin speaking up, I will receive criticism, rejection, slander, vitriol, argument, disagreement, backlash, and even threats, because I am now challenging the pursuit of happiness, which is the greatest lie, and very few at the moment want to be honest about it, yet if I say nothing, knowing what I know, then those who may have been willing to reconsider Life on earth may never get the opportunity because if I am not willing to speak common sense and give the solutions then who will?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is no consequence for not doing what is best when I see what to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify others not standing up and speaking up because I had justified it within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize my real potential to support others to let go of their bullshit and begin walking the journey to life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed others opinions of me to DICTATE what I do or don't do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must prove to others in their minds and convince them of what I am doing and my starting point as to support the creation of what is best - when my actions show and will show my intentions, and although others may misinterpret them, that is based on their starting point, thus although I may use others' feedback in order to check reactions and weakness within myself, the only person that I can answer to at the end of the day is myself within my own self honesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that simply by speaking and writing, and sharing that, I can influence others to stop accepting less than who they are - as this is the way I was influenced and continued to influence myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I allow myself to chase/participate in feelings and emotions then I open myself up to be susceptible to manipulation, but in the end I would have only myself to blame, because that is what I accepted and allowed myself to be and to place value on.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I fear my neighbor in any way, then I am not living the Jesus pattern/message of love my neighbor as myself and give as I want to receive, because this is not possible when there is fear of another or even fear of myself, and thus within that I realize that a lot of fear is due to the survival system that we are all participating in, and thus I am able to push through my fear of others by speaking up, sharing, challenging others and myself when I see something that is not best, but also placing myself in a position to change the system so that it is not requiring us to only focus on survival, because even if I walk my own process of 'not fearing others' I have to be self honest that others will still find it difficult to not fear if they are constantly under the pressures of survival, and furthermore, if the solution to fear is self-forgiveness, which it is, then if someone is focused on survival all the time, they will not have the time or space to focus on self-forgiveness, and thus I realize that the best purpose to give myself for this life, is to stand up and change the system so that all our basic needs are guaranteed, and that this will create the space and time for the majority of humanity to walk their process, and thus I realize that this life that I have been given is a gift for me to give Life to others and that is only possible by stopping the systems of abuse and creating systems that support Life equally for all, and thus I do not expect anyone else to walk this before me, I walk this until it is done, and through that I realize others will be empowered to walk as well.

I commit myself to releasing myself from all the fears within me towards speaking up and sharing my process and speaking up about what is best, regardless of what others say, using the feedback to support me to remove all weakness as what is not supportive of me expressing myself fully as Life as what is best, removing all ego as that which I have allowed to control me and manipulate myself with through the pursuit of energy and feelings.

I commit myself to stand in the face of everyone, including myself, to challenge all points where I am accepting less than what is best, both within myself and within others, to not fear the reactions within myself or others, to walk through the energy, to breathe through it, to look at where I react to either myself or others, to walk through these points and remove them through writing, self-forgiveness, and corrective action.