Cellular Parenting Secrets

As a parent, it is important that we look at our own behavior before we judge the behavior of our child. There is the desire in most parents to not be like their own parents and for their children to be better than them, but we end up becoming exact copies or in some cases simply polar opposites of our parents, no real choice, no real self direction present. How do we prevent this? What are we missing? What is it fundamentally that we, as parents, are not seeing within ourselves, that when we see it in our children, we become frustrated, irritated, fearful, angry, annoyed, judgmental?

Why do we judge our children but not look within ourselves? Is this splinter in our child's eye not jsut the beginning seed of the log that is still in ours? Unless we are self-honest, we will create a resentment within our child of the very sound of our voice. If we seek only to control instead of to educate our child will end up exactly the same as us.

"But I"m not the same as my parents," your inner voice will surely say.

Well, do you look for security in a world of competition where most go without their fundamental basic needs?

Do you put the pursuit of happiness above the goal of changing this world to be best for all?

Do you distract yourself with feelings and emotions?

If so, you can predict the outcome of your child's life: Exactly the same as yours.

How do we as parents, prevent our children from growing up to just be consumers? In a world where automation and AI will be increasingly replacing jobs, and thus where there will be few jobs left for those who are not highly creative and well educated, what will be left for our children to do, but consume the never ending supply of solutions to problems that don't really exist in the form of consumer products and entertainment produced by the robots that are better at completing a task without the unpredictability of emotions slowing down the assembly line?

As parents, we must really question everything about what we believe we are and most importantly WHO we believe we are.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to the pursuit of pleasure.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be manipulated by and to manipulate myself and others through reward systems.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to evolve into a highly sophisticated machine that looks for positive and turns away from negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to participate in and accept and allow the creation of a society that produces a ready supply of rewards in the form of drugs, games, entertainment, pornography, sports, drama, and social media.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that social media does not connect us to each other in order to improve the balance of life and society but in order for us to leverage the group in our pursuit of instant pleasure in the form of rapid dopamine release.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that one of the most significant tools ever created, the cell phone, has been used and allowed to be used to create a jail cell for each of us, where we can get an endless supply of dopamine, so that we never realize that we are dopes sitting in a jail cell of our own design, waiting out our sentence, when life could be something amazing beyond imagination but that would require us to transcend our desire for the quick fix.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use social media, games, TV, movies, porn, drugs, sex, and gossip as a way to get a quick fix, paying no attention to the real problems in this world that REQUIRE attention, only focusing on 'what's in it for me'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress the tremendous guilt that I feel deep down for bringing a child into the world only to submit them to a mental prison of constant stimulation and competition for their attention for them to become nothing more than an addict, sitting in a casino, pulling a lever, the lever which releases the dopamine hit, to keep them looking for more and more and more, and never being here, like a Tree, breathing, living, giving, receiving, only taking, consuming, discarding, and wanting ever more.

I commit myself to investigate all the ways in which I still accept and allow myself to look for a quick fix, a quick hit of dopamine.

I commit myself to support myself physically to stop participating in that which serves no real purpose as what is best, but is only designed to feed my mind with a constant supply of energy to continue being the directive principle - to stand up and direct myself within whatever technology or situation that is required to use it and leverage it in order to bring forth a world that is best for all.

I commit myself to be the example for my children of what means to be a human who not only KNOWS what the problems are that require attention but DOES what is required to be done.

Why Drugs Are Not The Answer

This post is written in the context of having already walked the process of stopping all drugs and alcohol for many years now and also having walked through the desire to take drugs or drink alcohol and is written as a point of support for those who may be walking through this point at the moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that drugs exist for humans to not face the reality of their existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that taking drugs or drinking alcohol is an answer to my problems.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge drugs as evil.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge drugs as good.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like I am getting away with something when using drugs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am escaping something when I use drugs or alcohol.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the starting point of using drugs or alcohol is always to feel better and thus within that I am accepting and allowing myself to have the starting point of self-interest as looking for a positive feeling, and thus this is not a solution to any real problem in my life or on earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that within using drugs, especially cannabis or hallucinogens, I give the mind full authority to fantasize about what I could do in reality, and within that I imagine all kinds of amazing things that I could do or create or experience, but the mind is not tethered to reality in most cases and thus when the drug wears off and the reality of having to actually do something which won't produce an immediate result in the physical, because results accumulate over time through repetition, then I feel bad and the desire to not feel bad and experience that immediate point of creation and result drives me to want to do drugs again, and thus within this I am not really here in reality at all, just playing a game in my mind, while my life and the world continues to go to shit, and so I can either continue trying to avoid reality or I can face it head on.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that by not facing my reality and stopping participation in the mind, I will continue to allow myself to be directed by the mind and thus reality will accumulate consequences as such, and the longer I delay facing these consequences and taking responsibility in the physical, the harder it becomes to face, because I know it will take MORE time to undo what can be undone and create solutions for that which can't - and all of this is going on in the back of my mind, I know what I am doing, but I don't want to stop.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I don't want to stop using drugs and/or alcohol when in reality it is MY MIND that wants me to continue in patterns of abuse of myself and the physical because that is what it has been programmed to do, and thus it is now my responsibility to stand up within my body and within my mind and say "NO MORE. I DIRECT MYSELF. I AM NOT A SLAVE TO MY MIND. I DO NOT NEED TO FEEL GOOD IN ORDER TO DO WHAT IS BEST FOR MYSELF AND FOR ALL."

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I participate in the mind, it will always take me to a point where I am not going to change the system, but expect it to happen on its own - and my mind will give me all kinds of reasons as to how things will change regardless of what I do, and the more I participate the more convincing the mind will be - but this is all just a program designed to keep me from doing anything that really matters.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that people hide in all kinds of things, drugs, alcohol, sex obsession, sports, food, video games, etc - it is not about drugs per se, but the desire to escape and chase a feeling rather than being here working with reality directly and creating a world that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the excuse that people escape in all kinds of ways thus doing drugs isnt any different as a way to justify continuing to use drugs instead realizing the common sense that one should stop participating in ALL FORMS of escapism.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am limiting myself within seeing my real potential as long as I continue to look for a positive feeling - because I will not be able to be self-honest about what limitations I actually have, because I will see even the potential to experience discomfort (which is in many cases necessary to transcend a point or learn a new skill) as a reason not to do something, because I have placed value on feeling good and thus I will only really consider things that make me feel good (which is only according to my pre-programming as how I have defined things symbolically to produce a positive energy response in my body) as options for me to move towards or participate within, which if we only consider such things as points for us to move within, we will never create a world that is best for all, because that will require us to face many difficult, emotionally challenging, uncomfortable situations, resistance, etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that what I have been searching for in the experience of drugs and alcohol is for something more, something that is not where I am, who I am, what I am - and that drugs and alcohol can never actually get me this - because I have defined this more as just a feeling, and feelings are based on energy, and energy is a system of polarity and thus that positive that I am searching for is only in the context of the negative that I am experiencing as my life and this world, and thus the real answer is not within making myself feel better, but within standing up within myself and stopping the mind from being in the driver seat of me and standing up in this world in whatever capacity practically possible to be an example to others that we no longer have to accept the mind as the dictator of how we experience ourselves and how the system that runs resource distribution functions - a system that creates all the negative experiences and survival pressures that we attempt to escape from through drugs and alcohol (and other things) - and thus the REAL SOLUTION is to stand up and change this system and the REAL EXPERIENCE of being alive that I am searching for is actually ME STANDING UP AS LIFE not accepting anything less than who I REALLY AM, because it is this acceptance, deep down, that has created all the conditions, over time, that I and everyone else have been trying to escape from - instead of taking direct responsibility for changing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to challenge the point of others doing drugs as a backdoor for me to be able to do them as well, and the same goes with any point of self-dishonesty that I will not want to challenge it when I see it in another only because I don't want to challenge it within myself.


I commit myself to show that one can move through life without the need for drugs or alcohol to mask the pain of being in this system, as the only pain drugs and alcohol are masking is energetic pain from the mind as emotions, feelings, and thoughts - while I realize that some people may require drugs as a form of physical support for the body due to physical conditions, what we are looking at here is specifically the desire to escape from facing one's mind and reality through the use of drugs to make one feel better in the mind.

I commit myself to show that even if one has experienced a lot of trauma in childhood and challenges as an adult, that one can transcend the belief and desire to use drugs to make oneself feel better.

I commit myself to show that relying on drugs to make oneself feel better will only support the mind to take more directive control over what a person does and make common sense and walking through resistance and stepping into one's full potential impossible.

Stability

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go out looking for an argument or to create a conflict in order to prove that I am right or superior.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I seek out conflict in order to experience the energy within someone arguing with me and either feeling afraid or less than, which is an energy experience, which I then use to go back and argue again in order to win, or I experience the winning energy of superiority and righteousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have an addiction to the energy experience of feeling right or feeling like I have won or that someone thinks or believes that I am right or better than them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have a low self-esteem within this I attempt to 'make myself feel better' by creating conflicts where I can prove my superiority, but within this all that I am doing is feeding a constructs desire for energy that exists as a character in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to seek out and participate in conflicts and arguments in order get the experience of being right or winning because I think/feel that I need to prove to myself that I am strong and can win.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that as a young child, my life was quite unstable, and thus I have developed a personality and character that uses intellect, knowledge, and argument in order to have a sense of control over myself, my environment, and others to give myself the feeling of stability that I believe I lack.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that stability does not come from winning an argument with another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the only thing I am keeping 'stable' so to speak is the existence of a character/personality/construct that seeks out conflict and argument in order to try and win.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that stability is here as my physical body, breathing, and it is within physical structures, not energy, and thus I can establish myself in a moment as stable, here, by breathing and letting go of the energy experience and desire for energy experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it is by me and others participating in the mind in the pursuit of energy and ignoring what we are doing to physical reality in terms of how we are allowing it/creating it to be structured that is allowing/creating instability within the experiences/lives of so many beings on this planet, and I have placed my focus on trying to win in order to get a sense or feeling of stability instead being stable, breathing, looking at what is not best in my environment as structure that is creating instability in the world that is creating, for example, situations where parents are not able to give their children what they really require, as was the case with my childhood, and thus created the feeling and construct of seeking 'stability' as a feeling within me as a child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word 'stability' within the context of the mind/consciousness/energy within only a feeling that I personally have defined as the ability to win arguments through the use of my intellect and knowledge.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word stability within the context of feeling, as stability is the ability to maintain a feeling within myself of power, excitement, security, comfort.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that stability for it to be best for all, must create an OUTCOME for all that is best equally and within this I see that the word stability can be redefined to a structure that always produces what is best at all times with no whim or chance or bias, where for example a stable money system would be one that ensures that each child, adult, animal, plant, etc always receives what they required in order to exist in their specific form in the optimal way, in the way that supports them contributing to the balance of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that stability comes from who I am as the decision to apply myself within the tools of writing, self forgiveness, and self corrective application in order to change myself to remove that which is not best as who I am as what I have defined as my nature and to thus do the same without in the system to remove those elements that are creating instability in the lives of so many to recreate the system in the image and likeness of true stability which is directing resources, activity, etc to all parts equally according to what they require to exist in the best way at all times.

I commit myself to SHOW that stability is not something that one feels, it is something that one IS through being here, breathing, directing oneself within what is best for all, which in the current context of our system, is walking one's process consistently day by day, to eventually stand clearly in every moment - I realize that in moments I may fall as I walk through the layers of energy characters in my mind-physical, however within this context, stability would be the decision to always get back up, and to not dwell on the failure, but to forgive myself and to stand up and continue applying myself and to look at that which cause the fall, to remove that which is not best and then within that to continue walking in this world, supporting myself, others and standing up within the world in order to bring forth an equal money system to create the stability within money that will allow all to walk their process in stable, consistent manner, and to move the world towards the realization of the equality of Life and thus the establishment of ALL the necessary systems to create stable environment for Life to express itself fully at all times without limitation or fear..

In Food I Trust

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear eating only what is best for my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can only prefer to eat what is not best for my body.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I have participated in and allowed a world where my body is a slave to my mind and through my mind, corporations that do not have my best interest at heart have programmed me to only prefer foods that are designed to make me want more of that food regardless of whether it supports the body, and yet I realize that I have accepted and allowed this due to my desire to experience positive feelings from what I eat and due to not directing all of the negative points within me that accumulate into feelings of stress, sadness, depress, loneliness, etc trough which I justify using food to alleviate these feelings, when in reality they are the excuse to participate in eating that which I have defined and allowed to be defined as giving me pleasure as positive energy experience, despite of the consequence to my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame corporations or even food itself for causing dysfunction in my body, when in fact it is the use, abuse, and manipulation that I put my body through by participating in the desire for positive experience and thus my own deliberate spite of my body as the physical living being that gives me life that is the only thing that deserves blame, and thus I take responsibility for who I am and have allowed myself to become in relation to my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only care about what happens to my body when it forms into a state that either cause me to experience physical pain or emotional pain the sense of not giving me a positive feeling through either how it appears or how it functions.

I forgive myself that I have refused to allow myself to see the extent to which I have abused my body and this physical world in the pursuit of feeling good.

I forgive myself that I have not gone to the root cause of why I feel bad and forgiven that and instead went to abusing my body to make me feel good, whether through food, drugs, and/or sex.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to from a young age attempt to cope with feelings of boredom and irritation with eating foods that make me feel better temporarily despite them not being best for the optimal functioning of my body and making me feel bad later.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let negative emotion go unchecked and to respond to it by focusing on the positive instead of taking responsibility for the negative and stopping it in its tracks.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is no consequence to participating in energy, not being honest with myself about what I am really doing to myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear letting go of eating myself into positivity which is an indicator that I desire to continue to abuse myself through searching for positive energy.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that there is so much more to Life than the experience of positive energy and that my fear of stopping participation in such is due to having accepted myself as less than Life.

I commit myself to stopping participation in the mind as thoughts and feelings that direct me what to eat or do and instead breathe and look within self honesty if there is any justification at all, especially based on avoiding, covering up, dealing with, managing, suppressing negative feeling or seeking some positive feeling, which would indicate that I had already moved from the negative to the point of already accepting that I am now in the mode of suppression - to in those moments stop and re-evaluate and allow myself to make the decision that is best, and to investigate through writing and self forgiveness all the points that justify the fear within me to not stop participating in the negative/positive creation cycle within what I choose to eat.

I commit myself to investigate how I can align my preferences within eating and physical activity so that they are supportive of the optimal functioning of my body and support me within this world to remain here and not go into cycles of negative/positive but to focus myself in each moment to do what is best for all.