Weakness in Parenting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that a child is not able to master their emotions and feelings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a parent to project my weaknesses onto my child, not realizing that I am the product of my environment, education, and choices and that by supporting myself to no longer allow weakness within myself as manipulating myself with emotions and feelings, that I can support my child to do the same.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe/perceive that children are weak/inferior to adults.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that a child who is supported effectively with vocabulary development and effective living examples will become an adult that is far more effective in Life than any adult that I have thus far been able to imagine.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take pride, as a parent, in my child becoming a copy of me, even a copy of my weaknesses, instead of taking pride in my child becoming a living example of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my child becoming better than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to limit my child, unconsciously, subconsciously, and consciously, so that they do not surpass me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Life always seeks to grow, surpass limitation, and improve the balance in the context of what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have wanted to limit my child so that I do not have to face my own self-judgment, and thus I have resisted being the best that I could be.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself and my children and others with my inner feeling state and behavior to attempt to make them feel bad or guilty or ashamed out of my own self interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow my child to manipulate me through feelings and emotions out of self interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to buy or give something to my child because they said they were sad, thus supporting emotional manipulation patterns and weakness as manipulating oneself with emotions to generate energy within self interest which is neither best for me nor my child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if parents allow emotional manipulation patterns within themselves and their children, then the world will become a place where emotional manipulation is the dominant pattern and experience in the world, thus removing any right to complain about the state of the world and that they only point left is to take responsibility for myself and my children and the systems based on these patterns to redirect them in a way that is best for all.

I commit myself to not allow any point within myself where I would accept weakness and I commit myself to not allow any point within my child where they would accept weakness, realizing that I am the example that my child automatically learns from, and that the best support is to stop weakness within myself and thus remain stable and clear and direct with my child and not support or accept weakness within them.

I commit myself to support parents by showing them that a new way of parenting is possible, one of directness, strength, understanding, patience, guidance, and living example to produce children that are better than the parent and more capable of creating and living in a world that is best for all, so that eventually Life may manifest on Earth in full expression.

Cellular Parenting Secrets

As a parent, it is important that we look at our own behavior before we judge the behavior of our child. There is the desire in most parents to not be like their own parents and for their children to be better than them, but we end up becoming exact copies or in some cases simply polar opposites of our parents, no real choice, no real self direction present. How do we prevent this? What are we missing? What is it fundamentally that we, as parents, are not seeing within ourselves, that when we see it in our children, we become frustrated, irritated, fearful, angry, annoyed, judgmental?

Why do we judge our children but not look within ourselves? Is this splinter in our child's eye not jsut the beginning seed of the log that is still in ours? Unless we are self-honest, we will create a resentment within our child of the very sound of our voice. If we seek only to control instead of to educate our child will end up exactly the same as us.

"But I"m not the same as my parents," your inner voice will surely say.

Well, do you look for security in a world of competition where most go without their fundamental basic needs?

Do you put the pursuit of happiness above the goal of changing this world to be best for all?

Do you distract yourself with feelings and emotions?

If so, you can predict the outcome of your child's life: Exactly the same as yours.

How do we as parents, prevent our children from growing up to just be consumers? In a world where automation and AI will be increasingly replacing jobs, and thus where there will be few jobs left for those who are not highly creative and well educated, what will be left for our children to do, but consume the never ending supply of solutions to problems that don't really exist in the form of consumer products and entertainment produced by the robots that are better at completing a task without the unpredictability of emotions slowing down the assembly line?

As parents, we must really question everything about what we believe we are and most importantly WHO we believe we are.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become addicted to the pursuit of pleasure.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be manipulated by and to manipulate myself and others through reward systems.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to evolve into a highly sophisticated machine that looks for positive and turns away from negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to participate in and accept and allow the creation of a society that produces a ready supply of rewards in the form of drugs, games, entertainment, pornography, sports, drama, and social media.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that social media does not connect us to each other in order to improve the balance of life and society but in order for us to leverage the group in our pursuit of instant pleasure in the form of rapid dopamine release.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that one of the most significant tools ever created, the cell phone, has been used and allowed to be used to create a jail cell for each of us, where we can get an endless supply of dopamine, so that we never realize that we are dopes sitting in a jail cell of our own design, waiting out our sentence, when life could be something amazing beyond imagination but that would require us to transcend our desire for the quick fix.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use social media, games, TV, movies, porn, drugs, sex, and gossip as a way to get a quick fix, paying no attention to the real problems in this world that REQUIRE attention, only focusing on 'what's in it for me'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress the tremendous guilt that I feel deep down for bringing a child into the world only to submit them to a mental prison of constant stimulation and competition for their attention for them to become nothing more than an addict, sitting in a casino, pulling a lever, the lever which releases the dopamine hit, to keep them looking for more and more and more, and never being here, like a Tree, breathing, living, giving, receiving, only taking, consuming, discarding, and wanting ever more.

I commit myself to investigate all the ways in which I still accept and allow myself to look for a quick fix, a quick hit of dopamine.

I commit myself to support myself physically to stop participating in that which serves no real purpose as what is best, but is only designed to feed my mind with a constant supply of energy to continue being the directive principle - to stand up and direct myself within whatever technology or situation that is required to use it and leverage it in order to bring forth a world that is best for all.

I commit myself to be the example for my children of what means to be a human who not only KNOWS what the problems are that require attention but DOES what is required to be done.

Giving My Power Away to Thoughts and Feelings

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to realize that there are some things that I feel I have no choice about, is because of accumulated consequences - and the choice was generally made in the beginning and that created consequences which then reinforced the choice, so what I am facing now is the result of my original choice, which I may not be consciously aware of now.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I am challenged to make a choice and I feel emotional and feel like I don't have a choice, it is the emotions that are trying to keep me locked in some original choice, and the same thing goes for thoughts, and yet I can stop participating in a moment, breathe, delete the thoughts and make the decision that is best in that moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a society where people feel like they have no choice whatsoever, even though they are making choices all the time, but they feel like they aren't choices because emotions and thoughts are given power over and above our individual will and choice.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the extent to which we as humanity have placed power, Godlike power, into thoughts, feelings, and emotions and use these as justifications for why we and this world cannot change and stop doing things that are not best and do the things that are.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to listen to my thoughts and feelings instead of my common sense, which IS THERE if I listen to it.

I forgive myself that I have not been honest with myself about the degree to which I still allow my thoughts, feelings, and emotions to be the authority, even though I know deep down that I am the one giving them the authority and it is ME who experiences the consequence, eventually, of participating in them and allowing them to make decisions on my behalf.

I commit myself to stop in the moment where the thought comes up to do something that I know is not best, and then the feeling rises to reinforce the thought, and then the flood of thoughts come to convince me to do it - but I stop, I breathe, I bring myself back here, I pause, I forgive myself for falling into the temptation to think and use this as an excuse to wash my hands clean of the decision to do something that is not best, no matter how 'minor' it might seem - I stand up and take responsibility for what I allow in my inner world which becomes my outer world.

Fire Walls

Sometimes we walk through firewalls. We experience them in various ways, but the common point is that it feels like we are in a state where we just cannot go forward. It can feel like depression, it can feel like irritation, frustration, annoyance, it can feel like outright anger, sometimes it feels like others are out to get you. Many times it feels like FEAR. But what it really is, is a layer of energy as a character that is presenting itself for us to transcend. What is cool is that when we finally direct ourselves to walk through it our lives change and improve. We are able to do things we "couldn't" do before. We are able to see things in a new way. We are able to see new possibilities and we feel renewed. We feel more courageous. We feel more bold. Or we feel more centered, more stable, less reactive.

The weird thing is that the benefits of walking through the firewall are virtually impossible to see before you have walked through it. And the firewall seems so much like it is just who we are, like water to a fish, that we can't see any possibility of getting through it, except from a purely logical perspective. It just FEELS like it's something we have to accept and it can never change.

But it CAN! All we have to do is walk through it. And every fiber of our being will resist. Of course, because it is who we have accepted ourselves to be and layered this into us physically. But if we walk the process and apply the tools we CAN get through it and on the other side is a totally new world.

Of course this firewall is something humanity is facing at a large scale as we face the reality that we don't really 'care' or 'care to' take care of each other and this world in the best way, because it is too 'inconvenient' to change even though the way things are makes very little since. Change is too 'hard' but the reality is the change that is 'hard' is at the individual, personal level, where we justify remaining in our limitations and weaknesses. Whether it is transcending anger or judgment or depression or blame - these points that we see and experience within ourselves are what must be walked through, because those are the points that are holding us back from being able to see change as possible on the larger scale. Yes, the systems that run our world have to change, but so do the systems that run our individual lives, in terms of how we allow thoughts, feelings, and emotions to direct us instead of common sense. And sometimes you just have to stand up within yourself, for yourself, against what you have accepted which feels like this external force that is oppressing us, and we have to say, "I will not be a slave, even to my own creation!"

And then we have to start by writing, forgiving ourselves in writing and aloud, and writing and speaking the self correction.

And even after all of that is done: we still have to stand up and walk through the point physically.

If it is a fear of speaking to someone, we have to just speak.

If it is a fear of doing something, we have to just do it. Obviously we have to determine if this something we fear is practically necessary, but if we 'feel' a fear then likely it is just our mind trying to stop us from doing something we are not preprogrammed to do.

Walk through the water fall of fear. It feels like a wall of fire, but its really nothing more than a waterfall that you can walk right through. It is our dependence on the mind as feelings and thoughts as feedback that is stopping us, not the fire/water wall.

Stand up and move forward. You have been waiting long enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wallow in self-pity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my feelings and emotions are valid feedback as to whether I should do something or not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my mind is programmed to limit me from doing what is best, and to remain only in generating energy through conflict.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that fear and resistance show me the path to walk through.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see/remember all the times I walked through fear and how what I feared wasn't really a big deal, and that I always grew from walking through it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see my real potential.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear changing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the pain of my emotions and feelings, and not realize that the consequence of not changing is far greater than the momentary pain of change.

 I commit myself to remember - when the firewall comes - that it is a point of transcendence - and that there is no reason to hesitate - to trust myself in that moment and walk through it - to apply the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, and self correction , and then to walk physically through what I fear/resist.

I am Responsible for what happens within Me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to dwell in emotional turmoil.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel ashamed for allowing emotional turmoil within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have automated systems within me which activate and create thought patterns and feelings according to certain words and events that are associated with those thoughts and feelings symbolically.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame another person for how I feel within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame outside circumstances for how I feel within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am weak and unable to direct and determine what goes on within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my first point of self responsibility is within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think about how far I have to go in order to stop the emotional turmoil within me, when it is irrelevant and I really don't know in any case - thinking about it is only an excuse to not breathe and stop the thinking and feeling patterns within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I allow a thought or feeling within me and then blame it on another person and then speak and act within that starting point, even if I am not being open about it, I am in fact terrorizing others as well as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that what I think and feel about another person is something that I am making up, because I do not really know and understand all the details of what goes on within them - all I see is what I think and feel within, which in self honesty I have created/accepted/allowed/defined according to the other person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to face the reality that I have been projecting my own inner responsibility for what I think and feel onto others and have been blaming them for what I have accepted and allowed within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I really care about myself and others equally, then I would take full responsibility for what I allow within me, and I would not allow myself to think about others in my secret mind and blame them for a feeling that comes up within me - because even if the other person changes their behavior, that does not change the fact that there is a system within me which is producing feelings and thoughts automatically - and I have accepted this and thus it is my responsibility to stop it, regardless of what the other person does, because, again, I do not really know who the other person is, what their starting point is, it doesn't really matter, because my thoughts and feelings are coming from within me, not from the other person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not remember the origin of my thoughts and feelings and to then believe that they are coming from others and things outside of me, when those things are only the stimulus that brings the thoughts up, not the origin - thus I am grateful for these points being in my life to show me what I have accepted and allowed without question.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my partner when I feel angry.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my partner when I feel fearful.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the money system and my circumstances when I feel depressed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is not possible to direct my feelings and thoughts in a world that is designed to stimulate us to participate in cycles of emotion, thinking, and feeling - which is the ultimate statement of a slave, because a slave is not in control and direction of themselves, they are completely at the mercy of outside forces, but now I understand that this is a choice because I can forgive myself and direct myself within my inner awareness to no longer accept myself to participate in thinking about another and feeling and then blaming another for the feeling.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not appreciate, realize, and take full advantage of the gift I have been given of being here, being alive, being in reality, and able to change myself within - to feel lost and angry and sad and hurt by reality, when actually I am here for a moment to be able to change myself and let go of all the excuses and blame as to why I cannot exist in a way that is best for me and for all.

I commit myself to stand up and be aware in the moment when a thought/feeling comes up about another person, an event, or myself and see/realize that this is an opportunity to just breathe, be here, let go of the thought/feeling and know that it is nothing more than a system attempting to tempt me into submission - I am not a slave, that is not who I am - I commit myself to support myself to stand up and direct myself within this process and stop the cycle of abuse that I have been putting myself through as allowing thinking and feeling and then blaming others, which is a statement of disempowerment, because I AM RESPONSIBLE, and thus I commit myself to walk through my mind, to forgive myself in those moments when the thoughts and feelings come, and to breathe and to be here.

Stability

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go out looking for an argument or to create a conflict in order to prove that I am right or superior.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I seek out conflict in order to experience the energy within someone arguing with me and either feeling afraid or less than, which is an energy experience, which I then use to go back and argue again in order to win, or I experience the winning energy of superiority and righteousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have an addiction to the energy experience of feeling right or feeling like I have won or that someone thinks or believes that I am right or better than them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have a low self-esteem within this I attempt to 'make myself feel better' by creating conflicts where I can prove my superiority, but within this all that I am doing is feeding a constructs desire for energy that exists as a character in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to seek out and participate in conflicts and arguments in order get the experience of being right or winning because I think/feel that I need to prove to myself that I am strong and can win.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that as a young child, my life was quite unstable, and thus I have developed a personality and character that uses intellect, knowledge, and argument in order to have a sense of control over myself, my environment, and others to give myself the feeling of stability that I believe I lack.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that stability does not come from winning an argument with another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the only thing I am keeping 'stable' so to speak is the existence of a character/personality/construct that seeks out conflict and argument in order to try and win.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that stability is here as my physical body, breathing, and it is within physical structures, not energy, and thus I can establish myself in a moment as stable, here, by breathing and letting go of the energy experience and desire for energy experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it is by me and others participating in the mind in the pursuit of energy and ignoring what we are doing to physical reality in terms of how we are allowing it/creating it to be structured that is allowing/creating instability within the experiences/lives of so many beings on this planet, and I have placed my focus on trying to win in order to get a sense or feeling of stability instead being stable, breathing, looking at what is not best in my environment as structure that is creating instability in the world that is creating, for example, situations where parents are not able to give their children what they really require, as was the case with my childhood, and thus created the feeling and construct of seeking 'stability' as a feeling within me as a child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word 'stability' within the context of the mind/consciousness/energy within only a feeling that I personally have defined as the ability to win arguments through the use of my intellect and knowledge.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word stability within the context of feeling, as stability is the ability to maintain a feeling within myself of power, excitement, security, comfort.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that stability for it to be best for all, must create an OUTCOME for all that is best equally and within this I see that the word stability can be redefined to a structure that always produces what is best at all times with no whim or chance or bias, where for example a stable money system would be one that ensures that each child, adult, animal, plant, etc always receives what they required in order to exist in their specific form in the optimal way, in the way that supports them contributing to the balance of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that stability comes from who I am as the decision to apply myself within the tools of writing, self forgiveness, and self corrective application in order to change myself to remove that which is not best as who I am as what I have defined as my nature and to thus do the same without in the system to remove those elements that are creating instability in the lives of so many to recreate the system in the image and likeness of true stability which is directing resources, activity, etc to all parts equally according to what they require to exist in the best way at all times.

I commit myself to SHOW that stability is not something that one feels, it is something that one IS through being here, breathing, directing oneself within what is best for all, which in the current context of our system, is walking one's process consistently day by day, to eventually stand clearly in every moment - I realize that in moments I may fall as I walk through the layers of energy characters in my mind-physical, however within this context, stability would be the decision to always get back up, and to not dwell on the failure, but to forgive myself and to stand up and continue applying myself and to look at that which cause the fall, to remove that which is not best and then within that to continue walking in this world, supporting myself, others and standing up within the world in order to bring forth an equal money system to create the stability within money that will allow all to walk their process in stable, consistent manner, and to move the world towards the realization of the equality of Life and thus the establishment of ALL the necessary systems to create stable environment for Life to express itself fully at all times without limitation or fear..

The Excuse Within Expectation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, that as a being, nothing can actually hurt me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that another's words cannot actually hurt me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear experiencing fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the extent to which I am controlled within what I do or don't do based on the experience of fear or the fear of experiencing fear within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe there is anything that another can do that I cannot do, when in reality the other is actually me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value on the energetic experience of feeling bad and feeling good and feeling neutral.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel pressure around my eyes, in my chest, in my stomach and to then accept this pressure as feeling as something that directs me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to face how weak I have allowed myself to be within allowing myself to be directed by an energy experience within me, not realizing that who I really am is the principle which makes even the energy experience possible, so how can an energy experience really affect me if I do not accept it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself and become angry within myself for accepting and allowing myself to be directed by emotions and feelings, when in fact doing so is still accepting and allowing myself to be directed by such.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in feeling frustrated when things to do move as quickly as I want them to, when this happens because I have created an expectation within myself that something should happen and imbued this expectation with energy and I haven't really done my due diligence to see what is actually required and what it will take for what I would like to happen to in fact happen.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from that which I want to happen and thus not allow myself to really see clearly what is required to make it happen.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the energy of despondence when something doesn't happen as quickly as I would like.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in expectation of others and myself, instead of focusing on that which is required to be done that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use feeling frustrated as an excuse to participate in the mind as feelings and emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to second guess my actions based on feeling bad, without first checking where the 'negative' feeling is coming from within me and to instead base my assessment of my actions on common sense and measuring the physical result.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in anger instead of breathing and being here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in feeling afraid instead of being here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to control others in order to suppress my fear and anger, instead of breathing, and bringing the energy back to myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that things need to move quickly.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is a pressure for me to get something done, when that is a feeling that my body is generating based on how I have accepted and allowed it to be programmed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am able to direct myself and others as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word patience and not realize that patience is simply letting go of expectation and supporting/directing what is required in the moment in a way that is best for all.

I commit myself to when the feeling of frustration about how things are moving comes up within me, to breathe, to let it go, to realize that this is a program and to once I am stable within breathing, look at what points I am not taking self-responsibility for that require direction.

I commit myself to push beyond all excuses to participate in the mind and learn what it means to live here physically without desire, without want, without feelings that direct me, but to direct myself as what is best.

I commit myself to never give up on myself, to stand up no matter how many times I fall into the mind, into energy, to get back up more quickly, to eventually never fall and remain here, stable, and support/direct the creation of a system that is best for all life, so that eventually every child born will not have to go through what I have had to go through, and instead can live Life fully without any fear.

Did You Hurt My Feelings?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is possible to have my feelings hurt, when feelings are not living beings, they are energy patterns that run within myself with my permission and participation over time until they have become automated and within which I have defined myself AS these feelings, and thus when I or someone says that their feelings are hurt, it shows the extent to which we have defined ourselves as our feelings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that participating in feelings is abuse to my physical body, because the physical body must be mined for energy, the energy doesn't come from nowhere, and it is abuse to everyone/everything else because I will do anything in order to get those feelings generated, and thus the money system is a reflection of my inner system, where the money system will do anything as long as money flows.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when someone or myself feels like their/my feelings are hurt, they/I are/am actually just attempting to manipulate another in order to continue participating in the energy game.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when my feelings are hurt, all that is happening is that I am experiencing feelings/energy that I have defined as negative, and this is fundamentally no different than experiencing positive feelings, as they are both only fuel for the mind and abusive to the physical by nature.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself blame another when I perceive my feelings or someone else's feelings have been hurt, which is to say that another person has done or said something which caused another person to have a negative feeling, but is this really the case or am I defending a person's right to feel good regardless of what they are participating within?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive that I am being mocked when someone says something that triggers a negative feeling within me or thoughts within me that are negative according to how I have defined negative, when the reality is that if I did not exist as thoughts, feelings, and emotions, there would be nothing to trigger - if I had specified my vocabulary effectively, I would not be triggered by words, and if they person is doing something that has an effect that is physically not best for all, then I must first forgive myself for any feeling/thought/emotional reaction before I am able to see clearly that there is something that is not best for all within the other person's actions/words, otherwise it is quite possible that I am actually just reacting to an energy experience within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear triggering negative emotions in others, when in reality these are things they should face, as they are affecting everyone including me and them in a way that is not best, because the person is not living here as what is best for all, but rather living as the mind and thus not standing as what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist looking within myself when I feel justified within triggering another person to make sure that I am not placing responsibility outside of myself for the pattern that the other person is participating in which I am calling out, or mocking, or bringing to their attention.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word 'mock' as a negative word and associated with negative feelings, instead of understanding the word and living it in the best way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define 'mocking' as physically harming another person, and within that not want to accept it as a possible way to express myself, which is limiting me within saying what is required for another person to see what they are participating within, and within this it does not justify automatically mocking anyone at any/all times, however if I judge the act of mocking, then I am limiting myself, because it may be an effective expression to support either myself (by being mocked) or another (by mocking them) to see that they are accepting and allowing less than who they really are.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in mocking another in order to generate energy within myself to feel powerful at another's expense.

I commit myself to accept the expression of mocking and derision within myself towards patterns that are less than what is best and to stop the expression of mocking as attempting to gain energy within myself.

I commit myself to be aware when I am participating in a mocking expression of a pattern whether I am mocking a pattern that I have walked through and forgiven or whether I am mocking a pattern that is still existent within me, and thus would represent a projection of self-responsibility outside of myself for the pattern.

I commit myself to learn how to use what would typically be called negative expressions for the best benefit of myself and all in order to face the patterns that are existent in this world that must be changed to produce a world that considers all equally.

I commit myself to investigate all 'forbidden expressions' that would potentially support myself and others to wake up to what we are accepting and allowing, and to push myself to not have any limits within how I express myself.

I commit myself to push myself to remove all those reactions that would limit me in my expression in which I place value on how others perceive me or through which I judge myself, so that I may stand clearly and be able to support myself and others to let go of all that which is standing in the way of us creating a world that is best for all.

The I of the Storm

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame another when I feel angry or frustrated.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the anger and frustration that I feel is never coming from another person, it is always and only ever due to the way in which I have accepted and allowed myself to program my body to respond to certain types of stimuli with the feeling of anger and/or frustration.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, in moments of feeling angry and frustrated, to argue with another from that starting point, when in fact arguing from that starting point is only an attempt to justify the anger and frustration and to find a point of blame in order to convert the negative feeling of anger/frustration into a positive feeling as winning or righteousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that being angry or frustrated within myself is the same as directly emotionally abusing myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the emotional storm that comes up in a moment is real and has actual control over me, when in fact, the only reason it has control is due to my giving it authority over me, through time, through decisions, through acting within the starting point of the feelings, and that even though I am able to stop participation in a moment through breath, and release myself through self-forgiveness, this does not mean the emotional storm will not come back, because I must also investigate the relationships that I have created and formed which are designed to create the storm automatically.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the missing key of self corrective action/application that is required in order to truly change myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that self-forgiveness alone will not change me, as the CHANGE occurs within and as ME changing the way in which I interact in the world and within my relationships to myself and others, and thus Self-Forgiveness is a KEY however not the only key, as it is only an initial point for me to be able to face the point of then actually changing how I interact, how I behave, how I see things and respond to things within me and the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the world and other people for how I feel.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have 'dealt' with something because I have done self-forgiveness, but I have not done the self-honest point of checking the physical relationship and seeing whether in self-honesty I have in fact changed and am no longer controlling another or being controlled through the relationship in order to continue creating conflict/friction/energy in order to fuel my mind and self-interest and thus not truly be HERE and doing what is best.

I commit myself to walk this process effectively, to investigate my reactions to myself and my world and to apply self-forgiveness to give myself the opportunity of release from the pattern and to uncover and explain to myself within that what exactly needs to be changed that is not designed in a way that is best for all and to then apply myself within the physical corrective action required to change that relationship through time in order to adjust it to be best for all.

I commit myself to show that the process described above is the key to changing oneself as the inner process as well as changing oneself as the outer process in terms of taking responsibility for what has been accepted and allowed to function as systems in this world in the name of humanity, and to thus adjust those systems so that they function in a way that is best for all.