Dropping the Mask

With the events happening today regarding lock downs, quarantines, shutting down of businesses, face masks, banning of public gatherings, etc we are all collectively experiencing the manifestation of the opposite of Jesus' message, which was to "Love your neighbor as yourself."

We are all collectively witnessing the impulsing and the manifestation of Fear your Neighbor as your Enemy.

How did we get here?

This is not something new we are experiencing. If you had been living in a third world country with little access to resources, you never really saw the common man as your neighbor, certainly not the man in the first world country.

But in schools, even the first world, we teach our children to compete with each other. Only so many people can get that scholarship. Not everyone can get an A. Why is it that our education process which ought to be designed in a way to bring everyone to a point of equal effectiveness, is based on competing? The times I have really learned something was not when I was competing with someone but rather the times when I sat, focused, clarified the vocabulary and went through the information with the intention of really understanding it so that I could apply the knowledge in some context.

The point of economy should be to firstly support everyone to have a life of dignity and comfort and then to expand beyond that and constantly improve the balance, but instead we have relegated our economy to one of competition as well.

And so none of what is happening currently is surprising to me. It is showing the real face of humanity, ironically by everyone wearing a mask.

We have been wearing a mask this whole time perhaps. Pretending we are good people while not considering the consequences of the system that we support and benefit from while it causes massive inequality in this world.

And it is not just the third world that experiences the inequality. The first world experiences it as mental illness and anxiety; existential angst, fear, paranoia, and mistrust of their neighbor.

Now we see the collective education level of even the first world where so many are ready to put on a mask that cannot protect them from something that is already within and without. We have been brainwashed by a corporate medical establishment to believe we understand science just enough to listen to the medical/scientific authority but not enough to question and evaluate the information for ourselves.

And so now, when the authority says that we should fear our neighbor's breath, we so easily comply with whatever solution is imposed.

We tell our children they can't play at the playground because we either fear them 'catching something' or we fear being reprimanded by the authority or even, perhaps worse, by our neighbor.

What will the neighbor's think of me if I allow my children to play at the playground? Will they think I am not concerned for their health? That I don't love my children? That I don't care about others' children? That I am not to be trusted and must be kept an eye on?

The thoughts of paranoia begin to pop up within us as it starts to dawn that we have been impulsed through images, videos, articles, to FEAR our neighbor as we FEAR ourselves.

We know that we cannot be trusted because we have placed our trust in a system that we know does not have our best interest at heart. So, surely I cannot trust my neighbor?

What is the solution?

The only solution is to firstly be honest that his is how we are feeling. That we are afraid. That we are worried, concerned about the future. That we do not know if this is a sign that things will only get worse.

We are worried that the governments will use this as an excuse to control our lives even more, that we will lose our freedom. But we have never exercised our freedom in a responsible way! We have only cared about our own comfort and ability to exercise choice in fulfilling our desires. We never really considered the consequences of our desires being fulfilled. We never thought about the poorly educated who have no choice but to work at the big box store for next to nothing so that we could get our desires CHEAP.

LOW PRICES means LOW WAGES which means we do not value our neighbor as equals as Life, but rather a means to an end. And now we FEAR our neighbor that they might be the means to our END when we don't even really understand what it is that we are afraid of. All we know is that CNN told us to be afraid. They used numbers that go UP to turn up our emotions just like the fever that we so fear.

Where to go from here?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear suffering.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain myself with images of suffering and dying while at the same time never want to experience that for real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that while I chase the fulfillment of my desires, people experience suffering and death for real as a consequence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to know about the Butterfly Effect but not consider that a simple purchase that I make feeds and supports a system that is based on slavery.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wear the mask of pretending to care so that I can go on my merry way of following my bliss like I am some kind of superhero in my own life who will make my life as fun and exciting and exhilarating as possible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that everything is in reverse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it is time to drop ALL the masks and to figure out what I can do to no longer accept and allow a system based on fearing one's neighbor and competing with one's neighbor to survive, when we all die as a matter of course, but the system we have created and continue to participate in ensures that we never really live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can hide my true nature behind a mask but in reality who I really am shows in what I accept and allow.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the judgment of others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not transcend judgment which would be to make a self honest assessment of what I accept and allow individually and collectively that is not best for all and to then support myself to stand up and change that which is not best to what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the weakness of thinking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my neighbor and to thus not want to participate in creating a system that is best for all.

I commit myself to stand clearly, openly as who I am, sharing what I accept, showing others that it is ok and possible to change, to value all Life equally and my living application of increasing my levels of responsibility in the system to bring about a system equal education for all and equal money for all will be the proof of who I am.

Did Jesus Say to Fear Our Neighbor?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have nothing to say.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak freely in my mind, but be afraid of speaking openly with others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear speaking up about what is best or the problems that I see in this world, because as a child, I was punished for questioning the status quo, I was belittled, I was hit, I was told to shut up.

I forgive myself as my parents for attempting to suppress the expression of a child questioning what the adults are doing, as I realize that they were just trying to survive and support me to survive, and they did not have the awareness as a parent that I have now, and yet they brought me into this world, and now I am here, and thus it is MY responsibility to speak up and stop all abuse on this planet.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is not my place to tell another what they are doing that is not best, and yet I would have no problem telling my child or someone who works for me to change their behavior.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being rejected by others for speaking the truth, when the acceptance that I currently feel is not real, it is only based on conforming to the standards of a system that is not best, and thus I would rather speak the truth, and support others to see through the illusion of this system within and without than be accepted by those who only want to system to continue as is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that as soon as I begin speaking up, I will receive criticism, rejection, slander, vitriol, argument, disagreement, backlash, and even threats, because I am now challenging the pursuit of happiness, which is the greatest lie, and very few at the moment want to be honest about it, yet if I say nothing, knowing what I know, then those who may have been willing to reconsider Life on earth may never get the opportunity because if I am not willing to speak common sense and give the solutions then who will?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is no consequence for not doing what is best when I see what to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify others not standing up and speaking up because I had justified it within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize my real potential to support others to let go of their bullshit and begin walking the journey to life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed others opinions of me to DICTATE what I do or don't do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must prove to others in their minds and convince them of what I am doing and my starting point as to support the creation of what is best - when my actions show and will show my intentions, and although others may misinterpret them, that is based on their starting point, thus although I may use others' feedback in order to check reactions and weakness within myself, the only person that I can answer to at the end of the day is myself within my own self honesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that simply by speaking and writing, and sharing that, I can influence others to stop accepting less than who they are - as this is the way I was influenced and continued to influence myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I allow myself to chase/participate in feelings and emotions then I open myself up to be susceptible to manipulation, but in the end I would have only myself to blame, because that is what I accepted and allowed myself to be and to place value on.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I fear my neighbor in any way, then I am not living the Jesus pattern/message of love my neighbor as myself and give as I want to receive, because this is not possible when there is fear of another or even fear of myself, and thus within that I realize that a lot of fear is due to the survival system that we are all participating in, and thus I am able to push through my fear of others by speaking up, sharing, challenging others and myself when I see something that is not best, but also placing myself in a position to change the system so that it is not requiring us to only focus on survival, because even if I walk my own process of 'not fearing others' I have to be self honest that others will still find it difficult to not fear if they are constantly under the pressures of survival, and furthermore, if the solution to fear is self-forgiveness, which it is, then if someone is focused on survival all the time, they will not have the time or space to focus on self-forgiveness, and thus I realize that the best purpose to give myself for this life, is to stand up and change the system so that all our basic needs are guaranteed, and that this will create the space and time for the majority of humanity to walk their process, and thus I realize that this life that I have been given is a gift for me to give Life to others and that is only possible by stopping the systems of abuse and creating systems that support Life equally for all, and thus I do not expect anyone else to walk this before me, I walk this until it is done, and through that I realize others will be empowered to walk as well.

I commit myself to releasing myself from all the fears within me towards speaking up and sharing my process and speaking up about what is best, regardless of what others say, using the feedback to support me to remove all weakness as what is not supportive of me expressing myself fully as Life as what is best, removing all ego as that which I have allowed to control me and manipulate myself with through the pursuit of energy and feelings.

I commit myself to stand in the face of everyone, including myself, to challenge all points where I am accepting less than what is best, both within myself and within others, to not fear the reactions within myself or others, to walk through the energy, to breathe through it, to look at where I react to either myself or others, to walk through these points and remove them through writing, self-forgiveness, and corrective action.

Equality within the Family

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my family members are not special - they each individual beings just like myself, equal and one.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my family is a collective of individuals with whom I am walking in this life, supporting equally as one with myself, and within which I have an agreement to support practically within providing basic needs within the context of the current system through labor, as well as being an example of individual integrity to the principle of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my family is a unit within which I am allowed to hide within feelings and emotions, like a special place where I can create the warm fuzzy feelings that I desire that I do not get out there in the world with so called strangers.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that seeing my family as a means to get a warm fuzzy feeling or a feeling of comfort is actually to abuse another for self-interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my primary starting point within being in a family is to do what is best in all ways, and thus I am here within a family to support myself to change and then eventually stand completely as what is best and to receive support from my family in that context and also to be a support point within giving to those in my family what they require to stand, stable in reality in order to be and do what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want my family to stay together in order to keep my memories in tact, when my memories are in fact that which I am using to keep myself from really living here, breathing, expressing what is best - it is my memories that are being used by my mind to keep my in character, a character which is compromised, which is not best, which is limited.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have used friendships for essentially the same purpose as family, just that friends support a different character than family members, because usually I am more aligned with friends in terms of likes and dislikes whereas with family it is more a point of participating in traditions and rituals, like christmas, easter, birthdays, etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have been more honest with those who are not my family than with my family members, because I have been using my family members as way to maintain the ultimate dishonesty within myself, which is the pursuit of love and happiness as feelings, and therefore I have never really got to know my family members as who they really are.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rather keep my family as a unit, where each is compromising themselves in order keep each others' characters fed with energy than to challenge myself and my family members to really change and become what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the wrath of my family members.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the feelings and emotions that are within me that come up when my family withholds 'love' as expressions of symbols like saying "i love you" versus "i'm angry with you" and that I would compromise doing what is best in order to keep the other family member from being angry, which is really just a way to support the other person to not face themselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my family members are beings equal to me - and when I die, which is inevitable, and we face each other as equal beings, we will not see each other as family members, that relationships only exists in my mind and in the context of this current system on earth and especially the relationships of feelings and emotions towards my family members, none of that will exist when we are dead and thus how could I use that as an excuse as to why did not stand up and why I did not challenge them when I saw that they are accepting and allowing less than who they are?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I were my family member, I would want me to stand up and do what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I can let go of the memories that I have built up around my family members and I can reestablish an agreement of real support with them and that even if they do not agree, this is not a reason to compromise myself, but letting them go, if they do not agree, would be the best thing for them so that they can face the reality that they are the ones unwilling to change.

I commit myself to stand up within my family and live as the example of self-forgiveness and self-correction to what is best for all.

I commit myself to support my family members within their survival needs in this reality while they are children, to support them with the skills necessary to take full responsibility as an adult, and as adults to support them within facing themselves as the programming that they have accepted and allowed that is not best for all in the context of the current system.

Fear as the Source of Fear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when confronted with the truth of who I am as seeking energy and feeling good and superior that I, instead of breathing, considering, being honest with myself, stopping and changing, I rather go into justification and blame as a form or defense and protection against not changing my starting point as seeking energy and positive experience for myself only.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the consequences that I see within my life that I know are not best for myself and everyone are here showing me the result of my starting point of who I am and how I am living and thus are an opportunity for reflection for me to change and yet within that I have used these consequences instead as a justification why I cannot change because I must survive, when in fact that which I am attempting to hold onto is the very thing is producing the consequences I am now faced with and thus I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that it is not about changing the past consequences, but stopping and preventing the creation of more consequence, and that until I stop there is no way I would even be able to address the consequences that are already here.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see/realize that I have been living my life, up to now, attempting to manipulate myself and others to change the past rather, not realizing that in having such a starting point I am in fact recreating the past as my present and future, because I am not changing the starting point from which I am creating, which is the pursuit of happiness in contrast to what I see as the sadness of the present, which is really the past.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that those/that which challenge my happiness/pursuit of happiness are not the evil ones, but the ones that are in fact supporting me to see the key to stopping the creation of that which is causing my UNhappiness, but instead I have blamed them as the problem, which is a statement of me not wanting to accepting self responsibility for who I am and what I am creating, which is thus what has kept me in cycles of creating that which I really do not want, ultimately, which is fear and death.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the presence of fear within me is indicating my starting point for why/what I am creating/attempting to create, which is really just an attempt to continue my survival as energy, which is not real, and because I know this deep down, I now realize that this is where the fear is coming from, from the desire to protect that which I know is not real, and as this experience of fear is a negative energy, I am attempting to use this to move myself into a positive experience, and thus within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the positive, which cannot last, as it fades will shift me back into a state of fear, and unless I stop, this is all I will ever exist as - fear - because that which I am attempting to create/hold onto/protect in my moments of fear and in response to fear will never be real, because it is the very UNreality of that which I am attempting to create/hold onto which is driving the fear in the first place.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to ever question my starting point nature as fear, and instead took my fear for granted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to question WHAT exactly it is that fears dying.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear everything being taken, and within that to not question WHAT the nature of that which I believe can be taken is - is it REAL or UNreal?

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that within the starting point of fearing everything/anything being taken from me, I have manifested myself as the very embodiment/expression of TAKING only, taking out of fear, and thus I am not really living, not really giving, and thus because I am TAKING only - what I will receive in EQUAL MEASURE is TAKING in the absolute sense as I have taken that which gives me Life and not allowed that which gives Life to all to be given to all equally - and I have manifested every excuse possible to allow myself to blame this fact on everything/anything but ME to the point where I have accepted and allowed, participated in and benefited from, a system of distribution that creates immense suffering for most all life on earth and in this, because it at least allows me to survive temporarily, I never question or stand up within it to change it, which shows my shortsightedness as well as my starting point of not really caring about anything real, because no one survives existence currently, no one survives death that is not real, because that is the nature of not being real, and thus within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the only way to stop fear is to - STOP FEAR - to stop attempting to take and secure my existence as feeling good as feeling positive as getting energy for myself and rather STOP and ask myself, if I were REAL what would I be doing, what would I be doing with this temporary existence that I have, if there were no fear - if I KNEW that no matter what, I am real, and that only then would I be able to ACT within the starting point of that which is real and that unless I give up all illusions of something MORE and ACT AS IF I am already complete, not lacking, knowing that the only thing that matters is the EFFECT I have in reality in taking back that which I have allowed to be projected from the physical as my symbolic self, bringing myself back to earth, and adjusting the systems that exist here to distribute what is here to all equally - unless I become the solution within/as my self - the living example, then I will in fact never be real and thus all I would ever experience, eternally is fear and death - and thus I forgive myself that I have never stopped before, and that I have used this never having stopped before as a justification to not stop now, in this Life, and I forgive myself that I have allowed any excuse whatsoever to not stop once and for all and allow myself to find out what is beyond fear, what is real, what is Here, and to no longer search for something more, but to simply be Here and discover what is Here, and allow myself to stand equal to and one with all that is here and let go of the need to be special or important, understanding that those things have no meaning or value in the context of having let go of fear as a starting point for existing.

I commit myself to stopping fear in all its facets, both within myself and without as the system that automatically creates reasons for fear in the form of unequal distribution of what is required to function and exist as Life in all its various forms as how Life is currently manifested here as the physical reality.

I commit myself to - through writing, self-forgiveness, and self-corrective application - identify and remove all fear from within me, to breath by breath check the movement within me as energy, feeling, and thought, and to stop participation within each knowing that all energy movement within me as thought and feeling is coming from the starting point of fear, to motivate me to move in response to fear to continue the cycles of negative to positive to negative ad infinitum, and thus I commit myself to stop the cycles of creation of energy and bring back that which I have allowed as energy projection within and as my self as personality and relationship, to bring it back to self and ground that and thus re-learn how to live and act in the world from the starting point of how to create a living system on earth that supports and allows each of us to practically give life to each other - to remove any reason and excuse for fear, and to never give in to fear, but to stop it, question it, see where I am still holding on to a desire to exist as energy and use the tools that I have here to remove it and realign myself to live here unconditionally even while the system is still conditional - to show and prove that there is no valid excuse and that this can be done and to thus support others to do the same until this is done and fear has no place whatsoever in existence any more.

Trapped in a Prison of Love

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see/realize that every relationship that I have ever formed was based on the desire to create energy for myself in the form of experience and memories.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that when I experience a feeling or an energy within me when talking to someone, looking at someone, interacting with someone, thinking about someone or even simply being with someone that I am in fact converting my physical body as the physical substance into the energy that I am experiencing, that I am in fact sacrificing a part of me physically in order to experience this energy and that the energy is not coming from nowhere and it is not coming from the other person and it is not coming from "God" as I perceive God to be something that can supply me with energy without end with no consequence.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see/realize/understand that every relationship I have formed/am within has either fallen apart due to this desire for me to experience energy or has entered a state of 'stability' where there is agreement either tacit or explicit that I am allowed to use the relationship to generate energy for myself, and this we sometimes call love but other times we call it co-dependency or other times we call it abuse or sometimes we call it just an easy and simple relationship depending on whether we have defined the relationship in positive/negative/ or neutral terms, but in all of these cases I am participating in emotions, thoughts and feelings, within myself that come up automatically and which I justify in my mind in many different ways.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that getting energy for myself is the purpose of a relationship.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is on other way to exist in relationship without the experience or constant generation of feelings, emotions and thoughts to/towards the other person or myself.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see the obvious point that the energy called love is temporary, which is why we have terms like 'the honeymoon phase' and that this is the main driver of divorce and separation between married couples where because the partners never established a real physical support and standing within the principle of what is best for all, they only ever participated in feelings and emotions and when the spark goes out they search for a new spark within an affair or a new marriage or a new sports car or a new baby, and never question the starting point of using relationship or another person as a way to generate a feeling within oneself.


I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that what I and society calls 'love' is really nothing more than just an experience of an energetic feeling within oneself and that this feeling is generated within according to certain symbols which will vary from person to person and some of which are common to most people, and that in itself this feeling is of no value other than the value I have placed on it, and yet I haven't realized that the feeling is actually a form of self abuse.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to forget/ignore all the times I have felt bad or negative as a result of me not feeling love towards/from another person's actions.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the desire to feel love or any other feeling is no different to a drug addict who is doing a drug to feel a certain feeling as positive or to attempt to cover up/suppress a feeling of something as negative.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that many atrocities and abuse are done in the name of love.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that I have justified abusing myself and others through love.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize how I and others are allowing ourselves to manipulated and controlled through the word 'love'.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I am able to do what is best for myself and another even without any feeling of 'love' whatsoever, because doing what is best is a physical action and 'love' is a feeling, in so far as I have defined it in that way.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that only a being who has not had what they really need would search for a feeling of love, because a being who is supported to have what they need and to be competent to coexist in the world in a way that is best for all would have no feeling of lack ever and thus within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the desire to experience love is based on my acceptance and allowance of a starting point of lack within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to focus on love primarily as a feeling within myself and that when I am self honest with myself I can see how I have participated in this feeling within myself.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to understand that the reason participating in love as a feeling is not best for all is that it is simple/easy to manipulate how I feel or how another feels through symbols which are not real/offer no substance and are not in fact giving to another person what is best for them, but these symbols generate a feeling and that the abuse comes from the point that I will use the feeling as confirmation that love is existing instead of looking at whether an action has produced a result that is best, physically.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that everyone experiencing the feeling of love within themselves is more important than having their physical needs met.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the justification that suffering and abuse exist on earth because God loves us and wants to give us free will so that we may love him freely, when in fact I am only justifying that the abuse continue as long as I am able to feel the energy of love within me, not realizing that if I were on a planet where everything I need physically is guaranteed and that I could trust all other beings in fact because all had the starting point to always do what was best, that this state of existence would be positive beyond anything I have ever felt or could even imagine feeling, because I have only ever experienced a temporary, fleeting feeling called love in the context of a world where lack, competition, and abuse is the norm.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that love in a relationship, where love is based on each partner's desire for a feeling, guarantees that the relationship will likely fail or will never produce an outcome that is best for all, because each partner will compromise themselves in order to generate the feeling, where one would not stand up for what is best because it might jeopardize one's ability to generate the feeling of love.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty for considering that I should not participate in the feeling of love, which would indicate that in fact, love is the same as guilt and that love implies guilt - guilt being 'original sin' or 'flawed human nature' or the acceptance that humans are inherently bad, showing that love is a reaction to this internalized guilt to make oneself feel better about accepted the 'fact' that one is bad and cannot change, when it is the participation in feelings over doing what is best that makes one 'bad' in fact and that this CAN be changed through self forgiveness.

I forgive myself that I have never considered that just because something 'feels good' that it has no bearing on whether it is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge drug addicts when in fact I am addicted to feelings and emotions and thoughts as energy.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that the consequence of placing feelings and emotions as more important than simply doing what is best is that my relationships will be subject to the ebb and flow of emotion and the influence of media where the game is to attempt to manipulate my and my partner's feelings and emotions through symbols to put me into a state where I feel 'not good enough' so that I will seek out things to buy or do that will make me feel 'good'.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I have used the threat of withholding love as a way to control the behavior of others and that this is the primary control mechanism that parents use to control their children which produces a society of adults that feel unloved and thus are always seeking love instead of being stable within themselves, giving as they want to receive, where giving is a physical action, not an experience within themselves and that I can never know what another person is feeling but I can assess with common sense whether I am giving to them what is best.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that love is a trap, which we use to ensnare other into a special relationship that gives energy to our minds and which traps us in cycles of addition as we need more and more everytime we come down from the feeling of love and that this is a major driving force behind consumerism as is evident in holidays like valentine's day and christmas where symbolism is used to generate feelings so that we do not question why we are trading our time for money to buy gifts for each other that have no physical value while half the world starves.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I have trapped myself in a prison of love that blinds me from what is really going on on earth and that I use this feeling to entertain me instead of focusing my attention on real problems and the one REAL problem that faces me which is death and that I have not allowed myself to realize that the feeling of love will end at death and that this proves that love is not real.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I and everyone else are trapped in a prison where everyone is looking for love and in this is not GIVING what all would require as physical needs for this prison to become a paradise, in fact, and that no one is willing to GIVE first because we all only really care about our own feeling of love inside, and yet not realizing that the ONLY WAY to get love for real, everlasting, is to ensure that everyone has what they need so that there is no more need for competition or fighting or struggle for survival and that this condition would create a family of man where each one love each other as themselves.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that REAL LOVE would be to create a system that ensures that all have equally what they require to exist in an optimal state, here, physically, and that all feelings, whether negative or positive, are unimportant and of no value where they interfere with the creation of such a system, and thus I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to place feelings in the proper context, where as I walk the process of self correction as myself and this world, I GIVE to all and myself equally and thus I will eventually RECEIVE equally which is what LOVE ought to be, as a physical expression and manifestation.

I commit myself to investigate all the ways in which I have used 'love' as a feeling within myself as a justification to not consider how I am living/acting in relationships practically/physically.

I commit myself to investigate and uncover and expose all the ways in which we have used love in society in order to justify abuse and consumerism that have caused consequences that are not best for all.

I commit myself to stand as an example that one can do what is best for all and yet not expect any feelings of love or participate in feelings of love, nor any feelings at all, and within this I commit myself to the process of stopping all feelings as this will support me to stand here within the principle of what is best for all where I am able to do what needs to be done, no matter how I feel, and thus I am no longer allowing myself to be controlled and manipulated by those who have mastered the law of attraction to distract us from what is here, because I stand clear, breath by breath, assessing my reality and doing what is necessary to adjust the system so that REAL LOVE as giving to all equally can in fact exist for the first time on earth.

Redefining 'Giving as We Want to Receive' in a World of Conditional Giving

What does it mean to give as we want to receive in the context of this world?

It is easy to deceive ourselves, but if we do, we will have to face the consequence of such a deception, so let us tread carefully and really investigate and consider what this concept implies. It can also be formulated as "do unto another as you would have them do unto you".

In this formulation it is also quite easy to deceive ourselves, so let us look at the ways in which we have done so, so that we can get to the bottom of these statements, because when we really investigate them, we will find that they hold the key to creating heaven on earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define 'doing unto another as I would have another do unto me' as merely the act of being kind, or smiling, or contributing to a charity, or giving a friend a helping hand, or any other individual act that I perform only when the opportunity arise or when I become aware of a need in the moment. I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I use these acts to deceive myself from really understanding what 'doing unto another' or 'giving as I want to receive' really means.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the reason people have hardships or lack what they need is due to the fact that we live in a world system that is not designed in a way to prevent lack, and in fact creates lack for many unnecessarily while only a few benefit more than necessary.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to use the idea that "I am a good person because I help others in need" as a way to deceive myself to not look at how I in fact contribute to the world system being what it is so that it creates tremendous lack and suffering for many, including many children.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that all charities that purport to feed the hungry or clothe the poor or otherwise help those in unfortunate circumstances all exist within the context of the same system that is generating the problem which is the inequality that is the lack and that in fact these charities, although the intention may be to help those in need, in fact make the situation worse, because they serve, in the bigger picture, to placate those who see the problem and want to do something about it and yet misdirect them in such a way they will never stand up and solve the problem once and for all.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that small individual acts of kindness or large charitable acts do not solve the problem of inequality and lack and only serve to give those who perform the acts or contribute to the charities a feeling that they are doing something good and thus the problem is never solved for real.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I have not in fact been interested in solving the problem, that I don't in fact care about solving the problem, that the problem of lack and inequality is actually something that I use to generate energy within myself which I experience as being a 'good person' and that this is evident because when someone or something points out to me that I am only doing so because I get a good feeling out of it, I become defensive and angry, which indicates that I am trying to protect this belief construct within me because otherwise I would have no reaction and would instead clearly explain how what I am doing solves a problem so that another may see for themselves and correct the error of their thinking, judgment, and/or ways.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I support/contribute to/believe in charities and charitable causes as a way to avoid self responsibility for contributing to/causing/supporting the problem which the charity purportedly addresses.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the idea that there are so many 'good things' going on in the world that they cancel out or make irrelevant all the 'bad things' that occur - not allowing myself to see/realize/understand that if something good happens to one person that has no affect on the person to which something bad is happening, and the only way I can support such a statement is if I look at life and all living things as numbers on a spreadsheet where individual experiences and lives are irrelevant in the bigger picture, though I would not, of course, apply this thinking to my OWN LIFE as I have placed my OWN LIFE as the most important, although I will deny it if asked, even within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that 'my life' is more important than another life, and that I have, while accepting this, deceived myself by pretending to believe or assert that all life matters, even though my actions do not show this, they show the opposite in terms of my actual starting point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the idea of giving to charities as an excuse to not have to implement a system that values and thus gives to all equally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the words communism and socialism.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel positive and empowered by the word capitalism.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the word equality does not imply communism nor socialism, nor does it preclude capitalism, and the fact that such an association exists within me is due to my having been imprinted with and accepted and allowed such an imprint within me from my environment through my parents, education, and media.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the idea that giving must be done voluntarily is a way I deceive myself to not consider what giving really is and that if it depends on my conscious act in a moment or only when there already exists a problem, that this is not a solution, and instead a way of deceiving myself from realizing/considering/acknowledging that I do not want the system to change because I do not want to change, because I am comfortable the way I am, regardless of how that might affect others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the statement that all have an equal opportunity in this world as a reason to not change the system to one that values and gives to all life equally as a way to not have to change anything or myself, when in fact the evidence is clear if I were to look and be self honest that all do not have the same opportunities, that many are born with inferior nutrition, which permanently affects brain development and IQ, inferior education - especially in the most imporant early years, which permanently affects ones ability to compete in the current system and earn an effective living, inferior parenting where some experience constant daily physical/emotional/sexual abuse that leaves a permanent scar on the person's psyche so that the person is not able to see themselves as equal to other's in relationship and so will continue to allow abuse or in fact be the abuser later in life, automatically without realizing it in many cases, and these are only a few examples of how everyone does not have an equal opportunity because simply that an opportunity exists is not the only reason a person is able to take advantage of it, it is how well the person is prepared that makes the difference and the vast majority of a person's preparation for life occurs in the first 7 years, which we know are not effective for the VAST majority of humans beings on earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that a system that gives to all equally is a form of theft, within the justification that I and others work for what they have and thus those who do not work have no right to what I have worked for as money, even though it is a fact that the money I have worked for was created out of thin air and only given out with the expectation that it is paid back with interest and so I am not actually creating anything of my own, I am in fact a slave in a debt system, and yet I justify my slavery and that of others because I believe that I am free, but in fact the only choice I have is whether to continue to accept and allow the enslavement of myself and everyone else or to stop it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that when I work I create something that is 'mine' when in fact that is only so due to the laws that we have created and is thus existing primarily in my imagination and yet made physical through systems of protection that protect those with money from those without.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that my imagination is quite limited and that there must be a way we can create a system of equality that gives to all equally while maximizing individual freedom within the context of what is best for all and that such a system would in fact create a life experience for me and everyone else that is far superior to our current life experience in every way imaginable and even beyond our imagination.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that my imagination is the product of a system that is designed to enslave me for the benefit of only a few and thus I cannot trust my imagination without question.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the sun gives its energy to the earth freely with no expectation for something in return or the repayment of its energy with interest.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that human beings, although we believe we are the highest form of life on earth and the most evolved or that we have dominion over the physical, are in fact less than the sun in our willingness to give to each other unconditionally within the realization that we would in fact receive as we have given.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that, in the current system, I have given virtually everything of myself to be able to make money and have a basic form of comfort, so much so that I have barely been able to enjoy any moment of my existence free of worry, anxiety, fear, or discomfort, and so my life is a complete contradiction, because all I have done is work for my survival, when a system could be designed that creates the conditions so that all survive as a matter of course and existence becomes something other than constant focus on survival and that I may have to give some of my time and labor towards such a system but that if we as humans were to sit down and really put our focus on designing such a system that would benefit all equally, then we could create something that requires FAR LESS of our time and labor, individually, to support and would in fact improve our lives beyond anything we can currently conceive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myselt to misuse my imagination to prevent me from seeing how to free myself and everyone else by simply firstly recognizing that we are all in fact equal, and that a system that supports all equally is not something that would have to be imposed, because it would be working with the reality of what is here, and that it would simply have to be agreed upon and implemented, and yet the current system is constantly imposed through threat and fear of not surviving to force most to do what they would rather not do otherwise, and in this I have created an idea that many will be lazy if they were not forced to work to survive, when I haven't realized that if there were a system of equality and parents were supported effectively they could show their children that it is in everyone's best interest to support such a system and they could learn how to live in such a system so that they are willing to give whatever labor is required (which would be far and substantially less than what is required currently, which is essentially one's entire life and being) and then we could have a system that does not put people in a constant state of fear, anxiety, and lack which is the source of virtually all abuse, theft, laziness, and power struggle.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that an equality system could be implemented through mutual agreement and does not require force, although it would require an educated population, and that our current system is in fact maintained by force and without agreement, except for the manufactured agreement obtained through forcing everyone through a dumbing down process which we call school/education where people are produced who cannot reason effectively, are highly emotionally reactive, and have no common sense or ability to see reality directly and thus are in fact begging for a system or authority to take responsibility for them even if they can see that that system has not served anyone in the best way, they will take it because they have no ability to take self responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the reason I want to protect what I believe is mine is that we have created/accepted/allowed a world where giving is conditional and that if we were to reengineer the system to one of unconditional giving, my entire life would change to be one of unconditional receiving from all and that would in fact be what I have been searching for as 'Bliss'.

I commit myself to investigate/explain/expose/demonstrate how, through effective education, we can produce a person who is able to reason  effectively and be able to cooperate with other humans naturally and without the need to dominate.

I commit myself to investigate/explain/expose/demonstrate how, through effective parenting, a child can be supported to understand unconditional giving, to recognize the equality of all life, and to be able to live effectively in a system that supports all equally and that maximizes individual freedom in the context of what is best for all.

I commit myself to investigating/exposing how all of the current ways of addressing problems in this world, in fact, support the continuation/creation of the problems and are at best band-aids that do not solve the problems, and at worst prevent people from seeing/recognizing and standing up and solving the problem in actuality.

I commit myself to expose all those who stand against equality of all life to show how really they are accepting fear, separation, and are unwilling to change themselves and in fact have become like system agents to protect the system at all costs, and to show that through writing, self-forgiveness, and corrective application one can change oneself to see and stop the problem within, to release fear, to realize fear is not real, to realize that there is nothing to fear, and to understand that in fact, all fear is due to the continued acceptance of the system which is driving further separation of ourselves from Life and that by stopping it within and without we can create a world that would best be described as Heaven on Earth and that this is something that must be done freely by each one and further I commit myself to stand as a living example that it is possible so that others might join me in letting go of the illusions that we have created within and without so that we might find out what Life is for real.

If God loves the world why does He allow suffering and evil?

Many who believe in God explain evil in this world by saying that God gives us free will. In other words, he gives us the freedom to choose good or bad actions. The rationality being that he wants us to choose to love him and each other freely, without coercion.

But those of you that have children, and I would assume you love them more than anything, do you let them choose between good actions and bad actions? Are they free to run around your house and do anything they want, for example set the house on fire, steal from your neighbors, hurt themselves, hurt each other?

If you went to someone's house, and you saw them allowing their children to do these things, what would you say about that parent? Would you say, "oh clearly this parent loves their children so much that they give them the freedom to do whatever they want so that when the child does the right thing they're doing it freely!" ???

Why do we apply one set of logic to "God" and another logic to humans?

When something terrible, like 9/11 happens, do we say "oh look evidence of God's work in the world, evidence of God's love for us, of our freedom to choose?"

Or do we lash out at the perpetrators, and hold them accountable, and punish them using human laws, human prisons, and human punishments?

If our faith in God was absolute, why wouldn't we allow them the same freedom of choice that God does? If we don't, does it mean we don't love our neighbor as God does?

When we punish our children, or at least attempt to direct their behavior towards what we consider best, are we being less than God? Or are we exercising our common sense that if a child is not directed in terms of how to act in a way that is best for themselves and others then there will be consequences that affect others and ultimately will come back on the child.

So do you raise your children allowing their complete freedom of will like God? Or do YOU decide what is BEST?

Or are we perhaps abusing the concept of "free will" ? How can we define free will in a way that doesn't create unintended consequences? Because the current definition ALLOWS and JUSTIFIES abuse. And yet, we don't even apply this definition universally. As individuals, we tend to apply this definition to justify OUR actions and thoughts and beliefs that are not best, and yet we hold everyone else to the standard of paying for their actions, thoughts, and beliefs when they hurt other people or ourselves especially.

What if the true meaning of "free will" is the freedom to always choose what is BEST in any given situation? Whether you believe in "truth" or not, at the very least, doesn't this definition serve us and others better?

Of course, in the way the world works today, it is not always possible to choose what is best from the bigger perspective, because we have to survive. And so we all do things that we know are not best because if we don't, ultimately it's a lot harder to survive in this world. In self honesty, don't you observe that those who are the most dishonest, the best liars, the best cheaters, the best abusers, tend to make the most money? You may say that people get what they have coming, but deep down you know that isn't true. Because otherwise you would never blame anyone in any position at any level of society for any problems in this world. Because they would've got what they had coming and would not be allowed or be able to continue in the position they are in. There would be no oil cartels, drug cartels, monopolies, starvation, suffering. With enough money you can virtually avoid justice in this world. And you know what I'm saying is true.

The fact is, saying that God allows free will gives you permission to participate in a system of abuse, for example our money system, while billions starve and lack basic necessities.

If God were here on earth, wouldn't he do something about this situation? Isn't that what Jesus attempted to do? And yet the world crucified him. Is that what you fear for yourself? Are you not actually free to exercise your will due to fear?

Did God allow Jesus to have free will? What does it say in the Bible, that God so loved the world that he sent his only son to die for OUR sins?

What parent would do that? A loving one?

So, if we are to exercise our free will properly, knowing that we have a system of abuse in this world, wouldn't that imply that even within that limitation, proper use of our free will would be to choose in every moment that which would support a change in the system that would free us from the bonds of a system of slavery, abuse, and competition for survival?

Isn't that what Jesus would do?

Self honesty means looking at your beliefs within commonsense, not justifying your own self interest and fear, but based on considering the actual consequences of holding such beliefs.

Are you self honest enough to see the common sense in what I'm saying here? Can you forgive yourself if it turns out that you've been wrong this whole time? Or have you given the power to forgive away to something/someone external to you, which is the essence of mysticism?
And what does it mean to take the Lord's name in vain if not to use his name to justify abuse, when He put you on this earth to use your God-given common sense to make it the heaven that it could be.

See you in the comments.

IS LOVE ALL YOU NEED?

IS LOVE ALL YOU NEED?
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Guy back in the 60's in a record shop: Man I love that new song from the Beatles "all you need is love". I really want that album!
Music store worker: groovy, man. We got it in stock. You want it?
Guy: Yeah, baby. Give it to me!
Worker: that'll be 3 dollars, please.
Guy: what? That's false advertising! I love it so you should just give it to me.
Worker: I'd be happy to. All I need is the money.

HAHAHAHAHAHA

A time for Love and a time for Hate

I see some people saying that there's no place for hate in our world. And yet there are plenty of things to hate. Poverty. Suffering. Abuse. Slavery. Competition for survival, to name a few.

Love is important, but it's difficult to love when you're in constant fear. Only a system can love all equally. Currently, our system instills fear and hatred. That must change. It is in fact inevitable.
Love when it is appropriate. Hate when it is appropriate. Learn to use your words effectively and live by them. Otherwise words will control you and nothing will change.

As Jim Rohn says, love like a mother; hate like a father. Nourish like a mother; defend like a father.
Consider all the children suffering in this world with no one to defend them.