Anxiety and Fear as Self Sabotage

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear standing up and speaking up for what is best in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being attacked, punished, bullied, shouted at, called names, threatened, physically harmed, or even killed for standing up and speaking up for what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the judgement and ridicule of family and friends for speaking up and standing up for what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that being attacked for standing up and speaking up for what is best is not a valid excuse to not stand up because I realize that the system must defend itself because it is programmed to survive at all costs, and thus the fear that I feel within is a form of self attack to stop me from standing up and speaking up for what is best and to thus give up, but this in itself is a giving in and a self-manipulation to not change for real, because I realize that the inner change is only real when the outer change is manifest equal and one to the inner change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value on the opinions of others that are not standing up and speaking up for what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be liked by others, and to not realize that wanting to be liked is a program within myself that is only reinforcing my original starting point of fearing the loss of my choice to pursue happiness and energy experience for myself regardless of the cost to myself as my physical body and this physical existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to program my body to produce a feeling of anxiety when someone argues against what I stand for, and that I have not stopped this program, but accepted and allowed it to be natural, not realizing that it is a way in which I have programmed myself to stop myself from challenging the energy-authority within myself that if I were to continue accepting as authority will lead to my eventual end and will keep this world locked into a pattern of abuse and fear as I never would have stood up and adjusted the external system, because to do so, will require that I face criticism, argument, and attack from many levels.

I commit myself to investigating through writing, self-forgiveness, and self-corrective application the ways in which I have programmed my body to respond to anything that would challenge the energy-authority within and/or money authority without by producing feelings of fear and anxiety.

I commit myself to speak up and stand up, despite any and all feelings of fear and anxiety, and I realize that it will be a process to stop all these feelings, and within that I will continue to speak and to stand, and not any more accept and allow a feeling to stop me from doing what is best.

Am I Just a Copy of a Copy?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that every word I ever learned was copied by my physical body as a copy of how it exists in the person that was in my presence when I learned the word, in other words, I am just a copy of those who were here already when I was born.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am just a copy of all the previous generations that have gone before me, which includes me as well, and thus I am Here to either continue living out the past as a copy or direct myself within rewriting who I am and how I live and express myself in the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have free choice to be who I want to be when I had never in fact questioned the starting point of my choices which have been to always choose that which continues the focus of myself within as generated friction and conflict to generate energy within myself and thus that which I participate in as external events and situations are all within the context of that which supports this point within me and thus as a reflection of what I am accepting and allowing within me, manifests a world where the external system is using up the physical world and human beings just to generate more energy for itself as a point of survival as money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself, my parents, and other parents that we have not given the best to our children and that I was not given the best as a child due to us having accepted and allowed the consequence/manifestation of a system that requires us to work for money for survival even in sacrifice of the most important thing in this world which is the education and support of the new generation of children in this world, which ends up only preparing the children to do the exact same thing as the parent which is to exist only to fit into the system of working for survival - and yet no one really fundamentally questions the point of all of this and we have accepted and allowed the creation of clever stories like religion and spirituality that there is apPARENTly something better after this life, which no common sense applied to see that the fact that one accepts and allows reality to be fucked up here on earth shows that one will simply accept and allow whatever happens after and that if this place is fucked up (and its not our fault, apparently) then whoever supposedly created this place is obviously quite fucked up and shouldn't be trusted to create something better beyond this world, and yet the reason people can't see this obvious problem is due to their parents not educating them effectively with common sense and instead instilling them with fear of survival.

I commit myself to stop the fear of survival within myself - point by point - no matter what it takes or how long it takes - to support my children to stop the fear of survival - to educate them for real - to support them to develop an effective vocabulary so that they can LIVE words and not just be a programmed response/reaction to words as automated consciousness, but to be able to stand in this system in support of what is best for all, and to do this for myself and to support other parents to do this to support their children to become REAL HUMAN BEINGS who care about life and the planet and each other and are able to express that with no FEAR.

I commit myself to show that all parents are not in fact parenting their children effectively but are in fact neglecting their child in many ways in the interest of survival and yet this is considered as completely normal by society because it serves the interests of corporate profit where both parents work and thus there is twice the disposable income to be fed back into the money system.

Fear as Resistance to Real Change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that fear is a chemical feeling produced by the body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that all fear is resistance to change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to utilize fear as a way to prevent me from changing for real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that fear is the automated feeling that I have accepted and allowed myself to be programmed as a response to doing that which would represent a change in my patterns of behavior.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have used fear to control my body, like a slave master uses a whip and chains to control a slave.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that fear is the mechanism through which my mind manipulates me to continue participating in energy, and that I have allowed this to occur.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that fear is rational and protects me when in fact it only protects the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the story in my imagination of having to experience fear at the sight of a dangerous animal in order to motivate myself into running away as protection or to increase adrenaline in order to fight as an excuse/justification to not consider that it is not the feeling of fear itself, nor the production of adrenaline itself that causes the body to be able to run or fight (if necessary) but the physical body itself, and thus I have placed the power within the inappropriate place as the mind/feelings/chemical response when in fact it is the physical body itself where all real substantial physical power and ability resides.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when the feeling of fear comes up within my chest/stomach, to allow that to direct from doing that which is best in the moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that all fear as a response pattern within me was programmed in primarily in the first 7 years of my life as child and copied from my parents and those in my immediate environment and that I am now responsible for investigating and forgiving all the chemical memories that I have within me and that my thoughts are now constructs of words that justify the fear feelings and thus the way to stop the fear which is based in a chemical memory is to investigate the words that come up as a justification - to see what they present to me as a construct that is holding a memory in place, to forgive all the points within the construct and to release the feeling/energy being held in place as a memory by the construct of words.

I commit myself to utilizing the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, and self corrective application to investigate all the feelings that come up within me as fear as resistance to change and within that to investigate the constructs around these feelings as words, moment to moment, breath by breath - daily, regardless of how long it takes, as I realize that this is the only way that I will be able to stand Here in and as oneness and equality because it is the only way to stop accepting and allowing my body to be controlled and manipulated based on feelings and words both as my mind and as the world system as money and thus support myself to stand within this world in a position of stability to adjust the system so that it is best for all and to thus stop the cycles of programming children with fear through chemical addiction to feelings.

The Power of Moment by Moment Accumulation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the power that exists in a moment, where it is in the moment that I either direct myself within common sense, breathing in, checking to see if energy or thoughts move within, forgiving myself, and breathing out or whether I allow myself to abdicate my self-responsibility to the mind to automate the generation of energy through thoughts, feelings, and emotions in each moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the simplicity of the moment wherein, in the moment between in breath and out breath, I am able to stop participating in what is not best and direct myself withing what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it is in the moment that I either accumulate within that breath what is best or not, and it is in the next breath that I either accumulate what is best or not, and thus it is the breath by breath, moment by moment, 1 + 1 accumulation that creates either what is best or manifests what is not best as a consequence that must be faced at some point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in the moment, where I am allowing myself to think, that I am allowing a lot more than is obvious to run automated within my body that will produce consequences that are not obvious in that moment while I am participating in the mind, and thus I realize that there the consequences that are manifested in the world are in fact the result of each of us, myself included, participating in the mind, giving Energy as Consciousness the authority to create the world around me, and thus even though it now appears to be something outside of myself, out of my control, it is actually quite simple and measurable how the external world has manifested moment by moment as an accumulation, and thus the key to creating a world that is best is to first stop all the automation within myself that creates consequence that is not best that I am not directing 'directly' so to speak and to then re-automate myself within self-direction to always act in ways that are best for all, and within this I realize that this is a step-by-step accumulation process, 1 + 1, as I stop in each moment and bring all that energy which I have allowed to create consequence in my name, back to myself, and then re-establish my authority as Life as self-directive principle as what is best in each moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel that the task of stopping and recreating myself is a monumental task, when it is in fact, simply a breath by breath task, that accumulates, and that this is how the world as it currently exists was created, and that I never considered it to be monumental before because I didn't care about the consequence, because I was only considering me, and now that I am considering what is best for all, the feeling of being overwhelmed or the feeling that the task is monumental is in fact nothing more than the consequence that I have accumulated by giving power and authority to my decision to only participate in energy over eons of time, and thus the feeling is just the resistance to change, it is just the consequential outflow of the mind being programmed to keep me in cycles of seeking positive energy through the creation of negative, and thus I forgive myself for identifying with the desire to not want to stop, which is really just fear of loss, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I participate in the mind as seeking energy for myself that I have already lost, and thus the fear of loss is just a control mechanism that I had accepted and allowed to prevent me from reversing my original decision.

I commit myself to daily investigate, through writing, self-forgiveness, and self-correction application the points that I am still accepting and allowing to go undirected within each breath - to point by point, part by part, uncover and expose to myself where I am still not stopping, still allowing excuses, still allowing myself to participate in feelings and thoughts, and to thus step by step dismantle this system that I have accepted and allowed within me which is contributing to the maintenance of the system without that is automatically creating conditions that are not best for all.

I commit myself to investigating, through writing, self-forgiveness, and self-corrective application the points within the world system that are automated to produce conditions that are not best, to get to know the system in detail, and to thus stand within the system as an authority, not needing validation from knowledge and information systems without as 'the experts' but to see the system directly for myself and to thus direct the system as myself within a group within the principle of what is best for all.

The Power Within Words

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that everything about who I am and how I exist and function in the world is based on the words that I have accepted and allowed within me, how they are defined, the relationships of the words to each other, and my ability to relate to others through words as communication.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the external world is purely built on the relationships that exist between words and the definitions of those words and thus dictate what is created on a daily basis, as all LAWS exist purely as words and thus the politicians and police exist to enact and enforce reality through the words.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that police are the protectors of the relationships between words that have been written down as laws.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the policeman in my head is controlling my body through words.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I control and manipulate others through words.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that when there is no emotional bias or energy charge within me towards a word, I am not able to be manipulated, either by the policeman in my head (which was created by my parents through their words when I was in my first 7 years as a child) or by others as an adult who know how to use words to trigger emotions and feelings within others (which is everyone, as this is a basic survival pattern existent within each of us, passed down as the sins of the fathers and mothers).

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that by walking through each word, one by one, and checking to see how I have accepted and allowed it to be defined, that I am therefore able to correct the definition and remove the emotional charge within the word through self-forgiveness, I am able to dismantle the control systems that I have allowed to be automated to act in my name that are keeping me in cycles of negative/positive energy creation and thus accepting and allowing the same in the world without in the form of the money system.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that, in order to stand within the world system and adjust it to be best for all, I must become intimate with every word upon which the system is based, and that I cannot realign a system based on words, when I have not realigned the system within myself that is based on words, which is my vocabulary.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that my mind, and my self interest, is purely a set of vocabulary within myself that speaks to me and knows all the emotional hot buttons to push to keep me trapped in a cycle of energy, and yet I cannot blame this as something outside of me, because I have, in fact, accepted and allowed this system to be built, one word at a time, like a house being built, one brick at a time, and now this is the house that I live in and in fact hide within to not face the reality of what I have allowed to be created outside of me as the world system.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that this house I have built through words is in fact a house of cards and that the slightest breeze can blow it down in a moment, which is why I have created an energetic protection mechanism, as like a firewall, that will not allow anything to come into my awareness that might shake my foundations, but I know that this cannot last forever, because the final breeze, is a simple breath at death, and in that final breath, if my house is not a real, solid, stable structure in the physical that is rooted in the physical as what is best for all, if there is any separation, any ego as protection and self-defense, then that simple breeze as breath will annihilate everything that I have been holding onto, and then it will be too late.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that HERE is the space and time for me to walk my mind as how I have constructed it through symbols and words as a set body of information that is like a memorized textbook of who I believe I am but was simply given to me by someone I believed was the authority but in fact this was the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil and even though I was warned not to eat of this fruit, the temptation was enough, which has exposed my true weakness, which is that I have not really cared about being real, about being here as oneness and equality with all life, but I have only ever been all about me as an experience of temptation and naughtiness and I have deceived myself into believing that I can get away with this game for eternity, but now my very creation has come full circle and is showing me at every turn that this cannot last, and that this is my last chance to stand up and change, both myself within, and the world without as what I have accepted and allowed to be created while I have been busy entertaining myself with energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that this entire world is built brick by brick as each person, who is a brick, who is building themselves as knowledge and information, brick by brick, and that unless I check each brick within myself and support each person to check each brick within themselves, through my example and sharing of the tools that I have/am using and applying, then this world will never change, and the children born into this world will have even less of a chance of rebuilding this world, because the bricks they are being given to build with are corrupted, crumbled, and broken - thus the words we are teaching our children are not defined in ways that support life, but only self-interest, where words are not used to build a world of equality where all are supported with a solid foundation to exist here within dignity and excellence, but rather our words have become like swords, weapons we use to abuse and attack and blame and spite and take - thus we must align our vocabulary to that which support us and each other as equals to give as we want to receive - otherwise our words will end up being the swords we fall on and there will be no savior, as the savior can only point the way through words, they cannot change who I am for me, only I can do that.

I commit myself to show that simply by examining and realigning our words and vocabulary to that which supports what is best for all as Life as equality and oneness we can create a new world that honors life.

I commit myself to show that the primary tasks that are available is to one: reeducate everyone to a point of equal effectiveness within a vocabulary that is supportive of giving as one want to receive - and two: realign the laws that are the structured vocabulary that define what the collective agreement is as to how the relationships that govern the distribution of resources that are freely given by the earth in order to support the optimal functioning of all forms of life on earth and to improve the balance through healthy competition to establish peace on earth in all forms to a point where I would have no problem swapping places with any other being on earth as I would know that all relationships have been realigned so that all who are Here are able to express themselves fully and that all lack and limitation, as far as practically possible, has been removed and so Life may blossom for once, and that this is the only valid reward for a life well lived and the only valid use for my existence, and within this I commit myself to prove to others that this is not a special quality, but something that anyone can do, all that is required is dedication to taking responsibility, brick by brick, word by word, for how we have defined who we are and how we have defined what Life is and what is the reason and purpose of existence.

I commit myself to moving past any and all resistance to standing as the real authority in education to show that real education begins and ends with a properly aligned vocabulary that is complete and sound and supports what is best for all in every way, and that this is the only education that will ever produce a human being that is reasonable and effective as a creator that produce only that which is best for all and therefore does not create consequences that harm.

Giving Up the Illusion to Create the Solution

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value in that which makes me feel good.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that focusing on what feels good allows that which is undirected as the automated processes within my mind as consciousness to run rampant and create consequences within me and the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only want to change when I experience something negative.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see/realize that the starting point of looking for the positive as a reaction to the negative is exactly what my mind is automated to do to support me to remain trapped within cycles of creation of consequences that further trap me into seeking positive energy experience.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that my entire life has been that of seeking positive rewards in reaction to experiencing a negative and not allowing myself to realize that I have in fact created the negative as the perfect excuse to pursue the positive.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that there are those in this world that only ever experience the negative and are in no position to ever create a positive, and that this same system is that which supports me to create positive from the negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that giving up the search for the positive means that I am eternally damned to face only negative, when in fact it is the search for the positive - which REQUIRES the creation of negative - that has eternally damned me to eternally experience negative and that eventually everyone, including myself, will face the point of no longer being able to experience positive, as the system is no longer working effectively, as is evidenced by the acceleration of revolution and protest around the world over the last 7 years.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the warning signs around the world as the physical manifested evidence that the system is not working and to not see that any solution that does not create a system that ensures everyone's basic needs at all levels is doomed to fail from the beginning and that all political solutions currently being offered up are only like bandaids to protect the wealth of the elite and the middle class, but in self-honesty I can see that the lower class is only growing in numbers and growing in resentment towards those with money and that eventually everyone will find themselves on the losing side and yet this could be prevented if enough people stand up now and present solutions that will support everyone equally.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the pursuit of positive experience within myself is the reason why I have not been able to stand in a position of influence in the system, because when I only look for positive feedback, I cut myself off from a position of responsibility in the system, because anyone who stands up for real will be attacked with vitriol and nastiness beyond my current ability to perhaps understand or see - and thus by stopping the search for the positive, I am able to stand here clearly and face what is in this world head on and stand in the face of criticism and attack and yet say and do what needs to be done.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that the system, as it is, will never support real solutions for education, politics, and economics, because the system, as it is, is only designed to seek its own positive energy in the form of MONEY which requires the creation of negative as abuse, destruction, war, etc and that as I stand in a position of offering up and promoting real solutions that the system is not going to validate what I am presenting, and thus if I allow myself to continue to seek positive reward from others, I will never be able to stand, because I am not going to get that, by design, as I stand in the system with a real solution.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the education system, as it is, will never validate the real solution to equal education for all, because the education system is simply a reflection of the money system which only seeks to secure profit for the few and thus the education system will only ever produce elite vs consumers, and even within that, it is failing, and thus the time is now to stand with the solution to equal education for all and yet even within this the solution to equal education will support those who apply it to be able to stand in the CURRENT system so that they are able to survive but also educate themselves to become reasonable and thus adjust the system so that it is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place a veil of energy over my eyes where I will only allow positive feelings and experiences to guide my decisions.

I commit myself to removing the veil of energy - to stopping participation in looking for, seeking, searching for positive validation, when the only validation, the only authority required is common sense and self honest investigation and practical application of that which works within the context of what is best.

I commit myself to become, be, and stand as the authority within education to show that how to educate a child to be both effective in living and reasonable with others is simple and practically doable, if one applies themselves within the solution that we have been shown, applied, and now promote.

I commit myself to become, be, and stand as the authority in politics, to show that a solution to the problem of inequality is possible, practical, and doable and that politics can be adjusted to a system of one man one vote where we no longer require leaders but all can vote directly on policy matters and that this will require a reeducation of humanity to be reasonable, able to see common sense, and be willing to give as one wants to receive.

I commit myself to place my life on the line, to give up all self-interest that only serve to feed the ego of looking for positive energy, and to stand with those who are willing to do the same and to accumulate a result in this physical world that is measurable and undeniable and inevitable to bring about a system that gives to all equally what each one require to live and exist in this world in an optimal way.

Stopping the Desire for a Quick Fix

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that stopping the mind, so as to be here and self aware as life, is not something that necessarily happens immediately simply because I want it to stop - but rather it is the result of taking mind apart, point by point, and applying myself within self honesty to forgive myself for having accepted and allowed that point to be automated, and thus stopping that point and then moving on to do the same with the next point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be focused within my mind on the result of stopping the mind, within imagination, rather than focused consistently, daily, moment by moment, breath by breath, on the process that would produce such a result as an accumulation.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that when I allow myself to be preoccupied within thinking, that all the points that I have not directed are allowed to run rampant under the surface, to grow and accumulate and this is what creates consequences for myself and the world which I then have to face as a manifestation, and that the only way to stop this cycle is to both stop in each moment as I find myself participating in thinking, but to also daily apply myself within the self-directive process of examining what is within myself as automated behavior, thoughts, feelings, and emotions that is manifesting behaviors and directing my physical body and this physical existence to continue in a way that is not best and that only further supports the environment to create generations of children that are born with no example of how to be here and live within and as equality and oneness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty that it has taken me a long time to realize the necessity of walking this process within specificity and without excuse and I realize that this sense of guilt serves me as a reminder to not allow myself to fall back into any form of excuse of participating in energy and the mind, and at the same time is not a valid excuse to not walk this process, because regardless of what I have allowed in the past, the only valid way to exist is to walk this process of taking responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed within me to become an automatic process of using and abusing my physical body and this physical existence for the creation of energy and energy experience which is not best.
 
I commit myself to through writing, self-forgiveness, and self-corrective application to daily assess the points that my mind presents as thoughts, feelings, and judgments and that my body presents as pain, and the resistances and fears that come up, the energetic movements, to investigate them, understand how I have automated these points to generate energy within myself, find their source within myself and bring them back to my self and stop them, so that I may daily, step by step walk myself back from the mind, as living in quantum energy time, back to the physical, to be here breath by breath in awareness of what I am living and accepting and allowing.

I commit myself, to while walking this inner process, to walk the system of this world, to walk within education, business and politics to place myself in a position to be able to bring forth solutions and adjust the system and present solutions that are best for all that can be voted on, and to utilize the inner process to remove any limitations that come up within my mind as to why I cannot stand in a position of responsibility in the system and to also support others who are willing to walk this process to do the same.

Doing this for Me

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that walking the 7 year journey to nothingness is about what is best for Me, existentially.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to walk in this world looking for recognition from others, not as a point of self-honest feedback, but as a point of creating an energetic feeling experience within myself, which I had accepted and allowed myself to define as the ultimate reward.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek energy as reward.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that energy in itself is of any value as reward, when self-honestly I can see the reality of it, the consequence of the up and down, the angst and ecstasy of participating in the cycles of energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that all forms of judgment and excitement are indicators that I am still participating in the energy reward game and thus in those moment I allow myself to realize that the only solution is in the breath - breathing in, bringing the energy back into myself, whether positive or negative, and forgiving myself and stopping, and thus breathing out within self honesty that I am no longer participating in that energy as a point of distraction from what is here as the physical reality.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that it is both the within myself, the self honesty within stopping participation within thoughts and feelings, and the without as walking the world system to stand within and as it to adjust it so that as I am stopping participation in the pursuit of energy within, that I am stopping the pursuit of energy without as this world system, and thus this is really about me, and not about blame or judgment of others or systems, but about me proving to me that I am really in fact changing, and that the only way to measure this is both within myself, in self honesty, equal to and one with changing the without as a measurable change in the world as adjusting the systems to stop the cycles of abuse in the name of energy and profit for only a few and recreating the system in that image and likeness that I am creating within as I stop the cycles of self-abuse in the form of self-interest.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that self-interest is in fact not really about self as what is best, because it is the narrowing of my focus to only an illusion where I am playing a game that only I can see and feel within, but that in reality doesn't last, while the reality of me as a physical body is directed without my direct participation to continue to create abuse within this world which always comes back to me, which is what is creating the impossible situation of every truly fulfilling my self-interest as such, because the self that I am interested in is not real, it is the illusion that I use to distract myself from what is happening to my real self, which I am accepting and allowing to abuse and be abused and consumed for no reason at all.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that there is no sense whatsoever in abusing myself and others, that it literally makes no sense, and that to justify in any way the pursuit of energy as a form of self-interested reward is an indication of lack of any sense whatsoever and is only possible when I or anyone abandons all reason and allows oneself to be completely possessed by an artificial set of rules running on autopilot with no end in sight.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in any way justify the continued pursuit of energy as happiness as experience and feeling, and yet  I realize that I still have points to walk through, and within that I realize that there is no value in using this as an excuse to ever give up or give in, because that would only delay and lengthen the process in space and time that it will take to truly change, because the change is not something that happens in my mind, it is something that happens as a physical process of stopping participation in my mind and directing myself within this world to change the systems that we have allowed to be created either directly or indirectly while we were busy playing the energy game in our minds, and thus this process is not about saving others or being a hero or getting recognition as being a great person, it is about stopping what I am doing and stopping the creation externally of systems and consequences that I have allowed in my name, as the reflection of what I have been participating within as my mind.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that when I participate in the pursuit of positive energy within my mind, it allows the negative to build and run rampant and this is ultimately what will become of me, not the positive, and this same logic applies to the outer world, that as we pursue money and fame and recognition and pleasure, yet we ignore that this comes at the expense of others' lives, we allow negative consequences to build in the physical reality and this is what reality is and has become and will become even more so, unless we stop and reverse all of this within and without, and thus this is not only a becoming, but an unbecoming firstly, because who I have accepted and allowed myself and others and this world to be is truly unbecoming.

I commit myself to stop participation in the mind, to not allow ANY excuse, to realize that the mind will fight, that this is what I have programmed it to do, but to stand firm, to stand as that which I know I am which is a real living being, and not to pretend to others, but to BE THAT WITHIN so that I can stop everything that I have automated within so that I can stand stable without and support this world as myself to become a place that values me and everyone and everything equally and would be the place I would want to have been born into and that I would want my children and all children to be born into as a place of unconditional support and love manifest.

Thinking as a Cycle of Abuse

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge/think about another's failure and to within that create an image within myself as superior and successful and to thus utilize thinking about another's failure as a way to generate positive energy within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire for another to fail in order that I may judge them and in so doing create a positive experience within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place myself in a superior position within my mind and to thus look for negative events and experiences in my world in order to feed my superior position in my mind with energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value within having positive energy experience within myself.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that there is no real value in experiencing positive energy at the cost of another or myself or physical reality and that the only valid 'positive' experience is that in which all of reality is in the winning position and no one/nothing lose in any way whatsoever.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that no one has ever won in a way that is valid and that all forms of winning that are held up both within myself and within this world are always at the expense of a loser and thus within that a consequence is created that ripples out through existence that cause the winner to in some way eventually lose, and that even though it may seem that some never lose, this is not possible to maintain forever, because we are all connected in physical reality and we will eventually become in some way what we have accepted and allowed in every part of existence.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be someone who wants everyone to win at all times and that is dedicated to creating a world where such a reality is possible.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that thinking within my mind is always playing the game of participating within some form of negativity as judgment either towards myself, others, or something in my perceptual or imaginative field in order to create the opposite polarity of positive energy experience within my mind and that this game is actually abusing me physically and all of physical reality and that there is a consequence for this in reality, it is not something that just stays in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the fear of giving up thinking as this is simply another way to keep playing the game of negativity, where the mind, does not want to give up the game, and uses fear to create the negative experience so that I will not stop, and within that I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought that something bad will happen if I give up thinking, when in fact the body is far superior to any thought that the mind can have as is demonstrated in the daily moment to moment functioning of my body that I am not thinking about.

I forgive myself that I have placed value in thinking as a way to not be honest with myself about my real starting point within thinking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that giving up thinking is impossible, when in fact this is just a continuation of the game of thinking.

I commit myself to stopping thinking - to breathe - to catch my thoughts, to observe them, to direct them, to stop participation, to be aware of the real nature of my thoughts, to no longer participate - and within this I realize that the mind is not going to stop willingly and will likely fight and give all kinds of reasons to not stop, but within this I see clearly the consequence of what thinking produce for myself and this world, and I commit myself to walking the process of stopping,  no matter how hard or scary it may seem, and I know that as I apply myself within diligence, eventually it will stop, because the only reason the mind continues is because I continue to feed it with energy through participation.

I commit myself to utilize writing, self-forgiveness, and self corrective application to support myself to identify the points where I still participate in and justify thinking and thus to support myself to walk through every fear, justification, and excuse and thus be a support point for MYSELF to stop and thus to also be an example to others to stop as well and thus to support the creation of a world where we are here as individuals able to really be with each other and consider what is best and no longer create individual worlds in our mind that end up only ever creating chaos in the physical world of which we are all a part.

Parenting Possibilities

Do parents realize the fundamental responsibility they have in this world? We often give lip-service to the role of parenting, recognizing that the parent is creating a new life, shaping a child, etc, but I don't see any parents really looking at what they are fundamentally here to do as a parent.

As a parent, you are not just responsible for your child, you are responsible for the creation of this world. Obviously as an individual, what we accept and allowed and directly and indirectly participate in creates this world, but as a parent with a child you are now shaping the character of a new being emerging into this world, you are in fact cloning yourself, adding another you into this world, 1+1=2.

As a parent, do you see it as your role to simply ensure that your child survives?

As a parent, do you see it as your role to make sure your child is a 'good person'?

Or do you realize that you have the opportunity, if you take full, 100% responsibility, to support the creation and expression of a new form of life that is able to live and function and thus create a world that is best for all?

Do you see that you can fundamentally alter the course of history, which up to this point has just been mankind repeating the same mistakes over and over again, but only if you radically alter the relationship that you create with and towards your child.

Imagine, as a child, growing up in an environment where you are shown, by example, how to give as you want to receive. Imagine being taught, from as early as possible, the keys with which to understand your reality. Imagine never being lied to, never being tricked, never being abused, never being punished, and yet shown what is best and what is not best to do.

Often I see that parents think that if you do not punish a child, then they will become unruly, but that is only because the parent is not taking the time, effort, and disciplined approach to really explain how things work to their child, to make every effort possible to demonstrate, explain why, repeat, ask if the child understands, and be patient while the child makes a mistake and to be there to show the correct way - the best way.

Imagine not being haphazard with what you expose your child to. Imagine questioning every influence on your child to determine what the long term outcome will be on the child's character, imagination, and reasoning ability.

Imagine REASONING with your child, and through that teaching them HOW TO REASON for themselves, and thus supporting them to BECOME REASONABLE.

What if that were possible?

What if it were possible to remove every excuse and fear that you just have to do some things, even though you know they aren't best, because you don't have the time or the energy or your child just has to survive, so you have to use some fear and punishment otherwise they won't survive?

What if by removing all fear, all control, and instead directing the point within common sense, without energy, with clear communication, you could support a child to become, what by comparison one might consider a superior human being - not really superior, just not dumbed down and stunted emotionally - one that can stand in reality and direct themselves and others in the best way, without any fear, without any desire to control others, but with clear understanding of what is acceptable and what is not, free to stand up for what is best and to say NO to what is not?

I'm here to tell you that this is possible.

We are here to show you that this is reality, if you would but learn to remove the fear and the excuses within yourself as a parent.

We now have a child, 2 years and 3 months, at the time of writing this post, that cooperates, listens, learns, communicates, and is reasonable beyond what perhaps anyone would consider possible.

I highly suggest to check out our Facebook page Education is Evolution to see a few examples that demonstrate what is possible when, as a parent, you walk a process of correcting yourself from fear to common sense living. Here are a few examples from the page linked above:

2 year old brushes and flosses his teeth with no struggle

2 year and 3 months old child already learning to read with no force necessary

Fear as the Source of Fear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when confronted with the truth of who I am as seeking energy and feeling good and superior that I, instead of breathing, considering, being honest with myself, stopping and changing, I rather go into justification and blame as a form or defense and protection against not changing my starting point as seeking energy and positive experience for myself only.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the consequences that I see within my life that I know are not best for myself and everyone are here showing me the result of my starting point of who I am and how I am living and thus are an opportunity for reflection for me to change and yet within that I have used these consequences instead as a justification why I cannot change because I must survive, when in fact that which I am attempting to hold onto is the very thing is producing the consequences I am now faced with and thus I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that it is not about changing the past consequences, but stopping and preventing the creation of more consequence, and that until I stop there is no way I would even be able to address the consequences that are already here.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see/realize that I have been living my life, up to now, attempting to manipulate myself and others to change the past rather, not realizing that in having such a starting point I am in fact recreating the past as my present and future, because I am not changing the starting point from which I am creating, which is the pursuit of happiness in contrast to what I see as the sadness of the present, which is really the past.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that those/that which challenge my happiness/pursuit of happiness are not the evil ones, but the ones that are in fact supporting me to see the key to stopping the creation of that which is causing my UNhappiness, but instead I have blamed them as the problem, which is a statement of me not wanting to accepting self responsibility for who I am and what I am creating, which is thus what has kept me in cycles of creating that which I really do not want, ultimately, which is fear and death.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the presence of fear within me is indicating my starting point for why/what I am creating/attempting to create, which is really just an attempt to continue my survival as energy, which is not real, and because I know this deep down, I now realize that this is where the fear is coming from, from the desire to protect that which I know is not real, and as this experience of fear is a negative energy, I am attempting to use this to move myself into a positive experience, and thus within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the positive, which cannot last, as it fades will shift me back into a state of fear, and unless I stop, this is all I will ever exist as - fear - because that which I am attempting to create/hold onto/protect in my moments of fear and in response to fear will never be real, because it is the very UNreality of that which I am attempting to create/hold onto which is driving the fear in the first place.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to ever question my starting point nature as fear, and instead took my fear for granted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to question WHAT exactly it is that fears dying.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear everything being taken, and within that to not question WHAT the nature of that which I believe can be taken is - is it REAL or UNreal?

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that within the starting point of fearing everything/anything being taken from me, I have manifested myself as the very embodiment/expression of TAKING only, taking out of fear, and thus I am not really living, not really giving, and thus because I am TAKING only - what I will receive in EQUAL MEASURE is TAKING in the absolute sense as I have taken that which gives me Life and not allowed that which gives Life to all to be given to all equally - and I have manifested every excuse possible to allow myself to blame this fact on everything/anything but ME to the point where I have accepted and allowed, participated in and benefited from, a system of distribution that creates immense suffering for most all life on earth and in this, because it at least allows me to survive temporarily, I never question or stand up within it to change it, which shows my shortsightedness as well as my starting point of not really caring about anything real, because no one survives existence currently, no one survives death that is not real, because that is the nature of not being real, and thus within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the only way to stop fear is to - STOP FEAR - to stop attempting to take and secure my existence as feeling good as feeling positive as getting energy for myself and rather STOP and ask myself, if I were REAL what would I be doing, what would I be doing with this temporary existence that I have, if there were no fear - if I KNEW that no matter what, I am real, and that only then would I be able to ACT within the starting point of that which is real and that unless I give up all illusions of something MORE and ACT AS IF I am already complete, not lacking, knowing that the only thing that matters is the EFFECT I have in reality in taking back that which I have allowed to be projected from the physical as my symbolic self, bringing myself back to earth, and adjusting the systems that exist here to distribute what is here to all equally - unless I become the solution within/as my self - the living example, then I will in fact never be real and thus all I would ever experience, eternally is fear and death - and thus I forgive myself that I have never stopped before, and that I have used this never having stopped before as a justification to not stop now, in this Life, and I forgive myself that I have allowed any excuse whatsoever to not stop once and for all and allow myself to find out what is beyond fear, what is real, what is Here, and to no longer search for something more, but to simply be Here and discover what is Here, and allow myself to stand equal to and one with all that is here and let go of the need to be special or important, understanding that those things have no meaning or value in the context of having let go of fear as a starting point for existing.

I commit myself to stopping fear in all its facets, both within myself and without as the system that automatically creates reasons for fear in the form of unequal distribution of what is required to function and exist as Life in all its various forms as how Life is currently manifested here as the physical reality.

I commit myself to - through writing, self-forgiveness, and self-corrective application - identify and remove all fear from within me, to breath by breath check the movement within me as energy, feeling, and thought, and to stop participation within each knowing that all energy movement within me as thought and feeling is coming from the starting point of fear, to motivate me to move in response to fear to continue the cycles of negative to positive to negative ad infinitum, and thus I commit myself to stop the cycles of creation of energy and bring back that which I have allowed as energy projection within and as my self as personality and relationship, to bring it back to self and ground that and thus re-learn how to live and act in the world from the starting point of how to create a living system on earth that supports and allows each of us to practically give life to each other - to remove any reason and excuse for fear, and to never give in to fear, but to stop it, question it, see where I am still holding on to a desire to exist as energy and use the tools that I have here to remove it and realign myself to live here unconditionally even while the system is still conditional - to show and prove that there is no valid excuse and that this can be done and to thus support others to do the same until this is done and fear has no place whatsoever in existence any more.

Sacrificing the Moment for a Future That Never Comes

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that it is the small daily, breath by breath actions that accumulate into the big picture of my life and this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in thoughts, feelings and emotions of anticipation for an event in the future, expecting and hoping that event to bring me some feeling of satisfaction, peace, joy, relaxation, respite, rest, happiness, etc when I have been sacrificing the everyday moments where I could be creating that which I want while waiting for the 'big event' to come.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that by placing my expectation on a future event to bring me some form of happiness that I am thus allowing myself to remain open to manipulation of how I am living in the day to day, moment to moment. For example: by placing all my expectation of happiness onto a holiday like christmas or a vacation or as party, I allow myself to experience frustration, unhappiness, on a moment to moment basis during the days, weeks, and months leading up to the event I am looking forward to, and thus I am missing out on why I am feeling negatively during the moment moment, day to day, not questioning what I am really participating in both within and without in the day to day. Another example: I place my children in school and force them to go each day, rushing them to wake up, go to school, come home, do their homework, hurry up and eat, shower and go to bed only to repeat, looking forward to that small amount of time where we can spend some moments of happiness over the holiday, not realizing that all I am doing in fact is participating in a moment to moment negative experience, self honestly I am not in fact enjoying the moment to moment, I feel stressed, I feel rushed, I feel like I 'just have to get through it' - doing all of this to justify the experience of an amazing positive experience of happiness in that small, but seemingly big, moment of the holiday, for example, but even within that I can feel the tension and stress still there - and thus I realize that the whole thing is a lie - I never actually experience anything real, substantial as happiness, it is more like the build up and release of a sneeze, where I experience a lot of friction and then eventually release,

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that everything I have defined as positive only has meaning and value in contrast to the negative that I must go through in order to create the positive experience, and thus I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that by participating in this cycle, I am in fact teaching my children, by example, to do the same and condemning them to a life of mostly negative experience punctuated by brief moments of relative 'happiness' but deep down I know that it is not real happiness, it is just me participating in a short-lived cookie cutter, pre-set system where I can believe that I am enjoying the company of my loved ones for a moment, but it is not real self-expression of happiness or joy, it is just me playing a game, without question, for no other reason than that I have never questioned it and stopped and asked myself 'what would be the actual best way to experience myself on earth and how would that look in relation to everyone else on earth'.

I commit myself to investigate through writing, self forgiveness, and self corrective application all the ways in which I participate in the negative (and positive) in the little breath by breath moment to moment basis in anticipation of something bigger at some point in the future and to thus stop participation and realign my living to be of substance and practically best for all in EACH MOMENT because I realize that it is the moment to moment basis that creates my life, not the temporary, short lived moments, and thus I commit myself to show others, as a living example as well as through communication, that we can create a life here on earth, together, where each moment is of substance and value if we would start paying attention to what we accept and allow in ourselves in each moment and to question that, forgive ourselves and realign our living in each moment to what is best for all, and within that the expression and experience of all on earth will be a moment to moment experience of what is best, and thus there will be no need to ever again look to the future for some promise of reward as the reward will be Here present in each moment as a gift we are giving to ourselves and each other simply through our individual and thus collective self responsibility for what we accept and allow in each moment, as that is all, practically we can really direct ourselves as individuals.

The Silent Judgment of Other Parents

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that judging other parents as not making the best decisions for their child is not supportive either for myself, the other other parent, the child or anyone.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that each parent acts in accordance to the programming that they have accepted and allowed breath by breath over the course of their lives, especially in the first 7 years of their life and thus when their child is in the first 7 years they are busy programming their child with their patterns which is what perpetuates the problems on earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe/feel that I am better/superior to another parent when I see another parent do something that I judge as not best for their child, when this judgment and feeling of being better/superior is an indication that I am still participating in the energy of mind searching for feelings of positivity within myself which would indicate that I am in fact equal to the other parent whom I am judging as less than.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that in my observation of other parents, because I am able to see that they are not doing what is best for their child and themselves, that I am thus responsible for what I see BECAUSE I am aware, and thus I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to take full responsibility for this awareness.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself myself to realize that I am able to take responsibility for what I see in others as behaviors that are less than what is best through, identifying the points within me where I use the reflection to feel less than/better than, which is a form of judgment which shows me where I am still participating in my mind, and to show what patterns still exist in the world that must be corrected and thus give me an opportunity to investigate why this pattern exists to show that the root cause is always the money system as it is currently existing which places parents in a survival state and virtually unable to question and correct their behaviors.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that I, as someone who is aware of the problem, have a greater responsibility at the moment than those that do not, and yet within that the responsibility is to find ways to show others how they can take responsibility for themselves, and thus playing the game of silent judgment will in no way make an impact on supporting others to change themselves because within that I would just be distracting myself and preventing myself from standing within and changing the systems that are causing parents to go into survival mode because to challenge such a system and stop this whole mess from perpetuating would place me in a position where I am no longer 'superior' or 'better' than another because the patterns that I have judged would no longer exist.

Thus, I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that by participating in the backchat in my secret mind towards other parents who are not doing what is best for their child, I am disempowering myself, the opposite of what it 'feels like' in my mind as feeling 'superior' or 'better than' and perpetuating the system of abuse to continue because I have disempowered myself from standing up and changing it, all for the temporary reward of energy in my mind which will never last and will require me to judge MORE in order to feed that system within me, thus I realize that this silent judgment game is of no real value for anyone.

I see/realize that there is a difference between seeing a pattern in another that is not best and judging that pattern and generating a feeling within which I participate, and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value on the feeling generated and allowed myself to participate in these 'silent' judgments in my mind while never questioning or seeing that I am in fact engaging in a behavior pattern that is not best.

I commit myself to stop participation in all thoughts and feelings of judgment towards other parents, and take responsibility by supporting others to see how I have corrected those patterns of behavior as a parent towards my child to show a living example of how a parent can communicate and interact with their child in a way that not only allows them to physically survive but supports them to develop a character where the child values Life, is effective a communicating and learning, and is a person who others would like to be around naturally.

I commit myself to stop participation in the game of energy through judgment and to thus stand up and support other parents directly by showing them the tools to correct the words that are misaligned within them that is creating behavior patterns that are not best both within the parent and the child.

I commit myself to show those who are willing and able at the moment the way to create financial freeom, as much as it is possible in this current system, through educating themselves, their children, and others and to find those parents who are willing and able through that to stand up in the system and support their children to eventually stand up in the system as well so that the system can be adjusted to eventually support all parents and children, even those who are currently in positions to not be able to improve their lives and their children's lives significantly at the moment.

In Food I Trust

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear eating only what is best for my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can only prefer to eat what is not best for my body.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I have participated in and allowed a world where my body is a slave to my mind and through my mind, corporations that do not have my best interest at heart have programmed me to only prefer foods that are designed to make me want more of that food regardless of whether it supports the body, and yet I realize that I have accepted and allowed this due to my desire to experience positive feelings from what I eat and due to not directing all of the negative points within me that accumulate into feelings of stress, sadness, depress, loneliness, etc trough which I justify using food to alleviate these feelings, when in reality they are the excuse to participate in eating that which I have defined and allowed to be defined as giving me pleasure as positive energy experience, despite of the consequence to my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame corporations or even food itself for causing dysfunction in my body, when in fact it is the use, abuse, and manipulation that I put my body through by participating in the desire for positive experience and thus my own deliberate spite of my body as the physical living being that gives me life that is the only thing that deserves blame, and thus I take responsibility for who I am and have allowed myself to become in relation to my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only care about what happens to my body when it forms into a state that either cause me to experience physical pain or emotional pain the sense of not giving me a positive feeling through either how it appears or how it functions.

I forgive myself that I have refused to allow myself to see the extent to which I have abused my body and this physical world in the pursuit of feeling good.

I forgive myself that I have not gone to the root cause of why I feel bad and forgiven that and instead went to abusing my body to make me feel good, whether through food, drugs, and/or sex.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to from a young age attempt to cope with feelings of boredom and irritation with eating foods that make me feel better temporarily despite them not being best for the optimal functioning of my body and making me feel bad later.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let negative emotion go unchecked and to respond to it by focusing on the positive instead of taking responsibility for the negative and stopping it in its tracks.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is no consequence to participating in energy, not being honest with myself about what I am really doing to myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear letting go of eating myself into positivity which is an indicator that I desire to continue to abuse myself through searching for positive energy.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that there is so much more to Life than the experience of positive energy and that my fear of stopping participation in such is due to having accepted myself as less than Life.

I commit myself to stopping participation in the mind as thoughts and feelings that direct me what to eat or do and instead breathe and look within self honesty if there is any justification at all, especially based on avoiding, covering up, dealing with, managing, suppressing negative feeling or seeking some positive feeling, which would indicate that I had already moved from the negative to the point of already accepting that I am now in the mode of suppression - to in those moments stop and re-evaluate and allow myself to make the decision that is best, and to investigate through writing and self forgiveness all the points that justify the fear within me to not stop participating in the negative/positive creation cycle within what I choose to eat.

I commit myself to investigate how I can align my preferences within eating and physical activity so that they are supportive of the optimal functioning of my body and support me within this world to remain here and not go into cycles of negative/positive but to focus myself in each moment to do what is best for all.

Reclaiming Energy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only move if I feel positive or negative energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to motivate myself only through the cycles of positive and negative energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be less than my physical body and thus abdicate the responsibility for moving myself as my physical body to the mind where only energy directs me.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the small movements and actions that I do breath by breath are what accumulate results in this world and in my life and thus if I allow myself to be motivated only by energy of the mind then I am missing what I am actually accumulating breath by breath and thus I have no right to be surprised when things in my life and world don't work out because I have actually been participating in them either through direct action or lack of action because I have instead been focused on only the energy experience in my mind, like a movie or form of entertainment.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that my life is not what I am experiencing in the moment as energy of my mind, it is the final result of what I accumulate breath by breath by the time my experience here in this life ends at death and that at death, none of those momentary experiences will matter to me, because I cannot take them with me, all I have is what I have accepted and allowed myself to accumulate breath by breath physically which stands as who and what I am.

I forgive myself that I have refused to allow myself to accept and realize that I can and am able to check each breath to assess whether I am doing what is best and that the only reason it appears that I cannot is because I have become addicted to the energy of the mind where results seem to appear quickly, but where they fade just as quickly and thus are not real, and thus I realize that it may take time as more than one breath before I am able to see everything and check everything I am accepting and allowing within one breath and thus I will not use the excuse that it is impossible to be aware of everything I am accepting and allowing in a breath to not walk my process, as I realize it is a process, though, self honestly, I really do not know how many breaths it will take, thus the only thing I can do is walk breath by breath from here forward until this is done as there is no acceptable alternative in any case.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that if living breath by breath were tedious then the body would not function, and that this belief is an indicator of the extent to which I have become my mind only and completely separated myself from my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be grateful that I am aware that it is possible to stop participation in the abuse of myself and this world in the pursuit of energy.

I commit myself to checking each breath and learning (relearning) to live breath by breath so that I may only accumulate a result in the physical that is best for all and that I will utilize self-honesty when and as I become aware that I am missing breaths or that I am allowing less than what is best in a breath and thus I commit to using writing, self-forgiveness, and self-corrective application to right the mistakes that I allow in a breath that are not best for all.

I commit myself to be a living example that there is no valid excuse to not walk oneself back to physical reality and reclaim the energy that I have accepted and allowed to be generated unfairly from the physical for no reason but spitefulness and within this I will stand as a living example that there is no reason to use blame as a justification for why anything in this world is not best for all but to instead take self-responsibility to correct myself as how I am creating what is not best and to support others to do the same through reasonable communication as well as my living example.

I commit myself to be a living example of a parent who shows and communicates with their children how to live in this world in a way that one's living is a giving and not just a self interested taking and that my child can be an example of what is possible when parent and child communicate as equals and no excuses are allowed in the name of survival or self interest to create a separation that will harm everyone including oneself and one's child.

Personal Risk As a Form of Self-Interest

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am taking a personal risk by standing up and doing what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the world is the way it is because of WHO I AM and WHAT I DO and HOW I DO it.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the only way the world can change is if I change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the illusion presented to me in my mind as fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to misuse my imagination to imagine all kinds of negative scenarios that could happen if I stand up and take the risk of no longer accepting and allowing myself and others to continue along our preprogrammed paths that only support the world to remain as is.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that fear is the way my mind keeps control over my body and it is the way that I control other through the world system to remain enslaved to only exist to create money for the few and that if I allow my mind to direct what I do then I am equal to the abusers of this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is such a thing as personal risk in this world where in fact the world is a reflection of me and thus the REAL RISK is in not changing in this life, because if I do not I will have to come back to this world and be programmed again even more effectively to not wake up and change this world to one that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to look at the examples of others who are standing up, in spite of perceived personal risk, to do what is best, and that if they can do it, so can I.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that as I stand up, others will stand up, and thus the group that represents the interest of Life will grow and through the growth of this group, we will be a force to be reckoned with as we have reckoned that the system is not supporting life and in that we will hold ourselves and everyone else accountable until our system is adjusted in a measurable way to always produce a result that is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that the friction I experience when I stand up for what is best is only temporary and is there as a test for myself to see if my standing is real or in my imagination only.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that up to now I have been 'standing up' in my mind only and that is why I constantly experience judgments towards others who I perceive as 'not standing up' because really I have been abusing the concept of standing up as a way to make myself feel better about continuing with my life as is, but when I am honest with myself I know that I have not changed, my situation has not changed, the world has not changed, and that I have never stood up in fact, and that now I have the opportunity to stand up and have that stand reflected in the world.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that personal risk is only exists when I stand to lose something of value, when I have in fact already rejected that which is of the only value, which is life, and thus if I use personal risk as an excuse to not stand up, I am risking the only thing that is real, and I may never get another chance.

I commit myself to push past all resistance, whether in my mind or presented to me through others/events, in order to stand up for what is best, whether that simply be stopping participation in a thought/feeling/emotion/energy in a moment, stopping participating in someone else's self-dishonesty, or communicating through common sense reason to support another to see their dishonesty, or placing myself in a financial position to be able to have an effect in the world through politics, and always to through writing, self-forgiveness, and self-corrective application identify, let go, and change the patterns that are within my that cause me to act in automated fashion in ways that are not best.

I commit myself to work with others in a group, to put aside personal interest and ego, to let go of the idea of personal risk and to stand up for Life as what is best, as I now realize that this is the only option in which I will know that I have done my best in the limited time I have in this Life.

It Is Possible to Change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the purpose of my existence is to experience energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I do not change, if I do not stop participating in energy as the starting point of my existence, then I am fucked, and as I would not be worthy of life, because I would show that I cannot be trusted with Life because when given Life, I abuse it and I justify why I should be allowed to continue to abuse it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use feelings of guilt and fear to manipulate myself into not considering the real starting point of my existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify that I do not need to change as there is no real consequence to anything, that this world is not real and that nothing matters, when in fact I know deep down that I do not REALLY FEEL that way, but it is a symptom of me not believing/accepting/considering that it is possible to change, that it is possible to stop participating in the abuse of Life for the experience of energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed only those events that are extremely negative, to move me to 'make decisions' from within the starting point of attempting to create a positive experience.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that every major event in my life has been the creation of some negative situation, and within that I have manipulated myself to feel justified within the creation of the positive, when in fact none of this was necessary.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question my starting point of trying to create positive energy experiences for myself, and within that to actually deliberately create negative situations in order to justify the creation of the positive, and within that I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see that this game has been the starting point of my life since the beginning.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make situations worse in order for me to justify changing them, instead of just looking at what is not best within a situation and directing it to be best, instead I distracted myself with seeking only the positive as contrast to the negative situation, and within that never taking actual responsibility to really create something better as a solution, and thus always returning to a point of wanting to create a negative in order to justify creating a positive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become trapped within cycles of negative/positive creation and within the word trap, to deceive myself into believing that I cannot get out of the trap, and thus within this I see/realize that it is not about 'getting out of the trap' it is simply a matter of stopping participation in both the positive/negative as well as the neutral which I have defined as an absence of positive or negative experience, it is simply about stopping, recapturing the energy that I have allowed to run rampant as my mind as a program of all the information that I accepted and allowed throughout my life to define who I am and have used to justify who I am as the starting point of participating in energy.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I do not know anything really about my physical body or physical reality and that I have only ever participated in knowledge and information within my mind that I have used to define who I am and how physical reality works, when in fact all that knowledge and information has always been designed/created from the starting point of myself and others seeking energy as a positive experience of reward and thus all knowledge and information has really just been a form of control to make sure that we never stand equal and one to ourselves as physical bodies and this physical reality to always act in ways that are best for all, and thus within this, I cannot blame anyone else for the problems in this world, even if I can't see how I have directly contributed to them, because all the problems stem from the exact same starting point from which I have lived within myself and this world, and thus through that I have accepted and allowed the world to be the way it is because then I do not have to change.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the only valid knowledge and information is that which support me and others equally to be here, physically, and work with reality in a way that produces results at all times that are best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that, in my mind, I have never and would never consider what is best for all, because the mind is based on energy only and knows nothing about how physical reality works.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify myself within not supporting myself to stop as 'my decision' when in reality I am not making any decisions, the mind as a program that only seeks its continued existence is in control and making all the decisions, and it used feelings as positive rewards to prevent me from ever standing up and taking back directive control of the mind and thus stand equal and one within my physical body and using the mind more an an interface with reality as a map of existence to navigate, but instead I have used it as the starting point of my existence, and thus I have just walked blindly through life following the whims of the mind to continue to feed it energy, and then I complain when I experience consequences of this blind pursuit that we are all participating in, but I have never stood up and said "No more!"

I commit myself to stand in all ways and in every action to STOP this game of energy search within myself and to say "No more!" as the proof of my physical actions show that I am no longer accepting and allowing my mind to be in the driver's seat of the body, but to stand equal and one with my body and use the Mind as a GPS, and within this I commit myself to reprogramming the mind as GPS so that the Mind is not based on seeking energy but is simply a map of what exists physically and thus I commit myself to reprogram myself to act in all ways only as what is best and to not allow myself to fall into the trap of seeking energy as reward, and when I fall as may happen from time to time as I learn the extent to which I have automated the reward seeking behavior within myself - to STOP, stand back up, to use writing, self-forgiveness, and self corrective application to remove the dysfunctional behavior patterns and to redirect myself to do what is best.