It Is Possible to Change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the purpose of my existence is to experience energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I do not change, if I do not stop participating in energy as the starting point of my existence, then I am fucked, and as I would not be worthy of life, because I would show that I cannot be trusted with Life because when given Life, I abuse it and I justify why I should be allowed to continue to abuse it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use feelings of guilt and fear to manipulate myself into not considering the real starting point of my existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify that I do not need to change as there is no real consequence to anything, that this world is not real and that nothing matters, when in fact I know deep down that I do not REALLY FEEL that way, but it is a symptom of me not believing/accepting/considering that it is possible to change, that it is possible to stop participating in the abuse of Life for the experience of energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed only those events that are extremely negative, to move me to 'make decisions' from within the starting point of attempting to create a positive experience.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that every major event in my life has been the creation of some negative situation, and within that I have manipulated myself to feel justified within the creation of the positive, when in fact none of this was necessary.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question my starting point of trying to create positive energy experiences for myself, and within that to actually deliberately create negative situations in order to justify the creation of the positive, and within that I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see that this game has been the starting point of my life since the beginning.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make situations worse in order for me to justify changing them, instead of just looking at what is not best within a situation and directing it to be best, instead I distracted myself with seeking only the positive as contrast to the negative situation, and within that never taking actual responsibility to really create something better as a solution, and thus always returning to a point of wanting to create a negative in order to justify creating a positive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become trapped within cycles of negative/positive creation and within the word trap, to deceive myself into believing that I cannot get out of the trap, and thus within this I see/realize that it is not about 'getting out of the trap' it is simply a matter of stopping participation in both the positive/negative as well as the neutral which I have defined as an absence of positive or negative experience, it is simply about stopping, recapturing the energy that I have allowed to run rampant as my mind as a program of all the information that I accepted and allowed throughout my life to define who I am and have used to justify who I am as the starting point of participating in energy.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I do not know anything really about my physical body or physical reality and that I have only ever participated in knowledge and information within my mind that I have used to define who I am and how physical reality works, when in fact all that knowledge and information has always been designed/created from the starting point of myself and others seeking energy as a positive experience of reward and thus all knowledge and information has really just been a form of control to make sure that we never stand equal and one to ourselves as physical bodies and this physical reality to always act in ways that are best for all, and thus within this, I cannot blame anyone else for the problems in this world, even if I can't see how I have directly contributed to them, because all the problems stem from the exact same starting point from which I have lived within myself and this world, and thus through that I have accepted and allowed the world to be the way it is because then I do not have to change.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the only valid knowledge and information is that which support me and others equally to be here, physically, and work with reality in a way that produces results at all times that are best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that, in my mind, I have never and would never consider what is best for all, because the mind is based on energy only and knows nothing about how physical reality works.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify myself within not supporting myself to stop as 'my decision' when in reality I am not making any decisions, the mind as a program that only seeks its continued existence is in control and making all the decisions, and it used feelings as positive rewards to prevent me from ever standing up and taking back directive control of the mind and thus stand equal and one within my physical body and using the mind more an an interface with reality as a map of existence to navigate, but instead I have used it as the starting point of my existence, and thus I have just walked blindly through life following the whims of the mind to continue to feed it energy, and then I complain when I experience consequences of this blind pursuit that we are all participating in, but I have never stood up and said "No more!"

I commit myself to stand in all ways and in every action to STOP this game of energy search within myself and to say "No more!" as the proof of my physical actions show that I am no longer accepting and allowing my mind to be in the driver's seat of the body, but to stand equal and one with my body and use the Mind as a GPS, and within this I commit myself to reprogramming the mind as GPS so that the Mind is not based on seeking energy but is simply a map of what exists physically and thus I commit myself to reprogram myself to act in all ways only as what is best and to not allow myself to fall into the trap of seeking energy as reward, and when I fall as may happen from time to time as I learn the extent to which I have automated the reward seeking behavior within myself - to STOP, stand back up, to use writing, self-forgiveness, and self corrective application to remove the dysfunctional behavior patterns and to redirect myself to do what is best.

The Mind is the Limitation

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I cannot escape from the system that exists here on Earth.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the system that is here on earth is a reflection of Who I Am and that I am therefore responsible for the system that exists here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not able to stand within the system in a position where I am able to influence and direct the system to one that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have refused to allow myself to realize that if I am not placing myself in a position to direct and influence the system, then I am not in fact changing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not able to stand in a position of authority and responsibility and that some others are just special and I am not.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that those who stand in positions of 'authority' in the system are in fact just following their preprogramming.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to stand in a position of authority and responsibility within the system to direct it in a way that is best for all as it is 'just too much work' not realizing that this indicates that I am still of the mind as energy and therefore actually a part of the problem that does not want to change and I am using excuses so that I can trick myself into not changing.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that when I change and as I move into the system to direct it in a way that is best, that this can be the most fun and exciting experience, and that everything my mind is looking for would be achieved through that experience, as temporary as it is, and that this is the only way I would ever be able to do something that actually makes a difference, that actually matters, and thus any temptation the mind gives me to not stand up and take on the system as an equal to direct it is actually less than what I am capable of and less than equal to Who I Am as Life, and thus within that I would remain in extreme limitation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am ok with limitation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in limits which are in fact only in my imagination and I allow myself to realize that I really don't know what my limits are, and if I were to stop participating in the energy game in my mind, I would be able to push beyond all my perceived limits.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to retreat back into my preprogramming as a safety net instead of challenging myself and pushing myself knowing that Life will support me equal and one as I support what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that as I give up the illusion of my mind, I gain access to the physical which is far superior to the mind in all ways.

I commit myself to showing that it is possible to give up the mind and act as a physical body would act, equal to and one with physical reality, considering what is practically best for all, not only what benefits the mind as imagination as energy, and that it is not in fact hard to give up the mind, it simply requires self honesty and self forgiveness and consistency within not accepting any limitation that the mind presents.

Poverty vs Wealth: Two Sides of the Same Coin

Having returned from staying at a resort in the Dominican Republic for several days and seeing the extreme poverty outside of the resort and the contrast that it provides to the resort experience itself, there is no doubt that the poverty and the suffering of those on the outside is what makes the pleasure and luxury experience of those on the inside, possible.

To debate this, to deny this, to ignore this would imply that one is in fact equal to the abuser. To participate in this without understanding, considering, and acting in a way to solve this problem is to be equal to the abuser. To simply not participate in the experience while continuing to accept and allow the world, and oneself, to continue as is, does not solve the problem and is that one is still, in fact, equal to the abuser.

And in this accepting and allowing ourselves to be equal to and one with abuse, we are accepting and allowing ourselves to be equal and one to the victim, because no one escapes death.

In talking to some of the workers at the resort, asking them if they had ever left the island or would ever do so, they told us that they are not allowed to leave. That is requires a great sum of money to leave and even then the government may not allow the visa to be approved. Thus, they are trapped, and destined to either live in poverty or to be the slave of the blissful resort-goer.

Consider: those who work in the resort wish to escape, to come to America - why? Because they have no money. And why can they not escape? Because they have no money.

And those who live in America see escape as going to the Dominican Republic to a resort - why? Because they have money, and thus they can.

Do you see the insanity of this situation?

Imagine if we had created a system that gives to all equally? Would anyone ever feel the need to escape from their life? We would feel the need to enslave another and force them through the money system to give of their life and experience so that we may have what we call 'more life' and the feeling of 'being alive' and which is really just an experience, not something real.

Why is it that everything that makes us feel alive is really just something that requires money?

Why have we accepted and allowed ourselves to create a world that requires us to have money to exist and then not made sure everyone has money equally?

Imagine the dishonesty of saying "everyone has the opportunity to improve and make money" when in fact here we have 10 million people trapped on a island with no way to get out, only the opportunity to be our slave. And yet within this, we are just slaves at another level, so to even justify the situation is the height of stupidity. We have enslaved ourselves to money just as we have enslaved ourselves to be addicts to energy as experience.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am in fact a slave.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that I am in fact a slave master.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the only way to free a slave is to free the slave master.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be a slave master without understanding that, in that I become a slave.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is any justification to enslave another, whether it be the color of one's skin, one's beliefs, or the position one was born into economically, or the education level one has received.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I am in fact supporting a system that creates and manages slaves and that it is on autopilot and that it uses money as a way to give the illusion that there is choice in the matter.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that slavery was abolished in this world in any country, when in fact, slavery was simply upgraded to include everyone on earth and has become so ingrained within us that we cannot/refuse to see it, and we in fact justify it, and yet we are doing it to ourselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that nothing can be done about this slavery that we find ourselves within and that within this I use the justification that everyone would have to realize what is going on for it to change at that this is impossible when in fact all it requires is that I stand up and work within a group and make others aware, to walk the path to free myself within from my beliefs and acceptances and allowances of that which enslaves and to show others that it is possible and to not stop until it is done.

 I see/realize that even though I may stop a pattern within myself where I am accepting and allowing slavery within myself or this world, that does not mean the world will automatically change and that this is a step by step process and within this I realize that the reward is freedom for all and thus I commit myself to delay the reward and to never give into a temporary reward that cause me to give in to the system of slavery within and without, and when I see that I have automatically fallen, or given in, or even through choice, given in, I IMMEDIATELY stop and investigate how I have allowed a system within me to make that choice seem/appear in any way desirable and I remove it/release it, stand again, and continue within this process.

I commit myself to - through writing, self-forgiveness, and self corrective application - investigate, expose, and stop all the ways in which I allow myself to accept and allow myself to want/desire/participate in that which in enslaves me and my fellow man and to see how I have constructed myself to in fact be a copy of the system that enslaves through energy/money and have given up the actual Life I have to be here and to live in exchange for a temporary experience which is never satisfying in any case.

I commit myself to be the example that no temptation is enough to cause me to accept being a slave and to accept others as slaves.

I commit myself to placing myself in a position in this world-system where I influence the system to become one that is best for all and to see this as the only acceptable path for my life and within this I commit myself to change who I am to not only be able to achieve this goal, but to be one who is able to live in a world that is best for all, both within and without.

I commit myself to challenge all those who justify abuse and slavery in every form and to so challenge all points within myself both within and without and to not allow any form of energy negative or positive to sway me from my course.