The Power of the Group

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not have absolute certainty as to how to change the world in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, that unless enough people stand up within themselves and challenge all self-interest and then stand in a position of change within the world system, specifically within politics and the money system, then the world will not change except through extreme suffering and disastrous conflict.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that prevention is the BEST cure, because when a consequence is already existent, it is much more difficult to change, because one's starting point as belief and memory is now already manifest and thus 'confirming' one's belief as true, even though, in self-honesty, it is not true, it is an illusion that has been made real through acceptance and allowance and thus when one change one's starting point and act from that, then one can manifest that which is best, though, again, the more one compounds consequence from not acting within what is best, the more one provides the evidence to oneself that one is looking for to confirm that what is not best is not possible, but this all goes back to one's starting point - is one willing to change oneself for real? or is one looking for an excuse to not change?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the purpose of walking the Desteni process is to change myself within and without.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that value of walking within a group, which is to have a place to be challenged and supported, to challenge and to support, to assist and support others within their process of changing themselves, and so assist and support others to do so as well, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not challenge others as a way to form a collective agreement so that I will not fundamentally be challenged either.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be removed from a group - which is a point of being challenged to move and change within myself - to let to of that which is limiting me from standing up in the outer world as well as the inner world - and to not realize the value of being challenged in such a way that I HAVE to face all that I accept and allow that is preventing me from standing clearly within the principle of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the gift within being removed from a group where I was not standing equal to the principles for which the groups stand and that I had placed myself as inferior to others where I was not willing to take full self-responsibility and thus I am grateful for the process that I have walked through in order to see the point of standing equal to this process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place myself within myself as less than another, and to thus place expectations on another to do that which I am not willing/wanting/able in that moment to do, which because I then place myself in a point of waiting for another, I do not in fact face the reality of myself and face the consequence of who I am and what I accept and allow, and thus being removed from a group that stands for the principle of what is best for all, thus would support me to face what I have accepted and allowed as myself not being equal to that which I perceive in another who I see as walking the principles and thus is in fact a gift and an opportunity for me to realize my own potential to walk clearly and stand clearly and support myself and others within the principles that the group stand for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize my responsibility towards myself to stand for the principles that Desteni stand for - and to ACT within those principles at all times.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for accepting and allowing myself to not walk within full, absolute certainty that the Desteni process will/does support me to remove all that which is not standing as what is best, as the principles are sound and have been shown/proven to work and as I have been applying them within myself I see FOR MYSELF that they work, and thus the proof that another presented was only the starting point for me to see the value initially, however beyond that what is required is for ME to walk the point within ABSOLUTE CERTAINTY and within FULL PARTICIPATION with no excuse and no desire to stop, even though I realize that excuses will come up and desires will come up, though it is my responsibility alone to stop these within myself, as the only thing that will happen if I do not is that I will experience the consequence of not standing completely within the principles.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire the acceptance of others as evidence that I am doing what is best, when I am not able to see what is within another, and thus the value of either being accepted or not accepted by others is only within what reactions or thoughts for example come up within me that show me what I am still accepting and allowing within MYSELF.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my process, within believing that it should always produce a feeling of moving forward, of feeling good, of things getting 'better', and the world moving more and more into a state of peace, when in fact, I am still IN THE PROCESS of removing/changing/facing/questioning/directing all that within me which is not aligned with what is best for all, and thus I will face consequences and I will walk through discomfort and conflict and experiences that are not best, and all of this is necessary for me to face and thus what is critical is that I face this head on, without hiding, without avoiding, and thus the best way is to face it within walking my process of writing, speaking self-forgiveness, and testing myself through physical participation in my outer world to check where I must be more specific within myself and to uncover that which is still not aligned with what is best - to remove everything that is not best - while still being here in this physical world, learning to stand up and move within this world without getting lost, without losing sight of the principles of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look to Bernard and/or Sunette and/or the Dimensions as my savior, to walk my process for me, to take responsibility for me, or simply as a way to entertain myself and give myself an excuse to not face the reality of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to change others, when the only one I can change is myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the value and potential of each one in the group and really get to know each one as they come into my awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear speaking self-forgiveness aloud with others in the group.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take the group for granted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if each one on the group took full self-responsibility that we would be able to move more as a group and bring more into the group and thus move the group as a force of change in the system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget the purpose of the group.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the purpose of the group is for each of us to stand eventually within a position of responsibility in this world, where some may stand in more 'obvious' or 'prominent' positions such as lawyers, psychologists, educators, politicians, etc while others may stand within the point of example for others within their community, and thus I realize that there is no point to judge another's process, while I also realize that it is my responsibility to look for and support those who see the potential within themselves to stand in the system in order to change it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that revolution is not the answer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that revolution means to return and thus changing the world is not about revolt, just as changing oneself is not about revolt, it is about STANDING UP for what is BEST and changing the systems so that they support what is best - as this has never been done before and would not represent a revolution but an awareness of the value of Life that is equal in all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in order to change the system we must be able to stand together as a group financially as well as in terms of communication because the system will resist change at all levels, just as one experience the great degree of resistance within oneself to change - IT IS DIFFICULT - and yet as a group we can make it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there is great POWER in a the group, as is shown by many groups currently, and thus it is best to empower ourselves within the context of Desteni AS A GROUP because that is the only way to change the system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect everyone to walk within the Desteni group, when in fact it is for those who see the value for themselves, and within this it does not mean that it is not best to walk in the Desteni group, just that one cannot force another to see what is best both for oneself and for the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there may be tools and methods other than Desteni that will support an individual, however Desteni is the only process and group that stands within understanding how the mind actually functions in detail and thus if one do not walk the Desteni process then it is impossible to fully change oneself, unless one happens to discover the process in another format, however within this, if one simply says that therefore there is no reason to support as many people as possible to specifically join and walk with Desteni, then one is leaving the whole point up to chance, whereas with Desteni and the promotion of Desteni one can measure one's change in the world and within oneself to the degree that Desteni presents a way to quantify one's process both from the perspective of one's writing, self-forgiveness, self commitment, but also from the perspective that by placing oneself out in the world and promoting Desteni, in various ways, one can measure their impact in the world as another takes on the responsibility of walking process due to one's example/active promotion of one's process and the Desteni process itself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist calling on all those who see the potential, to stand up and begin the process of standing AS DESTENI in the world, and showing that it can be done, and that this will in fact support one within their OWN process because it is a physical point that requires one to change and develop skills that would be required to stand within the system in politics/economics/etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if we do not have hundreds of millions of people around the world walking their process and re-educating themselves to establish an effective ability to reason and see common sense, then the solution of one man one vote becomes very difficult, because otherwise people will not have the ability to vote directly on policies and will be open to manipulation by feelings and emotions which is currently how politics work where people vote for personalities instead of policies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there is always a BEST WAY to do something.

I commit myself to stand as a an example of both walking this process and supporting others to begin walking their process.

I commit myself to show how one can apply the principles of business and sales within showing others the value of walking the Desteni process and that this would both strengthen the group as well as support millions of people to systematically walk their process.

I commit myself to show that the Desteni process is the BEST way to walk one's process.

I commit myself to show that one can both walk their process and promote this process and that as we do so, then we will become a powerful force that represents the force of Life that will change the system to recognize and support the equality of life in all.

Regaining Our Vision

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that Real Vision is with the eyes only.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Real Vision is to see the potential of Life in every being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see with the Eyes of Fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the Beam in my Eye which is the Light Beam of consciousness, which is my self-interest, which is my fear, which is who I have accepted and allowed myself to become.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the splinter in my brother's eye but not see the beam in my own, and thus I have accepted and allowed this beam to block my Real Vision which is my ability to see the potential in my brother/sister and in all beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that we all have the potential for change, but it is up to the individual to actuate that potential, and thus it is MY responsibility to REALIZE my potential as Living Action within what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to retreat into myself within fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place others on a pedestal and in that not recognize my equality and oneness within my self-responsibility towards standing up for life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Lose my Vision.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see because another saw, but not allow myself to see because I SEE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I DO SEE but I have allowed myself to FEAR what I SEE and FEAR what I SEE THAT I MUST DO.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not SEE that I must stand up where I am at and SPEAK UP not only online, but in my physical environment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have the keys to Life as a member of Desteni and there is no one else who has these keys, and that is not to say that no one else brings value or perspective that may support what is best for all, but I SEE that I have the critical keys of change that EVERYONE NEEDS and thus it is MY responsibility to stand up and present these keys to those who have the EYES to SEE and the EARS to HEAR.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the simplicity of starting a group meeting in my home or a coffeeshop or a library where I lead a group discussion on the Desteni principles as a matter of consistency - even if I only invite one other person initially - but within that I am able to plant the seed of something that will grow over time with consistency as long as I show up and give my full effort and bring forward what I have learned within my process, and to support others to begin their process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that we need something else other than the Desteni process to support people when in fact, all other methods and approaches to change are limited if the person does not walk the Desteni process - and that is not to say that no other approach or method of change is supportive in any way, but if a person is not understanding their mind in mechanical detail, they will not be able to change in fact to become the self-directive as Life as what is best for all - they will remain stuck in the mind and thus only in self-interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be able to see 90 million Destonians walking their process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the growth of Desteni as an exponential curve.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I and those who have walked with Desteni from the beginning are the foundation and everyone else is looking to us as the living proof that Desteni is for real - and thus it is my responsibility to myself and to others as what is best for all to stand up and walk in this world to support others to walk their process in awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that everyone has a right to their opinion and a right to figure things out in a way that they feel comfortable with - which is not to say that anyone should ever be forced to do anything - but that I now realize that if I waver within my absolute clarity that Desteni is THE WAY then it gives someone who has not yet begun walking their process an excuse to continue down a path that is not best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that TechnoTutor is a tool, created by Bernard, that is in fact digitized self-forgiveness, and that will support a person immensely in their process as an adult and will support a child, if done from a young age, to become much more effective and balanced that they would have otherwise been.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that TechnoTutor is just a program that helps with spelling and not realize that it supports one to change their programming within self-awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepeted and allowed myself to not realize that Bernard created TechnoTutor as a way to restore a person's Natural Learning Ability and to thus 'become like a child' and that he explained that what everyone 'admire' and 'see as an advanced ability' within Bernard was that he specified his vocabulary and thus he created a tool to support others to do the same.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my allowed myself to not realize that Bernard explained , in detail how TechnoTutor works and placed it into audio format and explained in detail how this would support within one's process and how it is fundamentally critical in the education of a child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist using TechnoTutor every day, and that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist writing everyday, and writing and speaking self-forgiveness every day, and that I have participated in doubt, disbelief, hoping, wishing, projecting, fear, and the desire to just have fun without seeing why I am REALLY HERE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I combine TechnoTutor with the Desteni I Process that I can support myself not only with the Inner Process, but with the Outer Process of standing up in this world and speaking up - and learning the skills required to place myself in a position of leadership in the SYSTEM.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that TechnoTutor is the way to reeducate Humanity to be reasonable and be able to reason and to use common sense and stop participating in beliefs that are only harming themselves and each other and that within this TechnoTutor is most effective, especially for an adult, when they walk the Desteni I Process and that there is thus no competition between Desteni and TechnoTutor as they are in fact from the SAME SOURCE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the starting point of TechnoTutor as a business is to create financial means to support the Equal Life Foundation, Desteni, and those whose process it is to stand in the system as politicians, lawyers, etc who will require funding, because they will be busy developing themselves to stand in those positions and not stand within making money, per se.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the starting point of TechnoTutor is to create the financial means so that the Desteni Process and EQAFE is available to everyone, regardless of financial means, and thus TechnoTutor is the way to finance the creation of an Equal System while at the same time providing the foundation of education as generations of children and adults who are able to process information in an unbiased manner and thus able to consider Equality for real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am HERE to CHANGE THE SYSTEM, not just make myself feel better and in order to change the system I must learn how to communicate, how to lead, how to motivate, how to inspire, how to sell, how to persuade, and how to interact within a group so that I am not on my own - because I realize that on my own I will never change the system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am not in the group to just be in a group - that I am in the group to give myself completely to the purpose of changing the system so that it is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place others as above or below me - which indicates that I had still been playing a polarity game, and not standing up for real - and within this I stop self judgment of myself in the past and I stand and walk - as I realize that everything I have gone through was a necessary part of my process, but now that I am aware of why I am really here, I no longer have an excuse to not move myself physically.

I forgive myself that I have judged myself and others who are walking this process who are in the system as we all are, who have had to work and survive, as we all do, and that I had not realized that I would have to be in the system but not of the system and that now as I walk more and more I am realizing that there is nothing to fear and I am now willing to stand up in the system and though I realize it will take time, I am willing to apply myself breath by breath until the system is changed to be best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in self interest in the context of walking with the group and to judge others for participating within self interest in the context of the group, not realizing that we are here to firstly challenge this point within ourselves - that is WHY we are in the group initially, and as we remove layers more and more we become more capable of standing up in the world and taking more responsibility and I realize that everyone is in their own process and thus I would never force another to move faster than they are able, just as I cannot force myself to move faster than I am able, however I am willing to push myself beyond my limits and stand as an example and support others through communication to push beyond their limits - living the word patience as applying myself within breath, and walking my process, not placing expectations on others or myself, but applying self-honesty in the moment, standing up when I fall, and being there to support another to stand up when they fall.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the REAL meaning of United We Stand, Divided We Fall.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have been afraid of standing up and challenging myself and challenging others, and that I realize that I am here to make a difference, not make people feel good, because all forms of feeling good currently are within the context of a system that is not best - and although it is not unacceptable to feel good, it is not acceptable to have this as the starting point of one's living, as it is too easily manipulable by the system, and by my mind, and thus I commit myself to standing by the principles outlined in the Desteni Declaration of Living Principles.

I commit myself to walk as an example in my world of the application of the Desteni process and Principles.

I commit myself to challenge ALL self-interest within myself and within my world that comes into my awareness and within the world in the context of the System.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I KNOW BETTER than Bernard, when in fact he was/is the only living example of the full application of the Desteni principles that I have seen, and within this, it is not about 'trusting' anyone, not even Bernard, the only valid trust is SELF TRUST, however I realize that if I have not applied myself FULLY in SELF HONESTY within my process that I have NO RIGHT to challenge/change/alter/manipulate/modify the basic principles and process that Bernard supported us to see.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand EQUAL to Bernard which is not to say that I should become EXACTLY like Bernard or to CLAIM to be Bernard, but Equal means applying myself in self-honesty, forgiving myself, walking my process, not accepting or allowing limitation, not accepting slavery to another or to my mind, not accepting and allowing personality to get in the way of walking what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Bernard was here to show us the way to become EQUAL and ONE to LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself or another for attempting to find a way other than waking the Desteni process, when that is a part of our process, to investigate all things, to integrate and understand this process FOR OURSELVES, and yet within that to realize that the path has in fact been laid out before us, which doesn't mean that there are not things we will have to figure out for ourselves, but I can SEE that this will unfold naturally as long as I push myself to remain self-honest and forgive myself and correct my mistakes when I see them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that we have everything we need to change ourselves and this system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that every excuse that I allow within myself, I will allow within another out of fear of being called out - and thus I commit myself to not allow ANY excuses and to live the word gratitude within being called out by others if they see me participating in an excuse - even if they are wrong, it doesn't matter because if I am feeling challenged emotionally then I am the one that is participating in the mind and thus accepting and allowing limitation, and thus I commit myself to ALWAYS bring it back to myself, no matter WHO is challenging me or presenting a point where I react.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the gift in every moment of my past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to FEAR standing up and BEING THE LEADER that is required to support others to STAND UP and BE THE LEADERS that are required as TRANSITIONAL LEADERS who will lead the world to the creation of a system that is Best for All.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is ANYTHING to fear when I SEE that all excuses and limitations and fears that I allowed will become irrelevant at death and the only thing that I will have left if I allow them is REGRET.

I commit myself to live without regrets and to show that it is ok to make mistakes and that what is important is that one stand back up, forgive themselves, and keep walking in alignment with what is best for all.

I commit myself to SHOW that my intention is always revealed in my ACTION.

I commit myself to show that the only form of trust that matters is SELF TRUST.

I commit myself to develop the SELF TRUST necessary to stand in the face of ANYTHING in the System that must be faced in order to create a system that is best for all.

I commit myself to use ANYTHING and EVERYTHING in this world that comes into my awareness to support me to remove all weakness as that which is preventing me from standing as what is best for all within my physical participation which is all that I can be responsible for in any moment.

Guilty as Charged

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty when I see someone in a worse position than me in the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I must find a reason or excuse to give the other person as to why I cannot help them individually.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel conflicted about helping someone individually.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there is nothing I can do personally to help an individual change their position in life beyond supporting them to see the value in applying the tools that I am applying, realizing that not everyone will have the time and money to apply themselves within these points - and that does not invalidate the tools or the processes, but rather shows/exposes the extent to which the system has complete control over our lives and that even within wanting to better oneself and educate oneself for real, one is still subject to the system which requires one to compete for survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the only way to support those who are in a much worse situation than myself is to apply myself diligently within my process of self change and place myself as effectively and efficiently as possible, while walking with a principled group and supporting others to do the same, in a position in the system where I can influence the system to change so that it supports everyone equally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the gift within the guilt of seeing someone in a far worse position than I and not being able to really help them physically is that I have no excuses to not move myself and stand up for them in/as/within the system, and that means that I must move myself without excuse within my own process of sorting out my inner world so that I am able to stand, stable, within a position - which in order to get there I will have to face many people and systems that will attack and try and prevent me from making a change that is best for all - and within this if I still allow personal self-interest then I will not be able to stand, because the system is based on personal self-interest and thus, although I must direct myself to take responsibility for what I require and need to move and live effectively as well as my family in that regard, I must be willing to let go of personal fantasies of grandeur that would be used to distract me from doing what is best, which may not always or most of the time bring a sense/feeling/image of grandeur as it would require really challenging other people's self-interest and facing ostracism at times as well as personal attack - thus how can I be attacked personally if I have no personality that is based on personal self-interest?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am changing myself and the system not for the other person, as that is a point of separation, and thus only supports a character that is not real, but I am doing this for MY SELF within the realization that all people that I see that are in a worse position than me are in fact me in a future life if I do not act as what is best for all and ensure that everyone has the best possible life no matter what country/area/family they are born into.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only see the reality of what other people go through when I am confronted with it in my physical reality and to allow myself to otherwise exist in my mind only where only my problems and difficulties matter, not realizing that the difficulties in my experience in this life would be solved by the same solution that would solve everyone else's and thus because I am in a position to consider this, I have a greater responsibility to act and to thus support the creation of a new system which will support all life equally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that all charity is an attempt to alleviate guilt about having money, without standing up to change the system, which would place a person in the position of risking their position of having money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that all poverty and conditions of suffering are due to the money system which is a reflection of my/our internal focus on our own self-interest only, and that by stopping self-interest within and without, poverty would be solved eternally.

I commit myself to stop all guilt - first through self-forgiveness - and then within self-honest action as what is best for all in each moment - to not allow any excuse - and when an excuse comes up, to push myself beyond the excuse realizing that the excuse is, in the end, going to be my regret.

I commit myself to let go of guilt about being in a system that is not best, because the only way to change the system is to stand within it - equal to it - and if I try to solve individual problems in an effort to alleviate guilt, then I will never make a difference in the system, because my focus will be on how I feel rather than what needs to be done.

I commit myself to prevent the experience of guilt within myself, not suppress it, by pushing myself to remove all of that within me that is not standing for what is best for all and to push myself in the physical world to change the system and remove all that which is not best for all and support the creation of the conditions necessary for everyone and everything to have the best possible life.

I commit myself to do what others won't - and to show all those stuck in the pattern of giving to charity instead of changing the system - that this never alleviates the guilt because it only supports the creation of more poverty and suffering and thus is not the solution to the guilt nor the problem.

What We Ignore in our Pursuit of Bliss

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to not realize that the Law of Attraction is the acceptance that I will only move towards that which is attractive, which is thus that which I have separated myself from as superior to me and thus the Law of Attraction is the acceptance and allowance of inequality and polarity as superiority vs inferiority and separation of myself from other parts of reality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that accepting the Law of Attraction as valid and valuable requires me to accept that reality will always exist in a state of separation, otherwise why would any point of reality be attracted to/towards any other point unless the two points are in separation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that what I am attracted to is a matter of pre-preprogramming of which my parents, environment, and advertising/marketing, and education have played the major roles.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can attract a better life, when in fact, this belief is the acceptance of myself as separate from this better life, and I am thus in that acceptance disempowered from CREATING a better life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the entire starting point of the application of the Law of Attraction is within self-interest only, where one must accept that one is the creator of THEIR reality only, and thus is not responsible for what another creates as their reality, as this would be the choice of the other to focus the reality they want or not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never question why another would not want to focus on what they want as the best possible life and thus why another would use the Law of Attraction to create what is less than best, when the immediate thought that comes up as to why is that the other person simply has not learned how to use the Law of Attraction to their advantage, which begs the question as to whether one is COMPLETELY responsible for their own reality or whether another is influenced by what they see and hear, and thus would be the reason why some are ignorant or ineffective at using the Law of Attraction to their best advantage, so either I must be lying to myself that we are completely creating our own reality on our own or I must believe that I am somehow special in that I for some reason have 'attracted' the truth of how to create my own reality while others don't.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in such a thing as 'my truth' where each one has a 'my truth' which is unique to each person, even though in self-honesty I know that no two people are fundamentally different in terms of how they live based on how much money they have - it is quite predictable to know what kinds of things a person will value or be interested in based on how much money they have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question how a baby could be born into poverty vs wealth, which would imply that the baby - before they even knew how to think - was attracting a certain life - even though when I observe the actions of those born into wealth - they don't seem to do anything of a higher purpose that makes the world practically better for those in the position of poverty, and thus why would that being prior to coming to earth have deserved anything more than the one in poverty? For Context: Chinese Kids Driving Supercars: Inside the Secret Southern California Meet-up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be willing to question the nature of the Law of Attraction as to how it actually only further justifies the separation of people into poverty and wealth because I have secretly hoped to be in the less than 1% who experiences the wealth side of things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question the statement "follow your bliss" which exists alongside the statement "ignorance is bliss" which both as sound/symbols in reality create a following and ignoring program within humanity where those who have money and wealth will ignore those without and do nothing create system where everyone has what they need, and those who do not have wealth follow their preprogrammed feelings as leading them (one hopes) to an experience of ultimate bliss, which is really just a program of consumerism based on feelings generated through purchasing experiences which is what keeps those with wealth in power over the system and able to create the experiences they want - they are not attracting experiences, they are creating products and experiences that are attractive to the masses who will work their whole lives even for the promise of owning/possessing the product/experience meanwhile the money generated from this labor is channeled into the pockets of the elite who then use it to have the experiences they desire as well as evolve the systems of control and inequality that exist in the money system, education system, etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my desire to follow my bliss is actually a program that is designed to ensure that bliss never exists for anyone in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there is no such thing as 'my bliss' as separate from 'another's bliss' because we are all one physically interconnected in a system of resource distribution based on lack which requires slaves to create for the few and is based on the idea that we are born into poverty and born into original sin, and thus within that we will allow the flaws and problems in the system and because we are afraid to stand up, we will rather ignore the real problem which is creating the fear and suffering in our lives and rather believe in a fantasy that we can magically manifest a magical life for ourselves with our minds - which if it were true - you would be able to find one person who did so, yet all the examples we use to motivate ourselves within the Law of Attraction are people who are really good at getting a lot of other people to do something with their Life Force that mainly benefits the one in charge or are really good at getting others to give them money for some promise of transferring knowledge or wisdom of how to get other people to give them money or to magically manifest a better life (even though if the person doing it knew how to manifest a better life with their mind, they would be able to do everything for free and would never have to use money in any capacity whatsoever).

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I focus on following my bliss, I have to place myself in a form of ignorace, where I deliberately do not investigate, thus ignore, reality as it functions in mechanical detail, and instead focus on a picture composed of images, feelings, thoughts, and energy that I desire to experience, never questioning whether it is even possible to create and live as a picture and never asking myself what is real in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have a choice in my life's purpose, when in fact I did not create myself directly or this world directly - it is the result of my and everyone else's original choice to not take direct responsibility in every moment to be equal and one with reality here, and now out of complete dishonesty I believe that I can somehow magically manifest a better life, without even understanding the detail of this world and how it functions, but that it will just magically come to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that individual happiness and choice is an illusion because it only exists in my mind and I never had any intention to make it real because if I did then I would have asked first, "What is real?" and I would have realized that I am a physical being in a physical world with other physical beings and thus I would HAVE to consider everyone else as well.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify pursuing happiness as self-interest and made excuses for others which I now realize that I will be equal to the excuse that I allow in another, which was the starting point all along, to allow myself an excuse to not take full self-responsibility for what I am creating through acceptance and allowance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am here to rebirth myself as Life from the physical and to support others to do so as well and that by doing so, we can create a system that supports all Life equally, and within that we can remove any reason/need to have secrets, compete, or abuse, and thus we would create the necessary conditions for the experience of eternal bliss for all beings in reality.

I commit myself to stop wishful thinking - to question how reality works, to find out in detail how it works and to no longer ignore the consequences that have been/are being created in physical reality by all of us not taking direct responsibility for what we create, accept, and allow.

I commit myself to show to all those trapped within following their bliss, that they only way to experience bliss is to be Here in reality directing oneself equal and one to physical reality and to no longer chase a feeling in the mind or an experience in the mind which will always only take us further and further away from reality to the point where bliss is no longer possible.

I commit myself to show by example that real bliss is in letting go of illusions and stopping all fear and letting go of all knowledge as limitation to find out what is real because if we ignore reality and focus on knowledge of a picture of reality, we will miss points and create consequences which will put us into fear, but if we understand and get to know reality directly as ourselves and always direct things in the way that is best then there will literally never be anything to fear.

I commit myself to walking myself back through all the illusions and desires and pictures and fantasies and desires for experience and feelings until nothing remains by me Here in reality as self-awareness seeing what is real and directing myself in every way possible to create a reality for all beings that is best.

The I Want It Now Character

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a character that wants something now and is not happy until I get it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and participate in the character of 'I want it now'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not remember how I created the 'I want it now' character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in a moment where I see or hear about or become aware of something that activates a feeling of desire for that thing, that I immediately activate and participate in the 'I want it now' character, as thinking about the thing that I want, talking about the thing that I want, begging another who I think may be able to get it for me, and obsessing over the thing in my mind by imagining myself with it and all of the ways in which I will feel good if I have it, and using that as motivation to continue thinking about it and finding a way to get it as soon as possible, if not NOW, and also thinking about how I feel without it, which is negative, empty, yearning, unhappy, and using this negative energy to manipulate myself and others to support me within getting, having, obtaining, manifesting the thing as soon as possible, if not NOW.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that whether I have the thing that I desire or not, I am Here and even when I get it, I will not be happy or satisfied REALLY, as all I will experience is the temporary satisfaction of the desire, but this will lead to a new desire which will cause me to go into the same pattern as now the 'I want it now' character has even more energy and experiences as memories to draw on and an even stronger will to survive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from physical reality and to go into a fantasy in my imagination about having/possessing something that I desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I chase a desire, all I am doing is attempting to satisfy a character that is nothing more than a construct of information within me that requires energy to 'feel alive' and thus I am using and abusing the real life that I have been given, this physical body and this physical reality, in order to make an imaginary being feel alive, when in fact it is just me playing a game, playing a character, believing that it is me, when it is not me in fact, but it is to the degree that this is all I am in that moment of playing that character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the extent to which I interact with others just to satisfy the demand for energy of a character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use this reality in order to support the existence of something that is not real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that because I participate in this support of a character that is not real, which requires energy to exist, I am also supporting the existence of a world character as the money system which is not real and thus requires energy to exist that feeds off of the real earth and real humans, plants, and animals.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not love myself as what I really am which is physical reality and to thus abuse myself and hurt myself through ignoring physical reality to create, support, and live out illusions as characters which can never last, meanwhile destroying that which is real until there is nothing left.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought that 'there must be something more'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within the thought of 'there must be something more' participate in the creation of separation which leads to conflict, which leads to negative energy formation which leads to positive energy experience which leads to confirmation (incorrectly) in my mind that there is something more, when in fact there was only ever Me Here and I am simply abusing myself in order to experience something more, and I am thus ignoring the opportunity to explore and discover what is MORE as Here not in separation but within Oneness and Equality with what is Here and so find out how to create within what is Here without destroying and abusing what is Here, as what is Here is ultimately of REAL value and what is MORE is an illusion when it is created in the context of separation from what is Here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel irritated with myself and others especially when I do not get what I want immediately.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become so angry when I don't get what I want that I even strain myself and pass out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself only see my parents and others as a means to getting what I want or as an obstacle to getting what I want.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that from the moment of separation within searching for More than what is Here, that I have never been Here, but only lost in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have created reality into a real illusion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear just being Here not needing anything or wanting anything but being satisfied with just being Here as Who I Am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lose sight of what is Here and to only focus on attaining and obtaining something More.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always want to be There instead of Here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that There is an illusion in separation of Here.

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I deserve to be punished for who I am and what I have become, which in itself is a desire for experience rather than being Here, it is still within the context of playing the energy game and way to excuse myself through 'paying the price' to continue with the game of searching for the satisfaction of my desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my son for wanting something when I am the one who taught him, through example, and through passing on my memories, that something more is required to be satisfied with oneself, which is an illusion that can never be true in reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I am holding something that I got, and wanting something more, that this shows me that the something more will never lead to REAL self satisfaction because I am not satisfied within myself with what I already have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be motivated by the desire for ME to have something and not care that so many go without their basic needs in this world and that I have blinded myself to this truth of reality through focusing on an illusion in my mind and participating in a character that doesn't care about anything except the pursuit of desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become less than a character in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let Life become less than a system.

I commit myself to stop participation in the character of 'I want it now' - to look at what is required for me to exist here, practically, and to continue existing within the context of supporting myself to do what is best at all times, to stop measuring my life by what I can get as the satisfaction of a desire and instead measure my life by how and what I can do to support what is best for all - which in the current context of the world is to change the system to so that it supports everyone equally to have what they require to express their full potential as Life.

I commit myself to support my children as Equal to and One with myself to stop the creation and participation in the character of 'I want it now' and the character of 'I only care about my own desires'.

I commit myself to show that the desires of a character that is not real, which is based on energy, can never be fulfilled, as the starting point of the character is not actually to be satisfied with what is Here but to always get more, because getting more means the survival of the character, but the character can never be real, because it isn't in the first place, and thus for it to survive means to use, abuse, and consume physical reality to convert into energy just for the character to 'feel alive'.

Only a Machine Runs on Polarity

Watch The Battery Scene from the movie, The Matrix for context. 

It is not possible to have POSITIVE without NEGATIVE. That is basic physics.

Why are you OK with people suffering so that you can experience a temporary positive energy when SO MUCH MORE is possible if we ended ALL CONFLICT as both Positive AND Negative?

Life is not a polarity. Only a MACHINE runs on the polarity of Positive and Negative.

Are you NOTHING MORE THAN a Machine?

Are you nothing more than an Organic Robot?

Have you been programmed by the System to just generate Energy?

Are thoughts and feelings nothing more than virtual chains?

Will we wake up and dismantle our chains ONE by ONE until Life is set free from the burden of Thought and Feeling to express what is Best for All FREELY in each moment with no PROGRAM necessary?

Who will stand up? 

People like to say that energy is eternal and is never created or destroyed and only changes forms.

But if you are self-honest, you'll admit that IN REALITY, this is only true of PHYSICAL MATTER.

And that all energy is just placing parts of matter in conflict with itself. And so the only way for energy to exist is for conflict to exist. And so when you justify the existence of energy for energy's sake, you are actually justifying the existence of conflict.

And yet you will complain about the conflict because it always takes you from your positive to a negative. And you NEVER question this, because you don't CARE.

In reality, the physical is what makes energy possible, and thus it is the physical that is REAL and while you focus on energy, you miss what is REALLY HERE as the physical world.

And in this IGNORANCE of what is REAL, you continue to IGNORE what is really going on as the conflict and suffering that exists in order for the few to experience a temporary positive.

Very sad. May you wake up before it is too late. Because judgment day is the day you die, where the physical body no longer supports the illusion of thought and energy and returns to be reformed by the physical, while YOU which was thought only... disappear.

Please, Distract Me!

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only want to see things on the news that paint a pretty picture about what is happening on earth.

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I only look at pretty images that make me feel good then the earth and life will reflect this inner feeling, when in fact the good feeling that I have is only because I have access to money, and that if I were in a position without money, looking at pretty pictures would not make me feel better except for the point of motivating my desire to make money to create that pretty picture for myself, regardless of what I create in the world as a consequence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I focus on feeling good within, I am actually only focused on my own self interest and thus I am ignoring the suffering that is occurring daily on the planet, not to mention the suffering of my own physical body which I am mining for energy in order to experience a good feeling.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have never questioned the system that is running this world, automatically producing events and situations that are in fact extremely negative as abuse of people, animals, plants, and the physical environment, in order to generate money, which I use to make myself feel good through creating a personal environment where I am surrounded with that which I need and desire as food, shelter, technology, entertainment, etc.

I forgive myself that I have never accepted and allowed myself to realize that entertainment is nothing more than a pretty picture that I use to distract myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that even being entertained by 'negative' images is still a form of distraction because it supports my mind to 'experience' a negative temporarily to then justify seeking a positive state of feeling good, in contrast to the negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider the physical toll that making a move, for instance, has on the physical environment and those involved who have to slave away to create a pretend picture for me to distract myself with, or the news, for instance, where someone is required to spend their whole life just putting pictures together for me to experience and thus even my entertainment requires a money system to enslave others to sacrifice their lives creating a picture for me, while I completely ignore the real picture in front of my very eyes as the physical world replete with suffering, abuse, murder, war, starvation, poverty, child abuse, child sacrifice, and so many abhorrent things that I shield myself from using entertainment and positive, pretty pictures to distract my physical body from realizing that I am enslaving it along with the rest of the physical existence just to create a temporary, good feeling within myself that I know, self honestly, cannot last, which is why the system must constantly evolve new ways to distract/entertain me and everyone else, so that we never realize what we are participating in, and yet I cannot self-honestly blame the system, because this is actually what I have asked for and placed value on with my dollars so that I can continue with the energy game within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the media and the elite for producing entertainment and news that distracts when it would not be produced if no one were going to consume it, and further, I cannot blame another for taking advantage of a system that I am taking advantage of within the exact same starting point to generate money for myself to be able to experience as good a life as possible regardless of the physical toll on my body and this physical world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that searching for/seeking positive energy experience is actually a form of entertainment when the physical world is suffering and that the energy game is in itself of no value and that if I were truly a creative being I would stop looking for ways to entertain myself with energy and I would focus all of my attention on the physical world to find/create/promote solutions to the physical problems that exist - an unequal money and education being the two prominent ones that would have the greatest impact on reducing suffering and creating prosperity and a life of dignity for all equally.

I commit myself to investigate, question, and stop all the forms and ways in which I distract myself from what is really Here on earth through not wanting to see a negative image that is in fact showing what is really Here or wanting to see a positive image that misrepresents our current reality or entertains/distracts me while I allow the system to continue as is.

I commit myself to investigate and expose the ways in which the system automatically produces distractions to entertain people to not stand up and adjust the system so that the NEED to be distracted no longer exists, and to investigate and stand within all the ways in which media/business can be used to support people to stand up within themselves and walk this process of self-correction and world-system correction until the system is brought to a point of supporting what is best for all equally as one. 

Doing this for Me

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that walking the 7 year journey to nothingness is about what is best for Me, existentially.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to walk in this world looking for recognition from others, not as a point of self-honest feedback, but as a point of creating an energetic feeling experience within myself, which I had accepted and allowed myself to define as the ultimate reward.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek energy as reward.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that energy in itself is of any value as reward, when self-honestly I can see the reality of it, the consequence of the up and down, the angst and ecstasy of participating in the cycles of energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that all forms of judgment and excitement are indicators that I am still participating in the energy reward game and thus in those moment I allow myself to realize that the only solution is in the breath - breathing in, bringing the energy back into myself, whether positive or negative, and forgiving myself and stopping, and thus breathing out within self honesty that I am no longer participating in that energy as a point of distraction from what is here as the physical reality.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that it is both the within myself, the self honesty within stopping participation within thoughts and feelings, and the without as walking the world system to stand within and as it to adjust it so that as I am stopping participation in the pursuit of energy within, that I am stopping the pursuit of energy without as this world system, and thus this is really about me, and not about blame or judgment of others or systems, but about me proving to me that I am really in fact changing, and that the only way to measure this is both within myself, in self honesty, equal to and one with changing the without as a measurable change in the world as adjusting the systems to stop the cycles of abuse in the name of energy and profit for only a few and recreating the system in that image and likeness that I am creating within as I stop the cycles of self-abuse in the form of self-interest.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that self-interest is in fact not really about self as what is best, because it is the narrowing of my focus to only an illusion where I am playing a game that only I can see and feel within, but that in reality doesn't last, while the reality of me as a physical body is directed without my direct participation to continue to create abuse within this world which always comes back to me, which is what is creating the impossible situation of every truly fulfilling my self-interest as such, because the self that I am interested in is not real, it is the illusion that I use to distract myself from what is happening to my real self, which I am accepting and allowing to abuse and be abused and consumed for no reason at all.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that there is no sense whatsoever in abusing myself and others, that it literally makes no sense, and that to justify in any way the pursuit of energy as a form of self-interested reward is an indication of lack of any sense whatsoever and is only possible when I or anyone abandons all reason and allows oneself to be completely possessed by an artificial set of rules running on autopilot with no end in sight.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in any way justify the continued pursuit of energy as happiness as experience and feeling, and yet  I realize that I still have points to walk through, and within that I realize that there is no value in using this as an excuse to ever give up or give in, because that would only delay and lengthen the process in space and time that it will take to truly change, because the change is not something that happens in my mind, it is something that happens as a physical process of stopping participation in my mind and directing myself within this world to change the systems that we have allowed to be created either directly or indirectly while we were busy playing the energy game in our minds, and thus this process is not about saving others or being a hero or getting recognition as being a great person, it is about stopping what I am doing and stopping the creation externally of systems and consequences that I have allowed in my name, as the reflection of what I have been participating within as my mind.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that when I participate in the pursuit of positive energy within my mind, it allows the negative to build and run rampant and this is ultimately what will become of me, not the positive, and this same logic applies to the outer world, that as we pursue money and fame and recognition and pleasure, yet we ignore that this comes at the expense of others' lives, we allow negative consequences to build in the physical reality and this is what reality is and has become and will become even more so, unless we stop and reverse all of this within and without, and thus this is not only a becoming, but an unbecoming firstly, because who I have accepted and allowed myself and others and this world to be is truly unbecoming.

I commit myself to stop participation in the mind, to not allow ANY excuse, to realize that the mind will fight, that this is what I have programmed it to do, but to stand firm, to stand as that which I know I am which is a real living being, and not to pretend to others, but to BE THAT WITHIN so that I can stop everything that I have automated within so that I can stand stable without and support this world as myself to become a place that values me and everyone and everything equally and would be the place I would want to have been born into and that I would want my children and all children to be born into as a place of unconditional support and love manifest.