The Manipulation to Fulfill Desire Character

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to develop a pattern from a young age of wanting to manipulate others in order to create an experience that I have placed energy into as desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see others as an impediment or a stepping stone to fulfilling my desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that in a moment where, having built up a desire for something, and then seeing that it is not best to fulfill it, to believe that I am not able to stop and let it go, that I MUST do whatever it takes to fulfill that desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it is a character that speaks through my mind that is attempting to get energy for itself to continue existing as a construct and that if it doesn't then it experiences a form of dying, which I experience and believe to be me dying in a certain sense, but in reality, when I breathe, let it go, it eventually passes and I am still here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a bad, manipulative person, when the reality is that I have just given authority to a program of attempting to manipulate my environment and others in order to fulfill a desire, and thus I am not bad or manipulative inherently, because I can forgive myself and stop.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not remember when/how I developed the character of manipulating others to fulfill a desire, and to within that believe that I can't possibly get to the root of it in order to stop it, when all that is required is self-honesty, self-forgiveness for what I CAN see at the moment and the willingness to breathe through and stop in moments when it comes up, and to further deconstruct the pattern through writing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the world and others can change and I can still hold onto my character of wanting to manipulate and fulfill desires.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am physical body, where words have become flesh, and thus the words and sounds and energy and patterns that I have accepted over time have come to direct me and thus I realize now that it will take time to stop these patterns and that it may get intense from time to time, but this is not a reason to stop or give up, because it may just be that it gets intense before I transcend a pattern.

I commit myself to breathe and not participate in the character of wanting to manipulate others in order to create an experience to fulfill a desire, to let go, in those moments, of the desire - to allow myself to find out and see who I am beyond the desire and the fulfillment of desire - to discover who I am without desire just being here looking at what is best.

I commit myself to further investigate and deconstruct this character of manipulation to fulfill a desire through writing, self forgiveness, and self commitment to change/stop the patterns.

The I Want It Now Character

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a character that wants something now and is not happy until I get it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and participate in the character of 'I want it now'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not remember how I created the 'I want it now' character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in a moment where I see or hear about or become aware of something that activates a feeling of desire for that thing, that I immediately activate and participate in the 'I want it now' character, as thinking about the thing that I want, talking about the thing that I want, begging another who I think may be able to get it for me, and obsessing over the thing in my mind by imagining myself with it and all of the ways in which I will feel good if I have it, and using that as motivation to continue thinking about it and finding a way to get it as soon as possible, if not NOW, and also thinking about how I feel without it, which is negative, empty, yearning, unhappy, and using this negative energy to manipulate myself and others to support me within getting, having, obtaining, manifesting the thing as soon as possible, if not NOW.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that whether I have the thing that I desire or not, I am Here and even when I get it, I will not be happy or satisfied REALLY, as all I will experience is the temporary satisfaction of the desire, but this will lead to a new desire which will cause me to go into the same pattern as now the 'I want it now' character has even more energy and experiences as memories to draw on and an even stronger will to survive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from physical reality and to go into a fantasy in my imagination about having/possessing something that I desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I chase a desire, all I am doing is attempting to satisfy a character that is nothing more than a construct of information within me that requires energy to 'feel alive' and thus I am using and abusing the real life that I have been given, this physical body and this physical reality, in order to make an imaginary being feel alive, when in fact it is just me playing a game, playing a character, believing that it is me, when it is not me in fact, but it is to the degree that this is all I am in that moment of playing that character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the extent to which I interact with others just to satisfy the demand for energy of a character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use this reality in order to support the existence of something that is not real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that because I participate in this support of a character that is not real, which requires energy to exist, I am also supporting the existence of a world character as the money system which is not real and thus requires energy to exist that feeds off of the real earth and real humans, plants, and animals.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not love myself as what I really am which is physical reality and to thus abuse myself and hurt myself through ignoring physical reality to create, support, and live out illusions as characters which can never last, meanwhile destroying that which is real until there is nothing left.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought that 'there must be something more'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within the thought of 'there must be something more' participate in the creation of separation which leads to conflict, which leads to negative energy formation which leads to positive energy experience which leads to confirmation (incorrectly) in my mind that there is something more, when in fact there was only ever Me Here and I am simply abusing myself in order to experience something more, and I am thus ignoring the opportunity to explore and discover what is MORE as Here not in separation but within Oneness and Equality with what is Here and so find out how to create within what is Here without destroying and abusing what is Here, as what is Here is ultimately of REAL value and what is MORE is an illusion when it is created in the context of separation from what is Here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel irritated with myself and others especially when I do not get what I want immediately.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become so angry when I don't get what I want that I even strain myself and pass out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself only see my parents and others as a means to getting what I want or as an obstacle to getting what I want.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that from the moment of separation within searching for More than what is Here, that I have never been Here, but only lost in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have created reality into a real illusion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear just being Here not needing anything or wanting anything but being satisfied with just being Here as Who I Am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lose sight of what is Here and to only focus on attaining and obtaining something More.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always want to be There instead of Here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that There is an illusion in separation of Here.

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I deserve to be punished for who I am and what I have become, which in itself is a desire for experience rather than being Here, it is still within the context of playing the energy game and way to excuse myself through 'paying the price' to continue with the game of searching for the satisfaction of my desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my son for wanting something when I am the one who taught him, through example, and through passing on my memories, that something more is required to be satisfied with oneself, which is an illusion that can never be true in reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I am holding something that I got, and wanting something more, that this shows me that the something more will never lead to REAL self satisfaction because I am not satisfied within myself with what I already have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be motivated by the desire for ME to have something and not care that so many go without their basic needs in this world and that I have blinded myself to this truth of reality through focusing on an illusion in my mind and participating in a character that doesn't care about anything except the pursuit of desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become less than a character in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let Life become less than a system.

I commit myself to stop participation in the character of 'I want it now' - to look at what is required for me to exist here, practically, and to continue existing within the context of supporting myself to do what is best at all times, to stop measuring my life by what I can get as the satisfaction of a desire and instead measure my life by how and what I can do to support what is best for all - which in the current context of the world is to change the system to so that it supports everyone equally to have what they require to express their full potential as Life.

I commit myself to support my children as Equal to and One with myself to stop the creation and participation in the character of 'I want it now' and the character of 'I only care about my own desires'.

I commit myself to show that the desires of a character that is not real, which is based on energy, can never be fulfilled, as the starting point of the character is not actually to be satisfied with what is Here but to always get more, because getting more means the survival of the character, but the character can never be real, because it isn't in the first place, and thus for it to survive means to use, abuse, and consume physical reality to convert into energy just for the character to 'feel alive'.

Freedom through Setting our Characters Free

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I interact with others/things my world, I am only interacting with a memory in my mind and playing out a character and thus not really Here with the other person within the totality of who they are, who I am, and the physical reality, and thus am only interacting from the context of attempting to fulfill the self-interested desire of a character within a memory associated with a limited context of what is happening in the moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never consider that I have been living my life just attempting to fulfill the desires of a character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel/believe that there is no way that I can stop living as characters in the mind only, when it is a matter of walking each character, in detail, breath by breath - deconstructing and releasing myself from the memories that are within me as files that are activated in moments by the characters that I have accepted within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have stored files within my body that are damaged - meaning that they are files that contain memories wherein I am the central character that is being hurt, abused, embarrassed, or otherwise victimized and thus within that these files are in fact what are running my life as who I am and what I do and what I accept and allow - all from the starting point of living in accordance with the memories as if they are valid and cannot be changed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that deleting a memory is as simple as deleting a memory in a computer, where the delete button is self-forgiveness out loud and in writing, and yet it may take time to fully delete the memory due to the extensive cross-referencing of each point connected to other points - and yet it is just a matter of time and space within applying myself practically in each moment, breath by breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I truly want to change, and yet I also have a belief that change is hard or impossible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that changing is hard or impossible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the darkness of living without memories as characters that tell me what to do and what not to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear complete self-responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that complete self-responsibility is actual freedom.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being free - and that the only way to exist is as a slave.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be a slave and to want to enslave others so that I can remain enslaved and not take complete self-responsibility for who I am and what I do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that master and slave are both characters and not real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want others to remain as a character in my experience so that my memories which are fueling the self-interest of characters within me can continue existing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have enslaved myself to produce energy for characters in my mind that aren't even real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to enslave reality to produce memories within me that create characters and fuel their existence within my mind which in turn enslaves me to always act in ways that fuel their continued existence and thus it is up to me to break this cycle once and for all -  to set myself free, to set the characters free, to set this physical reality free from an automated existence of separation from itself and myself, and to thus rebirth myself in and as this physical reality, letting go of all illusions and characters and allowing myself to be here and live within the unpredictability of the moment yet within the self-trust that I will, regardless of the context, always do and live what is best for all - as that is REAL freedom.

I commit myself to continue to investigate, write, forgive myself and set myself free from acting as a character that is not best for all.

I commit myself to get to know my physical body - to establish a real connection, to be one and equal with my physical body, to become physical as complete self-responsibility AS the physical living being and to let go of all the illusions of characters that are only abusing the physical with my permission.

I commit myself to show that there is no sense in or reason to live as a character and that by adjusting the systems that support our physical existence as human and all living forms that we can give ourselves the freedom to not have to live as a character.

I commit myself to show that all characters are only existing as a reaction to our separation from physical reality, and thus if we support ourselves and each other practically, physically we can let go of all characters, because they were only ever an attempt to find something more than physical reality, which is impossible.

I commit myself to show that the pursuit of happiness is nothing more than the self-interested desire of a character created by the consumerism system to keep the system as a character existing, and the consequence has been our self-enslavement to this character, but if we stop the pursuit of happiness we can set ourselves free from being slaves to an economic system that only cares about its own survival - but we must stop first within ourselves, then adjust the system.

The 'Good Person' Character

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am a good person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the belief that I am good person is a character that I have created within myself, charged with energy as feeling and emotion, constructed out of images both of good and bad that I have seen throughout my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the good person character that I have created and participate within is an illusion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I participate in the good person character in order to not face the fact that I am not a good person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself and others as not being good and thus I create and participate in the character of being a good person in order to escape my own judgment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it is impossible to do good in a world that runs on a system that does not honor all Life equally, and only gives to each according to how much money they have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I give money to another person who is in need, I am doing so to prove to myself and to others that I am a good person, even though I, within myself, see the person in need as less than me, unfortunate, and poor, dear soul who needs my gracious help, and thus the good person character is the way in which I can play savior without having to do anything for real that would require me to challenge the system that exists.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my attempts to give to others in need are irrelevant because they do not address the reason/cause why the person is in need.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and participate in the good person character because I feel guilty subconsciously and unconsciously about participating in a system that causes mass suffering on a scale that makes my acts of kindness as the good person character seem like a drop of water compared to the ocean.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I do acts of kindness to those less fortunate or to those who I perceive as needing my help, I experience an energetic charge which I define as positive which is actually fueling the good person character and one of the ways in which I keep my mind energized, which is itself contributing to the problem of the system not being adjusted to be what is best, because it requires me to focus on getting a good feeling from my actions so that I won't face the real difficult stuff of standing up in the system and changing myself for real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am compassionate when children go to bed hungry every night, but I don't really care, because I would justify that its not within my abilities to do anything about it, which is the biggest COP OUT in existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the excuse that 'at least I try to be a good person' which is an admission that I know that my acts as a good person are not real and have no real effect, but I only really care about 'feeling' like a good person, and because I 'feel' like a good person, that makes it so.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that 'feeling' like something does not equal it being so, and I can convince myself through thoughts repeated over and over in my head as well as through experiences which I give meaning to and imbue with energy as memories that further fuel the 'feeling' and belief that I am a good person but in reality all I have done is create a fake character in my mind that is like an entity in itself and doesn't want to stop existing - and thus I will never have any real impact in this world, because I am nothing more than a slave to a character that wants me to continue to feed it with energy in the form of experiences that reinforce it as real in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to really only care about myself and I know deep down that the good person character is not real yet if I let it go then I have to face myself and this world for real. In this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear standing up and facing what really exists in this world and changing myself to go beyond my pre-programming which feels natural and 'easy' so to speak, because real change is extremely difficult.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not realize that the only way to be a truly good person is to stand up and do everything possible to adjust the system that determines who eats and who is educated and who has a home - which is the money system - to be best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define those that are in positions of power in this world as bad, evil, corrupt and me as good, kind, and compassionate, even though I am not willing to take on the level of responsibility that they are - and I use my belief in being a good person to excuse myself from having to do anything really would affect other people's live, because as the good person character, all I care about really is how I am perceived by others and myself - as a good person.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself realize that the points that I see within being a good person that are common sense as best for others should something that I live as an automatic point - thus it is not to throw the baby out with the bathwater, so to speak, but to look at each situation in the moment and see what is best, however looking at the world in the greatest possible context, I must really be self honest and ask myself if I am simply doing what is expedient to feel good about myself or am I really challenging myself to change and stop participating in self interest and not using 'good deeds' to cover up the fact that I am not standing up for what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that being a good person has nothing to do with doing what is best for all - as all the images and ideas I have of being a good person come from within the context of a system that already not best - and I never even realized that simply by participating in this character in my mind, I am fueling the system and I am thus just as EVIL as anyone else.

I commit myself to remove every point within where I judge myself and others as either good or bad or neutral and to realign all of my assessments about who I am and what I do and what I accept and allow within what is BEST FOR ALL.

I commit myself to show all those trapped in the character of the 'good person' that their character is not real and that unless they establish themselves Here as a real physical being who does what is ACTUALLY best for all in all ways in all contexts at all times, they will cease to exist and all of their apparent 'good deeds' will mean nothing and the world will continue on and accelerate towards non-existence as we consume physical reality for nothing more than a temporary experience.

The Character Illusion

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that unless I give up the pursuit of positive energy experience, I have no right to expect that I won't have a negative energy experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel oppressed by negative energy experience and grateful for positive energy experience, not realizing that in the participation in both, I am dooming myself to continuing to experience the up and down of mood swings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the character of being oppressed by negative energy experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and participate in the Depressed Character in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I created the Depressed Character in an attempt to somehow manipulate/force others/reality to notice me and serve me with a positive experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to reverse the point of how I look at positive/negative, not realizing that the real gratitude is in the negative as it shows me what I am really doing, while the positive is what is the true oppressor as it tricks one into temporarily ignoring what one is really doing as creating the consequence of the continuation of conflict as negative energy experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I deserve more than anyone else.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am more important than anyone else.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am equal to everyone as I have been given Life and so has everyone else, and that the inner experience that I participate in is not real and thus of no value, and that the more I place value on it, the more consequence I accumulate for myself that would thus drive me to compete with others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the inner turmoil I experience is of my OWN making.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and participate in the Superior Character wherein I take a superior attitude to everything and everyone in order to justify getting what I want regardless of what it creates for others (and myself in reality).

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe/think/feel/pretend that my continued existence as the survival of my conscious experience is real and of value and of the utmost value.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a character called Cameron who is the conglomeration of all the characters that are within, both suppressed and expressed, and that this character that I identify most with is in fact an illusion, when in reality the REAL ME is me as the physical body which I have ignored, abused, suppressed, attempted to control for as long as I have been here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the best use of my time is to generate fun, positive experiences for myself while I exist, which is the certain way to prove that I have no right to exist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the best use of my time is to chart the characters that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and participate within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that existence as consciousness as feelings and thoughts and experience is more important than LIFE, and thus I have ignored the real Life that I have been given and thus ensured that my existence will come to an end.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the gratitude that I have towards being shown the way to birth myself as Life as the physical Here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not appreciate the opportunity that I have in this brief window of time to become REAL.

I commit myself to stopping participation in characters within myself through identifying the characters, charting out their characteristics and deconstructing and removing the information/energy constructs that have given authority to these characters to direct me as the physical body.

GAME OVER

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have separated myself from the physical existence and my physical body as who I am Here into a myriad of different characters in my mind in which I participate in order to survive as energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have placed value on the existence and survival of an illusion in my mind as a character/characters as memories, thoughts, and feelings and placed little to no value on the physical reality and how it works and functions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become a slave to designing and living out characters within my mind and through my interaction with others and this physical world throughout my existence/this life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that/define Life is/as the experience of energy and the living out of a character based on creating memories and reliving memories.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have defined Life/living as just playing a game.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see other people as a character and to value them only as characters and to the degree that they support the characters that I have created within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create characters and suppress some while living out others, not realizing that the ones I suppress will also determine what I do and how I live as they run in the background and are fed with energy that I generate through participating in the characters that I 'accept' as myself.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that what I have created as characters are like Frankenstein's monster, that I have created them in an attempt to create 'Life' but not taking full responsibility for what I create and then experiencing the consequences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in the experience of the consequences of living as characters in my mind here in reality, I have created even more characters as the reaction/response/feeling about the consequences that I experience which further compounds the consequences because I have not taken full responsibility for who I am and what I do and accept and allow and that this is the fundamental reason for the existence of a consequence that is not best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that even the idea that I am a powerful creator is another character, it is not real, in the sense that I am creating anything of value that is best, as a TRULY powerful creator would, but all I am 'creating' is characters, and thus I am equal to and one with that point of even my status as creator being just another character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Life is not a game and that the REAL character that is actually physically here as my physical body and all other physical beings and manifestations are completely being missed and not taken care of equally as what is best because I have instead focused on what characters in my mind would support the experience of my own self-defined self-interest as the pursuit of some optimum energy experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am equal to and one with what I accept and allow and thus if I accept and allow myself to create characters in my mind and give those my focus and attention then I am only a character in my mind and not real, and thus there now exists a GAME OVER point in my future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I play games, then I will eventually face GAME OVER.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that this is my last life, that the game will no longer continue - that this is GAME OVER - and that this is my one opportunity to be self-honest, forgive myself, correct myself and do what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the consequence for treating Life as a game is that this is the Last Life in the game.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the only way to have Everlasting Life is to give up this Life as the Game and be Here and do what is Best for All.

I commit myself to - through writing, self-forgiveness, and self corrective application - investigate, deconstruct, and remove all the characters that I have created throughout time and get to know the REAL physical reality Here and align myself to always act in accordance with Reality as what is optimal as what is best for all.

I commit myself to show that all characters in the mind are only ever designed as a point of trying to generate energy which only fuels the further existence of the characters in the mind and creates real physical consequences in physical reality that are not best and thus create the conditions will eventually spell the end of all fake, mind characters.

I commit myself to show parents that they are teaching their children to create characters in their mind out of survival and thus trapping their children into an illusion that will seal their fate just as it has sealed the parents fate of NOT SURVIVING this reality beyond death.

Trading Happiness for Something Real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that a child supported with common sense and examples of honoring and valuing Life will become an adult that honors and values Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my primary role as a parent is simply to help my child survive in this world, when survival is one aspect of living in this world as a fully functioning human being, and that as a parent, it is my responsibility to not only support my child to live and be healthy and be educated to be effective in the world as it is but also to develop an understanding of what Life really is and the inherent equality and oneness of all life and to develop the ability to express what is best, to stand in this world as an example of living what is best, to recognize and honor all Life and to not accept or allow anything less than what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize as a parent how the media and advertising influences a child to develop a character that is based on self-interest and the pursuit of experience as self-interest, which we call 'happiness' but it really just a program of seeking out products to buy to fulfill a perceived lack, the lack being created through imagery and sounds in the advertising itself and by the parent who participates in their own pursuit of happiness, while the consequence is that many people in this world go without and many animals suffer and thus we create a world where the real experience in the physical is hell and thus happiness is not something that grant to each other by default, but that we dangle as a promised reward as long as one submit to the system, knowing full well that we will never receive the reward we are searching for in this life, and we are really not certain that it exists in the next.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question the pursuit of happiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take the pursuit of happiness for granted as a given that must not be questioned.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the starting point of pursuing something creates the endpoint of never achieving but always remaining in a state of pursuit.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I must be crazy for questioning what everyone else accepts blindly, but within this I have still accepted the lie because I am still thinking, and thus creating a belief about myself as different, or odd, or an outside of the box thinker, is still just an idea in my mind that will keep me trapped and distracted from ever standing up in the world, as the only way to really stand up and do what is necessary to support myself, others, and the systems to change to be what is best for all will require me to give up any and all feelings of being special in any way because I realize that feeling special is still participation in energy, which is still playing the game of the pursuit of happiness in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I cannot be happy in a world where most never even have the possibility to be happy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the only way to be happy in a world where Life suffers is to create an illusion inside of my head, but in self honesty I know that the happiness inside never lasts and that this is because of external conditions that constantly create conflict in my experience, and thus the REAL ACT of love would be to stand up and dismantle the systems within and without that are causing conflict and suffering unnecessarily and to readjust both within and without to only support and create what is best for all as this would ensure happiness for everyone, including myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that any education of a child that does not support them to see past the illusion of happiness in a world based on lack is in fact child abuse and condemning the child to a life of suffering and opening them to abuse and manipulation by those who know how to create imagery to lead the confused consumer to pursue happiness but in fact only treats the child like a coin in a machine - not caring at all about the actual quality of life of the child or anyone else.

I commit myself to support my children to develop a keen understanding of how the system we have here on earth works and within that support them to develop a highly effective vocabulary, reading, and math ability as well as an understanding of the equality and oneness of all life.

I commit myself to show to other parents that the best education for a child consists of effective development of vocabulary, math, and reading ability combined with supporting the child to develop self-mastery over their emotions, self-discipline within designing and implementing systems that are best for all and an understanding and appreciation of the equality and oneness of all Life and a development of common sense reasoning that always considers what is best for all within any decision.