The Manipulation to Fulfill Desire Character

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to develop a pattern from a young age of wanting to manipulate others in order to create an experience that I have placed energy into as desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see others as an impediment or a stepping stone to fulfilling my desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that in a moment where, having built up a desire for something, and then seeing that it is not best to fulfill it, to believe that I am not able to stop and let it go, that I MUST do whatever it takes to fulfill that desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it is a character that speaks through my mind that is attempting to get energy for itself to continue existing as a construct and that if it doesn't then it experiences a form of dying, which I experience and believe to be me dying in a certain sense, but in reality, when I breathe, let it go, it eventually passes and I am still here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a bad, manipulative person, when the reality is that I have just given authority to a program of attempting to manipulate my environment and others in order to fulfill a desire, and thus I am not bad or manipulative inherently, because I can forgive myself and stop.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not remember when/how I developed the character of manipulating others to fulfill a desire, and to within that believe that I can't possibly get to the root of it in order to stop it, when all that is required is self-honesty, self-forgiveness for what I CAN see at the moment and the willingness to breathe through and stop in moments when it comes up, and to further deconstruct the pattern through writing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the world and others can change and I can still hold onto my character of wanting to manipulate and fulfill desires.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am physical body, where words have become flesh, and thus the words and sounds and energy and patterns that I have accepted over time have come to direct me and thus I realize now that it will take time to stop these patterns and that it may get intense from time to time, but this is not a reason to stop or give up, because it may just be that it gets intense before I transcend a pattern.

I commit myself to breathe and not participate in the character of wanting to manipulate others in order to create an experience to fulfill a desire, to let go, in those moments, of the desire - to allow myself to find out and see who I am beyond the desire and the fulfillment of desire - to discover who I am without desire just being here looking at what is best.

I commit myself to further investigate and deconstruct this character of manipulation to fulfill a desire through writing, self forgiveness, and self commitment to change/stop the patterns.

Domination Is Submission to the Mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dominated by my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my mind to dominate me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to instruct my body to listen to my mind as the directive principle of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate self-direction in each moment, to the automatic processed of the mind as to how I have programmed it directly and accepted and allowed it to be programmed from without by my parents, environment, media, education, peers, etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to choose to listen to my mind as feelings and thoughts as my directive principle as if I am nothing more than a robot following instructions from a master program.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a dominant person because I am able to manipulate others to get what I want in self-interest, which a losing proposition, because it means that others must be inferior or submissive, which ultimately is not what I really want, because having a world where we are all equal would allow us to creatively create what is best for all and create a world that is much better than any world that could exist where people dominate each other and submit to each other.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I am dominating another, I am not creating anything or getting anything real - all I am doing is following the dictates of a program that is manipulating what is already here for the purpose of creating conflict and energy, which will end with me being in the ultimate submissive position.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that being dominant is actually being submissive because the one who wants to dominate is always a slave to their self-interest which uses them to fulfill itself at the expense of the being's life force which is limited within the context that once I die, there is nothing left if I have not established myself Here as Real, Physical and that is not possible when I accept and allow myself to become nothing more than simply the CONSENT to use my body to mine energy from the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base my decisions on how I feel in the moment, instead considering what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in a moment where I want to do something based on living out a picture as memories and it requires the participation of another, and the other person says that they don't want to do what I am suggesting, that I first within myself go into a feeling of disappointment, and then reflect this feeling/though process within my body language/expression in order to make my disappointment more real to me and to manipulate the other person symbolically to 'change their decision' so that I get what I want.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty about manipulating another based on my personal desires and wants, when in fact, another person can only be manipulated by me if they accept and allow themselves as emotions, feelings, and thoughts - however this does not make manipulating others in the context of attempting to fulfill my self-interest acceptable - as it only reinforces that another person has the right to do the same thing, as I am equal in receiving what I am giving.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, in a moment where I see that I am manipulating another person/myself through feelings and emotions, to not want to stop, to not want to admit what I am doing to myself or another, and to not want to let go of that which I am trying to get through the manipulation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as a parent, to expect that my child will not manipulate another/me through emotions and feelings, when I had not been willing to stop the pattern within myself, and thus I am not able to support the child to correct the pattern without first addressing it within myself, because my children will observe me participating in the pattern and will learn this as opposed to what I TELL them to do or not do.

I commit myself to - in the moment when I see that I am going into an emotional manipulation pattern in order to dominate another/myself in order to manifest my self-interest - that I STOP. I breathe. I forgive myself for following the thought/emotion/feeling pattern - I REMEMBER that I am Here and that my self-interest is not what is best for all - and to communicate with the other person what I am really seeking so that they are aware and I for a moment allow myself to drop the feeling and emotion as important and breathe until no more energy moves and only then re-evaluate the point of the decision I was looking at previously within self-interest, and to communicate with the other person to come to an agreement about what is best.

I commit myself to face and walk through and direct all points of self-interest that are still within me, in order to remove them and remove the emotional charge within them - through writing, self-forgiveness, and self-correction so that I am able to make decisions that are always best for all - as this is the only way to prevent conflict and consequence for myself and others equally.

The Pursuit of Fear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I give up my own self interest then it is not possible to be happy or for happiness to exist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the starting point of not wanting to give up my self interest is fear, and thus that is what I am equal to = FEAR and thus how can I ever be truly happy when I am equal to fear?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to thoroughly convince myself that I have a right to create my own happiness as does everyone else, when in fact I live in a world where I am highly dependent upon others and thus it is not possible to create happiness within myself while ignoring others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that happiness is a feeling inside only, when it is in fact a condition of existence where all my needs and wants are met and where I am totally free of fear of consequence because there is nothing to fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that freedom is something that exists in my head or in my emotions only when it is a physical condition where one is not subject to physical consequences that are not best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dishonest within myself about what happiness really is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that 'individual happiness in the head' is what a slave master would convince a slave to focus on so that the slave would not revolt against the physical conditions that the slave is in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as society, to be repulsed by the idea of slavery in history as taught in the textbooks, and to think that it would be stupid to suggest that the slaves on a plantation should just be happy regardless of their circumstances, and yet not apply that same logic equally to myself and the world currently, where I would justify others currently existing today being in conditions of poverty, for example, that they should just focus inwardly on happiness and that that is their right to choose or not choose, although I would not have applied that same logic to the slaves in the history books, because feeling sorry for those slaves allows me to pretend to be a good person, but facing the real slavery that exists in this world due to the individual pursuit of happiness would require ME in real time to change and let go of my self-interest, but I wouldn't because I had accepted and allowed myself to become equal to justification of slavery as that is in fact what I am doing, because I have become a slave to the pursuit of self-interest at all costs, of which the cost is death, equally for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value on the satisfaction of a character's desire for energy within myself instead of the expression of the Life Force that I am/have received from the physical reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define happiness as an experience, instead of as the free expression of the Life Force that is in all equally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the Life Force in all equally as the most important thing that exists, and rather place value on anything but, so that I can justify my own pursuit of happiness as the experience of energy due to the conflict created by placing reality in separation from itself, which is thus enslaving the real Life Force to an existence of expression of conflict and consequence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that all people, all forms, are not in fact equal, which is why it is possible for one person to gain power over another, and that unless we as humanity, look past the real illusion of form and recognize the equality of Life Force in all, and create a system that supports that equally in all, we will never create and thus experience true equality as what is best for all, because we are all One in fact and what I do to another and what I allow to be done to another is what will be done unto me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that unless the I in happIness change to consider the happiness in all as equally important - happiness will never be real for anyone, including myself, and thus I would have enslaved myself to an eternal pursuit of something I can never have or attain.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the pursuit of something I cannot attain is what I have created for myself to never be real, because I have never cared about being real, because I rejected what is real, and now I see the consequence of such a decision, and thus I now see why I should change and I now see that change starts with the recognition of what is real and the acceptance of who I am as valuing what is real as the Equal Life that is present within all and recreating myself within the image and likeness of that acceptance so that who/how I am within and who/how I am without reflects this realization in all ways.

I commit myself to find the Life Force within me and learn to communicate with and as it.

I commit myself to walk the way to free the Life Force within me and within all as equals.

I commit myself to stand up as the Life Force within me and as me in full expression and to recognize and speak to and inspire others to recognize and stand equal to the Life Force as the directive principle of self and thus recreate this world in the image and likeness of the Life Force that is in each of us equally.

Self Interest as Self Limitation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my entire starting point for my existence to be one of seeking something that I perceive as more only for myself.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the starting point of seeking more for only myself or even for a select few others is the root of all conflict and war in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the world as one of competition and survival not allowing myself to realize that I am the source of this as are all others equally.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the fear I and others feel on a daily basis, even at subtle, subconscious levels that form the background of our experience, are due to each of us participating in the search for survival of ourselves as that seeking of more only.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that there is nothing more that is needed to get, that this feeling or belief I have that I need to get more and that I need to survive is something that I and everyone are creating artificially.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that by pursuing only my own desire for more or only my own security and survival I am condemning all future generations to do the same because from the moment we are born into this world, we are born into a system that REQUIRES us to compete to survive as it does not give to all equally and unconditionally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in and justify a system that only gives based on what one contributes as the survival of the system even though secretly I would like to be able to just exist without having to give to the system, which I call a life of leisure and luxury.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the only purpose and meaning that has any real meaning or value is for me to forgive myself of all that I have accepted and allowed within myself that justifies a system of self-interested, self seeking of personal reward only within and without and that by stopping participation within this system within myself I am able to accept and new system that would in fact give me what I am looking for as safety, security, happiness, peace, fulfillment, etc but I realize that it can only work if I allow that for everyone else and thus I must remove all that within myself which would deceive me into thinking/feeling/acting in a way that would either prevent and/or not actively contribute to the creation of such a system.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that every major event in my life has been the creation of something negative which I then use to catapult myself towards a positive experience, but within this I am had not realized that the positive I aimed for was never one that was best for all and thus would always leave me back in the experience of negative to repeat the cycle again.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate within both negative and positive feelings, thoughts, and emotions and never stopped and realized that I am not here to experience thoughts, feelings, and emotions, but to be a LIVING BEING who acts physically in ways that are best for all only and that by doing so and by standing as an example and by supporting others to do the same, this would be reflected back to me and all others equally as a world that supports me to experience myself in a REAL POSITIVE way, not as a reaction to negative but as having that which I require to live here and express myself fully, unconditionally as what is best.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that in standing up as a living example I will have to walk through negativity but in order to let go and forgive myself and not participate in creating a temporary positive experience that would only cycle back into the recreation of a negative but to stop the cycles of creating positive/negative and to instead create a system that supports all Life equally.

I commit myself to walk through all negative experience as the consequence of what we have created in this world not within reaction, but within forgiving myself and taking responsibility for the negative that we are creating and to within that stand within a position in this world to take responsibility in whatever way possible to adjust the system so that it provides to all equally so that no child will come to this reality and believe that they must look out for themselves only but will see that it is quite natural and possible to be Here in reality giving to all equally and receiving as an individual that which is best always.

I commit myself to, as a parent, be the living example for my children that one can change and stand within this world within the starting point of what is best even though the world is not structured, yet, in a way that is best and thus support my children to take responsibility for themselves and this world in order to continue adjusting the system until all that remains is what is best in all ways.