Eschewing Emotional Manipulation of Children

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize as a parent that when I tell my child that I will leave them if they do not come with me that this will create a great consequence for the child in terms of imprinting them with fear which will diminish their ability to live effectively.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that as a parent, when I tell my child that they have to come with me or I will leave them, or I walk away and say 'Bye, I'm leaving now' instead of clearly supporting them to understand that it is time to leave and that we will all be going and supporting them to make the decision to come with me without fear, that if I do that, I am only supporting the child to exist in fear, and I am deliberately using the fear of loss to emotionally manipulate them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that, as a parent, I can prevent a situation where my child will not come with me by communicating with them effectively from the beginning and supporting them to develop an effective vocabulary and ability to communicate, and that I must support myself with this as well, and by doing that I can create an agreement with my child of support where communication is used instead of force and emotional manipulation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I use force or emotional manipulation with my child, this in no way supports them to be able to make effective decisions, it in fact dumbs them down, because if I do not support them to understand reality and understand consequences through common sense and logic and instead imprint them with fear then they will live their life in fear and always trying to avoid the experience of negative emotion, which is not an intelligent way to live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, as a parent, the degree and extent of influence that I have, and that every word, every encounter, every experience counts and builds my child's understanding of the world and their understanding of themselves and directly affects their self-esteem.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the degree to which I affect my child's self-esteem.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to believe that my child is just learning everything on their own, so that I can feel like my child is special and therefore that I am special, when in fact I am the primary (along with my spouse) influence on my child and determine virtually everything about who they will become and how they will live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I take emotional manipulation and force off of the table, then I will have to become MORE CREATIVE and support myself to become BETTER in order to be able to communicate with my child from the beginning effectively.

I commit myself to show that the best way to parent, is to take force and emotional manipulation off the table as an option, and rather 'force' myself to develop effective communication, clear, direct, and explain as much as possible, and that through this, my child will develop a keen ability to understand and communicate and reason.

The Manipulation to Fulfill Desire Character

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to develop a pattern from a young age of wanting to manipulate others in order to create an experience that I have placed energy into as desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see others as an impediment or a stepping stone to fulfilling my desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that in a moment where, having built up a desire for something, and then seeing that it is not best to fulfill it, to believe that I am not able to stop and let it go, that I MUST do whatever it takes to fulfill that desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it is a character that speaks through my mind that is attempting to get energy for itself to continue existing as a construct and that if it doesn't then it experiences a form of dying, which I experience and believe to be me dying in a certain sense, but in reality, when I breathe, let it go, it eventually passes and I am still here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a bad, manipulative person, when the reality is that I have just given authority to a program of attempting to manipulate my environment and others in order to fulfill a desire, and thus I am not bad or manipulative inherently, because I can forgive myself and stop.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not remember when/how I developed the character of manipulating others to fulfill a desire, and to within that believe that I can't possibly get to the root of it in order to stop it, when all that is required is self-honesty, self-forgiveness for what I CAN see at the moment and the willingness to breathe through and stop in moments when it comes up, and to further deconstruct the pattern through writing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the world and others can change and I can still hold onto my character of wanting to manipulate and fulfill desires.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am physical body, where words have become flesh, and thus the words and sounds and energy and patterns that I have accepted over time have come to direct me and thus I realize now that it will take time to stop these patterns and that it may get intense from time to time, but this is not a reason to stop or give up, because it may just be that it gets intense before I transcend a pattern.

I commit myself to breathe and not participate in the character of wanting to manipulate others in order to create an experience to fulfill a desire, to let go, in those moments, of the desire - to allow myself to find out and see who I am beyond the desire and the fulfillment of desire - to discover who I am without desire just being here looking at what is best.

I commit myself to further investigate and deconstruct this character of manipulation to fulfill a desire through writing, self forgiveness, and self commitment to change/stop the patterns.