Domination Is Submission to the Mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dominated by my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my mind to dominate me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to instruct my body to listen to my mind as the directive principle of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate self-direction in each moment, to the automatic processed of the mind as to how I have programmed it directly and accepted and allowed it to be programmed from without by my parents, environment, media, education, peers, etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to choose to listen to my mind as feelings and thoughts as my directive principle as if I am nothing more than a robot following instructions from a master program.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as a dominant person because I am able to manipulate others to get what I want in self-interest, which a losing proposition, because it means that others must be inferior or submissive, which ultimately is not what I really want, because having a world where we are all equal would allow us to creatively create what is best for all and create a world that is much better than any world that could exist where people dominate each other and submit to each other.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I am dominating another, I am not creating anything or getting anything real - all I am doing is following the dictates of a program that is manipulating what is already here for the purpose of creating conflict and energy, which will end with me being in the ultimate submissive position.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that being dominant is actually being submissive because the one who wants to dominate is always a slave to their self-interest which uses them to fulfill itself at the expense of the being's life force which is limited within the context that once I die, there is nothing left if I have not established myself Here as Real, Physical and that is not possible when I accept and allow myself to become nothing more than simply the CONSENT to use my body to mine energy from the physical.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base my decisions on how I feel in the moment, instead considering what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in a moment where I want to do something based on living out a picture as memories and it requires the participation of another, and the other person says that they don't want to do what I am suggesting, that I first within myself go into a feeling of disappointment, and then reflect this feeling/though process within my body language/expression in order to make my disappointment more real to me and to manipulate the other person symbolically to 'change their decision' so that I get what I want.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty about manipulating another based on my personal desires and wants, when in fact, another person can only be manipulated by me if they accept and allow themselves as emotions, feelings, and thoughts - however this does not make manipulating others in the context of attempting to fulfill my self-interest acceptable - as it only reinforces that another person has the right to do the same thing, as I am equal in receiving what I am giving.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, in a moment where I see that I am manipulating another person/myself through feelings and emotions, to not want to stop, to not want to admit what I am doing to myself or another, and to not want to let go of that which I am trying to get through the manipulation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as a parent, to expect that my child will not manipulate another/me through emotions and feelings, when I had not been willing to stop the pattern within myself, and thus I am not able to support the child to correct the pattern without first addressing it within myself, because my children will observe me participating in the pattern and will learn this as opposed to what I TELL them to do or not do.

I commit myself to - in the moment when I see that I am going into an emotional manipulation pattern in order to dominate another/myself in order to manifest my self-interest - that I STOP. I breathe. I forgive myself for following the thought/emotion/feeling pattern - I REMEMBER that I am Here and that my self-interest is not what is best for all - and to communicate with the other person what I am really seeking so that they are aware and I for a moment allow myself to drop the feeling and emotion as important and breathe until no more energy moves and only then re-evaluate the point of the decision I was looking at previously within self-interest, and to communicate with the other person to come to an agreement about what is best.

I commit myself to face and walk through and direct all points of self-interest that are still within me, in order to remove them and remove the emotional charge within them - through writing, self-forgiveness, and self-correction so that I am able to make decisions that are always best for all - as this is the only way to prevent conflict and consequence for myself and others equally.

What We Ignore in our Pursuit of Bliss

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to not realize that the Law of Attraction is the acceptance that I will only move towards that which is attractive, which is thus that which I have separated myself from as superior to me and thus the Law of Attraction is the acceptance and allowance of inequality and polarity as superiority vs inferiority and separation of myself from other parts of reality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that accepting the Law of Attraction as valid and valuable requires me to accept that reality will always exist in a state of separation, otherwise why would any point of reality be attracted to/towards any other point unless the two points are in separation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that what I am attracted to is a matter of pre-preprogramming of which my parents, environment, and advertising/marketing, and education have played the major roles.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can attract a better life, when in fact, this belief is the acceptance of myself as separate from this better life, and I am thus in that acceptance disempowered from CREATING a better life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the entire starting point of the application of the Law of Attraction is within self-interest only, where one must accept that one is the creator of THEIR reality only, and thus is not responsible for what another creates as their reality, as this would be the choice of the other to focus the reality they want or not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never question why another would not want to focus on what they want as the best possible life and thus why another would use the Law of Attraction to create what is less than best, when the immediate thought that comes up as to why is that the other person simply has not learned how to use the Law of Attraction to their advantage, which begs the question as to whether one is COMPLETELY responsible for their own reality or whether another is influenced by what they see and hear, and thus would be the reason why some are ignorant or ineffective at using the Law of Attraction to their best advantage, so either I must be lying to myself that we are completely creating our own reality on our own or I must believe that I am somehow special in that I for some reason have 'attracted' the truth of how to create my own reality while others don't.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in such a thing as 'my truth' where each one has a 'my truth' which is unique to each person, even though in self-honesty I know that no two people are fundamentally different in terms of how they live based on how much money they have - it is quite predictable to know what kinds of things a person will value or be interested in based on how much money they have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question how a baby could be born into poverty vs wealth, which would imply that the baby - before they even knew how to think - was attracting a certain life - even though when I observe the actions of those born into wealth - they don't seem to do anything of a higher purpose that makes the world practically better for those in the position of poverty, and thus why would that being prior to coming to earth have deserved anything more than the one in poverty? For Context: Chinese Kids Driving Supercars: Inside the Secret Southern California Meet-up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be willing to question the nature of the Law of Attraction as to how it actually only further justifies the separation of people into poverty and wealth because I have secretly hoped to be in the less than 1% who experiences the wealth side of things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question the statement "follow your bliss" which exists alongside the statement "ignorance is bliss" which both as sound/symbols in reality create a following and ignoring program within humanity where those who have money and wealth will ignore those without and do nothing create system where everyone has what they need, and those who do not have wealth follow their preprogrammed feelings as leading them (one hopes) to an experience of ultimate bliss, which is really just a program of consumerism based on feelings generated through purchasing experiences which is what keeps those with wealth in power over the system and able to create the experiences they want - they are not attracting experiences, they are creating products and experiences that are attractive to the masses who will work their whole lives even for the promise of owning/possessing the product/experience meanwhile the money generated from this labor is channeled into the pockets of the elite who then use it to have the experiences they desire as well as evolve the systems of control and inequality that exist in the money system, education system, etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my desire to follow my bliss is actually a program that is designed to ensure that bliss never exists for anyone in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there is no such thing as 'my bliss' as separate from 'another's bliss' because we are all one physically interconnected in a system of resource distribution based on lack which requires slaves to create for the few and is based on the idea that we are born into poverty and born into original sin, and thus within that we will allow the flaws and problems in the system and because we are afraid to stand up, we will rather ignore the real problem which is creating the fear and suffering in our lives and rather believe in a fantasy that we can magically manifest a magical life for ourselves with our minds - which if it were true - you would be able to find one person who did so, yet all the examples we use to motivate ourselves within the Law of Attraction are people who are really good at getting a lot of other people to do something with their Life Force that mainly benefits the one in charge or are really good at getting others to give them money for some promise of transferring knowledge or wisdom of how to get other people to give them money or to magically manifest a better life (even though if the person doing it knew how to manifest a better life with their mind, they would be able to do everything for free and would never have to use money in any capacity whatsoever).

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I focus on following my bliss, I have to place myself in a form of ignorace, where I deliberately do not investigate, thus ignore, reality as it functions in mechanical detail, and instead focus on a picture composed of images, feelings, thoughts, and energy that I desire to experience, never questioning whether it is even possible to create and live as a picture and never asking myself what is real in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have a choice in my life's purpose, when in fact I did not create myself directly or this world directly - it is the result of my and everyone else's original choice to not take direct responsibility in every moment to be equal and one with reality here, and now out of complete dishonesty I believe that I can somehow magically manifest a better life, without even understanding the detail of this world and how it functions, but that it will just magically come to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that individual happiness and choice is an illusion because it only exists in my mind and I never had any intention to make it real because if I did then I would have asked first, "What is real?" and I would have realized that I am a physical being in a physical world with other physical beings and thus I would HAVE to consider everyone else as well.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify pursuing happiness as self-interest and made excuses for others which I now realize that I will be equal to the excuse that I allow in another, which was the starting point all along, to allow myself an excuse to not take full self-responsibility for what I am creating through acceptance and allowance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am here to rebirth myself as Life from the physical and to support others to do so as well and that by doing so, we can create a system that supports all Life equally, and within that we can remove any reason/need to have secrets, compete, or abuse, and thus we would create the necessary conditions for the experience of eternal bliss for all beings in reality.

I commit myself to stop wishful thinking - to question how reality works, to find out in detail how it works and to no longer ignore the consequences that have been/are being created in physical reality by all of us not taking direct responsibility for what we create, accept, and allow.

I commit myself to show to all those trapped within following their bliss, that they only way to experience bliss is to be Here in reality directing oneself equal and one to physical reality and to no longer chase a feeling in the mind or an experience in the mind which will always only take us further and further away from reality to the point where bliss is no longer possible.

I commit myself to show by example that real bliss is in letting go of illusions and stopping all fear and letting go of all knowledge as limitation to find out what is real because if we ignore reality and focus on knowledge of a picture of reality, we will miss points and create consequences which will put us into fear, but if we understand and get to know reality directly as ourselves and always direct things in the way that is best then there will literally never be anything to fear.

I commit myself to walking myself back through all the illusions and desires and pictures and fantasies and desires for experience and feelings until nothing remains by me Here in reality as self-awareness seeing what is real and directing myself in every way possible to create a reality for all beings that is best.

Freedom as the Ability to Change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need to be somewhere else.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to chase the creation of memories.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become lost within experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel the need to control my environment in order to create/prevent the creation of a specific experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that/decide that the starting point of being alive is the experience of myself as memory.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I live for experience then I am not real because all experience is after the fact, it is the awareness of myself within a real time memory that has already happened just now in reality that I am 'living' as a character within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become and desire to remain as a character within the experience of a memory.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have been abusing myself, others, and physical reality in order to piece together memories as experience within myself which led to the automation of myself as experience where I will fundamentally never experience anything new because I am only living as the reaction to experience within how I have constructed myself as characters within my memories.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question whether the characters that I have constructed within myself produce a response to reality that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I resist changing, I am in fact not wanting/willing to give up the existence of myself as a character within a memory, and thus it is not that change is hard or difficult, per se, but that I have not fully decided/resolved myself to let go of all that within myself that is not best for all, and thus the resistance that I experience is the friction being generated within myself as I create the conflict of wanting to be in 2 worlds, one that is best and one that is not best, and thus the characters that are not best within me will fight for their existence, but it is in fact me fighting for the existence of myself AS these characters - and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that these characters are not in fact who I am as physical reality, but projections of energy in the form of information stored as memories within me which I have accepted and allowed to be activated in response to cues from the environment that match the components within the memories that the characters exist within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have literally been living in a movie in my head where I am always the central character, when in physical reality the Real Character is my physical body, other people's physical bodies, and the physical reality itself in various forms as substance that is the only thing that is real, and thus the characters are ONLY information stored within me in various dimensions, just words, feelings, descriptions of behavioral responses, not real in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project the difficulty of change onto the concept of change itself, which is a way to avoid complete responsibility for directing change within myself and thus I see that either in a moment I will resist as not wanting to give up/change a point within me that is not best, which is really just the fight for survival of a character, which implies I am still accepting myself AS that character and thus the ONLY person that can change that is ME, and in the moment of resistance and unwillingness to let go I am only creating further consequence for me to walk through in physical reality.

I commit myself to in the moment of experiencing resistance to change, to realize, recall, understand, see that the resistance is energy as experience that I am still holding onto, and to speak to myself as who I really am as the Life Force that is within to remember what is real and what is of Real Value, not as the character that is attempting to re-energize itself, but as Life as physical reality as what is best for all, and thus that letting go of the desire for that experience and seeing what is really here in physical reality without the veil of energy is real freedom within the context of reality currently.

I commit myself to show that Real Freedom in the context of reality currently is the Freedom to let go of/change that which is not best for all within oneself and that fearing/resisting change is the attitude of a slave.

The I Want It Now Character

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a character that wants something now and is not happy until I get it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and participate in the character of 'I want it now'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not remember how I created the 'I want it now' character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in a moment where I see or hear about or become aware of something that activates a feeling of desire for that thing, that I immediately activate and participate in the 'I want it now' character, as thinking about the thing that I want, talking about the thing that I want, begging another who I think may be able to get it for me, and obsessing over the thing in my mind by imagining myself with it and all of the ways in which I will feel good if I have it, and using that as motivation to continue thinking about it and finding a way to get it as soon as possible, if not NOW, and also thinking about how I feel without it, which is negative, empty, yearning, unhappy, and using this negative energy to manipulate myself and others to support me within getting, having, obtaining, manifesting the thing as soon as possible, if not NOW.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that whether I have the thing that I desire or not, I am Here and even when I get it, I will not be happy or satisfied REALLY, as all I will experience is the temporary satisfaction of the desire, but this will lead to a new desire which will cause me to go into the same pattern as now the 'I want it now' character has even more energy and experiences as memories to draw on and an even stronger will to survive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from physical reality and to go into a fantasy in my imagination about having/possessing something that I desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I chase a desire, all I am doing is attempting to satisfy a character that is nothing more than a construct of information within me that requires energy to 'feel alive' and thus I am using and abusing the real life that I have been given, this physical body and this physical reality, in order to make an imaginary being feel alive, when in fact it is just me playing a game, playing a character, believing that it is me, when it is not me in fact, but it is to the degree that this is all I am in that moment of playing that character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the extent to which I interact with others just to satisfy the demand for energy of a character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use this reality in order to support the existence of something that is not real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that because I participate in this support of a character that is not real, which requires energy to exist, I am also supporting the existence of a world character as the money system which is not real and thus requires energy to exist that feeds off of the real earth and real humans, plants, and animals.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not love myself as what I really am which is physical reality and to thus abuse myself and hurt myself through ignoring physical reality to create, support, and live out illusions as characters which can never last, meanwhile destroying that which is real until there is nothing left.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought that 'there must be something more'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within the thought of 'there must be something more' participate in the creation of separation which leads to conflict, which leads to negative energy formation which leads to positive energy experience which leads to confirmation (incorrectly) in my mind that there is something more, when in fact there was only ever Me Here and I am simply abusing myself in order to experience something more, and I am thus ignoring the opportunity to explore and discover what is MORE as Here not in separation but within Oneness and Equality with what is Here and so find out how to create within what is Here without destroying and abusing what is Here, as what is Here is ultimately of REAL value and what is MORE is an illusion when it is created in the context of separation from what is Here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel irritated with myself and others especially when I do not get what I want immediately.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become so angry when I don't get what I want that I even strain myself and pass out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself only see my parents and others as a means to getting what I want or as an obstacle to getting what I want.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that from the moment of separation within searching for More than what is Here, that I have never been Here, but only lost in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have created reality into a real illusion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear just being Here not needing anything or wanting anything but being satisfied with just being Here as Who I Am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lose sight of what is Here and to only focus on attaining and obtaining something More.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always want to be There instead of Here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that There is an illusion in separation of Here.

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I deserve to be punished for who I am and what I have become, which in itself is a desire for experience rather than being Here, it is still within the context of playing the energy game and way to excuse myself through 'paying the price' to continue with the game of searching for the satisfaction of my desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my son for wanting something when I am the one who taught him, through example, and through passing on my memories, that something more is required to be satisfied with oneself, which is an illusion that can never be true in reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I am holding something that I got, and wanting something more, that this shows me that the something more will never lead to REAL self satisfaction because I am not satisfied within myself with what I already have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be motivated by the desire for ME to have something and not care that so many go without their basic needs in this world and that I have blinded myself to this truth of reality through focusing on an illusion in my mind and participating in a character that doesn't care about anything except the pursuit of desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become less than a character in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let Life become less than a system.

I commit myself to stop participation in the character of 'I want it now' - to look at what is required for me to exist here, practically, and to continue existing within the context of supporting myself to do what is best at all times, to stop measuring my life by what I can get as the satisfaction of a desire and instead measure my life by how and what I can do to support what is best for all - which in the current context of the world is to change the system to so that it supports everyone equally to have what they require to express their full potential as Life.

I commit myself to support my children as Equal to and One with myself to stop the creation and participation in the character of 'I want it now' and the character of 'I only care about my own desires'.

I commit myself to show that the desires of a character that is not real, which is based on energy, can never be fulfilled, as the starting point of the character is not actually to be satisfied with what is Here but to always get more, because getting more means the survival of the character, but the character can never be real, because it isn't in the first place, and thus for it to survive means to use, abuse, and consume physical reality to convert into energy just for the character to 'feel alive'.

Freedom through Setting our Characters Free

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I interact with others/things my world, I am only interacting with a memory in my mind and playing out a character and thus not really Here with the other person within the totality of who they are, who I am, and the physical reality, and thus am only interacting from the context of attempting to fulfill the self-interested desire of a character within a memory associated with a limited context of what is happening in the moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never consider that I have been living my life just attempting to fulfill the desires of a character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel/believe that there is no way that I can stop living as characters in the mind only, when it is a matter of walking each character, in detail, breath by breath - deconstructing and releasing myself from the memories that are within me as files that are activated in moments by the characters that I have accepted within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have stored files within my body that are damaged - meaning that they are files that contain memories wherein I am the central character that is being hurt, abused, embarrassed, or otherwise victimized and thus within that these files are in fact what are running my life as who I am and what I do and what I accept and allow - all from the starting point of living in accordance with the memories as if they are valid and cannot be changed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that deleting a memory is as simple as deleting a memory in a computer, where the delete button is self-forgiveness out loud and in writing, and yet it may take time to fully delete the memory due to the extensive cross-referencing of each point connected to other points - and yet it is just a matter of time and space within applying myself practically in each moment, breath by breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I truly want to change, and yet I also have a belief that change is hard or impossible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that changing is hard or impossible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the darkness of living without memories as characters that tell me what to do and what not to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear complete self-responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that complete self-responsibility is actual freedom.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being free - and that the only way to exist is as a slave.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be a slave and to want to enslave others so that I can remain enslaved and not take complete self-responsibility for who I am and what I do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that master and slave are both characters and not real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want others to remain as a character in my experience so that my memories which are fueling the self-interest of characters within me can continue existing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have enslaved myself to produce energy for characters in my mind that aren't even real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to enslave reality to produce memories within me that create characters and fuel their existence within my mind which in turn enslaves me to always act in ways that fuel their continued existence and thus it is up to me to break this cycle once and for all -  to set myself free, to set the characters free, to set this physical reality free from an automated existence of separation from itself and myself, and to thus rebirth myself in and as this physical reality, letting go of all illusions and characters and allowing myself to be here and live within the unpredictability of the moment yet within the self-trust that I will, regardless of the context, always do and live what is best for all - as that is REAL freedom.

I commit myself to continue to investigate, write, forgive myself and set myself free from acting as a character that is not best for all.

I commit myself to get to know my physical body - to establish a real connection, to be one and equal with my physical body, to become physical as complete self-responsibility AS the physical living being and to let go of all the illusions of characters that are only abusing the physical with my permission.

I commit myself to show that there is no sense in or reason to live as a character and that by adjusting the systems that support our physical existence as human and all living forms that we can give ourselves the freedom to not have to live as a character.

I commit myself to show that all characters are only existing as a reaction to our separation from physical reality, and thus if we support ourselves and each other practically, physically we can let go of all characters, because they were only ever an attempt to find something more than physical reality, which is impossible.

I commit myself to show that the pursuit of happiness is nothing more than the self-interested desire of a character created by the consumerism system to keep the system as a character existing, and the consequence has been our self-enslavement to this character, but if we stop the pursuit of happiness we can set ourselves free from being slaves to an economic system that only cares about its own survival - but we must stop first within ourselves, then adjust the system.

The 'Good Person' Character

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am a good person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the belief that I am good person is a character that I have created within myself, charged with energy as feeling and emotion, constructed out of images both of good and bad that I have seen throughout my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the good person character that I have created and participate within is an illusion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I participate in the good person character in order to not face the fact that I am not a good person.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself and others as not being good and thus I create and participate in the character of being a good person in order to escape my own judgment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it is impossible to do good in a world that runs on a system that does not honor all Life equally, and only gives to each according to how much money they have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I give money to another person who is in need, I am doing so to prove to myself and to others that I am a good person, even though I, within myself, see the person in need as less than me, unfortunate, and poor, dear soul who needs my gracious help, and thus the good person character is the way in which I can play savior without having to do anything for real that would require me to challenge the system that exists.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my attempts to give to others in need are irrelevant because they do not address the reason/cause why the person is in need.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and participate in the good person character because I feel guilty subconsciously and unconsciously about participating in a system that causes mass suffering on a scale that makes my acts of kindness as the good person character seem like a drop of water compared to the ocean.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I do acts of kindness to those less fortunate or to those who I perceive as needing my help, I experience an energetic charge which I define as positive which is actually fueling the good person character and one of the ways in which I keep my mind energized, which is itself contributing to the problem of the system not being adjusted to be what is best, because it requires me to focus on getting a good feeling from my actions so that I won't face the real difficult stuff of standing up in the system and changing myself for real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am compassionate when children go to bed hungry every night, but I don't really care, because I would justify that its not within my abilities to do anything about it, which is the biggest COP OUT in existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the excuse that 'at least I try to be a good person' which is an admission that I know that my acts as a good person are not real and have no real effect, but I only really care about 'feeling' like a good person, and because I 'feel' like a good person, that makes it so.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that 'feeling' like something does not equal it being so, and I can convince myself through thoughts repeated over and over in my head as well as through experiences which I give meaning to and imbue with energy as memories that further fuel the 'feeling' and belief that I am a good person but in reality all I have done is create a fake character in my mind that is like an entity in itself and doesn't want to stop existing - and thus I will never have any real impact in this world, because I am nothing more than a slave to a character that wants me to continue to feed it with energy in the form of experiences that reinforce it as real in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to really only care about myself and I know deep down that the good person character is not real yet if I let it go then I have to face myself and this world for real. In this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear standing up and facing what really exists in this world and changing myself to go beyond my pre-programming which feels natural and 'easy' so to speak, because real change is extremely difficult.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not realize that the only way to be a truly good person is to stand up and do everything possible to adjust the system that determines who eats and who is educated and who has a home - which is the money system - to be best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define those that are in positions of power in this world as bad, evil, corrupt and me as good, kind, and compassionate, even though I am not willing to take on the level of responsibility that they are - and I use my belief in being a good person to excuse myself from having to do anything really would affect other people's live, because as the good person character, all I care about really is how I am perceived by others and myself - as a good person.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself realize that the points that I see within being a good person that are common sense as best for others should something that I live as an automatic point - thus it is not to throw the baby out with the bathwater, so to speak, but to look at each situation in the moment and see what is best, however looking at the world in the greatest possible context, I must really be self honest and ask myself if I am simply doing what is expedient to feel good about myself or am I really challenging myself to change and stop participating in self interest and not using 'good deeds' to cover up the fact that I am not standing up for what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that being a good person has nothing to do with doing what is best for all - as all the images and ideas I have of being a good person come from within the context of a system that already not best - and I never even realized that simply by participating in this character in my mind, I am fueling the system and I am thus just as EVIL as anyone else.

I commit myself to remove every point within where I judge myself and others as either good or bad or neutral and to realign all of my assessments about who I am and what I do and what I accept and allow within what is BEST FOR ALL.

I commit myself to show all those trapped in the character of the 'good person' that their character is not real and that unless they establish themselves Here as a real physical being who does what is ACTUALLY best for all in all ways in all contexts at all times, they will cease to exist and all of their apparent 'good deeds' will mean nothing and the world will continue on and accelerate towards non-existence as we consume physical reality for nothing more than a temporary experience.

GAME OVER

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have separated myself from the physical existence and my physical body as who I am Here into a myriad of different characters in my mind in which I participate in order to survive as energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have placed value on the existence and survival of an illusion in my mind as a character/characters as memories, thoughts, and feelings and placed little to no value on the physical reality and how it works and functions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become a slave to designing and living out characters within my mind and through my interaction with others and this physical world throughout my existence/this life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that/define Life is/as the experience of energy and the living out of a character based on creating memories and reliving memories.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have defined Life/living as just playing a game.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see other people as a character and to value them only as characters and to the degree that they support the characters that I have created within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create characters and suppress some while living out others, not realizing that the ones I suppress will also determine what I do and how I live as they run in the background and are fed with energy that I generate through participating in the characters that I 'accept' as myself.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that what I have created as characters are like Frankenstein's monster, that I have created them in an attempt to create 'Life' but not taking full responsibility for what I create and then experiencing the consequences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in the experience of the consequences of living as characters in my mind here in reality, I have created even more characters as the reaction/response/feeling about the consequences that I experience which further compounds the consequences because I have not taken full responsibility for who I am and what I do and accept and allow and that this is the fundamental reason for the existence of a consequence that is not best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that even the idea that I am a powerful creator is another character, it is not real, in the sense that I am creating anything of value that is best, as a TRULY powerful creator would, but all I am 'creating' is characters, and thus I am equal to and one with that point of even my status as creator being just another character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Life is not a game and that the REAL character that is actually physically here as my physical body and all other physical beings and manifestations are completely being missed and not taken care of equally as what is best because I have instead focused on what characters in my mind would support the experience of my own self-defined self-interest as the pursuit of some optimum energy experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am equal to and one with what I accept and allow and thus if I accept and allow myself to create characters in my mind and give those my focus and attention then I am only a character in my mind and not real, and thus there now exists a GAME OVER point in my future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I play games, then I will eventually face GAME OVER.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that this is my last life, that the game will no longer continue - that this is GAME OVER - and that this is my one opportunity to be self-honest, forgive myself, correct myself and do what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the consequence for treating Life as a game is that this is the Last Life in the game.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the only way to have Everlasting Life is to give up this Life as the Game and be Here and do what is Best for All.

I commit myself to - through writing, self-forgiveness, and self corrective application - investigate, deconstruct, and remove all the characters that I have created throughout time and get to know the REAL physical reality Here and align myself to always act in accordance with Reality as what is optimal as what is best for all.

I commit myself to show that all characters in the mind are only ever designed as a point of trying to generate energy which only fuels the further existence of the characters in the mind and creates real physical consequences in physical reality that are not best and thus create the conditions will eventually spell the end of all fake, mind characters.

I commit myself to show parents that they are teaching their children to create characters in their mind out of survival and thus trapping their children into an illusion that will seal their fate just as it has sealed the parents fate of NOT SURVIVING this reality beyond death.

Existence as Fear

Imagine you are playing a video game.

Do you have a choice as to what actions you take?

Yes, if you do not want to get the high score.

But if you want to play the game in the BEST way, there is a mathematically provable way to play that will produce the best result.

Look on youtube at the people who play games to get the high score. They study and practice exactly what moves they have to make in the game to get the best result.

This existence is the same way.

We live in a PROGRAMMED REALITY. Thus no REAL choice exists.

You either make the choice in the moment that is BEST or that is not best.

But that would reveal your starting point for existing here.

If you choose what is Best then there is NO CHOICE. Because what is best can be worked out mathematically with reason. But this requires radical self-honesty.

If you allow feelings or thoughts in your mind they will attempt to lead you to a result that is less than best.

Why?

Because your THOUGHTS and FEELINGS are PROGRAMS that are designed to keep you playing the game in a less than optimal way.

People tend to make choices based on their current thoughts and feelings or in other words, their 'mood'.

But your MOOD is your DOOM, because it will always lead you to do what is not best.

WHY?

Because what is real is not based on your pursuit of happiness as defined as the pursuit of energy as feelings and experience. It this starting point that has created the world around us as it is.

When you pursue happiness based on the experience of energy, you will always be subject to energy and you will compromise what you do and what you accept and allow to occur in reality based on whether you get energy.

But, look, energy is not real. It doesn't last.

You have to convince yourself with knowledge and information that energy is real and eternal when the living proof that what is real is the PHYSICAL MATTER of which you are composed is Here in every moment in your face.

What would happen if we all realized that in order to live in this reality currently in the best way would require us to give up the pursuit of happiness and in that we would be able to CREATE a REAL, LASTING Happiness that would include everyone.

NO MORE competition or fear.

Look, if you are honest with yourself, you will admit to yourself that all of your current ideas of what it means to be happy are just based on some image or idea or perception of something you have seen or put together out of things you have seen throughout your life. You don't even really know what it means to be happy in fact. What you 'know' is FEAR. This existence is just that: FEAR.

So all ideas of happiness are all in the context of accepting FEAR as the starting point of existence. But no one, virtually, questions the existence of fear within themselves. And pursuit of happiness is, currently, is an attempt to suppress this fear.

Fear of survival. Fear of Death. Fear of not existing.

But EXISTENCE IS FEAR - that is why we FEAR NOT EXISTING.

What does this tell us?

That we are NOT IN FACT EXISTING, because all we are is FEAR.

We are afraid.

We are scared.

We are worried.

We are anxious.

We are mistrusting.

And so we PURSUE happiness.

We can paint it with all kinds of pretty words like 'following our bliss' etc but look at those words.

When you FOLLOW something, that is like... A PROGRAM.

Whatever you are following is because you are too scared to direct yourself here without anything 'telling' you what to do.

What would we be without thoughts, feelings, happiness ideas...

Would life be boring? It already is. Even those who have the most exciting lives, still have that deep seated fear of the fun ending.

What if it didn't have to end?

Ask yourself, if each of us just keep pursuing what we believe will make us happy, and nothing else changes in this world, what do you think are the odds that even a slim percentage of people will ever truly be happy?

I know FOR A FACT that the thought that just went through your head is that 'well, no one is ever truly happy'.

Let that sink in for a moment.

You and I both know that Happiness is an illusion. But most won't give it up because of all the time and energy they have invested in propping up the feelings that they sometimes get to experience as a 'reward'.

If you live for a 'reward' you are a SLAVE, and just a PROGRAM.

The fact is that no matter what you will be a program. Because reality is currently programmed. That doesn't seem to bother most people, because they just go along with the program, not realizing that we could actually stop and ask ourselves if the program is actually best or not?

What if it were possible to stop and change the program that you are running?

What if it were possible for us all to stop and question the program that is running this world and adjust it so that it would provide for us all equally?

Wouldn't that ELIMINATE FEAR?

What would happiness be in the context that there was NO FEAR and no REASON for FEAR and that this was a fact of existence into eternity?

Can we ever truly be happy when fear exists?

Can we ever truly defeat fear through happiness?

Or is happiness simply the minds attempt to ignore fear and ignore the obvious which is that YOU ARE GOING TO DIE SOMEDAY and...

YOU DON'T KNOW WHEN.

What if it didn't matter?

What if reality were such that no matter whether you are Here or in the Hereafter, no matter if you are human or a blade of grass, all of reality supported each other part of reality equally and there was CONSTANT, ETERNAL BLISS as a BASIC FACT of existence?

That can't exist when fear exists.

Can we stop fear here and now?

Can we forgive ourselves for fearing to exist?

Why are we afraid in the first place?

Are we afraid because we know deep down that we are really only here to abuse in order to get something for ourselves regardless of the context?

Can we question WHO WE ARE and WHO WE HAVE ACCEPTED OURSELVES TO BE?

Can we CHANGE FOR REAL and become something and someone that HONORS LIFE and GIVES LIFE freely and thus RECEIVES LIFE freely?

How can Life be free when fear exists?

How can I be free if anyone is in fear?

Does LIFE even exist or is it just FEAR and DEATH that exists?

The starting point is the end point.

So if I know the end point, what does that imply about the starting point?

Are we even really ALIVE or just a program of generating energy for a temporary period of time.

Why do we lie to ourselves and pretend that the temporary experience of ourselves as energy is anything of value?

If it were, you would just be HAPPY NOW at all times.

But try as you might, you cannot have both Happiness and Energy experience. They are mutually exclusive, because when energy is the starting point, FEAR is always the result.

WHY?

Because energy has a beginning and an end. You were feeling sad, now you're feeling happy. Then you're feeling angry. It's always changing. Then you die. Then it ends forever.

When you exist for energy, you will always try to pursue more energy, because for energy knows it has an end. Thus you have become nothing more than a carrier for ENERGY, like a SLAVE to energy, who exists just to pass on the pursuit of ENERGY to the next person. But even if ENERGY continues, YOU DON'T.

The truth is Energy can't last forever. And we are consuming and abusing this physical reality in order to 'create' something that can never last. And that which is otherwise eternal, the physical reality in front of us, is being wasted for something of no value.

Don't agree?

Look at your experience. YOU ARE NOT HAPPY AND NEVER WILL BE AND YOU KNOW IT.

Time to re-evaluate EVERYTHING.

Start with this:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be honest with myself about the starting point of my existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be honest with myself that I have only ever existed in order to pursue more existence for myself and that not existing is the greatest fear that I have as it is the starting point of my existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is MORE to myself and MORE than Here from the beginning all the way to now.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that everything that exists is what has manifested from the belief and starting point that there must be something MORE and that this separation within myself from Here is what I now call Existence and since I have separated myself from Here, as an illusion of something MORE, I now fear not existing because in self honesty, I KNOW that the illusion that I have created as MORE is NOT REAL, and in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to continue the dishonesty of ignoring and suppressing the realization that there is nothing MORE than Here and that everything I believe is real and that I believe I have created is nothing more than an Illusion that SEEMS REAL because I AM the illusion and it has become my total existence and thus my total existence is FEAR to the point that I am ILL because all ILLness is the result of ignoring what is real, which creates consequence, which creates dis-ease when that which I have ignored runs amok and comes back to haunt me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a vast web of information and knowledge within me imbued with feeling and emotion and that I have been afraid to question this and that I really don't know what I would do without it and I don't know what reality is without it and that I am afraid of facing myself as WHO and WHAT I REALLY AM beyond all the knowledge and information.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that no matter how much I fear facing who and what I and this world have become, avoiding it is not a solution - that only creates more consequences and thus more fear - fear layered upon fear - lies upon lies - and thus even though I don't know everything I realize that the first step is honesty with myself and forgiveness for everything I have accepted and allowed and when I am done with that process I will see further.

I commit myself to walk through all knowledge and information both within myself and without in the world, applying self-honesty as to what is best, removing the rest through self-forgiveness, and reestablishing myself to only do what is best for all in all contexts through self-corrective action.

Cleaning Up the Mess

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hate my parents for what I perceive they have done to me, when in fact, what I hate is the experience of myself as my thoughts, feelings, and emotions, that I have not take self-responsibility for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that to hate another or to love another as a feeling or emotion requires a memory of the other person as a character that played a role in the memory, myself as a character in the memory as feeling a certain way which I blame the other character for creating within through their actions, and my current acceptance and allowance of thinking about the memory and allowing the memory to exist as a construct of information and energy within me as memory.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base my interaction with other people on whether I hate, love, or feel neutrally about them, which is nothing more than participating in a memory that I have created with the other person as a character and towards which I have associated specific thoughts, feelings, and emotions within which I use the memory and the other person as a character in the memory to generate, and thus it is not about the other person at all as to why the feelings, thoughts, or emotions come up, it is ME as who I am as creating and participating in reliving the memories within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am able to exist without memories of love and hate.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that love and hate are two sides of the same coin, the coin I use to play the game of energy, but for which the price is the experience of myself as nothing more than a slave to energy and to the consequence of being a slave to energy which is never in fact being free to LIVE without fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that hating another person means that I will live in fear of being around them, thus I am controlled by what THEY DO and thus I am a slave.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that loving another person means that I will live in fear of NOT being around them, thus I am controlled by what THEY DO and thus I am a slave.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my existence according to searching for something MORE outside of myself, not accepting myself for who and what I am Here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to searching for safety, comfort, security, and certainty, which is essentially ensuring that I will never HAVE those and will always be searching because I am looking for someone/something outside of myself which is the starting point of separation - and the starting point is the ending point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that am never safe, secure, certain, or comfortable in who I am as Here.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the experience of insecurity, discomfort, uncertainty, and danger is the consequence of separation that has manifested reality and thus my current experience as who I am within consciousness to be what it is and is the consequence of not cleaning up the mess that exists here on earth as separation of myself from reality here and directing reality to be best for all which would guarantee safety, security, comfort, and certainty for all equally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always look for another as a messiah to come and clean up the mess that exists.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not realize that wanting a messiah to fix things for me is in fact a statement of wanting to enslave another to take responsibility for the consequences I create and thus is a statement of not standing equal to the creator, but standing equal to the slave and thus I become what I accept and allow.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that all my fears come from ignoring the mess.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing the mess I created.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that facing the mess and cleaning it up is the only solution and that avoidance and ignorance will only lead to more consequence.

I commit myself to face all consequence as the mess that exists as my life individually as the energies as thoughts, feelings, emotions that are un-directed within me as well as the physical consequences that exist as manifestations within my physical body as well as in the physical existence without.

I commit myself to show that fear is unnecessary and will only create more consequence and that it is possible to take responsibility breath by breath - day by day and eventually any mess, no matter how big or small can be directed to no longer produce a consequence or result that is not best for all - it just takes time, agreement, and facing any already manifested consequence without allowing the consequence to stop one from walking through the physical points that are continuing to produce a consequence and thus I commit myself to using writing, self-forgiveness, and self corrective application to support myself to understand, take responsibility for, and clean up all the messes that exist here in reality.

Circumstances as a Mirror of What We Accept and Allow

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that all circumstances in this world and in my individual experience as what I have called 'my life' are the result of small moments, breath by breath that have accumulated over time to present themselves as a 'condition' or 'circumstance' or 'event' and that these things do not just 'happen' all at once, there is no 'overnight success' or 'random disaster' - it is all actions and decisions that have accumulated over time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the basic common sense that a consequence is something that can be prevented by directing all of the decisions that lead to the consequence in a way that prevents it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that MANY children are being diagnosed with learning disabilities and disorders and attention disorders but without any focus being placed on how the child was treated and educated in the first 3 years where the parents and the environment was the main influencers and shapers of everything the child saw, heard, and felt and that these experiences form memories within the child and form the foundation of the child's ability to learn, focus, communicate, pay attention, etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to utilize the excuse that everything is so complicated and more than one person can handle as a way to not face the consequences that have been allowed to manifest over time that we, as humans, now call circumstances, conditions, and human nature.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the conditions instead of realizing that the conditions are a mirror as to what I have accepted and allowed to accumulate as consequence of my acceptance and allowance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in apathy as a way to not face consequence and take the time to walk back through what I have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how I have created conditions that seem to place me in the position of the victim.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to view parenting through the lens of good and bad instead of realizing and seeing that parenting is really a matter of what is best, and that if a child is supported with examples and consistency within always choosing what is best, then they will develop a character and personality that always supports what is best.


I commit myself to show how all conditions and circumstances are a result of small measures allowed to accumulate over time.

I commit myself to support parents to see how a child's behavior is the accumulation of all the influences that have been accepted and allowed, and that the best way to support a child is to first take responsibility for oneself as a parent, and then to support the child to walk back through the the points that are creating the behavior.

I commit myself to show that all behavior problems are really problems of vocabulary where the child is living certain words ineffectively or is limited within their ability to express themselves.

Perception is Not Reality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the perception is reality.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that it is basic common sense that perception is not reality, because my perceptions are based on information that is processed in my body as stimulus from my environment and/or from within my body as physical/chemical processes that when processed by the body stimulate the mind to produce a picture/feeling/thought/sensation/emotion that I then experience in/within/as my mind and therefore, clearly there is a physical reality that exists outside of my perception and that I am thus filtering information from the environment, through my mind, based on the information programmed into my body and the meanings that I have with regards to certain words and how I have defined my relationship towards the experience of energy within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the statement that reality is perception or perception is reality is a justification for myself and others to exist as the mind, as experience, only and not as something real, physical, here in actual reality, and that through this acceptance I create little bubbles as my own individual 'reality' which is really just imaginary, by definition, and thus I am not real, and I am not really here in reality in full awareness, I am really just watching a movie while reality moves around me and as me without my full participation, because I have abdicated my self responsibility to direct physical reality to automated systems that are based on the continued existence of myself and others as being able to continue watching the movie in my head which I call my 'perception' and I call my 'reality' but it is not in fact any more real than a movie on my laptop or in a movie theater is real, because the moment the electricity turns off, the movie stops, and so the moment that my body dies, my perceptions stop.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that perceptions can easily be manipulated from the outside if one knows how to stimulate the body to produce a certain affect and that this is how all brainwashing is done through media, education, politics, advertising, etc and that if I continue to accept reality as only existing in my perception, then I am leaving myself open to be manipulated because I am not directing the physical environment outside of my mind as one and equal, it is being directed by a money system that only wants me to remain as a consumer to continue the existence of the money system, and I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that I have actually been ok with this because up until now I have only interested in watching the movie in my head and entertaining myself with the movie I call 'my happiness'.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I have not directly created my reality in a way that is best because I have allowed to become only an observer of my perceptions and that I programmed my perceptions primarily in the first 7 years of my life through my natural learning ability absorbing/integrating/copying the patterns of those in my environment and through education and media and advertising and now I am simply watching the result of preprogrammed, automated perceptions running as programs within my mind based on stimulation from my environment.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see the common sense that reality is what is physically here, and that my perceptual ability is extremely limited and thus if I define my reality as perception, I have effectively cut myself off from a vast universe and that my mind/perception is like watching a movie about someone on an adventure rather than going on an adventure, but I have convinced myself that as long as I FEEL like I went on an adventure, then that is the same thing, which indicates that I am not in fact ALIVE, but just a program that observes the content of memories, I am no more alive, as how I have defined myself, as a computer screen is alive, which simply displays the contents of the computer's memory based on input (external stimulation) received through the keyboard, for instance.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I am not here, directing physical reality as what is best but, instead sitting back allowing the continued existence of an automated system  that just generates predictable experiences for myself and everyone else, specifically those that are not best - because those are creating friction within the environment and within myself which then creates a fear point, specifically around survival, so that the constant focus of my attention is on survival, and even my pursuit of happiness is just an attempt to try and create a new movie in my head that seems to be better but is really just like trying to switch the channel after watching a scary movie, the 'happiness movie' is not really that great but it seems to help me forget about the scary movie, and so I create a positive called 'happiness' which takes my mind off of the negative called 'survival' and yet because I am not directing reality, physically, in a way that is best, the scary movie as 'surivival' always comes back into my perceptions, because as I have realized, it is the physical reality that DETERMINES my perceptions.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that the fact that I constantly have to focus on positivity and feeling good otherwise I will feel bad or negative is an indicator that the physical reality is constantly stimulating me in a negative way and thus I have not been able to automate an effective positive experience that I can just feel naturally all the time, never questioning why I feel the need to do so in the first place.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that if I were to turn off the movie, I could see what is really here physically and then direct in a way where life is always positive, but it would be positive in a way that far beyond and transcending every idea I have of positive, because every idea I have as positive is really just the avoidance of negative, not an actual expression of me here as life physically, and that if I continue to exist only as my perception as my feelings, thoughts, and emotions, that I will never know what true positivity really is, because I will never be able to create it, because real creation happens in the physical, not the mind.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the mind is a tool, a technology, a machine, not me in fact, it is not alive, and because I have, through my directive will, identified and defined myself as the mind only, I am not alive, and I am just a machine, and that if I do not stop, I will never be REAL.

I commit myself to stop living only as my mind as perceptions of feelings, thoughts, and emotions, and get to know physical reality - through writing, self forgiveness, and corrective action - to see where I have abdicated my full participation in reality by identifying repeating patterns of thoughts, feelings, and emotions that come up automatically towards an event or person or situation.

I commit myself to really question my starting point within who I am, what I am doing here, how I am interacting with others, to identify where I am really just looking to experience a feeling or emotion or how a thought automatically comes up which when followed and participated in generates a feeling or emotion and thus within this I can begin identifying how I have constructed a movie that I live in instead being here, directing what is here, creating a new world that is best for all.