Regaining Our Vision

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that Real Vision is with the eyes only.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Real Vision is to see the potential of Life in every being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see with the Eyes of Fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the Beam in my Eye which is the Light Beam of consciousness, which is my self-interest, which is my fear, which is who I have accepted and allowed myself to become.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the splinter in my brother's eye but not see the beam in my own, and thus I have accepted and allowed this beam to block my Real Vision which is my ability to see the potential in my brother/sister and in all beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that we all have the potential for change, but it is up to the individual to actuate that potential, and thus it is MY responsibility to REALIZE my potential as Living Action within what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to retreat into myself within fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place others on a pedestal and in that not recognize my equality and oneness within my self-responsibility towards standing up for life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Lose my Vision.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see because another saw, but not allow myself to see because I SEE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I DO SEE but I have allowed myself to FEAR what I SEE and FEAR what I SEE THAT I MUST DO.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not SEE that I must stand up where I am at and SPEAK UP not only online, but in my physical environment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have the keys to Life as a member of Desteni and there is no one else who has these keys, and that is not to say that no one else brings value or perspective that may support what is best for all, but I SEE that I have the critical keys of change that EVERYONE NEEDS and thus it is MY responsibility to stand up and present these keys to those who have the EYES to SEE and the EARS to HEAR.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the simplicity of starting a group meeting in my home or a coffeeshop or a library where I lead a group discussion on the Desteni principles as a matter of consistency - even if I only invite one other person initially - but within that I am able to plant the seed of something that will grow over time with consistency as long as I show up and give my full effort and bring forward what I have learned within my process, and to support others to begin their process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that we need something else other than the Desteni process to support people when in fact, all other methods and approaches to change are limited if the person does not walk the Desteni process - and that is not to say that no other approach or method of change is supportive in any way, but if a person is not understanding their mind in mechanical detail, they will not be able to change in fact to become the self-directive as Life as what is best for all - they will remain stuck in the mind and thus only in self-interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be able to see 90 million Destonians walking their process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the growth of Desteni as an exponential curve.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I and those who have walked with Desteni from the beginning are the foundation and everyone else is looking to us as the living proof that Desteni is for real - and thus it is my responsibility to myself and to others as what is best for all to stand up and walk in this world to support others to walk their process in awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that everyone has a right to their opinion and a right to figure things out in a way that they feel comfortable with - which is not to say that anyone should ever be forced to do anything - but that I now realize that if I waver within my absolute clarity that Desteni is THE WAY then it gives someone who has not yet begun walking their process an excuse to continue down a path that is not best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that TechnoTutor is a tool, created by Bernard, that is in fact digitized self-forgiveness, and that will support a person immensely in their process as an adult and will support a child, if done from a young age, to become much more effective and balanced that they would have otherwise been.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that TechnoTutor is just a program that helps with spelling and not realize that it supports one to change their programming within self-awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepeted and allowed myself to not realize that Bernard created TechnoTutor as a way to restore a person's Natural Learning Ability and to thus 'become like a child' and that he explained that what everyone 'admire' and 'see as an advanced ability' within Bernard was that he specified his vocabulary and thus he created a tool to support others to do the same.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my allowed myself to not realize that Bernard explained , in detail how TechnoTutor works and placed it into audio format and explained in detail how this would support within one's process and how it is fundamentally critical in the education of a child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist using TechnoTutor every day, and that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist writing everyday, and writing and speaking self-forgiveness every day, and that I have participated in doubt, disbelief, hoping, wishing, projecting, fear, and the desire to just have fun without seeing why I am REALLY HERE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I combine TechnoTutor with the Desteni I Process that I can support myself not only with the Inner Process, but with the Outer Process of standing up in this world and speaking up - and learning the skills required to place myself in a position of leadership in the SYSTEM.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that TechnoTutor is the way to reeducate Humanity to be reasonable and be able to reason and to use common sense and stop participating in beliefs that are only harming themselves and each other and that within this TechnoTutor is most effective, especially for an adult, when they walk the Desteni I Process and that there is thus no competition between Desteni and TechnoTutor as they are in fact from the SAME SOURCE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the starting point of TechnoTutor as a business is to create financial means to support the Equal Life Foundation, Desteni, and those whose process it is to stand in the system as politicians, lawyers, etc who will require funding, because they will be busy developing themselves to stand in those positions and not stand within making money, per se.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the starting point of TechnoTutor is to create the financial means so that the Desteni Process and EQAFE is available to everyone, regardless of financial means, and thus TechnoTutor is the way to finance the creation of an Equal System while at the same time providing the foundation of education as generations of children and adults who are able to process information in an unbiased manner and thus able to consider Equality for real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am HERE to CHANGE THE SYSTEM, not just make myself feel better and in order to change the system I must learn how to communicate, how to lead, how to motivate, how to inspire, how to sell, how to persuade, and how to interact within a group so that I am not on my own - because I realize that on my own I will never change the system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am not in the group to just be in a group - that I am in the group to give myself completely to the purpose of changing the system so that it is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place others as above or below me - which indicates that I had still been playing a polarity game, and not standing up for real - and within this I stop self judgment of myself in the past and I stand and walk - as I realize that everything I have gone through was a necessary part of my process, but now that I am aware of why I am really here, I no longer have an excuse to not move myself physically.

I forgive myself that I have judged myself and others who are walking this process who are in the system as we all are, who have had to work and survive, as we all do, and that I had not realized that I would have to be in the system but not of the system and that now as I walk more and more I am realizing that there is nothing to fear and I am now willing to stand up in the system and though I realize it will take time, I am willing to apply myself breath by breath until the system is changed to be best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in self interest in the context of walking with the group and to judge others for participating within self interest in the context of the group, not realizing that we are here to firstly challenge this point within ourselves - that is WHY we are in the group initially, and as we remove layers more and more we become more capable of standing up in the world and taking more responsibility and I realize that everyone is in their own process and thus I would never force another to move faster than they are able, just as I cannot force myself to move faster than I am able, however I am willing to push myself beyond my limits and stand as an example and support others through communication to push beyond their limits - living the word patience as applying myself within breath, and walking my process, not placing expectations on others or myself, but applying self-honesty in the moment, standing up when I fall, and being there to support another to stand up when they fall.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the REAL meaning of United We Stand, Divided We Fall.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have been afraid of standing up and challenging myself and challenging others, and that I realize that I am here to make a difference, not make people feel good, because all forms of feeling good currently are within the context of a system that is not best - and although it is not unacceptable to feel good, it is not acceptable to have this as the starting point of one's living, as it is too easily manipulable by the system, and by my mind, and thus I commit myself to standing by the principles outlined in the Desteni Declaration of Living Principles.

I commit myself to walk as an example in my world of the application of the Desteni process and Principles.

I commit myself to challenge ALL self-interest within myself and within my world that comes into my awareness and within the world in the context of the System.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I KNOW BETTER than Bernard, when in fact he was/is the only living example of the full application of the Desteni principles that I have seen, and within this, it is not about 'trusting' anyone, not even Bernard, the only valid trust is SELF TRUST, however I realize that if I have not applied myself FULLY in SELF HONESTY within my process that I have NO RIGHT to challenge/change/alter/manipulate/modify the basic principles and process that Bernard supported us to see.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand EQUAL to Bernard which is not to say that I should become EXACTLY like Bernard or to CLAIM to be Bernard, but Equal means applying myself in self-honesty, forgiving myself, walking my process, not accepting or allowing limitation, not accepting slavery to another or to my mind, not accepting and allowing personality to get in the way of walking what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Bernard was here to show us the way to become EQUAL and ONE to LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself or another for attempting to find a way other than waking the Desteni process, when that is a part of our process, to investigate all things, to integrate and understand this process FOR OURSELVES, and yet within that to realize that the path has in fact been laid out before us, which doesn't mean that there are not things we will have to figure out for ourselves, but I can SEE that this will unfold naturally as long as I push myself to remain self-honest and forgive myself and correct my mistakes when I see them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that we have everything we need to change ourselves and this system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that every excuse that I allow within myself, I will allow within another out of fear of being called out - and thus I commit myself to not allow ANY excuses and to live the word gratitude within being called out by others if they see me participating in an excuse - even if they are wrong, it doesn't matter because if I am feeling challenged emotionally then I am the one that is participating in the mind and thus accepting and allowing limitation, and thus I commit myself to ALWAYS bring it back to myself, no matter WHO is challenging me or presenting a point where I react.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the gift in every moment of my past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to FEAR standing up and BEING THE LEADER that is required to support others to STAND UP and BE THE LEADERS that are required as TRANSITIONAL LEADERS who will lead the world to the creation of a system that is Best for All.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is ANYTHING to fear when I SEE that all excuses and limitations and fears that I allowed will become irrelevant at death and the only thing that I will have left if I allow them is REGRET.

I commit myself to live without regrets and to show that it is ok to make mistakes and that what is important is that one stand back up, forgive themselves, and keep walking in alignment with what is best for all.

I commit myself to SHOW that my intention is always revealed in my ACTION.

I commit myself to show that the only form of trust that matters is SELF TRUST.

I commit myself to develop the SELF TRUST necessary to stand in the face of ANYTHING in the System that must be faced in order to create a system that is best for all.

I commit myself to use ANYTHING and EVERYTHING in this world that comes into my awareness to support me to remove all weakness as that which is preventing me from standing as what is best for all within my physical participation which is all that I can be responsible for in any moment.

The I Want It Now Character

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a character that wants something now and is not happy until I get it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and participate in the character of 'I want it now'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not remember how I created the 'I want it now' character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in a moment where I see or hear about or become aware of something that activates a feeling of desire for that thing, that I immediately activate and participate in the 'I want it now' character, as thinking about the thing that I want, talking about the thing that I want, begging another who I think may be able to get it for me, and obsessing over the thing in my mind by imagining myself with it and all of the ways in which I will feel good if I have it, and using that as motivation to continue thinking about it and finding a way to get it as soon as possible, if not NOW, and also thinking about how I feel without it, which is negative, empty, yearning, unhappy, and using this negative energy to manipulate myself and others to support me within getting, having, obtaining, manifesting the thing as soon as possible, if not NOW.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that whether I have the thing that I desire or not, I am Here and even when I get it, I will not be happy or satisfied REALLY, as all I will experience is the temporary satisfaction of the desire, but this will lead to a new desire which will cause me to go into the same pattern as now the 'I want it now' character has even more energy and experiences as memories to draw on and an even stronger will to survive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from physical reality and to go into a fantasy in my imagination about having/possessing something that I desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I chase a desire, all I am doing is attempting to satisfy a character that is nothing more than a construct of information within me that requires energy to 'feel alive' and thus I am using and abusing the real life that I have been given, this physical body and this physical reality, in order to make an imaginary being feel alive, when in fact it is just me playing a game, playing a character, believing that it is me, when it is not me in fact, but it is to the degree that this is all I am in that moment of playing that character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the extent to which I interact with others just to satisfy the demand for energy of a character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use this reality in order to support the existence of something that is not real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that because I participate in this support of a character that is not real, which requires energy to exist, I am also supporting the existence of a world character as the money system which is not real and thus requires energy to exist that feeds off of the real earth and real humans, plants, and animals.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not love myself as what I really am which is physical reality and to thus abuse myself and hurt myself through ignoring physical reality to create, support, and live out illusions as characters which can never last, meanwhile destroying that which is real until there is nothing left.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought that 'there must be something more'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within the thought of 'there must be something more' participate in the creation of separation which leads to conflict, which leads to negative energy formation which leads to positive energy experience which leads to confirmation (incorrectly) in my mind that there is something more, when in fact there was only ever Me Here and I am simply abusing myself in order to experience something more, and I am thus ignoring the opportunity to explore and discover what is MORE as Here not in separation but within Oneness and Equality with what is Here and so find out how to create within what is Here without destroying and abusing what is Here, as what is Here is ultimately of REAL value and what is MORE is an illusion when it is created in the context of separation from what is Here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel irritated with myself and others especially when I do not get what I want immediately.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become so angry when I don't get what I want that I even strain myself and pass out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself only see my parents and others as a means to getting what I want or as an obstacle to getting what I want.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that from the moment of separation within searching for More than what is Here, that I have never been Here, but only lost in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have created reality into a real illusion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear just being Here not needing anything or wanting anything but being satisfied with just being Here as Who I Am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lose sight of what is Here and to only focus on attaining and obtaining something More.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always want to be There instead of Here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that There is an illusion in separation of Here.

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I deserve to be punished for who I am and what I have become, which in itself is a desire for experience rather than being Here, it is still within the context of playing the energy game and way to excuse myself through 'paying the price' to continue with the game of searching for the satisfaction of my desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my son for wanting something when I am the one who taught him, through example, and through passing on my memories, that something more is required to be satisfied with oneself, which is an illusion that can never be true in reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I am holding something that I got, and wanting something more, that this shows me that the something more will never lead to REAL self satisfaction because I am not satisfied within myself with what I already have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be motivated by the desire for ME to have something and not care that so many go without their basic needs in this world and that I have blinded myself to this truth of reality through focusing on an illusion in my mind and participating in a character that doesn't care about anything except the pursuit of desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become less than a character in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let Life become less than a system.

I commit myself to stop participation in the character of 'I want it now' - to look at what is required for me to exist here, practically, and to continue existing within the context of supporting myself to do what is best at all times, to stop measuring my life by what I can get as the satisfaction of a desire and instead measure my life by how and what I can do to support what is best for all - which in the current context of the world is to change the system to so that it supports everyone equally to have what they require to express their full potential as Life.

I commit myself to support my children as Equal to and One with myself to stop the creation and participation in the character of 'I want it now' and the character of 'I only care about my own desires'.

I commit myself to show that the desires of a character that is not real, which is based on energy, can never be fulfilled, as the starting point of the character is not actually to be satisfied with what is Here but to always get more, because getting more means the survival of the character, but the character can never be real, because it isn't in the first place, and thus for it to survive means to use, abuse, and consume physical reality to convert into energy just for the character to 'feel alive'.

Only a Machine Runs on Polarity

Watch The Battery Scene from the movie, The Matrix for context. 

It is not possible to have POSITIVE without NEGATIVE. That is basic physics.

Why are you OK with people suffering so that you can experience a temporary positive energy when SO MUCH MORE is possible if we ended ALL CONFLICT as both Positive AND Negative?

Life is not a polarity. Only a MACHINE runs on the polarity of Positive and Negative.

Are you NOTHING MORE THAN a Machine?

Are you nothing more than an Organic Robot?

Have you been programmed by the System to just generate Energy?

Are thoughts and feelings nothing more than virtual chains?

Will we wake up and dismantle our chains ONE by ONE until Life is set free from the burden of Thought and Feeling to express what is Best for All FREELY in each moment with no PROGRAM necessary?

Who will stand up? 

People like to say that energy is eternal and is never created or destroyed and only changes forms.

But if you are self-honest, you'll admit that IN REALITY, this is only true of PHYSICAL MATTER.

And that all energy is just placing parts of matter in conflict with itself. And so the only way for energy to exist is for conflict to exist. And so when you justify the existence of energy for energy's sake, you are actually justifying the existence of conflict.

And yet you will complain about the conflict because it always takes you from your positive to a negative. And you NEVER question this, because you don't CARE.

In reality, the physical is what makes energy possible, and thus it is the physical that is REAL and while you focus on energy, you miss what is REALLY HERE as the physical world.

And in this IGNORANCE of what is REAL, you continue to IGNORE what is really going on as the conflict and suffering that exists in order for the few to experience a temporary positive.

Very sad. May you wake up before it is too late. Because judgment day is the day you die, where the physical body no longer supports the illusion of thought and energy and returns to be reformed by the physical, while YOU which was thought only... disappear.

Giving Up the Illusion to Create the Solution

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value in that which makes me feel good.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that focusing on what feels good allows that which is undirected as the automated processes within my mind as consciousness to run rampant and create consequences within me and the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only want to change when I experience something negative.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see/realize that the starting point of looking for the positive as a reaction to the negative is exactly what my mind is automated to do to support me to remain trapped within cycles of creation of consequences that further trap me into seeking positive energy experience.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that my entire life has been that of seeking positive rewards in reaction to experiencing a negative and not allowing myself to realize that I have in fact created the negative as the perfect excuse to pursue the positive.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that there are those in this world that only ever experience the negative and are in no position to ever create a positive, and that this same system is that which supports me to create positive from the negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that giving up the search for the positive means that I am eternally damned to face only negative, when in fact it is the search for the positive - which REQUIRES the creation of negative - that has eternally damned me to eternally experience negative and that eventually everyone, including myself, will face the point of no longer being able to experience positive, as the system is no longer working effectively, as is evidenced by the acceleration of revolution and protest around the world over the last 7 years.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the warning signs around the world as the physical manifested evidence that the system is not working and to not see that any solution that does not create a system that ensures everyone's basic needs at all levels is doomed to fail from the beginning and that all political solutions currently being offered up are only like bandaids to protect the wealth of the elite and the middle class, but in self-honesty I can see that the lower class is only growing in numbers and growing in resentment towards those with money and that eventually everyone will find themselves on the losing side and yet this could be prevented if enough people stand up now and present solutions that will support everyone equally.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the pursuit of positive experience within myself is the reason why I have not been able to stand in a position of influence in the system, because when I only look for positive feedback, I cut myself off from a position of responsibility in the system, because anyone who stands up for real will be attacked with vitriol and nastiness beyond my current ability to perhaps understand or see - and thus by stopping the search for the positive, I am able to stand here clearly and face what is in this world head on and stand in the face of criticism and attack and yet say and do what needs to be done.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that the system, as it is, will never support real solutions for education, politics, and economics, because the system, as it is, is only designed to seek its own positive energy in the form of MONEY which requires the creation of negative as abuse, destruction, war, etc and that as I stand in a position of offering up and promoting real solutions that the system is not going to validate what I am presenting, and thus if I allow myself to continue to seek positive reward from others, I will never be able to stand, because I am not going to get that, by design, as I stand in the system with a real solution.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the education system, as it is, will never validate the real solution to equal education for all, because the education system is simply a reflection of the money system which only seeks to secure profit for the few and thus the education system will only ever produce elite vs consumers, and even within that, it is failing, and thus the time is now to stand with the solution to equal education for all and yet even within this the solution to equal education will support those who apply it to be able to stand in the CURRENT system so that they are able to survive but also educate themselves to become reasonable and thus adjust the system so that it is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place a veil of energy over my eyes where I will only allow positive feelings and experiences to guide my decisions.

I commit myself to removing the veil of energy - to stopping participation in looking for, seeking, searching for positive validation, when the only validation, the only authority required is common sense and self honest investigation and practical application of that which works within the context of what is best.

I commit myself to become, be, and stand as the authority within education to show that how to educate a child to be both effective in living and reasonable with others is simple and practically doable, if one applies themselves within the solution that we have been shown, applied, and now promote.

I commit myself to become, be, and stand as the authority in politics, to show that a solution to the problem of inequality is possible, practical, and doable and that politics can be adjusted to a system of one man one vote where we no longer require leaders but all can vote directly on policy matters and that this will require a reeducation of humanity to be reasonable, able to see common sense, and be willing to give as one wants to receive.

I commit myself to place my life on the line, to give up all self-interest that only serve to feed the ego of looking for positive energy, and to stand with those who are willing to do the same and to accumulate a result in this physical world that is measurable and undeniable and inevitable to bring about a system that gives to all equally what each one require to live and exist in this world in an optimal way.