Child Support as Life Support

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that everything I see in my child/children is a reflection of me, because they are copying the patterns that exist within me, from thinking, emotions, feelings, sounds, behaviors, everything that is within me is being downloaded into the child from the moment of conception in a way that is not visible to the eye but the effects can be seen in self-honesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that as a parent, what I like in my child is what I either like in myself, or would have liked to see in myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that as a parent, what I dislike in my child is what I dislike within myself or what I have suppressed/rejected within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in thoughts and feelings about what I like and/or dislike about my child/children and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that each point that I like or dislike is in fact an indicator of a survival pattern that I have not directed within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a parent to feel guilty towards having transferred patterns, etc that are not best for my child to them, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is impossible to support my child to take responsibility for any and all patterns that I have transferred to them that are not best, and thus within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am able to stand and walk my process and support myself and my child as equal as one to take self responsibility and birth oneself as Life, and within this to not allow any point of excuse and to let go of all guilt over consequences that cannot be changed as the past, but to do what is necessary to direct the consequence and change oneself to birth oneself and stand as Life Here.


I commit myself to support myself and my child/children as one as equal to walk the process of birthing oneself here as Life.

I commit myself to investigate, identify, and remove through process of writing, self forgiveness, and self correction application each point where I judge my child/children as either good or bad, as either a like or dislike, as either a hope or a disappointment, and to support my child/children within learning to apply the same tools to support them to take responsibility for the points that I have missed in directing effectively.

A Parasite to Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am equal to what I accept and allow to exist in reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am equal to what I accept as the belief that only my experience is real and valuable, in the face of reality being such that each one is not able to experience themselves in the best way, and thus I am within that equal to IGNORING the suffering of others while at the same time contributing to it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be equal to concern only for my own survival and experience of positive energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only value others in how they are able to contribute to my personal experience of positive energy, and that I would disregard those that either do not contribute to it directly or who would in some way diminish, and thus those who suffer in this world through an unequal money system, would have no value in my mind because they only serve to make me feel sad or bad and thus do not contribute to my positive energy experience, and thus within that I would be equal to ignoring how I really feel about reality and thus I have been equal to DENIAL of what is really going on within me and without.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to value family and friend only in the context of how they would contribute to my feelings of happiness and positive energy experience, and thus not valuing the equal and one life that they have been given equal and one to what I have been given.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am not IN FACT equal to what I FOCUS ON or PAY ATTENTION TO, but to what I accept and allow to IN FACT EXIST within the reality of which I am a part.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that each one is in their own reality of their own design and creation, despite the evidence even in my own experience that I am in a reality which requires the coordination and cooperation of others to produce that which my body requires as food, for example, and that this food is only produced by those who do so in order to get money to buy the other things that are required for them to exist, and thus each one is only cooperating in order to stabilize the existence of MY reality through the fear of not surviving, and I am in the same way contributing to everyone else's reality through the same fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value on creating a DREAM experience which is a total waste of the Gift of Life that I have been given.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the DREAM experience of having lots of wonderful toys and products and vacations is a DREAM PROGRAM that has been installed into me from a young age and that the DESIRE that motivates my yearning and striving for the dream is simply the program of survival that exists as my mind to stimulate me to seek new sources of energy for the Mind to continue to exist, and thus I am not living MY DREAM in fact, but rather FOLLOWING a DREAM PROGRAM that is a FALSE IMAGE designed by a PARASITE just to KEEP ME ENSLAVED to using my physical body and the physical world to continue the energetic existence of a ILLUSIONARY PROGRAM that does not in fact physically exist which is why it requires constant feeding of energy for it to continue.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have been equal to the slave to a parasite.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not realize that if I am allowing myself to be the slave of a parasite and do the bidding of a parasite to Life then I am EQUAL TO A PARASITE TO LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be EQUAL TO A PARASITE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to chase and follow a DREAM.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to DESIRE EXPERIENCE instead of focusing on how to express myself in the best way possible in order to create a world that is BEST FOR ALL and that as a metaphor, this is the only 'dream' appropriate to one who is Equal to Life and thus if I am to not squander the GIFT that I have been given then I must be EQUAL to the GIFT which is to say that I must accept myself not as a PARASITE TO LIFE but AS LIFE ITSELF and thus LIVE and ACT equal to and one with Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that due to chasing a dream, I have allowed myself to fuel the existence of an unequal money system which has become a parasite on this planet which completely disregards life and destroys everything in SIGHT in order to continue its own survival only, ignoring the fact that this CANNOT last forever, and thus our end as a human race is certain unless we STOP.

I commit myself to uncover and REMOVE each and every point where I am accepting and allowing myself to be less than EQUAL to Life.

I commit myself to give up the DREAM, to dismantle it, to establish myself Here in physical reality facing what is really here and be/become/stand equal to what is here and direct it as myself and to test all points where a feeling comes up to direct me, to ensure that I am Here in fact and not chasing/following a dream/desire that would not create a world that is best for all.

The Gift of Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always/generally look at other's weaknesses as a point of comparison with myself in order to generate energy within my mind/experience in the form of feeling superior or frustration towards what I perceive as a weakness, not seeing/realizing/being honest that the REAL weakness is within myself as using the mirror of reality as a way to continue an energy game within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not look for the best/potential within another at ALL TIMES, not realizing that it is possible see/recognize a weakness in another without being judgemental from the perspective of supporting another within facing the weakness and making it a strength, but this would require an ABSOLUTE focus on the POTENTIAL of the other person to change, and thus requires within me the decision to not participate in an energy game, and to have changed the point within myself so that it is no longer a point of self-judgment that is being projected.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to BELIEVE in superiority and inferiority not realizing that LIFE is equal in all and that any perception/existence of superiority/inferiority is either a judgment that self is using as an excuse to not change within oneself and/or is a point that self has accepted and allowed to be created through time by not taking full self-responsibility and therefore there is no valid point of judgment of another as weakness or inferiority or superiority or strength, because in some way or another I am responsible for the existence of everything that is Here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize fully that seeking energy through judgment of others through comparison of an idea of myself to an idea of another, regardless of what I see/perceive as physical/mental evidence is always a form of self-interest and is therefore a complete disregard for the Equal Life in another that was given to them and me equally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that every moment that I play an energy seeking game through comparison and judgement is a moment where Life is lost, where I am spiting the gift of Life that I have been given and that may never be given again, and that it is not that I should recognize the gift of Life from the starting point of Fear of Loss, but that not honoring the gift of Life within me is simply just not realizing and appreciating the true magnitude and possibility of what I could Be and Become and experience and Live and participate in and be a part of if I WERE to recognize and appreciate and honor the gift of Life that I have been given.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take the gift of Life that I have been given for granted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have been placing the experience of power, which is temporary in any case, as more valuable than the gift of Life that I have been given.

I forgive myself that I have been deliberately spiteful and at times naive or ignorant of what I have been given as a gift as Life and that I have been squandering it with no real appreciation for what I have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that Life is mysterious as this indicates the degree to which I have separated myself from Life and thus the REAL MYSTERY would be what could and would happen if I were to receive this Gift of Life with open arms and with the intention and self-direction to recognize the gift in everyone and to use my gift to ensure that all are ABLE to recognize their gift of Life and to use it and express it fully.

I forgive myself that I have been afraid at times that my Life will someday be gone, and that I would experience this fear of loss but then not see within it that deep down I KNOW that Life is precious and should be used/expressed in the BEST WAY possible and not just for a temporary experience that is not the BEST POSSIBLE way of using the gift, not to simply pursue the experience of having money or feeling happy or feeling powerful or any of the myriad ways in which one can experience themselves as energy or as the pursuit of energy, but to use/be/express Life as equal to what Life is, which is Expansion into the BEST possible expression, to go beyond ANY and ALL limits, even when the limits seem real and impossible to expand beyond, and to perfect oneself WITHIN the limitation but in a way that supports the perfection of ALL within the limitation, not just EXPERIENCE of perfection, but the reality of being the best one can be within the context of what is best for all and everyone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself believe that I am an individual when in fact I really don't know what I am, and regardless of what I am or am not, why wouldn't I want to be the best for myself and everyone else?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am in everyone, that I am Life, and that each one is Life and we are thus different manifestations of the same thing which is equally valuable, and that even though it seems like some are better and some are worse, that this just the consequence of not recognizing and acting within the recognition of what really makes us all equal and equally valuable, and that even those that seem 'better' are still SO LIMITED within their expression and experience and even they are still in the same fear that I am within losing this gift of life that we have been given.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the best way to use the gift I have been given is to allow all to receive the same gift, which is simply to first recognize that each one is/has Life and is thus equally valuable.

I commit myself to show and explain and demonstrate that the only true form of giving as one wants to receive is to find the point within oneself within where one is at in the system and to find a way to become effective and to stand in a way that supports the system that determines each one's value according to how much money they have/how much money they can make - to support that system to change so that it recognizes that all ARE ALREADY EQUALLY VALUABLE and that way we can have a system that ensures each one gets what they need to FULLY USE and EXPRESS that gift.

I commit myself to FIND and SUPPORT those who want to stand and walk together to change this system so that the ability for each to live here and express fully is supported and to do WHATEVER IT TAKES, which is simply COMMUNICATION and expansion beyond one's current position in life, and to support each one within their potential, to recognize the best within them, which is Life, which is the potential to change from ignoring the gift they have within them to accessing it and expressing it regardless of how the system and people within the system react, to never stop, to never give up, and to go beyond every perceived limit in order to USE the GIFT that I have been GIVEN equally as each one has TO THE FULLEST in the BEST WAY POSSIBLE.

The Difference Between An Athiest, a Christian, and an Agnostic

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there is no difference between any human being based on what they believe as religion or lack of religion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the fundamental starting point of the athiest, Christian, Muslim, Buddhist, Hindu, spiritual, agnostic, etc is exactly the same as seeking energy as experience within oneself as self-interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that all beliefs are a form of separation, and even starting point of 'I don't believe anything' is still a form of separation because 'not believing' is not the same as BEING one and equal to the physical, mind, and energy as taking self responsibility for what one has allowed oneself to be and become as evidenced by the world as it currently exists.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there is no fundamental difference between any human being as we have all accepted and allowed ourselves to become addicted to the experience of energy within ourselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that whether a person is negative or positive, there is no fundamental difference because the starting point of what the person lives and exists as is still the pursuit and direction by energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the extent to which we as humanity have given up our self-directive wills to be directed by our minds through the pursuit of energy, and thus the mind of each human being is like the God of their existence, where the human believes they exercising their own free choice, but in fact are just following the commands of their own personal God, not even to their own benefit, but just to the benefit of the mind itself as being able to continue its existence to find a way to get its human host to reproduce and train the new child to copy the patterns of the parent's mind so that the mind is able to continue, while the being in the physical body ceases to exist and therefore is less than the mind itself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that this pattern of living as the mind's slave and copying thus pattern into our children can be stopped once and for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a parent to not question the beliefs that I pass on to my child through stories and behaviors that would perpetuate the religion of Self-Interest within the child, meanwhile distracting myself with ideas of choosing what religion to participate in or not participate in, when it is irrelevant because the seed of self religion is the same regardless of the external form that it takes and expresses itself as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that all religions and belief systems, including science, athiesm, skepticism and philosophy are based on a specialized vocabulary, the content of which is words charged with energy that only support the context of the person adhering to the particular system to remain in a constant state of focus on self-interest at the creation of experiences in the pursuit of energy in order to satisfy the thoughts and feelings being generated by one's body that were programmed in through the mind by the parent, school, religions, and media.

I commit myself to stand up within myself to investigate and identify the patterns which are still causing me to act in automated ways that are only designed to create conflict and participate in the circulation of energy to refuel the mind and in no way produce a result physically that is best for myself and everyone else.

I commit myself to show parents that despite their 'best intentions' they are not actually showing true love to their children because they are not even questioning themselves in what they are participating in and what they are listening to and following as the contents of their mind directing their decisions and pursuing only what the money system presents to them as options to exercise as 'free choice' that are all only designed to keep the parent and the child as a consumer participating in the system that only benefits a few and causes massive suffering for most.

Questioning Purpose

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize my real responsibility to myself and this world within what I know about the actual source of all the problems on this planet.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize my true purpose.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my purpose is within something that I decide based on feelings and desires, when in fact feelings and desires have been programmed within me to keep me as nothing more than a consumer slave in the system and to never stand up and do what is best for all as adjusting the system so that all have what they need to express themselves Here equally as one as what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my purpose is something that I have to discover through self-honesty about what is currently existing as myself and as this world, and to deconstruct within myself how I have created myself and thus this world together with everyone as one and equal to what it is now, and thus my true purpose is something that is existent already within the decision to stand up for what is best and that any other purpose that is not within that context is in fact a purpose given to me by the system and is not best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my true purpose is to stand up in this system, to be an example of change that is best for all, and to speak up about how to change oneself and this system to reflect the inner change so that all forms of Life on this planet are supported equally according to their design and to support all forms of Life to grow, expand, and become better within the context of improving the balance within what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not understand the word equilibrium in the context of what is best for all as growth, change, expansion within improvement of the balance that would exist when all parts of reality are acting and existing within the context of what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define change only within the context of competition for survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define evolution only in the context of survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that all information and knowledge of this world, generated by the system and by the mind, is all designed to reinforce the belief/knowledge/acceptance that the system cannot change because the human cannot change and to thus instill in everyone the belief/knowledge that there is no such thing as self direction and thus purpose is something given to one from an authority outside of oneself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that even when a purpose is generated within oneself but based on feelings and thoughts and emotions and desires, that this purpose is still actually being given to one from an external authority because the mind itself is a copy of the system of consciousness which is based purely on generating energy through conflict for the system's survival as an energy machine, and this is why radical self honesty is required within oneself to ensure that one is not simply just going along with what the mind wants which would never change things externally to be best for all but only produce more conflict in the world and thus in one's life - death being the most prominent and certain form of conflict for everyone, and extreme daily suffering being the most common for the average life form on earth.

I commit myself to investigate and question through self honest self forgiveness every point where a desire and feeling and thought directs my sense of purpose and to only rely on common sense based on self honesty as to what I have accepted and allowed as what is not best both within myself and without and to only give to myself that purpose which is in alignment with taking responsibility for what is here within and without that is not best to realign it to be best for all.

What is Eternal Life?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize/understand/see what Life really is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define Life within the context of self-interest only.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define Life in the context of my own experience only.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Life is more than just my own personal experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I can have experiences but not really be alive, not really experience myself as Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the words Eternal Life as simply the infinite continuation of my own personal experience within various different environments/formats/contexts.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my life experience is temporary.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to believe that I will exist and experience myself forever, when in fact I really do not know and this want/belief is based on wishful thinking only.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Life is the sum total of all that exists within the context of oneness and equality as what is Best for All and that when even one part of what is Here is not existing in a way that is best for all, that this creates separation and conflict and that this would form a consequence that would eventually separate reality into many fractured pieces which would experience themselves as separate from each other and in competition with each other and that this could last for what would be perceived as an infinite amount time, and yet this would not mean that there is Life Eternal. Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Eternal Life is the state where Life as what is best for all is guaranteed and a matter of self expression of all of reality whether reality it expressing itself as a whole or as parts, that all parts and the whole would be experiencing, expressing, being, existing in a way that is best for each part and all parts as the whole.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that based on common sense I can see that Eternal Life does not in fact exist because if even one part of reality exists in a way that is not best for all, then how can Life be said to exist, and how can it be said to be Here eternally?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that compassion and love are only real when they are expressed in a way that benefits ALL parts of reality equally as what is best for all.

I commit myself to show to those who are hiding behind the idea of Eternal Life as a form of self-interest that this is in fact abusing the words Eternal Life and that the only way to really ensure that one is able to experience themselves in the BEST way eternally would be to ensure that ALL forms of Life which is everything that is Here is able to exist and experience itself in the best way, and that the way to begin to create Eternal Life Here on Earth is to begin with adjusting the money system so that each one has what they need to exist here without struggle, without having to compete for survival, and without any need for fear, and to adjust the education system to support each one to come to the conclusion that what is best for all is best for the individual and vice versa, and that unless we each one consider what is best for all at all times and adjust our systems to support that then we will inevitably create conflict and consequences that will put ourselves into a state of fear and competition and thus not Life Eternally.

Fear of Authority as Fear of Responsibilty

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I don't need anyone's permission to stand up in this world and do what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I don't need anyone's permission to change myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that external authority is required to direct me within my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the external authority/authorities that exist, only direct human beings within the context of continuing the money system as is, which also means directing human beings to remain enslaved to energy within themselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that no actual authority exists outside of me that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it is my responsibility and my duty to change within myself, to become an expert in what is best for all, and to stand as that in this world within who I am, how I act, what I say, and that this standing does not have to conform to a certain picture, as the pictures that I see and believe that I must conform to are nothing more than pre-programmed images that are designed to keep me controlled and to not in fact stand up, by keeping me in a state of comparison and self-judgment rather than self-honest action within what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that what is best, is for me to no longer accept and allow any thought or feeling within myself that is not supportive of what is best for all, that supports the creation of solutions to inequality, and that any thought or feeling that keeps me in a state of comparison or judgment and does not support me to speak and act in ways that bring forth solutions is in fact mind control to keep me limited, and there is nothing and no one that will stop this within me, as it is MY RESPONSIBILITY because it is WITHIN ME and ME ONLY.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the longer I keep the real solutions within myself only and do not remove all the limitations within myself that would keep me from acting in the context of what is best for all as presenting real solutions that are peaceful through communication, the more the problems will grow in this world and those who do not know how to stop their thoughts and feelings, thus allowing the subconscious and unconscious fears to grow within will eventually act out in violent ways which will never solve the problems on earth and only cause more fear and thus more violence, and thus it is MY RESPONSIBILITY to stand up and communicate in order to bring about PEACEFUL SOLUTIONS that are best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I judge the world and others, that I am NOT taking responsibility, and that it is one thing to assess a situation as not best, but then this must immediately be followed by self-honest self-forgiveness to remove the patterns within which are being reflected without and then this must immediately be followed by physical change and physical action towards presenting a REAL solution that is best for all that can be measured physically.

I commit myself to show that all change that is best for all is in fact an INDIVIDUAL responsibility of self change and self corrective action and physical presentation of solutions through communication until all are able to see the solution and thus implement it through collective agreement.

I commit myself to show to all activists that REAL CHANGE in the world must first start with self honesty, self forgiveness, and self corrective application and then followed by communication of solutions that are best for all.

I commit myself to show parents that the REAL SOLUTION to this world and to the elimination of fear for their children's survival is to support the child to have no fear from the beginning and that this starts at home.

I commit myself to show parents that using fear to punish their child will only result in a child who becomes an adult who is afraid to stand up and present solutions because they will always be wary of an external authority looking to punish them.

I commit myself to show to parents that the best way to raise a child is to communicate always, to explain in as much detail as possible, even when it seems the child cannot understand, as this is the way that the child DEVELOPS understanding, and that every time the parent attempts to control the child instead of explain and support the child to make the best decision out of their own free will, this has the effect of dumbing child down, and thus creates a child who essentially requires to be controlled more and more because they cannot work out what is best for themselves as this is not something that happens naturally - either the parent supports the child to develop a common sense, reasonable approach to living here in the physical world, or the parent supports the child to develop LESS THAN that.

I commit myself to show parents that the child is not born with the ability to reason - as is shown in many points of research - where a child left on their own with no human interaction other than being fed and clothed - will eventually die, and thus the parent must take FULL RESPONSIBILITY for every influence on the child and influence the child to develop common sense, reasoning, and a character as a physical body that interacts with the rest of physical reality always in all ways as what is best for all and that this will produce a society where problems are virtually non-existent, and that this is the only way to create heaven on earth, and that this approach to parenting must coupled with a change in the money system so that parents more and more have the time freedom and financial freedom and freedom from stress to be able to be Here with their children and give them them attention and support they really need.

Survival Parenting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that, as a parent, I must rush from one activity to the next.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the excuse to rush my child into doing something that I am doing it for their benefit.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that, as a parent, the extent to which I have/am attempted/attempting to create memories for my child that are positive and avoid creating memories that are negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the extent to which I as a parent fear for my child's survival in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the extent to which I train my child to compete in a competitive world, believing that I am doing what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself and others for training our children to compete in a competitive world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the world as competitive, when in fact it is the reflection of what I am accepting and allowing to exist within myself and thus in the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my primary responsibility now, because I am a parent, is to train my child to be the best competitor to survive in a competitive world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that competing for survival can ever have a winner, when in fact it requires the competitor to harm, abuse, and dumb down the competition, which means that the competitor would have no equals and thus constantly be a slave to controlling others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that just because I see something reflected in the world or existing as a manifestation that it is not possible to change it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that change first begins within by deconstructing the pattern existent in me that would allow for the existence/creation/continuance of a pattern without that is not best for all, and then moving from a new starting point to adjust the without so that it is reflective of the corrected pattern within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that as a parent it is my primary responsibility to change myself within and to thus support my child as one and equal to myself to stand within the world only accepting within what is best and thus only accepting without what is best and to thus support both myself and my child to stand in the world to correct what is not best as this is what is best for myself, my child, and all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as a parent, to take my role as a parent for granted, to take the gift and opportunity of having and supporting the development of a child for granted and not realize the amazing gift and opportunity that exists within being a part of the creation process of a child in this world.

I commit myself to take my role as a parent seriously, and to always do what is best for my child within the context of supporting them to develop inner awareness of what is best for all and to only accept within what is best for all and to thus be able to develop outer awareness of this world to stand within it and be a part of the external change in this world to align the systems to be best for all and to be able to stand and live within a world that is best for all as a natural expression of who one is.

I commit myself to investigate all the ways in which I still allow compromise of my child's development within what is best in the name of survival, convenience, and expediency.

I commit myself to support other parents to question the ways in which we are supporting/raising/training/disciplining our children to produce a child that is less than best.

I commit myself to find and support those who are willing to hear and to apply themselves within this process to remove all the limiting beliefs, change within and be a parent who is able to support a child to develop themselves to be best for all in a world that is still not yet best for all, as this would be the foundation of changing the world to eventually BE best for all.

Circumstances as a Mirror of What We Accept and Allow

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that all circumstances in this world and in my individual experience as what I have called 'my life' are the result of small moments, breath by breath that have accumulated over time to present themselves as a 'condition' or 'circumstance' or 'event' and that these things do not just 'happen' all at once, there is no 'overnight success' or 'random disaster' - it is all actions and decisions that have accumulated over time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the basic common sense that a consequence is something that can be prevented by directing all of the decisions that lead to the consequence in a way that prevents it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that MANY children are being diagnosed with learning disabilities and disorders and attention disorders but without any focus being placed on how the child was treated and educated in the first 3 years where the parents and the environment was the main influencers and shapers of everything the child saw, heard, and felt and that these experiences form memories within the child and form the foundation of the child's ability to learn, focus, communicate, pay attention, etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to utilize the excuse that everything is so complicated and more than one person can handle as a way to not face the consequences that have been allowed to manifest over time that we, as humans, now call circumstances, conditions, and human nature.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the conditions instead of realizing that the conditions are a mirror as to what I have accepted and allowed to accumulate as consequence of my acceptance and allowance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in apathy as a way to not face consequence and take the time to walk back through what I have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see how I have created conditions that seem to place me in the position of the victim.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to view parenting through the lens of good and bad instead of realizing and seeing that parenting is really a matter of what is best, and that if a child is supported with examples and consistency within always choosing what is best, then they will develop a character and personality that always supports what is best.


I commit myself to show how all conditions and circumstances are a result of small measures allowed to accumulate over time.

I commit myself to support parents to see how a child's behavior is the accumulation of all the influences that have been accepted and allowed, and that the best way to support a child is to first take responsibility for oneself as a parent, and then to support the child to walk back through the the points that are creating the behavior.

I commit myself to show that all behavior problems are really problems of vocabulary where the child is living certain words ineffectively or is limited within their ability to express themselves.

Fear of Survival as the Basis of Reality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that all feelings of love and joy are always in contrast with fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have participated in the idea and feeling of love in order to cover up the basic fact that my and everyone's entire existence is based on fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the constant, continuous fear in everyone at all times.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that everyone, no matter where they are or who they are with is always in fear as a basic point of reality, and that while it is possible to cover up the feeling of fear at times through creating experiences of happiness and fun for example, these are really nothing more than distractions, because no matter what experiences I or anyone create to escape the feeling of fear, fear is still the basis of reality, because no one is able to exist without competing for survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize and see that the system we live in is busy collapsing in on itself, like a supergiant star that has used up all of its fuel and is now collapsing on the weight of its own gravity, the system we live in is based on competition, which is always constantly separating and dividing people from each other and this cannot last forever, because in order for even one person to be left at the top, everyone else is left in fear of each other and thus no real cooperation or love is existing, because noone trusts each other at any level - not spouses, not parent and child, not brother and sister, not business partners, no one, because at the end of the day, everyone is a competitor to one' s self in a system based on competition for survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to buy in to the game of competition for survival, even directly justifying it at times.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let things get this bad on the earth in order to wake up and realize and see the consequence of my original decision to compete with myself for energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to demonize negativity and to place positivity on a pedestal, when in reality the only thing that exists fundamentally at the moment is negativity, which is why negativity seems to come so easily and positivity seems to require lots of work to create and maintain and only lasts for a fleeting moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not really care about my own existence fundamentally, certainly not enough to really question the nature of reality as it is currently existing and what I have accepted and allowed within myself as who I am and what I am willing to participate or allow to even exist without my direct participation, meanwhile just looking out for my own experience, pretending and lying to myself that experience is of any value in itself, especially in spite of things being so dire in reality for so many.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty about living in a first world country, and to allow this feeling of guilt to manipulate me into not changing, when it is my responsibility to change so that there is no division between first and second or third world, because this is all one world, and the division lines are not real, and it is only a matter of time before everyone is on the losing end of a system that is competitive by nature.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear losing positivity, love, feeling good, when in fact I don't have these things anyway, and that is because they are not ensured for everyone, and thus if they are not, then I am always in fear of not having them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to listen to fear, to buy into it, to believe that by listening to it that I can save myself somehow, when the only thing that can save me or anyone is to do what is best and to not stop until the systems that automate the distribution of basic needs, for a start, are giving to all what they need.

I commit myself to stop fear within myself.

I commit myself to use writing and self forgiveness to root out the fear within me, to find the structures that keep me in fear, to stop participating in the positive which creates the fear of loss to further create more positive, and to investigate until I get to the bottom of how I have instilled fear within me as a base motivator and automated point within me that is so far keeping me existing only as a mind seeking energy without regard for Life.

I commit myself to utilize the tools of writing, self-forgiveness, and self-corrective action to eliminate fear within myself, to prove that fear is irrelevant, that fear is only something that holds us back from creating a world that is best for all, and that there is no excuse or reason to listen to fear or to manipulate oneself with fear, and to be a living example to others that stopping fear is not only possible, but that it is best.

Trading Happiness for Something Real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that a child supported with common sense and examples of honoring and valuing Life will become an adult that honors and values Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my primary role as a parent is simply to help my child survive in this world, when survival is one aspect of living in this world as a fully functioning human being, and that as a parent, it is my responsibility to not only support my child to live and be healthy and be educated to be effective in the world as it is but also to develop an understanding of what Life really is and the inherent equality and oneness of all life and to develop the ability to express what is best, to stand in this world as an example of living what is best, to recognize and honor all Life and to not accept or allow anything less than what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize as a parent how the media and advertising influences a child to develop a character that is based on self-interest and the pursuit of experience as self-interest, which we call 'happiness' but it really just a program of seeking out products to buy to fulfill a perceived lack, the lack being created through imagery and sounds in the advertising itself and by the parent who participates in their own pursuit of happiness, while the consequence is that many people in this world go without and many animals suffer and thus we create a world where the real experience in the physical is hell and thus happiness is not something that grant to each other by default, but that we dangle as a promised reward as long as one submit to the system, knowing full well that we will never receive the reward we are searching for in this life, and we are really not certain that it exists in the next.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question the pursuit of happiness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take the pursuit of happiness for granted as a given that must not be questioned.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the starting point of pursuing something creates the endpoint of never achieving but always remaining in a state of pursuit.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I must be crazy for questioning what everyone else accepts blindly, but within this I have still accepted the lie because I am still thinking, and thus creating a belief about myself as different, or odd, or an outside of the box thinker, is still just an idea in my mind that will keep me trapped and distracted from ever standing up in the world, as the only way to really stand up and do what is necessary to support myself, others, and the systems to change to be what is best for all will require me to give up any and all feelings of being special in any way because I realize that feeling special is still participation in energy, which is still playing the game of the pursuit of happiness in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I cannot be happy in a world where most never even have the possibility to be happy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the only way to be happy in a world where Life suffers is to create an illusion inside of my head, but in self honesty I know that the happiness inside never lasts and that this is because of external conditions that constantly create conflict in my experience, and thus the REAL ACT of love would be to stand up and dismantle the systems within and without that are causing conflict and suffering unnecessarily and to readjust both within and without to only support and create what is best for all as this would ensure happiness for everyone, including myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that any education of a child that does not support them to see past the illusion of happiness in a world based on lack is in fact child abuse and condemning the child to a life of suffering and opening them to abuse and manipulation by those who know how to create imagery to lead the confused consumer to pursue happiness but in fact only treats the child like a coin in a machine - not caring at all about the actual quality of life of the child or anyone else.

I commit myself to support my children to develop a keen understanding of how the system we have here on earth works and within that support them to develop a highly effective vocabulary, reading, and math ability as well as an understanding of the equality and oneness of all life.

I commit myself to show to other parents that the best education for a child consists of effective development of vocabulary, math, and reading ability combined with supporting the child to develop self-mastery over their emotions, self-discipline within designing and implementing systems that are best for all and an understanding and appreciation of the equality and oneness of all Life and a development of common sense reasoning that always considers what is best for all within any decision.

Comparison, Judgment, and Fear Only Exist in the Secret Mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a secret mind within myself as a place where I am able to have thoughts about things in secret, to have judgments about others, to compare, to contrast, and to fantasize, all of which do not serve me in the physical world in the context of what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not remember how I developed my secret mind and to within this form and participate in a feeling of being overwhelmed with the complex nature of the backchat and automatic thought/feeling processes that occur as my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within feeling overwhelmed as to the complex nature of the automatic feelings/thoughts that occur within and as my mind to feel despondent in that the task of deconstructing my mind as the automated system of thoughts, feelings, judgments, etc when in fact this is an excuse to continue participating in the mind, and within this I realize that the only thing required is self-honest self-forgiveness and corrective application, and that whatever my mind presents as thoughts, feelings, comparisons, judgments, fears, etc is what is to be forgiven.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I do not deserve forgiveness, as this is an indicator of blame and self-judgment, as well as expecting something outside of myself to forgive me, when in fact all that is required is that I am self-honest in forgiving myself, as the directive will to change and to no longer participate in that which is not best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek approval from others as a form of reward as feedback instead of my own self-honesty within whether I am participating in my mind or whether I am Here breathing, forgiving myself, and changing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be accepted by others when real acceptance is of self, as self sees what is necessary to be changed within self, self forgives self, self changes and then self accepts self as having changed based on the self honest assessment of how one now interacts in the physical world, and that one has stopped participation in what self was accepting and allowing self to participate in previously that was not best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to another in my mind as to whether I or they are walking their process more effectively, when in fact the only relevant point is whether I am participating in my mind or whether I am breathing and taking responsibility for ME.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to hide within anger and judgment when in fact the anger is within me, and therefore the judgment is of ME.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as not good enough to be in the company of others as an equal, Here, but that I must constantly cause conflict and challenge others, when I have applied this point of challenging myself absolutely, and thus I have projected onto others the desire for myself to change, but within this only participating in judgment of others which is really judgment of self, and thus I realize that what I see in another is really just what I am doing or participating in within myself by its very nature - if I judge another for something, then I am in fact in my mind, and thus whatever I am judging in another is not valid, because I am not Here in that moment, I am in my mind, and thus fundamentally equal to whatever I am judging in another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want and desire to be innocent in my interactions with others, to want to stop causing conflict, to desire to be the best that I can within the context of interacting with others, as within this I realize this this desire is an energetic experience, and it is a point of focus that I am allowing to stand in the way of changing myself and simply being that which is best as who I know I am capable of being, and thus within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am able to change, that I am able to stand within another as an equal and within that to support myself first to change, to not go into automatic conflict as projecting judgment outside of myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my parents for who I am, which is an abdication of self-responsibility, and although I don't remember the detail of how I created myself as who I am, I am deciding Here that I am taking self-responsibility, no matter how arduous or challenging a task that might be to walk back through everything I have accepted and allowed within and as who I am and how I exist, because from what I can now see, there is no other option, as I have already seen the consequence of choosing the 'other way' which is to live in complete isolation, in a personal hell of constant judgment, criticism, conflict, anxiety, and fear and I know everyone is either experiencing this as well or suppressing it, and although this state of existence saddens me, I realize that even the sadness is simply a consequence and that the sadness is not necessary because I can change, I will change, and I am changing, and within that I will do whatever I can to support others to do the same, even if it is simply by my example.

I commit myself to stand and walk this process of writing, self-forgiveness, and corrective application for myself, because I have seen the consequence of not doing so, and I am stating that I am Here to change myself and to be that which is best for all in all ways for eternity, even if this process means I have to give up all knowledge and information as to who I believe I am and even if it means that I will face my fears, my self judgments, and pain for standing up within myself and this world, because this is the best thing to do, there is no other choice, and any point of choice is an illusion.

I commit myself to see through and to walk through every and all illusions that I have created within myself, accepted and allowed in this world, and every point of choice that comes up within me as an excuse to not change, I commit myself to breathe, to forgive myself, and to change, no matter what.

What I See in Another is a Memory Within Me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that what I see in another I see in myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that everything I see as a value interpretation or a judgment is based on the memories layered in my physical body over time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to realize that the values and judgments within the memories that are layered in my physical body will lead me to interpret things always within the context of those memories and within the starting point of keeping those memories in tact, so to speak, and that I cannot see or interpret things otherwise, because it is through these memories that I am processing the information that I see, hear, and think about.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that everything I see and hear is a reflection of me, in terms of either the judgment about it, or the value that I place on it, whether positive or negative, and that when I see something as positive, it is because that thing I am seeing is existing within me as a symbol that has a positive association in terms of energy, and when I see an object, for example, that activates the symbol within me, the energy associated with it is activated as well, and thus when I feel good about something I see, it is because I have accepted and allowed myself to program/be programmed with symbols that are associated/embedded/imbued with energy experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project onto another a feeling, when in fact, this feeling is within me towards what that person is presenting to me as a symbol that I have accepted and allowed within myself as positive, negative, or neutral, and thus if I am looking at someone, or listening to someone, and feeling something about them, then I am participating in my mind as projections, and thus within this I realize that the real value within this is to utilize it to see how I have words and pictures within me that are still associated with energy, and to thus show points that require self forgiveness.

I commit myself to utilizing the judgments that come up within me towards others in order to identify points within myself that require self-forgiveness, and within this I realize that all value judgments that are not based on physical reality as what is best for all, are nothing more than projections of my memories based on my experience and thus are points that, because I am aware of them, I am able to take responsibility for correcting through writing, self-forgiveness, and self-corrective application.

Testing the Waters

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear going on all in to support Life and to do what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have even one point within me that wants to hold back from doing what is best for all, not realizing that even one point is the same as completely holding back, as there is NO MIDDLE ROAD when it comes to what is best, I am either standing with and as Life as what is best for all or I am not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the desire to 'test things out' which is really just an excuse to not fully participate, 100%, to do everything that is necessary to bring about the result that is best, and within this 'testing out' to allow for a point of blame outside of myself when things do not work out properly, which is in essence the starting point of not wanting to change and take full self responsibility for being the change that will bring about the result that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look for faults in others as a way to project my own decision to not take full self responsibility to be the change that is best for all and to thus hold on to a point of blame of something outside of me that will justify why I didn't have to change and go all in for what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the point of doing what is best for all is not only for an external result that is for 'someone or something else' but is in fact FOR ME and the belief that I 'have to do something for others' is equal to and one with believing and stating that I am separate from everyone and everything and is thus an indicator that I have not in fact made the decision to stand within the starting point of real equality and oneness as what is best for ALL which includes me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, in spite of knowing what is best to do in a moment, allowed fear, excuse, and justification, within blame, to DICTATE what I do as what is not best for all, and within that I am accepting and allowing myself to be nothing more than a slave in the control of a dictator, and yet I AM the DICTATOR, because the dictum is IN MY OWN HEAD and I am the one deciding to listen to, defend, justify, and believe that which is just words in my head, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be the slave to words in my head and feelings in my body, which are self-created over time through acceptance and allowance, and I realize that if I consistently, over time, apply myself within what is best, through breathing, writing, self forgiveness and self corrective action as do what is common sense as what is best for all in each moment, that I will eventually completely break through the control within and without as words that are designed to keep me as a slave to the system that is not best for me or anyone/anything else.

I commit myself to show to myself and thus others that consistent, breath by breath action as what is best will accumulate to a result that is best for all, and that it is the consistent, breath by breath action in the context of what is NOT best for all that has accumulated the result of what we now see today as the world and world system and what we experience within as the control mechanism of our mind speaking to us and generating feelings through training of the body to never stand equal and one to the physical here as what is best for all.

I commit myself to stand equal and one to both the mind and the physical to use the mind as the tool that it is and to stand within and as the body as what it really is as equal to and one with physical reality which is what is real and which we have abdicated responsibility towards as humanity and where the solution to Heaven on Earth is actually to be found in adjusting the system that is here to produce only that which is best, not for the mind as feelings only, but for the physical body as what is optimal and required to live a life of dignity, full expression, and TRUE BLISS where no consequence is allowed that creates lack or suffering in ANY part of existence at ANY TIME, and within this I commit myself to show that this is the ONLY PURPOSE of being here worth giving to oneself and that anything less will only produce conflict which will create more problems which will eventually consume us to be a slave to consequence as we have already become, thus the true purpose of being here is to take FULL SELF RESPONSIBILITY for everything I am capable of and to even push beyond any perceived LIMIT so that I will have no REGRET or EXCUSE when my final breath comes.

Fear of an Equal Planet

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that this entire world is running as an automated system that is determining who gets the basics needed to live and who doesn't and that there is no one person, or one group or people who is in control, but it is MONEY itself as the principle of survival at all costs that is in control and direction of the system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the system, to blame those in perceived control of the system, and to not realize that it is MY starting point as accepting and allowing the consequence of only focusing on my own self interest as survival that is giving permission to the system to continue as is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it is EVERYONE collectively that is responsible for the system being what it is, and yet within that I am in a unique point in the system as the sum total of everything I accept and allow within myself as wanting to continue only within my own self interest and thus each one is in a similar but unique point of accepting and allowing the same, and thus the way to change the system is to support each one to take responsibility for what they accept and allow and to suggest a better system based on each one being the directive principle of who one is and what one gives permission to in the world, and within that we can define and implement a system that speaks on behalf of each of us as our own individual directive choice to support that which is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that a system that would support what is best for everyone would lead to dictatorship or tyranny when in fact all systems that support what is less than best for all are by nature dictatorial as they dictate that some win and some lose based on the rules set up, which are not based on the value of life itself and thus will always create arbitrary rules that are not equal for all and thus not best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear a system of equality, because of images that I have accepted as the horrors of communism, and have not considered that even in the current system, these horrors exist, its just that I don't experience them because for whatever reason, I happen to be in a position where I am more on the winning side of this system, but in self honesty, my life is not ideal or optimal as lived and experienced, and thus I am not actually happy with how things are in my experience but the fear of ending on the more extreme side of losing in the system has kept from standing up in order to make the system best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear a system of equality being imposed on me and to not realize that the imposition of equality is not possible, and that my fear is actually coming from my mind as self interest attempting me to stay within the current bounds of the system so that I will not challenge the self interest of those on the extreme side of winning in the system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to care more about my own feelings of security than the well being of all life, which includes me, and thus I have accepted an inferior existence for myself, as like a dog getting scraps from the table, and I even feel grateful for at least the scraps, not realizing that a system that is best for all is possible, and would require me to stand up and thus take a risk, but the reality is that the risk in not standing up is the ONLY REAL RISK, because whether I do or do not, it is GUARANTEED that I will eventually DIE, and thus what is FEAR but avoiding that which is certain, but within this I realize that if I stand up, and support others to stand up, find out how this world really works, find out how I really work, do everything I can to place myself in a position to adjust the system and walk with the group of people doing the same, that then there is at least a possibility that things can change, and that really this decision to walk within this point, which is what is best no matter how you look at it, this decision is the only real decision that I can make, and anything less is simply giving up, giving in, and not caring about Life, and within that would seal my fate as becoming nothing.

I commit myself to stand up, to speak up, to support those who are willing to stand up and change and be a part of the solution AS themselves and AS the system.

I commit myself to supporting those who are willing to stand up with the tools to re-educate themselves, to investigate, question, and change their and my starting point of automatically generating conflict for self interest to redefining and realigning all relationships within myself and this world to only create that which is best for all.

Nothing is Coming to Savior Ass or Mine

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hope that a solution to my problems and to the problems in this world will come.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am the solution to 'my problems' and to the problems of this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have been waiting for a solution instead of directing myself in each moment breath by breath within what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only be willing to move myself when I know money is coming as a reward.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire the good life but not be willing to make it possible for others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want something for nothing, when I am in a position to give so that others may receive and in fact receive for myself as well.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and feel that my responsibility is a burden when it is in fact the key to my freedom.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I could just get enough money, then I would feel good and be motivated to do something in this world that would be best, when in fact I am using this belief to control myself to stay in a pattern of waiting for a savior to come and make me feel better without having to do anything.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I act as what is best that Life will support me, as Life is the principle that is lying dormant deep down within me that sees no limitation and only sees possibility as what is best, and that I must simply ACTivate this within and go with what is best in every moment and I will see that SO MUCH MORE is possible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to listen to the doubts and the fears that my mind presents to me in my own inner voice as if they were valid and to even argue on their behalf for my own limitation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the inner voice is a program placed into my from my parents (unknowingly) and the system to make sure that I will never present a point of competition to those whose lives are benefiting from the mass slavery of the human race and all other forms of life on earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be enslaved by the thoughts and feelings within myself which would indicate that I am the weakest form of life on earth that I could be held back from doing what is best simply by a thought or a feeling which is not even real, when I have a physical body capable of amazing feats and that all I must do is stand up, speak, and act as what is best and through this, this is the only way that I can prove that I am worthy of Life in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I deserve a good life when I am not willing to lift a finger to ensure that ALL have a good life, because there is nothing in this world other than individuals, like me, and thus if I am not the first, then WHO WILL BE?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall into the trap of self interest time and again, each time justifying the fall, but at the same time knowing that I am falling, and then hiding, and the looking for someone or something to take responsibility for me, but I know that by doing so I am only allowing consequences to compound and that this is in fact unacceptable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to no realize that I am capable of so much more than I currently am realizing, and that all I must/can do is stand up, and do what I see is possible in this moment as what is best, and then I will see more in the next breath, and thus breath by breath I will accumulate what is best and therefore stand as a living example to others who would then see it as possible for themselves to do the same, and that there is NO OTHER WAY that the problems on this planet will be sorted out, as there is NOTHING ELSE that exists other than us, and by ME not standing and directing myself within what is best, things will ONLY GET WORSE, because I have accepted and allowed a system to be created in my name that has automated the constant continuous creations of what is NOT BEST.

I commit myself to STOP ALL EXCUSES, and to move within what is best in each moment, to not give myself a break, to not allow any point where I do not question a feeling or a thought, to go ALL IN, to never give up, to stand in the face of those who are accepting themselves as less than what they really are, to do the same for myself, to be ONLY ONE if necessary, but within this to NOT ACCEPT bullshit from others as I do not accept bullshit from myself.

I commit myself to push myself beyond all perceived limits, to STOP FEAR, to no longer give FEAR POWER, and to PROVE TO MYSELF that FEAR IS NOT MY MASTER, and that I alone am responsible for myself and what I create as the accumulation of my effect in this world breath by breath.

Fear of Facing Self

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear speaking to other people about the reality of this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing the reality of this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the fear of facing others and facing the reality of this world, is in fact fear of loss of stopping within myself that which is manifesting and has created the world as it is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself into believing that I am making a difference in the world, when I have in fact taken the point of changing the world and used it as a way to feel special and in that create an energetic feeling within myself of superiority and judgment towards others, which is in fact me not stopping that within myself which is creating the real problems on earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there are many layers of self deception within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want other to change, when I had not been willing to change for real myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to continue participating in my mind as thoughts, feelings, justifications, fears, and beliefs that I have changed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty that I have not actually stopped participating in my mind and within energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to utilize the point of guilt to manipulate myself further with thoughts and feelings of wanting to give up the point of changing for real, which is just another way to deceive myself into continuing participating in the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that others do not want to change, and within this, I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that this thought is just a way to continue participating in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am special, when in fact I am exactly the same as everyone else, equal and one to what I accept and allow within myself and without.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the point that others may not want to change as a way to not live that which I have realized for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the fear of rejection within myself as a projection of what might happen when I speak up with others about what is really happening within ourselves and within this world and what the real solution is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that changing myself is a process because I had accepted and allowed many layers of memories throughout my life and lifetimes which are now manifested in the physical world, and thus as mentioned in the previous post, I realize that changing myself is a moment to moment, breath by breath, application of self honesty in each moment as to stopping participation in thoughts, feelings, and emotions, and acting as what is best for all in that moment based on what I am practically able to do in that moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to realize that Life is not what I might do in the future, it is what I do in this moment, in this breath, as that is the only point that is guaranteed, is this current moment, and thus it is THE POINT within which I establish myself as self-trust within self-honesty.

I commit myself to breathe, and within my breath, to check whether I am participating in my mind or whether I am acting within self honesty as what is best, and to when I see that I am participating in my mind, as I realize that I have automated this point to a great extent, that I immediately stop, focus on my breath, apply self-forgiveness to release myself from that participation in the mind and to dismantle whatever construct I have created that is causing me to automatically participate in the mind.

I commit myself to stand, even while I am walking this process, to share with others, to present solutions to what we have created as consequences on earth, as well as the tools through which I am supporting myself to take more and more responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed within myself as who I am and to change that, and to thus support others to do the same.

The Long Way is the Short Way

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the only way to create something that is real is breath by breath, proven over time to stand the test of time to produce consistent, predictable results that are best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/desire results to come all at once, or quickly, as this is an indicator that I had still been participating in energy within my mind as the desire for an experience for the sake of experience itself, and not the actual result that would be best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become more focused on the end result of a process than the process itself, as the end result is the RESULT of the process, and thus the initial focus of seeing whether that end result is best is necessary, and then focusing on what is required to be walked in order to receive the result (as the planning phase) but then the shift of focus must be daily, breath by breath on that which will accumulate and produce the end result.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the guide on this journey is self honesty, within looking at in each breath, each moment, am I participating in my mind, just looking for experience as energy, or am I stopping, slowing down, breathing, bringing energy back to self, and forgiving myself, and thus the starting point in each breath is the ending point.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to not live the word patience as a living word as what is best, but to rather EXPERIENCE the word patience within the mind as an energetic experience wherein patience becomes the experience of delay, the tolerating of delay, the tolerating of suffering, the tolerating of unnecessary pain and conflict, whereas within the living of the word as what is best for all is the recognition that one can only do what one can do in a breath in a moment, and thus the point of patience is to recognize and be self honest within whether one is accumulating in that moment what is best or what is not best, and thus patience is a self honest gratitude within self that one is doing what is best and thus the result, in time, is relatively certain within what one is able to take self-responsibility for, and thus the point of experiencing conflict within the word patience is an indication that one is not doing what is best in a moment, because that is all that one can do, and thus if there are consequences to be walked through, then in those moments, that is what is best, and patience in that context is recognizing that one is facing consequence and taking self responsibility to learn from that consequence what one had accepted and allowed that produced the consequence so that one may change within self to no longer produce such a consequence.

I commit myself to live the word patience as a self honest recognition in the moment that I am doing what is best and to thus within that experience hold the word gratitude as being grateful that I am doing what is best, and that by holding to that point, I know that my effect on the world is best, and within the moments where I feel conflict or impatience in the context of wanting things to happen faster, to see/realize in those moments that I am participating in desire as energy, to stop, to look at what consequences I am walking through, to stop, investigate, and change to no longer produce these consequences and within that to express patience as gratitude that I am giving myself the opportunity in that moment to change and thus give to myself as I would want to receive to thus be able to give to others what is best so that I may receive what is best, and to within this know that breath by breath as I accumulate the action of doing what is best, the result of what is best will accumulate in the world more and more, and to thus support others within the point of patience to walk what is necessary in this world as what is best as facing consequences and taking responsibility and changing within oneself and to let go of the energy/desire game of quick results that do not last, because in reality, the long way is the short way, because what appears to be short - as satisfying that desire for a feeling or experience of result but not producing a result that is best for all in fact - cannot last and only creates more consequences to walk through thus delaying the accumulation of what is best as the REAL LASTING result.

Only a Machine Runs on Polarity

Watch The Battery Scene from the movie, The Matrix for context. 

It is not possible to have POSITIVE without NEGATIVE. That is basic physics.

Why are you OK with people suffering so that you can experience a temporary positive energy when SO MUCH MORE is possible if we ended ALL CONFLICT as both Positive AND Negative?

Life is not a polarity. Only a MACHINE runs on the polarity of Positive and Negative.

Are you NOTHING MORE THAN a Machine?

Are you nothing more than an Organic Robot?

Have you been programmed by the System to just generate Energy?

Are thoughts and feelings nothing more than virtual chains?

Will we wake up and dismantle our chains ONE by ONE until Life is set free from the burden of Thought and Feeling to express what is Best for All FREELY in each moment with no PROGRAM necessary?

Who will stand up? 

People like to say that energy is eternal and is never created or destroyed and only changes forms.

But if you are self-honest, you'll admit that IN REALITY, this is only true of PHYSICAL MATTER.

And that all energy is just placing parts of matter in conflict with itself. And so the only way for energy to exist is for conflict to exist. And so when you justify the existence of energy for energy's sake, you are actually justifying the existence of conflict.

And yet you will complain about the conflict because it always takes you from your positive to a negative. And you NEVER question this, because you don't CARE.

In reality, the physical is what makes energy possible, and thus it is the physical that is REAL and while you focus on energy, you miss what is REALLY HERE as the physical world.

And in this IGNORANCE of what is REAL, you continue to IGNORE what is really going on as the conflict and suffering that exists in order for the few to experience a temporary positive.

Very sad. May you wake up before it is too late. Because judgment day is the day you die, where the physical body no longer supports the illusion of thought and energy and returns to be reformed by the physical, while YOU which was thought only... disappear.