Children Can Learn More Than We Realize

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize how quickly children can learn and walk through a fear if the parent is patient and has removed their own fears and reactions first.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I can support a child to learn how to swim for example without having to just 'throw them in' but support them to, step by step, learn to get comfortable with the water, learn how to take small jumps off the steps of a pool and eventually move through stages until they are comfortable putting their head underwater and swimming short distances without floats.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the extent to which we, as parents, project fears onto our children, like 'what if they never learn' or 'what if they never overcome their fear' to which we then react and try to control thnce and dysfunction, especially later in life, which is not obvious at first but then is very difficult to correct at that point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize as a parent the degree to which we want to push our children to move faster than they are practically able, without realizing the process that one has to go to in order to physically integrate new information or skills, because we don't remember what is was like when we were in our natural learning ability phase, and in the education system, a lot of force is used, and thus we really only remember how to use force and coercion in order to get someone to learn something, but this always creates dysfunction and fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the benefit of building my child's vocabulary from a young age - using TechnoTutor to support them to increase their processing speed and capacity - and always communicating with them as an equal - not dumbing things down, because this creates a dumbed down child and adult - that a child can understand MUCH MORE than most realize, but because parents have not yet realized the simplicity of walking this process for themselves and supporting themselves to remove reactions and force from their parenting of their children and developing their child's vocabulary specifically and effectively, it seems like children cannot comprehend much until they are 4 or 5, but we are showing that they can understand and cooperate and learn much more at a much younger age than is currently understood.

I commit myself to continue walking my process to be the best example and support for my child.

I commit myself to continue walking my process to be the best example and support for other parents.

I commit myself to continue walking my process for myself.

I commit myself to show that a child can be supported from the very beginning to be what most would call 'superior' but that it is actually normal, it is just that our system has been diminishing children's natural capacity and ability to learn but not structuring it properly.

Patterns of Frustration

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be disappointed, to feel disappointment, to feel sadness, and frustration when my child goes into an emotional pattern.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my child for going into an emotional pattern of, for example, frustration, to which I then react with frustration, showing that it is I who have taught the child the pattern in the first place, and thus I am the one who is responsible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for being frustrated that I have taught my child frustration.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize what frustration really is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that physical frustration is the impeding of progress or completion of something, and thus in itself, is not an emotion, and yet I have accepted and allowed myself to react emotionally when something I am doing is impeded from moving forward or when I am stopped from continuing something or completing something I am focused on.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel despondent about my child getting emotionally frustrated when they are impeded within something, not realizing that I am thus placing the responsibility to support them outside of myself, hence the despondence, and thus if I can understand my own frustration experience, then I can support my child to understand theirs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is normal to FEEL frustrated when something doesn't go the way that I want it to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I feel frustrated when I don't understand why something is impeding me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I feel frustrated when I have created an internal energy towards something, and thus the feeling of being frustrated is really the experience of energy within myself towards something being impeded, and thus it is really the experience of either not having the energy continue within me or not getting the energy experience that I was expecting that is causing the FEELING of frustration.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a feeling of depression and/or anger in moments where I do not get something that I was expecting, and thus it is the expectation that is the issue, from the perspective of building up an energetic experience towards the point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that creating energetic expectations and participating in energy puts me at a disadvantage in a physical reality where I do not control all the variables, and never will, because I am in a reality of collective agreement, not one where I control everything, and thus I must come to terms with this, and realize that the key for me is to stop participating in energy within myself in my mind and rather be here physically looking at what is really going on and seeing what can be worked within in that context.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to control how my child plays with toys which is really just me wanting to create an energetic experience within myself and to transfer that to my child and within that create another layer of energy within reflecting on what I have created as a copy of me in my child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the extend to which I am projecting my experience onto my child and creating conflict within that between my child and me.

I commit myself to develop the awareness that my child is a reflection of me and to in those moments where I feel frustrated towards my child to realize, to see, that the child is me, and to stop and to breathe, and to let go of the energy - to support me in that moment, firstly, and thus to prepare myself to be able to support my child as well to let go in those moments - realizing that I cannot demand that my child do something I am not willing to do.

Memory Transfer

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the extent to which parents impose their memories onto their children.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the extent and degree to which parents want their children to follow in their footsteps, even though parents are not happy with their lives deep down.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to transfer my memories to my child and essentially clone myself into and as another being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that copying myself is giving life and creating.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to transfer fear to my child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the extent to which I am spiteful towards my child despite how I might think of myself as loving, because I am spiteful in unconscious and automatic ways, just as I am spiteful towards myself and all others and life in the same way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I am around my child, they are picking up everything I say and do and even think and feel automatically.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is ok to feel depressed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I am depressed I am in fact abusing my child as well as myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I attempt to impose memories on my child, I am in fact abusing their innocence and degrading their ability to learn and live in new, profound ways, I am dooming them to simply repeat the past - this is not life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I don't have to impose my memories onto my child, but that if I do not direct myself and forgive myself effectively, then this will happen automatically anyway, and thus it is not acceptable to engage in wishful thinking, but rather the point is to direct myself within my process of self-forgiveness and self-correction.

I commit myself to support myself to stop in those moments when I go into depression, to realize that this is in fact a form of terrorism, and not acceptable and that it is not a solution - and thus to stop, to breathe, to refocus on being here and walking my process - to stand up in that moment and not accept less than who I really am and could be.

I commit myself to continue the process of forgiving all weakness that hold me back from being here and standing as life and that would otherwise impose the past onto reality and onto my children automatically.

Eschewing Emotional Manipulation of Children

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize as a parent that when I tell my child that I will leave them if they do not come with me that this will create a great consequence for the child in terms of imprinting them with fear which will diminish their ability to live effectively.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that as a parent, when I tell my child that they have to come with me or I will leave them, or I walk away and say 'Bye, I'm leaving now' instead of clearly supporting them to understand that it is time to leave and that we will all be going and supporting them to make the decision to come with me without fear, that if I do that, I am only supporting the child to exist in fear, and I am deliberately using the fear of loss to emotionally manipulate them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that, as a parent, I can prevent a situation where my child will not come with me by communicating with them effectively from the beginning and supporting them to develop an effective vocabulary and ability to communicate, and that I must support myself with this as well, and by doing that I can create an agreement with my child of support where communication is used instead of force and emotional manipulation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I use force or emotional manipulation with my child, this in no way supports them to be able to make effective decisions, it in fact dumbs them down, because if I do not support them to understand reality and understand consequences through common sense and logic and instead imprint them with fear then they will live their life in fear and always trying to avoid the experience of negative emotion, which is not an intelligent way to live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, as a parent, the degree and extent of influence that I have, and that every word, every encounter, every experience counts and builds my child's understanding of the world and their understanding of themselves and directly affects their self-esteem.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the degree to which I affect my child's self-esteem.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to believe that my child is just learning everything on their own, so that I can feel like my child is special and therefore that I am special, when in fact I am the primary (along with my spouse) influence on my child and determine virtually everything about who they will become and how they will live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I take emotional manipulation and force off of the table, then I will have to become MORE CREATIVE and support myself to become BETTER in order to be able to communicate with my child from the beginning effectively.

I commit myself to show that the best way to parent, is to take force and emotional manipulation off the table as an option, and rather 'force' myself to develop effective communication, clear, direct, and explain as much as possible, and that through this, my child will develop a keen ability to understand and communicate and reason.

More Parenting Considerations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that patience is required when teaching and supporting a child to learn something.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that forcing a child to do something creates a resistance within the child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that schooling is a form of forcing a child to pay attention to sets of information that someone at some level wants the child to memorize and yet within this, most children will develop a resistance to learning and specifically reading.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the extent to which we as parents and society as a whole force things onto children.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to the point of the extent of things forced onto children and believe that it is best to let the child completely decide what they will learn and do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the child is not really choosing what they want to do, they are assessing what fits into the foundation that has already been laid by their parents and environment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that children just learn what they want to learn, when in fact children want things based on how they have been influenced based on what has been presented to them in their environment and what has been said and given as examples.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value on the idea of children having 'freedom' to do what they want, not realizing that I would be setting them up for failure in a system that requires us to work to survive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can simply let a child do what they want and things will work out just fine, as if there is some imaginary force in the world that will make sure they are protected from the influence of others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that no matter how I structure the environment for my child, they will be influenced in some way, because the world that we live in is designed to impulse people fear for their survival and thus corporations are more and more vying for the opportunity to influence as many people as possible, and thus unless the money system change and we do not have to compete for survival, then my attempts to create a perfect environment for my child will always fail and if I do not support them with an effective vocabulary and education to stand up in this world, then they will be left to fend for themselves in a system that is growing more and more competitive everyday, and yet within that, I can support my child to develop an effective understanding of the world and give them the understanding of the context that the world is not currently designed in a way that is best for all, however I must not be naive that the system is not going to attempt to influence my child, and thus I must do everything I can to support them to develop an effective vocabulary and information processing ability so that they can see through attempts to influence and manipulate them while also being able to survive and exist in the current system and do what is necessary to stand up and change it.

I commit myself to support my children to develop an effective vocabulary and information processing ability and to understand the world around them - to understand the system - and to see what must be done to change it so that future generations can be supported to start off with less survival pressure, which would allow more and more to learn what it means to live for real without having to compete and destroy life just to survive.

So Called Experts

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that experience gives someone authority.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that is created through one's starting point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that a teacher, for example, that has 30 years of experience teaching, would justify that they know more about education than someone who is not a teacher, and yet they may have never been able to support a child to reach their full potential, and this shows that experience itself is not the basis of authority.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that authority comes from establishing oneself as effective within what is best for all, which is only possible within common sense and self honesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want others to validate my authority within parenting and education.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that authorities and experts in the system really only want the system to continue because it provides them with the position of being an expert and an authority.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the only education that truly matters is the education of understanding the relationship between the mind and the physical and how to direct oneself in this physical reality within oneness and equality with the physical as Life, because any other education that does not do this will create consequences that are not best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel any fear whatsoever in the face of someone who claims experience as authority.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek validation instead of standing clearly within the solution to education.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold back in presenting the real solution to education, whether in a group, or with individuals.

I commit myself to show that the system's so called experts and authorities on education have no idea about how education actually works, because they don't understand how the mind works and how the child really learns even one single word.

I commit myself to show that the basis of the current educational paradigms are in accepting the child as already screwed up and do not know how to remediate the child's ability to access their natural learning ability and program in words effectively so that the child is unbiased and truly effective with processing information and making clear decisions based on common sense and self-honesty.

The Potty Mouth Child

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the points within my children are mirrors of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the points within myself that I do not like that are reflected in my children will be the points I do not like within them and the same with the points that I do like.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my children for doing things or saying things that I have done or said.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to control my children's behavior so that it doesn't reflect poorly on me when they are around other people, instead of considering what is the best way to support my child to be effective in this system while also understanding, appreciating, and honoring all Life as what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry when my child says words that other people and I judge to be 'naughty words'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define some words as 'dirty'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that saying some words makes me unclean, not realizing that it is the mind itself which only seeks the fulfillment of itself as energy that is the problem, and thus projecting the point of saying dirty words as what makes a person bad or good is completely missing the point and only serves to reinforce the system of morality which keeps the system of inequality in place.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the mind which backchats is the real shit talker, not the mouth that says a 'dirty word' - and thus it is the mind which requires cleansing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge some words as naughty which is really just words that one uses in private versus in public and shows the degree to which we have created separation in this world where even though words are within us we must suppress them in certain situations out of fear of judgment or consequence even though we know deep down that these are arbitrary rules in society which only serve to separate those who have 'self control' and were supported with a certain vocabulary integration when they were young from those who didn't have the same vocabulary integration and thus seemingly have less 'self control' when it comes to using certain words.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not responsible for the words that my child knows, blaming, TV, schools, media, other children and parents and all the influences that I am in fact allowing to influence my child as I am the one who directs my child and thus determines what influences them - while also considering that there is very little that I can control and direct at this point because of the nature of what I and everyone have accepted regarding how the system we live in operates and pervades all areas of our lives and thus even though I am ultimately responsible, it FEELS like I am not in control and everything is just happening and I have very little influence on my child.

I commit myself to show that the parent is the primary influence on the child's development, even before the child is conceived, in how the parent either directs themselves through self-forgiveness to question and remove those parts that would cause them to act in automated ways that would transfer to the child in conception and in the first 7 years through the child's Natural Learning Ability.

I commit myself to examine and forgive all the points where I react to my child's words and behavior and find out how it reflects points that I have accepted so that I may forgive and forgive my reactions to my child and thus be here with my child in support of who they really are and not just as a reaction to my own reflection.

Parenting Considerations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as a parent, to not see the simplicity that when I lie to my child, they will believe me initially, but will then later come to resent me and no longer trust me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question why we teach children about Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny and the Tooth Fairy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my child is innocent, and is looking to me for guidance as to understanding of how the world function.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my child is picking up on EVERYTHING that I am saying and doing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and feel like it is too much to take self responsibility for all the thoughts, feelings, and emotions that are within which are causing me to act and speak in automated ways which is influencing my child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that my child will end up just like me - uncertain about life, fearful, competitive, wanting to control others, and generally angry and unhappy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel despair as a parent, because I know how difficult it is to change within myself, and I fear that my child will have an even more difficult time standing up within themselves, because I know that I did not give my child the very best that is possible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my child just becoming another slave of the system, feeling lost and not caring about living for real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rather tell my child lies about the world than have to explain in detail what is really going on.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think it is cute when my child repeats something that I have said as an automated pattern, when in fact it only confirms that I have transferred a program to my child - and within this I have not even considered whether what I have transferred is best for my child.

I commit myself to walk the process of changing myself, to not give into despair, because despair is only an excuse and not a solution.

I commit myself to stand and change and be an example to my child and to others that it is possible to change.

I commit myself to study and understand how reality operates and how the mind functions and how thoughts form so that I no longer have to deceive myself or my child about how things operate in this world and I can then prepare them as effectively as possible to stand up within themselves and this world and support the creation of a system that is best for all.

Course Correction

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the depth to which I can get caught up in thinking about something to the point where I convince myself of a reality that may or may not exist in fact, but is not based on self-honest assessment, but based on a conviction created through repetition of thoughts and feelings until the reality that I imagine is so in fact at least in terms of my being convinced, but that does not mean it is actually so in fact in actual physical reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get caught up in my thoughts, feelings, and emotions, and not stop within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for getting caught up in my thoughts, however that does not excuse me from continuing to allow myself to do so, but I realize that judging myself is just another form of thinking and does not solve the problem.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make assumptions about others based on little bits of information intertwined with my own thinking process and subject to the points in my subconscious and unconscious mind that are still aligned within the starting point of self-interest and thus creating an entire scenario in my head from which I begin acting and speaking and in that state not being willing to consider that I am in a possession of thinking instead of being here, breathing, and letting go of the thoughts, feelings, and emotions that are coming up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place more value on 'changing the world' than 'changing myself' - not considering fully as really living the point, that changing myself IS changing the world - that does not mean that the outer world does not have to change, but if I am only changing the world externally, but I am still allowing thinking, feeling, and emotion to guide me, then I am not really changing internally in those moments, because I am only building up energy and giving more power to my mind, which would imply that I am not in fact changing, and thus how can the world be changing - because it is easy in that state to convince myself, through thinking, that the world is changing, however if it is something that is being imposed despite myself changing, then what am I participating in? Changing the world? or a character of someone who believes they are changing the world?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the feeling of despair that I have once again been caught up in my mind, though I realize that this is a process of making mistakes from time to time, falling down, and standing up, and thus I realize that the point is not to participate in feelings or thoughts or emotions of despair or giving up or feeling sad, but to breathe, and to let it pass, and to stand up, and to realign myself, firstly and primarily within, as why I am really here and who I really am beyond thinking, feeling, and emotion, as to standing up withing myself as Life, which even though I don't really, fully understand, I know deep down is really who I am and I know that it is possible to do so.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there is a place for having a group to support within openness and self-honesty that supports each one within where they are at, and is not about forcing another to move but supporting and sharing through example when necessary, and that this is in fact needed in the world, because in any other context, this would cause a person to lose in the system, and thus this type of openness is not possible in the context of the current system, and thus having this space for individuals to walk and share and not fear judgment of others or fear being forced into walking one path versus another is of utmost value and must be respected and honored as it is a unique expression in this world, and thus it is not the place to bring in competition, sales, marketing, business, manipulation, control - and though, in self honesty, these things are required in the business world, which is why you see it at all levels in the major corporations that have any level of influence in the world, it is not acceptable to bring it into a group dynamic based on openness, sharing of one's process, and the walking of one's individual process to align within the starting point of equality and oneness.

I commit myself to walking this process, to checking myself when I am thinking, feeling, participating in emotions, to really become aware within myself when there is energy moving, to not make an excuse about it and justify, which is really just fear of loss, and I realize that when I am fearing to lose something, that is the indicator that I am not really here, standing as who I really am, but rather just supporting the existence of a character through thinking, feeling, and emotions and when I go into a feeling of either self-defense or attack, that it is an indicator that I have moved beyond the fear of loss into trying to protect or force something.

I commit myself to show to myself that I can both simulaneously walk this process FOR MYSELF to change my inner while at the same time walking my process in the outer - standing as a point within business to show that business can be done from a different starting point, yet remaining self-honest about what is required to be effective as a business IN THIS SYSTEM, while moving towards the point of what is best for all.

I commit myself to show that in the business world, self-honesty is realizing that the system is competitive, and if I do not push my business forward, a business based on a product that is best for all, that will support the world to move towards a system that is best for all, then someone else will use the system to keep everything the same which means things will only get worse in this world.

I commit myself to show that while one can focus on self primarily, one still has to do something in this world as 'work' or 'labor' in order to survive and provide financing to projects that would be either best for all or moving things towards what is best for all, and thus one choice that a person could make is to work in a business, such as TechnoTutor, where one can both create financial freedom for themselves and support the creation of an education system that would support many people to increase their processing speed and walk this process of self change more effectively, though one must understand that walking in the business world requires self-honesty about how it actually works and what is required to be effective in business, thus it is not for everyone, nor is everyone needed to make it work, because currently only 1% (or less) really have any direct influence on the masses, and so within the context of TechnoTutor, or even just business that moves the world closer to what is best for all in terms of adjusting the system as economic system and education system, for example, only a new 1% is required.

I commit myself to show that one can both walk as an individual sharing one's process and supporting others in that context, and if one chooses, one can also walk within the system in terms of creating money and developing the skills required to have more influence in the system while also creating a network in that context to be able to eventually stand as a network in the system (which is how the current 1% function, just that their network's implicit purpose is to not change the system so that the 1% remain the 1% instead of adjusting the system to create the conditions where all are supported to have what they need and alleviate all fear of survival, instead of using it to control to maintain a position of superiority in the system).

The "I am Special" Character

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek for a feeling of being special.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a character around feeling/being special.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, within the special person character, seek out ways in which to prove and validate to myself that I am special.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that no one goes through the challenges that I do, and that within this, my challenges make me special, not realizing that everyone goes through massive challenges and hardships and faces points where they feel that they are lost or without purpose, even if it is at a deep level and they cover it up through coping mechanisms, as I have done from time to time myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the desire to be special is coming from the fear of not existing, not being real, and exists on the in the context of separation, and thus the only way for myself to have a feeling of being special is to create conflict with others in order to have something to be special within/as.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek validation of being special from others and wanting to create conflict in order to prove my specialness.

I forgive myself that I have, within the special person character, created an idea of myself as always being persecuted or attacked or misunderstood, when behind the character is really just fear of not being good enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not being good enough.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that 'being good enough' or not is within the context of polarity and separation and stems from the fear of loss, the fear of facing death and being judged and thus not being able to exist any longer or not deserving to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not deserving to exist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never question what is means to deserve to exist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if others agree that I deserve to exist, then I do, when in reality it is who I am that matters.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that who I am is undeserving of life and existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I should have a right to exist regardless of who I am or what I do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I cannot exist without harming myself or another and that who I am is harm.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty about the extent to which I have allowed who I am and what I do to be automated within the context of a system of separation that always produces conflict at some level.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I was born into a system of conflict and that I am responsible, at the very least, for continuing to accept and allow this system to continue as is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel uncertain about how to exist in a system that is based on survival and conflict while also changing myself to live and express as what is always best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want another to validate who I am and what I do so that I will be certain that who I am and what I do is best, believing that self honesty is not possible for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not able to be honest with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to not be honest with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge self honesty and instead believe that honesty is based on a feeling.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for doing what is self honestly best within my current circumstances - to judge myself for those parts of myself that are still undirected, and to believe that it is not possible to move forward within doing what is best, even while within the context of still having many parts/aspects within myself that are automated in ways that are not best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others as not being able to influence or affect reality or the system, as a way to not focus on myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to THINK about others and compare myself to them, in order to get a feeling as validation that what I am doing is best, which is really just a way to lie to myself in order to continue participating in feelings and thoughts and emotions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that judging others as less than or better than is critical to the existence of the special person character that I have created within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the special person character doesn't care whether conflict is generated that harms, because as long as the character receives energy, then the character can stay alive, and it will use conflict generated and manipulate it to provide 'evidence' of the specialness - the character is not interested in what is best for all, only continuing to exist.

I commit myself to continue to investigate and uncover the beliefs, thoughts, feelings, emotions, and character patterns that I have automated within me to create conflict unnecessarily from the starting point of wanting to feel/be/be recognized as special.

I commit myself to remove this character that seeks to be special and stop the patterns within myself that are creating conflict in order to generate energy for the character to exist.

Waiting Until You Are Ready

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in fear of making mistakes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear taking on more responsibility because I might make a mistake and cause damage to myself or others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I am in a position of responsibility for others that I will just fuck it up.


I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I do nothing, then the systems in this world are already going to continue fucking up the lives of humans, children especially, animals, plants, the environment, etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the attempt to take on more responsibility is in itself an opportunity to face the limitations, beliefs, thoughts, character patterns, excuses, fears, etc that are within me which have been keeping me in a pre-programmed life path.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to stay in my pre-programmed life path.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must prove myself to others before I can stand up and speak up about how this world could in fact change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that within standing up and speaking up, this act is totally outside of the pre-programming that I was 'given' from a young age, and that in doing so I will face a lot of reactions from others as well as have to walk through the fears that exist within me and thus it is a process in itself that will support me to change within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I may not have another chance to be here on earth and thus, it is not about being afraid of not having another change, but rather not allowing myself the excuse that if I don't give my full effort that it doesn't really matter anyway.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that given the option of just keeping to myself or standing up and taking on more responsibility, this is the statement of who I am beyond just the automatic decision process of consciousness - and yes, I realize that even within this point there are still points I have to walk through as self interest and fear and thoughts, feelings, emotions, etc, however I will not allow that as an excuse to push myself to be self-honest, forgive myself and change so that I am able to stand up and support with the creation of a world that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am not ready to stand up, when all that is required is the decision to do so - that doesn't mean I will be ready the moment I decide, however it means that I am clear about what I am here to do, and thus I must direct myself within expanding within my existence, learn how to communicate more effectively, have more influence over the system, learn how to direct others and I realize that this will be a process and yet it is the way to quantify my process of inner change- otherwise what measurement do I have other than am I able to influence others to walk this process and support what is best for all.

I commit myself to continue to expand beyond what I believe I am able to do - to push myself to walk through resistance - to walk through all doubt - to stand up - to be an example to others that it is possible to change and be in a system of limitation and yet still do what is best within that context and to support the group to continue to move together and support as many people as possible to begin the process of self-change and to support those who are willing and able to stand up in the system and begin the process of making the adjustments required so that more and more are supported through systems to re-establish themselves as the directive principle rather than letting the mind run on autopilot which only supports the system to continue as is - realizing that even if the system 'change', that if people do not change then the system cannot last and yet also understanding that it is the system that has the most influence over the survival pressures that are placed on individuals and especially parents that makes it difficult to focus on changing oneself - and yet this is not an excuse, and I commit myself to show that those who are aware of the problem, as I am, have the greatest responsibility to stand up and in are the position to do so if they so choose to walk that point within themselves no matter what.

We Must Stand Up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that standing up in the system to make a change that is best for all is something that can happen overnight.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that individual efforts to change the system to be best for all are always doomed to fail because the system works based on collective agreement which is manipulated through group support as in for example elite circles of politics and business.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to stand up in the system based on ideas that I believe will work and that fit within my current pre-programming, not realizing that those efforts were doomed to fail from the beginning because my pre-programming was ineffective at having any influence in the system, because if it were I would have already been in a position to have an effect in the system, thus I now realize that in order to have an effect in the system, I must stand within a group whose starting point is to support each other within a clear purpose to stand up together and support each other to make the inner changes necessary to move beyond one's pre-programming that would have kept one on a track to never make any difference at all in the system..

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in order to change the system we must work through politics, and in order to work through politics we must create enough money in order to be able to influence through media and direct presentation of information, to be able to 'fight back' so to speak when media is used to slander or counter act what is presented that is best, and to have people in positions in law for example to be able know what is legal and what is not, and to assist with arguing cases before governing bodies that would be able to change laws and enforce existing ones.

I commit myself to show that the system can change, it will happen in stages, but it requires firstly those who see the starting point of a system that is best for all to stand together no matter what in order to learn what is required to be equal to the system and then take the steps necessary to in fact equalize oneself with the system.

I commit myself to show that learning how to sell is one of the key skills in being able to stand equal to the system and change the system, because it is the skill that the elite have which allows them to stand in the position they are in, in addition to their preprogramming, and thus if a principled group of individuals were to stand up and develop the skills required, they would be able to stand in the system and make the changes necessary - and that it doesn't matter how long this takes, because unless we do this, it will be impossible for anyone else to stand up and walk their individual process of self change because the system is only going to get worse in terms of the pressures that are placed on human beings' lives to only focus on survival and thus compete in more vicious ways.

I commit myself to show that the time to stand up is in this moment - not to wait - because automation is about to eliminate a lot of jobs and people are going to feel the stress and we must prepare ourselves now to support millions of people when the system begins to collapse.

Why the System Won't Change

For context: This Is Your Last Life - You Have Been Warned

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the systems that run this world cannot be changed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the systems in this world can be changed through one man one vote and that what is required is that people stand up and promote the points clearly without doubt or uncertainty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the reason why people will vote for a politician or buy a product, is that the politician/company expresses no doubt within what they are promoting and knows how to communicate in a way that resonates with the listener/audience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that one must be special in order to stand up within politics and get elected.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give up on changing the system in this world before I even got started.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to hear the message that the world system cannot change, as this supports my desire to not change within myself fundamentally and push myself beyond my perceived limits.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the fundamental premise that I cannot really change and thus it is then easy for me to accept, and in in fact necessary to accept from this starting point, that the system cannot change, thus I am absolved of real responsibility towards myself, life, this world, and all those within it that are suffering immensely from the inequality in the system of which I am benefiting due to my placement in the system, the country I live in, my education, etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect everyone else to stand up and change the system, when it is MY responsibility because I see that it is possible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place others as authority in order dictate back to me what I want to hear that supports me to stay in my comfort zone and pretend like I am a good person because "I want things in this world to change" but hey why should I stand up and do anything about it, even if I am not sure if I will succeed, because apparently the world can't change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear standing up in the system, because I would rather stay within what feels good - which is actually self-interest, and thus within that starting point, I AM THE REASON THE SYSTEM "CANT" CHANGE because I, someone who even sees the potential for a better world, have not been willing to let go of my self-interest, not realizing that the change I would have to make in my life would in fact put me in a BETTER position and I would experience the expansion and purpose that I and everyone else have been looking for, and thus because I am doing it from the starting point of what is best for all, I can go all the way within making my life better, without guilt, which I currently suppress because I know I could do more.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to talk about how fucked up the world is, all the problems, and yet at the same time accept that the world system can't change - so what is the point of talking about the problems in this world if they are all stemming from the fact that the money system is not valuing all life equally?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that just because I am not 'ready' to stand up in the world system, that this means the world cannot change and that I cannot direct myself to get to the point where I CAN stand up with others to change the rules of the system through consent of the public through voting, but this means we need a BIG GROUP as a NETWORK who works together with a common purpose and if no one agrees to this common purpose this would be THE REASON why the system cannot change, because there is NO GROUP agreeing to work with the common purpose of changing the system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I still have a way to go in my process, that this means I am not ready to work towards standing up in the system in some capacity.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that 'standing up in the system' is a process in itself - it is not something one just decides to do one day and then it happens - it is something one work towards within the starting point of making it happen.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if the system does not change, then it will be virtually impossible for most people to walk their process of self-change, because the system requires us to work to survive in some capacity, especially if we were not born into an elite position, even those of us with the basic comforts and necessities of life who are not 'super rich' are still totally consumed with where we are going to get our next paycheck and thus even though we are not literally in fear of perhaps not surviving through the day or week, for example, we are still consumed with focus on survival as having to shape our entire life around finding some kind of work in the system AS IT IS - and thus the idea that the system cannot change is only benefiting those at the very top who required the vast majority to focus on working as a matter of survival so that the few can basically live a life that is beyond what most can even imagine.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that changing the world system is just something from the past that is no longer valid, that it was a pipe dream, when I know that I have still a ways to go in terms of facing my fears and thus it is very easy for me to manipulate what I believe to make sense based on what are the fears within me and the resistance to change - and thus even if I try and fail to change the system - the process I would have to go to to even TRY would support me to quantify my process and make it real, because it is easy to base an idea of change based on how I feel, but if I do not have specific feedback, then how do I know I have changed - if the world system does not change then what have I done with the life I have been given?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that at the moment it may be the case that most people will be too afraid or in a position where for them to see themselves doing anything beyond what they are doing is to big of a leap in terms of imagination and thus there will initially only be a few who see the potential for the world to change, and even fewer who see the potential for themselves to change enough to be in a position to have an impact on the system - and thus I am not here to force anyone to change the system, but to look for and call on those who see the potential in themselves to stand up and work together with a common purpose.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that communication is the most effective tool that I have to stand up in the system and support the system to change, because communication implies that I do not use force, that I must suggest, influence through example, through words, and support another to see what I see, and thus support them to make the choice/decision freely through understanding.

I commit myself to show that one can stand up in this world and make a difference in the system, while also walking their internal process of change, that the primary thing one must do is develop their communication skills to the point where they can influence others to consider that a better world is possible.

I commit myself to show that the system will change as more and more people see that it is possible and are presented with a clear picture of how that change could be implemented and that the Equal Money System is a major step in that direction, because it will support more and more people over time to re-educate themselves and direct their beliefs that would prevent them from being able to function in a world that is best for all, or would prevent them from agreeing to such a world system being implemented - thus the Equal Money System is a tool through which we can alleviate the survival pressures that are keeping so many in a point where they cannot eve direct their own minds, because they believe survival is more important - that is due to us all accepting a system that requires us to compete for survival.

I commit myself to show that - yes the Equal Money System implementation 'seems' impossible - but it isn't - we can create a network of people who are re-educating children and families with proper vocabulary using TechnoTutor and through that place themselves in a position of having financial freedom - use those resources to support themselves and others in the network of those who are standing within the principle of what is best for all and within that suppport a generation or generations of children to develop effective common sense reasoning instead of just being brainwashed and dumbed down by the current education system and entertainment and consumer marketing, while also giving parents the opportunity to make money through education and support themselves and others who are going to be massively affected by the coming crises of Automation unemployment and the looming Retirement crisis and within this TechnoTutor is the tool to reformat the natural learning ability and Desteni is the ultimate life curriculum to support a person to understand themselves and thus place themselves, if they so choose, in a position in life that is greater than what they were pre-programmed to do, such as just work a job to survive until they die- they can now expand beyond that, have a business, residual income and thus more freedom to re-educate themselves further and to support with standing up in the system to make real changes that would affect those who are in no position currently to improve their life in a substantial way.

I commit myself to show that the reason why many struggle within their process is because of 2 main points: allowing themselves to continue using coping mechanisms to suppress their emotions and thus not walk through fear and resistance (such as drugs, alcohol, porn, etc) and not using TechnoTutor, which was created to support people to increase their processing speed - and the consequence of not using TechnoTutor is that one is stuck with how they were programmed to process information by their ineffective parents and educators, and thus this is why it is so difficult to change - because many still walking their process in the mind only, not changing physically the programming inside, and thus when it comes to a moment where one attempts to act in a new way, it is impossible because the mind is not going to support you do go beyond what is physically programmed into you, you must use both sets of tools TOGETHER - writing, self-forgiveness and self-correction, along with rebuilding your vocabulary and processing speed/ability through TechnoTutor, as was laid out by the ONE who created both sets of tools.

I commit myself to show that the only reason someone would tell you that the world cannot change is that they don't see it is possible and would rather it not change because they don't want to do what is necessary to really change in fact and become someone who stands in the system or they are someone who is benefiting from YOU not standing - we are called upon by LIFE to be equals - we are in fact equal to what we accept and allow - and thus if someone says the system cannot change and you accept that - then what are YOU equal to? and thus what will the world be equal to? - while clearly we cannot only focus on changing the world 'out there' - we must not allow any excuse that I cannot change the world UNTIL I HAVE COMPLETELY CHANGED - because in so doing, miss the opportunity of giving ourselves a purpose that would support us to quantify our change - because if our change only occurs in the context of leaving the system as is, then how can we claim to have changed? Yes we can become the example of change, but if that example is just something we perceive in our mind and has no reflection in reality as changing the systems that exist and thus support future generations to be supported to not have to change in the first place, then are we really changing or just hiding within excuses to not change FOR REAL beyond what we believe is possible and thus are we not participating in a mental projection of whether the world can change based on our mental projection of what we believe is possible for ourselves to change within and as ourselves and how will we know unless we challenge all beliefs within ourselves?

I commit myself to stand clearly in the face of anyone and everyone who believes that the system cannot change - that we cannot change - that we are just here to hope and wish and believe that maybe someday something might happen - which is the ultimate point of having abdicated self-responsibility and to call upon those who are willing to stand up within themselves and PUSH themselves to go beyond ALL LIMITATION and ALL BELIEF and ALL HOPE and BE THE SOLUTION.

Why Drugs Are Not The Answer

This post is written in the context of having already walked the process of stopping all drugs and alcohol for many years now and also having walked through the desire to take drugs or drink alcohol and is written as a point of support for those who may be walking through this point at the moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that drugs exist for humans to not face the reality of their existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that taking drugs or drinking alcohol is an answer to my problems.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge drugs as evil.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge drugs as good.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like I am getting away with something when using drugs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am escaping something when I use drugs or alcohol.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the starting point of using drugs or alcohol is always to feel better and thus within that I am accepting and allowing myself to have the starting point of self-interest as looking for a positive feeling, and thus this is not a solution to any real problem in my life or on earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that within using drugs, especially cannabis or hallucinogens, I give the mind full authority to fantasize about what I could do in reality, and within that I imagine all kinds of amazing things that I could do or create or experience, but the mind is not tethered to reality in most cases and thus when the drug wears off and the reality of having to actually do something which won't produce an immediate result in the physical, because results accumulate over time through repetition, then I feel bad and the desire to not feel bad and experience that immediate point of creation and result drives me to want to do drugs again, and thus within this I am not really here in reality at all, just playing a game in my mind, while my life and the world continues to go to shit, and so I can either continue trying to avoid reality or I can face it head on.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that by not facing my reality and stopping participation in the mind, I will continue to allow myself to be directed by the mind and thus reality will accumulate consequences as such, and the longer I delay facing these consequences and taking responsibility in the physical, the harder it becomes to face, because I know it will take MORE time to undo what can be undone and create solutions for that which can't - and all of this is going on in the back of my mind, I know what I am doing, but I don't want to stop.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I don't want to stop using drugs and/or alcohol when in reality it is MY MIND that wants me to continue in patterns of abuse of myself and the physical because that is what it has been programmed to do, and thus it is now my responsibility to stand up within my body and within my mind and say "NO MORE. I DIRECT MYSELF. I AM NOT A SLAVE TO MY MIND. I DO NOT NEED TO FEEL GOOD IN ORDER TO DO WHAT IS BEST FOR MYSELF AND FOR ALL."

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I participate in the mind, it will always take me to a point where I am not going to change the system, but expect it to happen on its own - and my mind will give me all kinds of reasons as to how things will change regardless of what I do, and the more I participate the more convincing the mind will be - but this is all just a program designed to keep me from doing anything that really matters.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that people hide in all kinds of things, drugs, alcohol, sex obsession, sports, food, video games, etc - it is not about drugs per se, but the desire to escape and chase a feeling rather than being here working with reality directly and creating a world that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the excuse that people escape in all kinds of ways thus doing drugs isnt any different as a way to justify continuing to use drugs instead realizing the common sense that one should stop participating in ALL FORMS of escapism.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am limiting myself within seeing my real potential as long as I continue to look for a positive feeling - because I will not be able to be self-honest about what limitations I actually have, because I will see even the potential to experience discomfort (which is in many cases necessary to transcend a point or learn a new skill) as a reason not to do something, because I have placed value on feeling good and thus I will only really consider things that make me feel good (which is only according to my pre-programming as how I have defined things symbolically to produce a positive energy response in my body) as options for me to move towards or participate within, which if we only consider such things as points for us to move within, we will never create a world that is best for all, because that will require us to face many difficult, emotionally challenging, uncomfortable situations, resistance, etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that what I have been searching for in the experience of drugs and alcohol is for something more, something that is not where I am, who I am, what I am - and that drugs and alcohol can never actually get me this - because I have defined this more as just a feeling, and feelings are based on energy, and energy is a system of polarity and thus that positive that I am searching for is only in the context of the negative that I am experiencing as my life and this world, and thus the real answer is not within making myself feel better, but within standing up within myself and stopping the mind from being in the driver seat of me and standing up in this world in whatever capacity practically possible to be an example to others that we no longer have to accept the mind as the dictator of how we experience ourselves and how the system that runs resource distribution functions - a system that creates all the negative experiences and survival pressures that we attempt to escape from through drugs and alcohol (and other things) - and thus the REAL SOLUTION is to stand up and change this system and the REAL EXPERIENCE of being alive that I am searching for is actually ME STANDING UP AS LIFE not accepting anything less than who I REALLY AM, because it is this acceptance, deep down, that has created all the conditions, over time, that I and everyone else have been trying to escape from - instead of taking direct responsibility for changing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to challenge the point of others doing drugs as a backdoor for me to be able to do them as well, and the same goes with any point of self-dishonesty that I will not want to challenge it when I see it in another only because I don't want to challenge it within myself.


I commit myself to show that one can move through life without the need for drugs or alcohol to mask the pain of being in this system, as the only pain drugs and alcohol are masking is energetic pain from the mind as emotions, feelings, and thoughts - while I realize that some people may require drugs as a form of physical support for the body due to physical conditions, what we are looking at here is specifically the desire to escape from facing one's mind and reality through the use of drugs to make one feel better in the mind.

I commit myself to show that even if one has experienced a lot of trauma in childhood and challenges as an adult, that one can transcend the belief and desire to use drugs to make oneself feel better.

I commit myself to show that relying on drugs to make oneself feel better will only support the mind to take more directive control over what a person does and make common sense and walking through resistance and stepping into one's full potential impossible.

Why Do We Get Frustrated With Children?

For context see this video: 2 1/2 year old helping unload the dishwasher

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that a child can process information at a far superior level to what most people believe is possible, and from a young age.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the reason I become frustrated when my child asks me to explain something is because I know they lack the vocabulary to understand and in many cases I do as well.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I could develop a clear, functional, stable relationship of trust with my child if I were to support them to develop an effective vocabulary early on and explain things to them in as much detail as possible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rather believe that I can parent any way I want and it really doesn't matter anyway because my child is going to turn out less than their best anyway, so why does it matter?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not push myself to be the very best possible parent and not accept or allow any limitations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I can redevelop my own vocabulary effectively so that I could communicate with my children, my spouse, and myself more effectively and that it can be a simple process though it will take time and discipline and effort.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that children are just what they are, that I am here to just not get in the way, when in reality I am the major influence in who they become along with my spouse and anyone else in the environment often when the child is in the first 7 years of their life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place my self interest above what is best for my child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my self interest is not really best for me, it is in fact just a form of fear that my mind uses to control me to keep generating energy for the existence of characters so that I never live for real and I pass this fear on to my children.

I commit myself to discipline myself everyday to build and re-establish my vocabulary to be aligned with what is best for all and to support my child to develop an effective vocabulary and understanding of how to live in a way that is best for all.

I commit myself to show parents that there is a best way to support their children within education and that one does not have to be an 'expert' as the experts have shown through time to not know what they are doing other than create children who are slaves to an unequal economic system, and to show parents that they can in fact change and become the best living example for their children.

Survival Considerations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself and others for having to work in this system to survive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that having to work to survive is a consequence of what we have accepted and allowed both collectively and individually over a great deal of time and now we cannot simply just stop, because we have to change ourselves on the inside as well as the outside and this takes time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel sorry for myself that I have had to work in this system in order to survive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I or another has to work to survive that this means that one is not standing up, but I realize that it is a process to stand up, and this shows even more the necessity to stand as a group and support each other, because the system has built in defense mechanisms by pitting us against each other in the competition for survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the money system which is a way to not take self-responsibility.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize how I and others hide within the excuse of having to survive, not realizing that we are all going to die at some point, so what is the point of only focusing on survival?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a world where people place hope in things like bitcoin, or alternatives to the current money system, as if it will save humanity, when it is not the form of money that is the issue, it is the reality that human beings do not actually care about each other equally and about all life equally, we do not see the value of life itself, we have accepted things as they are, and thus we look for solutions outside of changing our nature as it currently exists.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that, yes, the money system must change, but that this means that those of us who see the point must stand up and change it - if we place any hope on a solution 'just happening' then this is the certain way to ensure that nothing ever changes.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not speak up when those who should know better have accepted less than themselves and have placed hope in solutions that are not relevant to actually changing the system to be best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the solution of equal money is just the first step within creating the conditions necessary to support all human beings to re-educate themselves to be able to take self responsibility for their mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that TechnoTutor along with the Desteni I Process, Heaven's Journey to Life, and EQAFE are the tools and curriculum to re-educate humanity to be able to consider a world that is best for all.

I commit myself to supporting all those who clearly stand with the group to do what is best, to be able to stand up in the system, and to challenge all those who want to hold on to their own beliefs, opinions, and fears.

I commit myself to continue to use the tools mentioned above to change myself so that I can take on more responsibility in the system and be an example of change for others.

I commit myself to promote these tools and to support others to see their value and to see that this is the only way to change oneself and the world for real.

The Manipulation to Fulfill Desire Character

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to develop a pattern from a young age of wanting to manipulate others in order to create an experience that I have placed energy into as desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see others as an impediment or a stepping stone to fulfilling my desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that in a moment where, having built up a desire for something, and then seeing that it is not best to fulfill it, to believe that I am not able to stop and let it go, that I MUST do whatever it takes to fulfill that desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it is a character that speaks through my mind that is attempting to get energy for itself to continue existing as a construct and that if it doesn't then it experiences a form of dying, which I experience and believe to be me dying in a certain sense, but in reality, when I breathe, let it go, it eventually passes and I am still here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as a bad, manipulative person, when the reality is that I have just given authority to a program of attempting to manipulate my environment and others in order to fulfill a desire, and thus I am not bad or manipulative inherently, because I can forgive myself and stop.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not remember when/how I developed the character of manipulating others to fulfill a desire, and to within that believe that I can't possibly get to the root of it in order to stop it, when all that is required is self-honesty, self-forgiveness for what I CAN see at the moment and the willingness to breathe through and stop in moments when it comes up, and to further deconstruct the pattern through writing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the world and others can change and I can still hold onto my character of wanting to manipulate and fulfill desires.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am physical body, where words have become flesh, and thus the words and sounds and energy and patterns that I have accepted over time have come to direct me and thus I realize now that it will take time to stop these patterns and that it may get intense from time to time, but this is not a reason to stop or give up, because it may just be that it gets intense before I transcend a pattern.

I commit myself to breathe and not participate in the character of wanting to manipulate others in order to create an experience to fulfill a desire, to let go, in those moments, of the desire - to allow myself to find out and see who I am beyond the desire and the fulfillment of desire - to discover who I am without desire just being here looking at what is best.

I commit myself to further investigate and deconstruct this character of manipulation to fulfill a desire through writing, self forgiveness, and self commitment to change/stop the patterns.

Leading Edge Parenting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my children are beings just like me and that they are not less than me just because they are younger and in my care.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get frustrated in a moment when my child says or does something that I don't know how to respond to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see my child as a burden on my time and focus.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that no one knows how to properly raise a child and thus I must figure it out, but within that the guiding point will be self honesty and even though I may not figure it all out, and I may end up transferring ineffective points to my child, I will still do my best to support them even after the fact to be able to direct the points that were not effective within themselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must prepare my children to survive, instead of focusing on creating a financial situation where they will never have to be concerned about survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must focus on my own survival instead of what is best, when surviving is included in what is best, but there is more to life than just survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there are many people in this world who are completely lost and they require my support, even though they are not my children, but these people and their children will affect my child's life as well as my own, and thus I have a responsibility to all to support in every way possible to create a world that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am too small to make a difference, and yet I play super hero fantasies in my mind, and I only care about my own self-interest which shows that the belief that I am too small is just a lie, it covers up the desire to focus only on my self and 'my life'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must raise my child to compete with others, when if I stand up and create a system that is best for all, why would my child need to compete?