The Desire for Acceptance and the Fear of Rejection

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to seek acceptance of others within the form of me always getting a good, warm, welcoming response from another and that if I do not, then I believe that I am being ostracized or persecuted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to respond emotionally to situations where I perceive that my ideas or my actions are not accepted by others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value on the feedback within myself as to whether I feel good or bad or neutral towards the response that I perceive from another when I speak or act, not realizing that this would indicate that I am acting/speaking from within the mind as seeking an energetic experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look for ways in which people are either accepting or rejecting me, whether in what I say or do, and to actively scan my environment and look for clues and evidence as to how people are responding to me in order to fuel an energetic game within myself of positive/negative feeling response.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I can be here in reality taking full responsibility for what I say and do and thus create as an effect in reality and measure the physical effect in reality and assess whether it is best for all or not - and within this I realize that this is only really possible individually when I am clear within myself, meaning I have stopped my mind as a self-interest energy seeking machine and aligned as an equal and one map of reality through purifying and clarifying my vocabulary so that it is in alignment with how physical reality actually operates, and thus within this even though I realize that this is a process, this one of the reasons why it is important to walk within the group as a way to cross-reference what I say and do to check with others and support me within facing my reactions towards others so that I am able to face the reality of myself in a real time manner.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, in the past, feel hurt within me, when another does not accept something that I say or do as valid or appropriate or acceptable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate/want to manipulate others in order to give myself feedback as either positive (I am doing the right thing) or negative (which I interpret as I am being misunderstood or persecuted) and to thus not see that I am treating others as a character in my mind for the purpose of maintaining a character in my own mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place myself as either inferior or superior towards another, and give their opinion of what I say or do more weight than my own ability to be self-honest and forgive myself - and thus I realize that the key is for me to be completely and totally self-honest within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear that I do not know how to be self-honest, and that I do not yet fully trust myself within being self-honest, not realizing that self-honesty is in a moment, a decision to either embrace what I am seeing/feeling/thinking and look at it without judgment but really allow myself to see where it is coming from, where it is taking me, and to stop in the moment and forgive myself until I am Here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that this process is hard, difficult, and impossible - when in self-honesty I know that I have nothing to really lose by being honest with myself and forgiving myself - and that I am already in a state of being lost, and thus I am doing this for myself to support myself to really be here and live for real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am Life, and that everything here is Life, and yet I am not yet allowing myself to Live fully as Who I Am - and thus my process is to support me to live as who I really am - the reality is that I cannot become something that I am not in fact, which is why this reality as it is currently structured is not working, because we are all attempting to be something we are not, trying to get something more than we are, but also within that not seeing/recognizing/discovering who we really are, which could in fact be something really cool - because look at how much we have 'created' within NOT knowing/living who we really are - and even though my imagination is tainted by this world as it is, meaning it is perhaps impossible imagine clearly anything outside of how the world currently operates, I can somehow SEE that there is a potential for myself and everyone else, this entire world, to live and exist in a way that is transcending everything of how it is currently, and I realize that this is not something that can just happen magically, but that it requires every point within this world, this reality, all beings, to live and cooperate together.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for feeling the need to compete with and control others, when in the context of how the world is currently, of course that need and want would be existent within me, it is not because I am a 'bad' person, it is because I have accepted the patterns of those that went before me (which could even include me in a past life) without question as if this is all there is and ever could be and now I am waking up, standing up, realizing that there could be 'more' than what is here, from the perspective that what is here is not real, it is not what is best, and that it doesn't mean that I need to now seek something 'more' than what is here, because I have come to realize that what is 'here' is just what we have attempted to create with what is ACTUALLY here but without considering how to create within the context of what is best always.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not surviving, not existing, not being here anymore, when as I look around me, I see that there really isnt anything here of real value from the perspective of how things are structured and the patterns that we are participating within - it is not that the physical world itself is of no value, because that is all there is, as far as I know, but it is that we are not looking at the real equal value of all things and considering all things equally as how to structure and pattern things in a way that no one is harmed, and so things accumulate and move towards a state where it looks like virtually no one is left or will be left unharmed at some point - and so the point of not seeing any value in anything, is simply a statement/realization that we are not utilizing/being/living what is here within equal value for all and thus only creating illusions as relationships and experiences of no real value because they are all at some point/level going to create/are creating consequence that is not best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that this world is unfair, when this world is a product of who I am - and even though I can't see how/that I created everything here directly, it is still a product of the starting point of only considering myself within self-interest as how I FEEL and thus the world system requires each of us to continue accepting this as our own starting point of existing for the world system to continue to exist as is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize/appreciate the opportunity that I have been given to change myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize/appreciate the opportunity that I have been given through the labor of others to be a part of the/a group on earth that is dedicated/committed to changing this world to be best for all and thus supporting all those who take it upon themselves to change according to do so within the context of a group.

I commit myself to continue uncovering, facing, deconstructing, deleting, removing, changing all those patterns and acceptances and allowances within myself that are currently preventing me from always acting/speaking/living in the way that is best for all, and which I have accepted and allowed to speak/act/live for me automatically, through writing, self-forgiveness, and self correction.

I commit myself to use all reaction within myself that comes up as I interact within my world as a point of self-support, that is - bringing it back to myself, seeing where I am limiting myself or where a pattern is existent or an acceptance and/or allowance is existent within which is behind the reaction, as the reaction always indicates, at some level, the existence of a character that is wanting/seeking energy to exist and thus I take it upon myself to take responsibility for all those layers of characters that exist within me, to release those patterns and set myself as who I really am, as a physical body/physical being free from automated patterns that are not best for all.

I am One

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want and desire to be the One.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am the one that will lead all to salvation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am better and superior to others and that without my help as the savior, they cannot save themselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I am not the one, the savior, then I am nothing and unimportant, of no value to reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my value comes from being able to control and lead others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am Here to direct all that within me which is not standing for what is best for all and thus within that to support others to do the same.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to have my 'own path' that is unique to me and thus represents my value as a unique contribution to reality for which I get credit and a feeling of accomplishment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am walking my process of self-change for ME and thus the example and support I give to others is within the context that another is me in another life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that other beings physically exist, they are not just characters in my mind for me to play with within my own self-interest and thus, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to treat others as if they are simply just characters that exist for my benefit without their own beingness and process that they are walking as well.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to play the polarity game of wanting to control how others walk their process as well as completely abdicating responsibility to speak when I see another accepting less than who they are.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to force others into what I see as best, instead of firstly addressing the feeling of need and frustration within myself and then seeing how to support another for real as clear communication which can only happen when I am not using another as a character in my mind to reinforce an idea within myself as a savior or better than another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I don't know when I am acting within self-interest, when in fact if there is a question at all, then there is something to look at - that doesn't mean that everything of what I am doing or considering is not best, but it does indicate that there is a doubt or lack of clarity and thus the first point of self-responsibility would be to look at what the doubt is, when is always based on a feeling of some kind that leads back to a fear within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize/be aware of the potential in another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being open with another, because this may challenge the character of playing the savior or being better than, which I realize is the point to give up, to let go of, in order to be Here with others and walk this process together as a group so that we may have an actual impact in this world, for no other reason than that it is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the form that I am in is only temporary, and thus I am Here to establish myself within supporting the creation of a system that is best for all, and thus within that I can let go of any and all feelings/desires/wants/needs for this particular form I am in to be regarded as special or prominent or important, because it is the effect that I have in reality which is measurable, not the accolades that are attached to a name.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that, although I am not THE one, I am One, and one plus one, as each of us changes and aligns ourselves within what is best for all and supports the creation of a system that is best for all, that is how we have an accumulative effect in reality that goes beyond just my individual effect.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the simplicity and effectiveness of daily writing and self forgiveness and speaking up within reality and how this could support many others to do the same and within that support in the accumulation of the group effect in reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look for solutions outside of Desteni from the starting point of not wanting/resisting daily self-forgiveness, writing, and self-corrective action.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others who utilize support outside of the Desteni process, just as I have, and thus understand that we may, individually, utilize other points as self-support, but within this I also realize that everything always comes down to self stopping the patterns that are not best, and thus self-forgiveness and self-correction are always at the core of self-change, and thus all other methods may support one within being in the system and removing barriers to doing that which is necessary, giving oneself support within seeing the patterns within oneself more clearly, giving oneself space within oneself when one is overwhelmed within emotions and feelings and thoughts, and to thus allow others to test points of support as a point of investigate all things and keep what is best, and to also be willing to ask directly what points of support another finds in their investigations and be willing to push the point of self-honesty within myself as to whether I would use another method as actual self-support or as a point of resistance to walking the simplicity of the Desteni process, realizing that others as well as myself will fall from time to time back into the mind, and to thus be Here for myself and others to stand back up and continue walking, alone and together.

I commit myself to dismantle the systems of self-interest within myself, through walking this process each day, each moment, breath by breath, until it is done.

I commit myself to walk as one, within the group, and add to the group through supporting others that I find as I walk my process, and through that support the accumulation of the effects that are best for all.

The Power of the Group

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not have absolute certainty as to how to change the world in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize, that unless enough people stand up within themselves and challenge all self-interest and then stand in a position of change within the world system, specifically within politics and the money system, then the world will not change except through extreme suffering and disastrous conflict.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that prevention is the BEST cure, because when a consequence is already existent, it is much more difficult to change, because one's starting point as belief and memory is now already manifest and thus 'confirming' one's belief as true, even though, in self-honesty, it is not true, it is an illusion that has been made real through acceptance and allowance and thus when one change one's starting point and act from that, then one can manifest that which is best, though, again, the more one compounds consequence from not acting within what is best, the more one provides the evidence to oneself that one is looking for to confirm that what is not best is not possible, but this all goes back to one's starting point - is one willing to change oneself for real? or is one looking for an excuse to not change?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the purpose of walking the Desteni process is to change myself within and without.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that value of walking within a group, which is to have a place to be challenged and supported, to challenge and to support, to assist and support others within their process of changing themselves, and so assist and support others to do so as well, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear not challenge others as a way to form a collective agreement so that I will not fundamentally be challenged either.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be removed from a group - which is a point of being challenged to move and change within myself - to let to of that which is limiting me from standing up in the outer world as well as the inner world - and to not realize the value of being challenged in such a way that I HAVE to face all that I accept and allow that is preventing me from standing clearly within the principle of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the gift within being removed from a group where I was not standing equal to the principles for which the groups stand and that I had placed myself as inferior to others where I was not willing to take full self-responsibility and thus I am grateful for the process that I have walked through in order to see the point of standing equal to this process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place myself within myself as less than another, and to thus place expectations on another to do that which I am not willing/wanting/able in that moment to do, which because I then place myself in a point of waiting for another, I do not in fact face the reality of myself and face the consequence of who I am and what I accept and allow, and thus being removed from a group that stands for the principle of what is best for all, thus would support me to face what I have accepted and allowed as myself not being equal to that which I perceive in another who I see as walking the principles and thus is in fact a gift and an opportunity for me to realize my own potential to walk clearly and stand clearly and support myself and others within the principles that the group stand for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize my responsibility towards myself to stand for the principles that Desteni stand for - and to ACT within those principles at all times.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for accepting and allowing myself to not walk within full, absolute certainty that the Desteni process will/does support me to remove all that which is not standing as what is best, as the principles are sound and have been shown/proven to work and as I have been applying them within myself I see FOR MYSELF that they work, and thus the proof that another presented was only the starting point for me to see the value initially, however beyond that what is required is for ME to walk the point within ABSOLUTE CERTAINTY and within FULL PARTICIPATION with no excuse and no desire to stop, even though I realize that excuses will come up and desires will come up, though it is my responsibility alone to stop these within myself, as the only thing that will happen if I do not is that I will experience the consequence of not standing completely within the principles.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire the acceptance of others as evidence that I am doing what is best, when I am not able to see what is within another, and thus the value of either being accepted or not accepted by others is only within what reactions or thoughts for example come up within me that show me what I am still accepting and allowing within MYSELF.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my process, within believing that it should always produce a feeling of moving forward, of feeling good, of things getting 'better', and the world moving more and more into a state of peace, when in fact, I am still IN THE PROCESS of removing/changing/facing/questioning/directing all that within me which is not aligned with what is best for all, and thus I will face consequences and I will walk through discomfort and conflict and experiences that are not best, and all of this is necessary for me to face and thus what is critical is that I face this head on, without hiding, without avoiding, and thus the best way is to face it within walking my process of writing, speaking self-forgiveness, and testing myself through physical participation in my outer world to check where I must be more specific within myself and to uncover that which is still not aligned with what is best - to remove everything that is not best - while still being here in this physical world, learning to stand up and move within this world without getting lost, without losing sight of the principles of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to look to Bernard and/or Sunette and/or the Dimensions as my savior, to walk my process for me, to take responsibility for me, or simply as a way to entertain myself and give myself an excuse to not face the reality of me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to change others, when the only one I can change is myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the value and potential of each one in the group and really get to know each one as they come into my awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear speaking self-forgiveness aloud with others in the group.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take the group for granted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if each one on the group took full self-responsibility that we would be able to move more as a group and bring more into the group and thus move the group as a force of change in the system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to forget the purpose of the group.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the purpose of the group is for each of us to stand eventually within a position of responsibility in this world, where some may stand in more 'obvious' or 'prominent' positions such as lawyers, psychologists, educators, politicians, etc while others may stand within the point of example for others within their community, and thus I realize that there is no point to judge another's process, while I also realize that it is my responsibility to look for and support those who see the potential within themselves to stand in the system in order to change it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that revolution is not the answer.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that revolution means to return and thus changing the world is not about revolt, just as changing oneself is not about revolt, it is about STANDING UP for what is BEST and changing the systems so that they support what is best - as this has never been done before and would not represent a revolution but an awareness of the value of Life that is equal in all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in order to change the system we must be able to stand together as a group financially as well as in terms of communication because the system will resist change at all levels, just as one experience the great degree of resistance within oneself to change - IT IS DIFFICULT - and yet as a group we can make it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there is great POWER in a the group, as is shown by many groups currently, and thus it is best to empower ourselves within the context of Desteni AS A GROUP because that is the only way to change the system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect everyone to walk within the Desteni group, when in fact it is for those who see the value for themselves, and within this it does not mean that it is not best to walk in the Desteni group, just that one cannot force another to see what is best both for oneself and for the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there may be tools and methods other than Desteni that will support an individual, however Desteni is the only process and group that stands within understanding how the mind actually functions in detail and thus if one do not walk the Desteni process then it is impossible to fully change oneself, unless one happens to discover the process in another format, however within this, if one simply says that therefore there is no reason to support as many people as possible to specifically join and walk with Desteni, then one is leaving the whole point up to chance, whereas with Desteni and the promotion of Desteni one can measure one's change in the world and within oneself to the degree that Desteni presents a way to quantify one's process both from the perspective of one's writing, self-forgiveness, self commitment, but also from the perspective that by placing oneself out in the world and promoting Desteni, in various ways, one can measure their impact in the world as another takes on the responsibility of walking process due to one's example/active promotion of one's process and the Desteni process itself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist calling on all those who see the potential, to stand up and begin the process of standing AS DESTENI in the world, and showing that it can be done, and that this will in fact support one within their OWN process because it is a physical point that requires one to change and develop skills that would be required to stand within the system in politics/economics/etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if we do not have hundreds of millions of people around the world walking their process and re-educating themselves to establish an effective ability to reason and see common sense, then the solution of one man one vote becomes very difficult, because otherwise people will not have the ability to vote directly on policies and will be open to manipulation by feelings and emotions which is currently how politics work where people vote for personalities instead of policies.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there is always a BEST WAY to do something.

I commit myself to stand as a an example of both walking this process and supporting others to begin walking their process.

I commit myself to show how one can apply the principles of business and sales within showing others the value of walking the Desteni process and that this would both strengthen the group as well as support millions of people to systematically walk their process.

I commit myself to show that the Desteni process is the BEST way to walk one's process.

I commit myself to show that one can both walk their process and promote this process and that as we do so, then we will become a powerful force that represents the force of Life that will change the system to recognize and support the equality of life in all.

Regaining Our Vision

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that Real Vision is with the eyes only.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Real Vision is to see the potential of Life in every being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see with the Eyes of Fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the Beam in my Eye which is the Light Beam of consciousness, which is my self-interest, which is my fear, which is who I have accepted and allowed myself to become.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see the splinter in my brother's eye but not see the beam in my own, and thus I have accepted and allowed this beam to block my Real Vision which is my ability to see the potential in my brother/sister and in all beings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that we all have the potential for change, but it is up to the individual to actuate that potential, and thus it is MY responsibility to REALIZE my potential as Living Action within what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to retreat into myself within fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place others on a pedestal and in that not recognize my equality and oneness within my self-responsibility towards standing up for life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to Lose my Vision.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see because another saw, but not allow myself to see because I SEE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I DO SEE but I have allowed myself to FEAR what I SEE and FEAR what I SEE THAT I MUST DO.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not SEE that I must stand up where I am at and SPEAK UP not only online, but in my physical environment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have the keys to Life as a member of Desteni and there is no one else who has these keys, and that is not to say that no one else brings value or perspective that may support what is best for all, but I SEE that I have the critical keys of change that EVERYONE NEEDS and thus it is MY responsibility to stand up and present these keys to those who have the EYES to SEE and the EARS to HEAR.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the simplicity of starting a group meeting in my home or a coffeeshop or a library where I lead a group discussion on the Desteni principles as a matter of consistency - even if I only invite one other person initially - but within that I am able to plant the seed of something that will grow over time with consistency as long as I show up and give my full effort and bring forward what I have learned within my process, and to support others to begin their process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that we need something else other than the Desteni process to support people when in fact, all other methods and approaches to change are limited if the person does not walk the Desteni process - and that is not to say that no other approach or method of change is supportive in any way, but if a person is not understanding their mind in mechanical detail, they will not be able to change in fact to become the self-directive as Life as what is best for all - they will remain stuck in the mind and thus only in self-interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be able to see 90 million Destonians walking their process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the growth of Desteni as an exponential curve.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I and those who have walked with Desteni from the beginning are the foundation and everyone else is looking to us as the living proof that Desteni is for real - and thus it is my responsibility to myself and to others as what is best for all to stand up and walk in this world to support others to walk their process in awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that everyone has a right to their opinion and a right to figure things out in a way that they feel comfortable with - which is not to say that anyone should ever be forced to do anything - but that I now realize that if I waver within my absolute clarity that Desteni is THE WAY then it gives someone who has not yet begun walking their process an excuse to continue down a path that is not best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that TechnoTutor is a tool, created by Bernard, that is in fact digitized self-forgiveness, and that will support a person immensely in their process as an adult and will support a child, if done from a young age, to become much more effective and balanced that they would have otherwise been.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that TechnoTutor is just a program that helps with spelling and not realize that it supports one to change their programming within self-awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepeted and allowed myself to not realize that Bernard created TechnoTutor as a way to restore a person's Natural Learning Ability and to thus 'become like a child' and that he explained that what everyone 'admire' and 'see as an advanced ability' within Bernard was that he specified his vocabulary and thus he created a tool to support others to do the same.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my allowed myself to not realize that Bernard explained , in detail how TechnoTutor works and placed it into audio format and explained in detail how this would support within one's process and how it is fundamentally critical in the education of a child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist using TechnoTutor every day, and that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist writing everyday, and writing and speaking self-forgiveness every day, and that I have participated in doubt, disbelief, hoping, wishing, projecting, fear, and the desire to just have fun without seeing why I am REALLY HERE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I combine TechnoTutor with the Desteni I Process that I can support myself not only with the Inner Process, but with the Outer Process of standing up in this world and speaking up - and learning the skills required to place myself in a position of leadership in the SYSTEM.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that TechnoTutor is the way to reeducate Humanity to be reasonable and be able to reason and to use common sense and stop participating in beliefs that are only harming themselves and each other and that within this TechnoTutor is most effective, especially for an adult, when they walk the Desteni I Process and that there is thus no competition between Desteni and TechnoTutor as they are in fact from the SAME SOURCE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the starting point of TechnoTutor as a business is to create financial means to support the Equal Life Foundation, Desteni, and those whose process it is to stand in the system as politicians, lawyers, etc who will require funding, because they will be busy developing themselves to stand in those positions and not stand within making money, per se.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the starting point of TechnoTutor is to create the financial means so that the Desteni Process and EQAFE is available to everyone, regardless of financial means, and thus TechnoTutor is the way to finance the creation of an Equal System while at the same time providing the foundation of education as generations of children and adults who are able to process information in an unbiased manner and thus able to consider Equality for real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am HERE to CHANGE THE SYSTEM, not just make myself feel better and in order to change the system I must learn how to communicate, how to lead, how to motivate, how to inspire, how to sell, how to persuade, and how to interact within a group so that I am not on my own - because I realize that on my own I will never change the system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am not in the group to just be in a group - that I am in the group to give myself completely to the purpose of changing the system so that it is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place others as above or below me - which indicates that I had still been playing a polarity game, and not standing up for real - and within this I stop self judgment of myself in the past and I stand and walk - as I realize that everything I have gone through was a necessary part of my process, but now that I am aware of why I am really here, I no longer have an excuse to not move myself physically.

I forgive myself that I have judged myself and others who are walking this process who are in the system as we all are, who have had to work and survive, as we all do, and that I had not realized that I would have to be in the system but not of the system and that now as I walk more and more I am realizing that there is nothing to fear and I am now willing to stand up in the system and though I realize it will take time, I am willing to apply myself breath by breath until the system is changed to be best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in self interest in the context of walking with the group and to judge others for participating within self interest in the context of the group, not realizing that we are here to firstly challenge this point within ourselves - that is WHY we are in the group initially, and as we remove layers more and more we become more capable of standing up in the world and taking more responsibility and I realize that everyone is in their own process and thus I would never force another to move faster than they are able, just as I cannot force myself to move faster than I am able, however I am willing to push myself beyond my limits and stand as an example and support others through communication to push beyond their limits - living the word patience as applying myself within breath, and walking my process, not placing expectations on others or myself, but applying self-honesty in the moment, standing up when I fall, and being there to support another to stand up when they fall.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the REAL meaning of United We Stand, Divided We Fall.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have been afraid of standing up and challenging myself and challenging others, and that I realize that I am here to make a difference, not make people feel good, because all forms of feeling good currently are within the context of a system that is not best - and although it is not unacceptable to feel good, it is not acceptable to have this as the starting point of one's living, as it is too easily manipulable by the system, and by my mind, and thus I commit myself to standing by the principles outlined in the Desteni Declaration of Living Principles.

I commit myself to walk as an example in my world of the application of the Desteni process and Principles.

I commit myself to challenge ALL self-interest within myself and within my world that comes into my awareness and within the world in the context of the System.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I KNOW BETTER than Bernard, when in fact he was/is the only living example of the full application of the Desteni principles that I have seen, and within this, it is not about 'trusting' anyone, not even Bernard, the only valid trust is SELF TRUST, however I realize that if I have not applied myself FULLY in SELF HONESTY within my process that I have NO RIGHT to challenge/change/alter/manipulate/modify the basic principles and process that Bernard supported us to see.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stand EQUAL to Bernard which is not to say that I should become EXACTLY like Bernard or to CLAIM to be Bernard, but Equal means applying myself in self-honesty, forgiving myself, walking my process, not accepting or allowing limitation, not accepting slavery to another or to my mind, not accepting and allowing personality to get in the way of walking what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Bernard was here to show us the way to become EQUAL and ONE to LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself or another for attempting to find a way other than waking the Desteni process, when that is a part of our process, to investigate all things, to integrate and understand this process FOR OURSELVES, and yet within that to realize that the path has in fact been laid out before us, which doesn't mean that there are not things we will have to figure out for ourselves, but I can SEE that this will unfold naturally as long as I push myself to remain self-honest and forgive myself and correct my mistakes when I see them.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that we have everything we need to change ourselves and this system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that every excuse that I allow within myself, I will allow within another out of fear of being called out - and thus I commit myself to not allow ANY excuses and to live the word gratitude within being called out by others if they see me participating in an excuse - even if they are wrong, it doesn't matter because if I am feeling challenged emotionally then I am the one that is participating in the mind and thus accepting and allowing limitation, and thus I commit myself to ALWAYS bring it back to myself, no matter WHO is challenging me or presenting a point where I react.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the gift in every moment of my past.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to FEAR standing up and BEING THE LEADER that is required to support others to STAND UP and BE THE LEADERS that are required as TRANSITIONAL LEADERS who will lead the world to the creation of a system that is Best for All.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is ANYTHING to fear when I SEE that all excuses and limitations and fears that I allowed will become irrelevant at death and the only thing that I will have left if I allow them is REGRET.

I commit myself to live without regrets and to show that it is ok to make mistakes and that what is important is that one stand back up, forgive themselves, and keep walking in alignment with what is best for all.

I commit myself to SHOW that my intention is always revealed in my ACTION.

I commit myself to show that the only form of trust that matters is SELF TRUST.

I commit myself to develop the SELF TRUST necessary to stand in the face of ANYTHING in the System that must be faced in order to create a system that is best for all.

I commit myself to use ANYTHING and EVERYTHING in this world that comes into my awareness to support me to remove all weakness as that which is preventing me from standing as what is best for all within my physical participation which is all that I can be responsible for in any moment.

United We Stand

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that what I am aware of is within my inner world and thus I am responsible to direct it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear speaking up when I see someone accepting less than who they really are and participating in a character to say something that would challenge them - which in itself is a form of self dishonesty and hiding within a character of my own.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am able to apply self forgiveness in a moment between the in and out breath and to thus take responsibility for what I am aware of and direct it in the out breath.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear creating conflict which is really just the desire to not EXPERIENCE the feelings that I have associated with conflict.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I do not assist myself by bringing the truth of who I am and what I am participating within to the forefront of my awareness then I will not be able to forgive myself because I will not be aware and thus I am responsible to create the conflict within myself necessary to face the reality of what I have accepted and allowed thus far and that this can be done solely through communication with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I can support another through speaking what I am aware of and showing the reality of what they are participating which would potentially create a conflict between their potential and the desire to remain as a character, however if I do not allow myself to direct what I am aware of within in my interactions with another, as I also must do with myself in self honesty, then the conflict will eventually become a physical conflict that will affect me at some level as well and thus I realize that the best way to create conflict is through words that are self honest and not charged with the sound and frequency of consciousness and that although I realize I am not totally effective at this point yet, I also realize that the only way to develop this ability and trust within myself to direct myself and others as myself through effective, clear communication, is to allow myself to make mistakes and learn from the consequences if necessary but to also support myself daily within self-honest self-forgiveness to take responsibility for the patterns that I am aware of so that when I see them in my world I am able to speak clearly without bias and without any need to win as a way to charge a personality, because I would have directed that within myself through the writing and self forgiveness and self corrective statement, and yet the way to really test myself is to be willing to speak up in a moment where I see someone participating in the pattern that I have addressed within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in the past place most if not all of my focus on what others are doing and to attempt to coerce, force, correct them without firstly placing myself as the primary point of change and self-awareness - and within that going to an extreme polarity due to self-judgment where I would not speak up or correct anyone because I would rather just not speak than correct the point within myself - and thus not speaking up has become the excuse to not have to change within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the desire to not change as an excuse to not speak up and support others within being/becoming aware of the character patterns they are participating in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to not change so that I can remain as a character looking for energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear making mistakes with other people and with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that what I see within another person which is really just a point that comes into my own awareness as a point within myself is not my responsibility to direct - when in fact - the fact that I am aware of it, means that I am responsible to direct it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear directing others as myself because I have really just been wanting to hide and thus not direct myself - but if I am directing myself then why would I not be able to direct others as myself?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that directing another is as simple as supporting them to see and develop self awareness within what they are participating within that is not best and thus requires clear communication, not force or judgment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I only focus on 'my self' and not also what I am aware of within myself as another's participation in my world, then I am never going to be able to support the change of this system, because I cannot do it alone - and furthermore I would appreciate another speaking up and showing me where I am limiting myself or participating in a character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to challenge others as a way to not focus on myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to not challenge others as a way to hide and not have to stand clearly within myself, which is what is required to effectively stand within another, as another, to support them as I would myself.

I commit myself to walk this process of writing, self-forgiveness, and self correction within and to thus correct myself physically through physical change and to when I see another accepting less than who they are to speak up and allow myself to be the voice of reason, first within checking to see within myself if there is a reaction within me, forgiving the reaction until I am clear that I understand what the other is accepting and allowing, and to thus speak what is required in the moment for the other person to understand and to show that conflict created as words in self-honest support of another is preferable to physical conflict that is created as a consequence.

I commit myself to have no regrets within my participation within others that I would have allowed a point of weakness to go unchecked both within myself and without as others that are within my awareness and to realize that I am here to support myself to be/become best for all and to support others to do the same.

I commit myself to show that the only thing that one is afraid of within conflict generated through words is the feelings that one has attached to the words or to the character that the words are challenging and thus, although it is possible abuse words in order to attempt to manipulate others based on their self-interest, I commit myself to develop the level of self-trust and self-honesty required to be able to support others as well as myself to let go of all points of self-interest and to accept that support from another - not using whether they are completely self-honest as a judgment or excuse when I am reacting, but to take whatever is said to me and to use it to check myself first to see if reaction or movement of energy occurs so that I may take responsibility first and then to support the other when I see a point that is required to be directed.

I commit myself to walk this process until it is done - to stand up no matter how many mistakes I make or how many times I fail or fall - I will stand and walk and I will do so within supporting the group based on the principles of what is best for all and I will allow myself to receive the support of the group - knowing that the only way to walk this process is alone within myself and together with the group both giving and receiving support equal and one.

Guilty as Charged

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty when I see someone in a worse position than me in the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that I must find a reason or excuse to give the other person as to why I cannot help them individually.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel conflicted about helping someone individually.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there is nothing I can do personally to help an individual change their position in life beyond supporting them to see the value in applying the tools that I am applying, realizing that not everyone will have the time and money to apply themselves within these points - and that does not invalidate the tools or the processes, but rather shows/exposes the extent to which the system has complete control over our lives and that even within wanting to better oneself and educate oneself for real, one is still subject to the system which requires one to compete for survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the only way to support those who are in a much worse situation than myself is to apply myself diligently within my process of self change and place myself as effectively and efficiently as possible, while walking with a principled group and supporting others to do the same, in a position in the system where I can influence the system to change so that it supports everyone equally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the gift within the guilt of seeing someone in a far worse position than I and not being able to really help them physically is that I have no excuses to not move myself and stand up for them in/as/within the system, and that means that I must move myself without excuse within my own process of sorting out my inner world so that I am able to stand, stable, within a position - which in order to get there I will have to face many people and systems that will attack and try and prevent me from making a change that is best for all - and within this if I still allow personal self-interest then I will not be able to stand, because the system is based on personal self-interest and thus, although I must direct myself to take responsibility for what I require and need to move and live effectively as well as my family in that regard, I must be willing to let go of personal fantasies of grandeur that would be used to distract me from doing what is best, which may not always or most of the time bring a sense/feeling/image of grandeur as it would require really challenging other people's self-interest and facing ostracism at times as well as personal attack - thus how can I be attacked personally if I have no personality that is based on personal self-interest?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am changing myself and the system not for the other person, as that is a point of separation, and thus only supports a character that is not real, but I am doing this for MY SELF within the realization that all people that I see that are in a worse position than me are in fact me in a future life if I do not act as what is best for all and ensure that everyone has the best possible life no matter what country/area/family they are born into.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only see the reality of what other people go through when I am confronted with it in my physical reality and to allow myself to otherwise exist in my mind only where only my problems and difficulties matter, not realizing that the difficulties in my experience in this life would be solved by the same solution that would solve everyone else's and thus because I am in a position to consider this, I have a greater responsibility to act and to thus support the creation of a new system which will support all life equally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that all charity is an attempt to alleviate guilt about having money, without standing up to change the system, which would place a person in the position of risking their position of having money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that all poverty and conditions of suffering are due to the money system which is a reflection of my/our internal focus on our own self-interest only, and that by stopping self-interest within and without, poverty would be solved eternally.

I commit myself to stop all guilt - first through self-forgiveness - and then within self-honest action as what is best for all in each moment - to not allow any excuse - and when an excuse comes up, to push myself beyond the excuse realizing that the excuse is, in the end, going to be my regret.

I commit myself to let go of guilt about being in a system that is not best, because the only way to change the system is to stand within it - equal to it - and if I try to solve individual problems in an effort to alleviate guilt, then I will never make a difference in the system, because my focus will be on how I feel rather than what needs to be done.

I commit myself to prevent the experience of guilt within myself, not suppress it, by pushing myself to remove all of that within me that is not standing for what is best for all and to push myself in the physical world to change the system and remove all that which is not best for all and support the creation of the conditions necessary for everyone and everything to have the best possible life.

I commit myself to do what others won't - and to show all those stuck in the pattern of giving to charity instead of changing the system - that this never alleviates the guilt because it only supports the creation of more poverty and suffering and thus is not the solution to the guilt nor the problem.

What We Ignore in our Pursuit of Bliss

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to not realize that the Law of Attraction is the acceptance that I will only move towards that which is attractive, which is thus that which I have separated myself from as superior to me and thus the Law of Attraction is the acceptance and allowance of inequality and polarity as superiority vs inferiority and separation of myself from other parts of reality.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that accepting the Law of Attraction as valid and valuable requires me to accept that reality will always exist in a state of separation, otherwise why would any point of reality be attracted to/towards any other point unless the two points are in separation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that what I am attracted to is a matter of pre-preprogramming of which my parents, environment, and advertising/marketing, and education have played the major roles.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can attract a better life, when in fact, this belief is the acceptance of myself as separate from this better life, and I am thus in that acceptance disempowered from CREATING a better life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the entire starting point of the application of the Law of Attraction is within self-interest only, where one must accept that one is the creator of THEIR reality only, and thus is not responsible for what another creates as their reality, as this would be the choice of the other to focus the reality they want or not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never question why another would not want to focus on what they want as the best possible life and thus why another would use the Law of Attraction to create what is less than best, when the immediate thought that comes up as to why is that the other person simply has not learned how to use the Law of Attraction to their advantage, which begs the question as to whether one is COMPLETELY responsible for their own reality or whether another is influenced by what they see and hear, and thus would be the reason why some are ignorant or ineffective at using the Law of Attraction to their best advantage, so either I must be lying to myself that we are completely creating our own reality on our own or I must believe that I am somehow special in that I for some reason have 'attracted' the truth of how to create my own reality while others don't.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in such a thing as 'my truth' where each one has a 'my truth' which is unique to each person, even though in self-honesty I know that no two people are fundamentally different in terms of how they live based on how much money they have - it is quite predictable to know what kinds of things a person will value or be interested in based on how much money they have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question how a baby could be born into poverty vs wealth, which would imply that the baby - before they even knew how to think - was attracting a certain life - even though when I observe the actions of those born into wealth - they don't seem to do anything of a higher purpose that makes the world practically better for those in the position of poverty, and thus why would that being prior to coming to earth have deserved anything more than the one in poverty? For Context: Chinese Kids Driving Supercars: Inside the Secret Southern California Meet-up

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be willing to question the nature of the Law of Attraction as to how it actually only further justifies the separation of people into poverty and wealth because I have secretly hoped to be in the less than 1% who experiences the wealth side of things.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question the statement "follow your bliss" which exists alongside the statement "ignorance is bliss" which both as sound/symbols in reality create a following and ignoring program within humanity where those who have money and wealth will ignore those without and do nothing create system where everyone has what they need, and those who do not have wealth follow their preprogrammed feelings as leading them (one hopes) to an experience of ultimate bliss, which is really just a program of consumerism based on feelings generated through purchasing experiences which is what keeps those with wealth in power over the system and able to create the experiences they want - they are not attracting experiences, they are creating products and experiences that are attractive to the masses who will work their whole lives even for the promise of owning/possessing the product/experience meanwhile the money generated from this labor is channeled into the pockets of the elite who then use it to have the experiences they desire as well as evolve the systems of control and inequality that exist in the money system, education system, etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my desire to follow my bliss is actually a program that is designed to ensure that bliss never exists for anyone in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there is no such thing as 'my bliss' as separate from 'another's bliss' because we are all one physically interconnected in a system of resource distribution based on lack which requires slaves to create for the few and is based on the idea that we are born into poverty and born into original sin, and thus within that we will allow the flaws and problems in the system and because we are afraid to stand up, we will rather ignore the real problem which is creating the fear and suffering in our lives and rather believe in a fantasy that we can magically manifest a magical life for ourselves with our minds - which if it were true - you would be able to find one person who did so, yet all the examples we use to motivate ourselves within the Law of Attraction are people who are really good at getting a lot of other people to do something with their Life Force that mainly benefits the one in charge or are really good at getting others to give them money for some promise of transferring knowledge or wisdom of how to get other people to give them money or to magically manifest a better life (even though if the person doing it knew how to manifest a better life with their mind, they would be able to do everything for free and would never have to use money in any capacity whatsoever).

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I focus on following my bliss, I have to place myself in a form of ignorace, where I deliberately do not investigate, thus ignore, reality as it functions in mechanical detail, and instead focus on a picture composed of images, feelings, thoughts, and energy that I desire to experience, never questioning whether it is even possible to create and live as a picture and never asking myself what is real in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have a choice in my life's purpose, when in fact I did not create myself directly or this world directly - it is the result of my and everyone else's original choice to not take direct responsibility in every moment to be equal and one with reality here, and now out of complete dishonesty I believe that I can somehow magically manifest a better life, without even understanding the detail of this world and how it functions, but that it will just magically come to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that individual happiness and choice is an illusion because it only exists in my mind and I never had any intention to make it real because if I did then I would have asked first, "What is real?" and I would have realized that I am a physical being in a physical world with other physical beings and thus I would HAVE to consider everyone else as well.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify pursuing happiness as self-interest and made excuses for others which I now realize that I will be equal to the excuse that I allow in another, which was the starting point all along, to allow myself an excuse to not take full self-responsibility for what I am creating through acceptance and allowance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am here to rebirth myself as Life from the physical and to support others to do so as well and that by doing so, we can create a system that supports all Life equally, and within that we can remove any reason/need to have secrets, compete, or abuse, and thus we would create the necessary conditions for the experience of eternal bliss for all beings in reality.

I commit myself to stop wishful thinking - to question how reality works, to find out in detail how it works and to no longer ignore the consequences that have been/are being created in physical reality by all of us not taking direct responsibility for what we create, accept, and allow.

I commit myself to show to all those trapped within following their bliss, that they only way to experience bliss is to be Here in reality directing oneself equal and one to physical reality and to no longer chase a feeling in the mind or an experience in the mind which will always only take us further and further away from reality to the point where bliss is no longer possible.

I commit myself to show by example that real bliss is in letting go of illusions and stopping all fear and letting go of all knowledge as limitation to find out what is real because if we ignore reality and focus on knowledge of a picture of reality, we will miss points and create consequences which will put us into fear, but if we understand and get to know reality directly as ourselves and always direct things in the way that is best then there will literally never be anything to fear.

I commit myself to walking myself back through all the illusions and desires and pictures and fantasies and desires for experience and feelings until nothing remains by me Here in reality as self-awareness seeing what is real and directing myself in every way possible to create a reality for all beings that is best.

Freedom as the Ability to Change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I need to be somewhere else.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed to chase the creation of memories.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become lost within experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel the need to control my environment in order to create/prevent the creation of a specific experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that/decide that the starting point of being alive is the experience of myself as memory.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I live for experience then I am not real because all experience is after the fact, it is the awareness of myself within a real time memory that has already happened just now in reality that I am 'living' as a character within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become and desire to remain as a character within the experience of a memory.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have been abusing myself, others, and physical reality in order to piece together memories as experience within myself which led to the automation of myself as experience where I will fundamentally never experience anything new because I am only living as the reaction to experience within how I have constructed myself as characters within my memories.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question whether the characters that I have constructed within myself produce a response to reality that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I resist changing, I am in fact not wanting/willing to give up the existence of myself as a character within a memory, and thus it is not that change is hard or difficult, per se, but that I have not fully decided/resolved myself to let go of all that within myself that is not best for all, and thus the resistance that I experience is the friction being generated within myself as I create the conflict of wanting to be in 2 worlds, one that is best and one that is not best, and thus the characters that are not best within me will fight for their existence, but it is in fact me fighting for the existence of myself AS these characters - and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that these characters are not in fact who I am as physical reality, but projections of energy in the form of information stored as memories within me which I have accepted and allowed to be activated in response to cues from the environment that match the components within the memories that the characters exist within.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have literally been living in a movie in my head where I am always the central character, when in physical reality the Real Character is my physical body, other people's physical bodies, and the physical reality itself in various forms as substance that is the only thing that is real, and thus the characters are ONLY information stored within me in various dimensions, just words, feelings, descriptions of behavioral responses, not real in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project the difficulty of change onto the concept of change itself, which is a way to avoid complete responsibility for directing change within myself and thus I see that either in a moment I will resist as not wanting to give up/change a point within me that is not best, which is really just the fight for survival of a character, which implies I am still accepting myself AS that character and thus the ONLY person that can change that is ME, and in the moment of resistance and unwillingness to let go I am only creating further consequence for me to walk through in physical reality.

I commit myself to in the moment of experiencing resistance to change, to realize, recall, understand, see that the resistance is energy as experience that I am still holding onto, and to speak to myself as who I really am as the Life Force that is within to remember what is real and what is of Real Value, not as the character that is attempting to re-energize itself, but as Life as physical reality as what is best for all, and thus that letting go of the desire for that experience and seeing what is really here in physical reality without the veil of energy is real freedom within the context of reality currently.

I commit myself to show that Real Freedom in the context of reality currently is the Freedom to let go of/change that which is not best for all within oneself and that fearing/resisting change is the attitude of a slave.

The Pursuit of Fear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I give up my own self interest then it is not possible to be happy or for happiness to exist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the starting point of not wanting to give up my self interest is fear, and thus that is what I am equal to = FEAR and thus how can I ever be truly happy when I am equal to fear?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to thoroughly convince myself that I have a right to create my own happiness as does everyone else, when in fact I live in a world where I am highly dependent upon others and thus it is not possible to create happiness within myself while ignoring others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that happiness is a feeling inside only, when it is in fact a condition of existence where all my needs and wants are met and where I am totally free of fear of consequence because there is nothing to fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that freedom is something that exists in my head or in my emotions only when it is a physical condition where one is not subject to physical consequences that are not best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dishonest within myself about what happiness really is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that 'individual happiness in the head' is what a slave master would convince a slave to focus on so that the slave would not revolt against the physical conditions that the slave is in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as society, to be repulsed by the idea of slavery in history as taught in the textbooks, and to think that it would be stupid to suggest that the slaves on a plantation should just be happy regardless of their circumstances, and yet not apply that same logic equally to myself and the world currently, where I would justify others currently existing today being in conditions of poverty, for example, that they should just focus inwardly on happiness and that that is their right to choose or not choose, although I would not have applied that same logic to the slaves in the history books, because feeling sorry for those slaves allows me to pretend to be a good person, but facing the real slavery that exists in this world due to the individual pursuit of happiness would require ME in real time to change and let go of my self-interest, but I wouldn't because I had accepted and allowed myself to become equal to justification of slavery as that is in fact what I am doing, because I have become a slave to the pursuit of self-interest at all costs, of which the cost is death, equally for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value on the satisfaction of a character's desire for energy within myself instead of the expression of the Life Force that I am/have received from the physical reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define happiness as an experience, instead of as the free expression of the Life Force that is in all equally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the Life Force in all equally as the most important thing that exists, and rather place value on anything but, so that I can justify my own pursuit of happiness as the experience of energy due to the conflict created by placing reality in separation from itself, which is thus enslaving the real Life Force to an existence of expression of conflict and consequence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize that all people, all forms, are not in fact equal, which is why it is possible for one person to gain power over another, and that unless we as humanity, look past the real illusion of form and recognize the equality of Life Force in all, and create a system that supports that equally in all, we will never create and thus experience true equality as what is best for all, because we are all One in fact and what I do to another and what I allow to be done to another is what will be done unto me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that unless the I in happIness change to consider the happiness in all as equally important - happiness will never be real for anyone, including myself, and thus I would have enslaved myself to an eternal pursuit of something I can never have or attain.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the pursuit of something I cannot attain is what I have created for myself to never be real, because I have never cared about being real, because I rejected what is real, and now I see the consequence of such a decision, and thus I now see why I should change and I now see that change starts with the recognition of what is real and the acceptance of who I am as valuing what is real as the Equal Life that is present within all and recreating myself within the image and likeness of that acceptance so that who/how I am within and who/how I am without reflects this realization in all ways.

I commit myself to find the Life Force within me and learn to communicate with and as it.

I commit myself to walk the way to free the Life Force within me and within all as equals.

I commit myself to stand up as the Life Force within me and as me in full expression and to recognize and speak to and inspire others to recognize and stand equal to the Life Force as the directive principle of self and thus recreate this world in the image and likeness of the Life Force that is in each of us equally.

Fear of Failure as Trying to Control Others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear standing up for what is best both within myself and with other people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if someone had not intervened in my life, I would not be where I am and not be on the path to self-realization as self-awareness as Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I cannot force another to choose what is best, as this is not what is best in any case, because what is best can only be freely chosen by each one as a statement/act of self-responsibility within self-awareness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value and expectation on others to walk their process at a certain speed and pace when I have take quite a long time to even move past one point within myself/my mind on many occasions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the best approach to supporting others is to simply walk my process effectively, and share my process and give support to those who ask.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to try and control others, when I would not want to be controlled by others, I would appreciate someone supporting me when I ask, but allowing me to make mistakes and fail when that is what is required for me to realize what I am accepting and allowing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear failing and to fear allowing others to fail, when it is not possible to prevent failure in all cases, it is part of the process to support myself to see what it is that I am accepting and allowing that I am not in that moment allowing myself to be self-honest about.

I commit myself to walking my process of removing all fear, developing self-trust as self-awareness and self-responsibility and discover what Life really is and support each one who enters my awareness and experience with my example.

Nervousness and Fear within Public Speaking

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear doing something new that I haven't done before.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel sick to my stomach when approaching doing something new that I haven't done before.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'feel safe' within doing things that I have either done before or which seem relatively similar to things I have done before.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not realize that 'feeling safe' about doing something I have done before and feeling fearful of doing something new and thus preferring/wanting to only do things I am familiar with is the opposite/reverse of living - as I am making the statement within/as who I am that I am only comfortable within living out a memory, when Life is not about re-experiencing a memory, but about doing/living as what is best in each moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress the feeling of fear/nervousness/anxiety within myself and thus only experience it as a manifestation of feeling a headache, sick stomach, and unsettled bowels/digestion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I fear speaking in front of a group of people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I am in front of a group of people, presenting information, I am simply just talking to people and that the fear, nervousness, anxiety that I am experiencing is due to placing value on the outcome of the response of the people to what I am presenting, and thus I am not focused in the moment on simply being Here and presenting what I know.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be angry/irritated/judgmental towards my body when it presents a feeling of unease within me doing something new, when it is in fact showing me that I am nervous, anxious, and fearful and thus supporting me to reassess my starting point within the new thing that I am doing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I should be afraid of speaking to a group of people.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value on the outcome of presenting information to people from the perspective of how they perceive me within how I perceive myself as either being a great speaker or an attractive person, when in reality, all that matters is whether the person takes action on the information that I am presenting.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is something to fear within not knowing how something will turn out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not trust myself to do what is best regardless of how a situation turn out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am able to speak with effectiveness within the context of presenting information that is best for a person to consider and in a way that supports the person to take action on the information that is best for that person.

I commit myself to walk into speaking in front of a group to present information that is best, in the best way, to support others as myself to take action in the best way for them in order to begin using the tools that will support them, as it is supporting me, to stand up within themselves, take responsibility for themselves and to stand up within this world and take responsibility for this world to change it to be best for all.

The I Want It Now Character

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a character that wants something now and is not happy until I get it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and participate in the character of 'I want it now'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not remember how I created the 'I want it now' character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to in a moment where I see or hear about or become aware of something that activates a feeling of desire for that thing, that I immediately activate and participate in the 'I want it now' character, as thinking about the thing that I want, talking about the thing that I want, begging another who I think may be able to get it for me, and obsessing over the thing in my mind by imagining myself with it and all of the ways in which I will feel good if I have it, and using that as motivation to continue thinking about it and finding a way to get it as soon as possible, if not NOW, and also thinking about how I feel without it, which is negative, empty, yearning, unhappy, and using this negative energy to manipulate myself and others to support me within getting, having, obtaining, manifesting the thing as soon as possible, if not NOW.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that whether I have the thing that I desire or not, I am Here and even when I get it, I will not be happy or satisfied REALLY, as all I will experience is the temporary satisfaction of the desire, but this will lead to a new desire which will cause me to go into the same pattern as now the 'I want it now' character has even more energy and experiences as memories to draw on and an even stronger will to survive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from physical reality and to go into a fantasy in my imagination about having/possessing something that I desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I chase a desire, all I am doing is attempting to satisfy a character that is nothing more than a construct of information within me that requires energy to 'feel alive' and thus I am using and abusing the real life that I have been given, this physical body and this physical reality, in order to make an imaginary being feel alive, when in fact it is just me playing a game, playing a character, believing that it is me, when it is not me in fact, but it is to the degree that this is all I am in that moment of playing that character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the extent to which I interact with others just to satisfy the demand for energy of a character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use this reality in order to support the existence of something that is not real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that because I participate in this support of a character that is not real, which requires energy to exist, I am also supporting the existence of a world character as the money system which is not real and thus requires energy to exist that feeds off of the real earth and real humans, plants, and animals.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not love myself as what I really am which is physical reality and to thus abuse myself and hurt myself through ignoring physical reality to create, support, and live out illusions as characters which can never last, meanwhile destroying that which is real until there is nothing left.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought that 'there must be something more'.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to within the thought of 'there must be something more' participate in the creation of separation which leads to conflict, which leads to negative energy formation which leads to positive energy experience which leads to confirmation (incorrectly) in my mind that there is something more, when in fact there was only ever Me Here and I am simply abusing myself in order to experience something more, and I am thus ignoring the opportunity to explore and discover what is MORE as Here not in separation but within Oneness and Equality with what is Here and so find out how to create within what is Here without destroying and abusing what is Here, as what is Here is ultimately of REAL value and what is MORE is an illusion when it is created in the context of separation from what is Here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel irritated with myself and others especially when I do not get what I want immediately.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become so angry when I don't get what I want that I even strain myself and pass out.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself only see my parents and others as a means to getting what I want or as an obstacle to getting what I want.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that from the moment of separation within searching for More than what is Here, that I have never been Here, but only lost in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have created reality into a real illusion.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear just being Here not needing anything or wanting anything but being satisfied with just being Here as Who I Am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lose sight of what is Here and to only focus on attaining and obtaining something More.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always want to be There instead of Here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that There is an illusion in separation of Here.

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I deserve to be punished for who I am and what I have become, which in itself is a desire for experience rather than being Here, it is still within the context of playing the energy game and way to excuse myself through 'paying the price' to continue with the game of searching for the satisfaction of my desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my son for wanting something when I am the one who taught him, through example, and through passing on my memories, that something more is required to be satisfied with oneself, which is an illusion that can never be true in reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I am holding something that I got, and wanting something more, that this shows me that the something more will never lead to REAL self satisfaction because I am not satisfied within myself with what I already have.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself be motivated by the desire for ME to have something and not care that so many go without their basic needs in this world and that I have blinded myself to this truth of reality through focusing on an illusion in my mind and participating in a character that doesn't care about anything except the pursuit of desire.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become less than a character in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let Life become less than a system.

I commit myself to stop participation in the character of 'I want it now' - to look at what is required for me to exist here, practically, and to continue existing within the context of supporting myself to do what is best at all times, to stop measuring my life by what I can get as the satisfaction of a desire and instead measure my life by how and what I can do to support what is best for all - which in the current context of the world is to change the system to so that it supports everyone equally to have what they require to express their full potential as Life.

I commit myself to support my children as Equal to and One with myself to stop the creation and participation in the character of 'I want it now' and the character of 'I only care about my own desires'.

I commit myself to show that the desires of a character that is not real, which is based on energy, can never be fulfilled, as the starting point of the character is not actually to be satisfied with what is Here but to always get more, because getting more means the survival of the character, but the character can never be real, because it isn't in the first place, and thus for it to survive means to use, abuse, and consume physical reality to convert into energy just for the character to 'feel alive'.