GAME OVER

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have separated myself from the physical existence and my physical body as who I am Here into a myriad of different characters in my mind in which I participate in order to survive as energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have placed value on the existence and survival of an illusion in my mind as a character/characters as memories, thoughts, and feelings and placed little to no value on the physical reality and how it works and functions.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become a slave to designing and living out characters within my mind and through my interaction with others and this physical world throughout my existence/this life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that/define Life is/as the experience of energy and the living out of a character based on creating memories and reliving memories.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have defined Life/living as just playing a game.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see other people as a character and to value them only as characters and to the degree that they support the characters that I have created within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create characters and suppress some while living out others, not realizing that the ones I suppress will also determine what I do and how I live as they run in the background and are fed with energy that I generate through participating in the characters that I 'accept' as myself.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that what I have created as characters are like Frankenstein's monster, that I have created them in an attempt to create 'Life' but not taking full responsibility for what I create and then experiencing the consequences.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that in the experience of the consequences of living as characters in my mind here in reality, I have created even more characters as the reaction/response/feeling about the consequences that I experience which further compounds the consequences because I have not taken full responsibility for who I am and what I do and accept and allow and that this is the fundamental reason for the existence of a consequence that is not best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that even the idea that I am a powerful creator is another character, it is not real, in the sense that I am creating anything of value that is best, as a TRULY powerful creator would, but all I am 'creating' is characters, and thus I am equal to and one with that point of even my status as creator being just another character.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Life is not a game and that the REAL character that is actually physically here as my physical body and all other physical beings and manifestations are completely being missed and not taken care of equally as what is best because I have instead focused on what characters in my mind would support the experience of my own self-defined self-interest as the pursuit of some optimum energy experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am equal to and one with what I accept and allow and thus if I accept and allow myself to create characters in my mind and give those my focus and attention then I am only a character in my mind and not real, and thus there now exists a GAME OVER point in my future.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I play games, then I will eventually face GAME OVER.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that this is my last life, that the game will no longer continue - that this is GAME OVER - and that this is my one opportunity to be self-honest, forgive myself, correct myself and do what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the consequence for treating Life as a game is that this is the Last Life in the game.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the only way to have Everlasting Life is to give up this Life as the Game and be Here and do what is Best for All.

I commit myself to - through writing, self-forgiveness, and self corrective application - investigate, deconstruct, and remove all the characters that I have created throughout time and get to know the REAL physical reality Here and align myself to always act in accordance with Reality as what is optimal as what is best for all.

I commit myself to show that all characters in the mind are only ever designed as a point of trying to generate energy which only fuels the further existence of the characters in the mind and creates real physical consequences in physical reality that are not best and thus create the conditions will eventually spell the end of all fake, mind characters.

I commit myself to show parents that they are teaching their children to create characters in their mind out of survival and thus trapping their children into an illusion that will seal their fate just as it has sealed the parents fate of NOT SURVIVING this reality beyond death.

Existence as Fear

Imagine you are playing a video game.

Do you have a choice as to what actions you take?

Yes, if you do not want to get the high score.

But if you want to play the game in the BEST way, there is a mathematically provable way to play that will produce the best result.

Look on youtube at the people who play games to get the high score. They study and practice exactly what moves they have to make in the game to get the best result.

This existence is the same way.

We live in a PROGRAMMED REALITY. Thus no REAL choice exists.

You either make the choice in the moment that is BEST or that is not best.

But that would reveal your starting point for existing here.

If you choose what is Best then there is NO CHOICE. Because what is best can be worked out mathematically with reason. But this requires radical self-honesty.

If you allow feelings or thoughts in your mind they will attempt to lead you to a result that is less than best.

Why?

Because your THOUGHTS and FEELINGS are PROGRAMS that are designed to keep you playing the game in a less than optimal way.

People tend to make choices based on their current thoughts and feelings or in other words, their 'mood'.

But your MOOD is your DOOM, because it will always lead you to do what is not best.

WHY?

Because what is real is not based on your pursuit of happiness as defined as the pursuit of energy as feelings and experience. It this starting point that has created the world around us as it is.

When you pursue happiness based on the experience of energy, you will always be subject to energy and you will compromise what you do and what you accept and allow to occur in reality based on whether you get energy.

But, look, energy is not real. It doesn't last.

You have to convince yourself with knowledge and information that energy is real and eternal when the living proof that what is real is the PHYSICAL MATTER of which you are composed is Here in every moment in your face.

What would happen if we all realized that in order to live in this reality currently in the best way would require us to give up the pursuit of happiness and in that we would be able to CREATE a REAL, LASTING Happiness that would include everyone.

NO MORE competition or fear.

Look, if you are honest with yourself, you will admit to yourself that all of your current ideas of what it means to be happy are just based on some image or idea or perception of something you have seen or put together out of things you have seen throughout your life. You don't even really know what it means to be happy in fact. What you 'know' is FEAR. This existence is just that: FEAR.

So all ideas of happiness are all in the context of accepting FEAR as the starting point of existence. But no one, virtually, questions the existence of fear within themselves. And pursuit of happiness is, currently, is an attempt to suppress this fear.

Fear of survival. Fear of Death. Fear of not existing.

But EXISTENCE IS FEAR - that is why we FEAR NOT EXISTING.

What does this tell us?

That we are NOT IN FACT EXISTING, because all we are is FEAR.

We are afraid.

We are scared.

We are worried.

We are anxious.

We are mistrusting.

And so we PURSUE happiness.

We can paint it with all kinds of pretty words like 'following our bliss' etc but look at those words.

When you FOLLOW something, that is like... A PROGRAM.

Whatever you are following is because you are too scared to direct yourself here without anything 'telling' you what to do.

What would we be without thoughts, feelings, happiness ideas...

Would life be boring? It already is. Even those who have the most exciting lives, still have that deep seated fear of the fun ending.

What if it didn't have to end?

Ask yourself, if each of us just keep pursuing what we believe will make us happy, and nothing else changes in this world, what do you think are the odds that even a slim percentage of people will ever truly be happy?

I know FOR A FACT that the thought that just went through your head is that 'well, no one is ever truly happy'.

Let that sink in for a moment.

You and I both know that Happiness is an illusion. But most won't give it up because of all the time and energy they have invested in propping up the feelings that they sometimes get to experience as a 'reward'.

If you live for a 'reward' you are a SLAVE, and just a PROGRAM.

The fact is that no matter what you will be a program. Because reality is currently programmed. That doesn't seem to bother most people, because they just go along with the program, not realizing that we could actually stop and ask ourselves if the program is actually best or not?

What if it were possible to stop and change the program that you are running?

What if it were possible for us all to stop and question the program that is running this world and adjust it so that it would provide for us all equally?

Wouldn't that ELIMINATE FEAR?

What would happiness be in the context that there was NO FEAR and no REASON for FEAR and that this was a fact of existence into eternity?

Can we ever truly be happy when fear exists?

Can we ever truly defeat fear through happiness?

Or is happiness simply the minds attempt to ignore fear and ignore the obvious which is that YOU ARE GOING TO DIE SOMEDAY and...

YOU DON'T KNOW WHEN.

What if it didn't matter?

What if reality were such that no matter whether you are Here or in the Hereafter, no matter if you are human or a blade of grass, all of reality supported each other part of reality equally and there was CONSTANT, ETERNAL BLISS as a BASIC FACT of existence?

That can't exist when fear exists.

Can we stop fear here and now?

Can we forgive ourselves for fearing to exist?

Why are we afraid in the first place?

Are we afraid because we know deep down that we are really only here to abuse in order to get something for ourselves regardless of the context?

Can we question WHO WE ARE and WHO WE HAVE ACCEPTED OURSELVES TO BE?

Can we CHANGE FOR REAL and become something and someone that HONORS LIFE and GIVES LIFE freely and thus RECEIVES LIFE freely?

How can Life be free when fear exists?

How can I be free if anyone is in fear?

Does LIFE even exist or is it just FEAR and DEATH that exists?

The starting point is the end point.

So if I know the end point, what does that imply about the starting point?

Are we even really ALIVE or just a program of generating energy for a temporary period of time.

Why do we lie to ourselves and pretend that the temporary experience of ourselves as energy is anything of value?

If it were, you would just be HAPPY NOW at all times.

But try as you might, you cannot have both Happiness and Energy experience. They are mutually exclusive, because when energy is the starting point, FEAR is always the result.

WHY?

Because energy has a beginning and an end. You were feeling sad, now you're feeling happy. Then you're feeling angry. It's always changing. Then you die. Then it ends forever.

When you exist for energy, you will always try to pursue more energy, because for energy knows it has an end. Thus you have become nothing more than a carrier for ENERGY, like a SLAVE to energy, who exists just to pass on the pursuit of ENERGY to the next person. But even if ENERGY continues, YOU DON'T.

The truth is Energy can't last forever. And we are consuming and abusing this physical reality in order to 'create' something that can never last. And that which is otherwise eternal, the physical reality in front of us, is being wasted for something of no value.

Don't agree?

Look at your experience. YOU ARE NOT HAPPY AND NEVER WILL BE AND YOU KNOW IT.

Time to re-evaluate EVERYTHING.

Start with this:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be honest with myself about the starting point of my existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be honest with myself that I have only ever existed in order to pursue more existence for myself and that not existing is the greatest fear that I have as it is the starting point of my existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is MORE to myself and MORE than Here from the beginning all the way to now.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that everything that exists is what has manifested from the belief and starting point that there must be something MORE and that this separation within myself from Here is what I now call Existence and since I have separated myself from Here, as an illusion of something MORE, I now fear not existing because in self honesty, I KNOW that the illusion that I have created as MORE is NOT REAL, and in this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to continue the dishonesty of ignoring and suppressing the realization that there is nothing MORE than Here and that everything I believe is real and that I believe I have created is nothing more than an Illusion that SEEMS REAL because I AM the illusion and it has become my total existence and thus my total existence is FEAR to the point that I am ILL because all ILLness is the result of ignoring what is real, which creates consequence, which creates dis-ease when that which I have ignored runs amok and comes back to haunt me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a vast web of information and knowledge within me imbued with feeling and emotion and that I have been afraid to question this and that I really don't know what I would do without it and I don't know what reality is without it and that I am afraid of facing myself as WHO and WHAT I REALLY AM beyond all the knowledge and information.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that no matter how much I fear facing who and what I and this world have become, avoiding it is not a solution - that only creates more consequences and thus more fear - fear layered upon fear - lies upon lies - and thus even though I don't know everything I realize that the first step is honesty with myself and forgiveness for everything I have accepted and allowed and when I am done with that process I will see further.

I commit myself to walk through all knowledge and information both within myself and without in the world, applying self-honesty as to what is best, removing the rest through self-forgiveness, and reestablishing myself to only do what is best for all in all contexts through self-corrective action.

Why Desteni?

What is there to fear?

All fear comes down to fear of loss, and the major point of loss that we all fear is the loss of our lives at death. But if we really look at it, it makes no sense to fear this point, because we are not really alive.

Consider: you wake up. You (if you're lucky) go to your job and do something that you would likely rather not do in order to make money so that you can buy food, clothing, shelter (all basic needs to continue existing) and then (if you are REALLY lucky) you will have extra money to entertain yourself through music, movies, alcohol or other drugs, vacations, and all other manner of experiences - mostly all of these serving as the reward for doing all of the other things you had to do to survive. Then, essentially, you repeat this process. Every day. Until you die.

While you are here you constantly, whether consciously or in the background of your thoughts and feelings, feel a terror about what happens when you die, and so you look for certainty around you in anything and anyone who can give you some sense of knowing what will happen.

Some people use religion for that purpose, some are anti-religious and convince themselves nothing happens and everything is meaningless except your individual experience of happiness, some believe you just turn into energy and transform, some say they don't know but within that feel a sense of pride about not knowing and this serves as a sense of purpose as being like someone who goes through life always on the fence, keeping your options open so to speak. In any case, no one really knows but all the existent approaches have something in common:

Everyone only cares about their own individual existence as they experience themselves. Even those who are compassionate and give their lives in service are doing it from the perspective of some reward either Here, in their direct experience as a form of bliss, peace, or in the Hereafter as a reward and union of God, but no matter what the person's intentions are the major problem is that it is all still done from the perspective of their own limited, individual perspective and thus whatever a person does that could be called 'good' never has any real lasting effect. No charity, selflessness, compassion, etc ever CAN have an real lasting effect because the fundamental starting point of who we are and how we exist is SELF INTEREST which is producing the consequences that the 'compassionate' is trying to help within. Even the 'compassionate' person is still fundamentally the same as everyone else, its just in the context of how we have defined good and bad they are more on the 'good' end but that in itself should tell us something. That trying to help others in need is seen as good which means that the opposite exists. So how does the person helping others solve the problem of 'bad' or 'evil' existing? They can't. Primarily because they themselves are in fact evil. That might seem like a strange statement, but you really must study the material in Heaven's Journey to Life Blog because it explains this statement quite clearly and supports the reader to see this for themselves.

So coming back to the point of fearing death as fearing to lose one's life, we are all existing in a world where life does not exist. No one has any actual choices because what we do is primarily dictated by how much money we have and how much money we have is determined primarily due to the environment we were conceived and brought up in for the first 7 years of our life. Our parents were living out patterns of survival and so that is what we copied and this Fear of Death is the most primary survival pattern. It is so prominent that we never question the validity of the system that runs this would. One, because we don't have 'time' to, and two, because even if we did, what could we do about it? But then this just shows our true starting point of existing, being more concerned about 'surviving' than Living. More worried about existing for one more day than with what is True and Real.

So we create a story in our heads about our lives, in the form of memories, where we are always the central character and we are always right in some way or the victim or the victor in some way, and within this we entertain ourselves for our entire lifetime even though none of it is real and it only has meaning in the context of our individual experience while we are in this body and even then the individual pieces that make up our memories are all just things that are GIVEN to us through the system that exists. No one is actually creating themselves from scratch as what they would TRULY like, they are just accepting things as is, and depending on their understanding of the system and ability to make money will create a really cool experience or basically be in constant survival mode. But even those we call the elite have the same basic fears as everyone else and thus they have to create or accept systems of control that ensure that the vast majority would never be able to have a life like they do because they fear having their lives diminish. And we can't blame that on the elite because everyone is living from the same starting point whether they realize it or not.

The question is what can be done?

The reality is that the 'elite' as the super rich generally are not going to care about this because their lives are pretty cool by comparison to everyone else. They are focused on keeping what they have an keeping everyone else down. The super poor are too busy just trying to get the basics for survival and are so uneducated that they will likely never be able to have ANY impact whatsoever. That leaves the Middle.

The Middle is the ones that must change first. It is the middle that believe there is a middle. They allow the super rich to exist because the middle knows that they are in the middle due to the super rich allowing them to be there (for the time being) and that if the system were to be challenged it may create insecurity in the middle.

The Middle fears being at the bottom and even though they will never be at the top, they will rather stay put and allow the top to exist so long as they don't end up at the bottom. They have their basic needs met, but still have to place all their focus on working so that they can have a little bit of the feel good stuff, but not too much, so it always leaves them wanting more, and yet what they are doing to get it, due to education, will never challenge the super rich, and in any case they are the ones in service of the super rich as the doctors, lawyers, accountants, engineers, architects, etc who keep the system running and are basically the slave managers (of the slaves, the lower class) for the slave masters (the super rich). The problem with a system based on slaves is that we are all equal to and one with what we accept and allow, thus we are ALL (even the rich) slaves to: MONEY.

Thus the KEY to changing this world is changing our agreements, collectively, about how money functions and what the value is that is placed on it. It is more about what we place as valuable rather than 'redistribution' because even the concept of redistribution is based on some idea that money is limited when it is not. It is imaginary and only because its value has been defined as profit which is representative of individual self-interest does it not serve the interests of all. It is all in the definitions which are the collective agreements.

So the reason the middle class is the key, and must wake up, and change what they individually place value on is that it is the middle class that is the ones voting, and has the time to consider what they vote for and are the ones that buy the most stuff and thus are voting with their dollars as well. The middle class has to begin to REALLY CARE about the world but also themselves, because the number one driving force of all decisions and 'choices' are coming from the fear of loss as fear of death, and this is a problem that can actually be SOLVED as is explained in the Desteni material.

So if you have the time to read this, then you have a responsibility to apply yourself, change, and stand up in the system. It is not possible without being a part of a group, which Desteni is the only group standing up and speaking the truth about reality and about what we are accepting and allowing as individuals and how to change it.

So, if you can identify with what I'm writing here, I suggest that you start reading Creation's Journey to Life and Heaven's Journey to Life from Day 1, both blogs, one day at a time. I suggest to start watching Bernard Poolman's videos on youtube. I suggest to check out the Desteni website. Listen to the interviews on Eqafe. Connect with other Desteni members online. Start investigating what is going on within yourself and ask yourself why you fear dying. And find out how you can start Living.

Cleaning Up the Mess

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hate my parents for what I perceive they have done to me, when in fact, what I hate is the experience of myself as my thoughts, feelings, and emotions, that I have not take self-responsibility for.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that to hate another or to love another as a feeling or emotion requires a memory of the other person as a character that played a role in the memory, myself as a character in the memory as feeling a certain way which I blame the other character for creating within through their actions, and my current acceptance and allowance of thinking about the memory and allowing the memory to exist as a construct of information and energy within me as memory.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base my interaction with other people on whether I hate, love, or feel neutrally about them, which is nothing more than participating in a memory that I have created with the other person as a character and towards which I have associated specific thoughts, feelings, and emotions within which I use the memory and the other person as a character in the memory to generate, and thus it is not about the other person at all as to why the feelings, thoughts, or emotions come up, it is ME as who I am as creating and participating in reliving the memories within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am able to exist without memories of love and hate.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that love and hate are two sides of the same coin, the coin I use to play the game of energy, but for which the price is the experience of myself as nothing more than a slave to energy and to the consequence of being a slave to energy which is never in fact being free to LIVE without fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that hating another person means that I will live in fear of being around them, thus I am controlled by what THEY DO and thus I am a slave.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that loving another person means that I will live in fear of NOT being around them, thus I am controlled by what THEY DO and thus I am a slave.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my existence according to searching for something MORE outside of myself, not accepting myself for who and what I am Here.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to searching for safety, comfort, security, and certainty, which is essentially ensuring that I will never HAVE those and will always be searching because I am looking for someone/something outside of myself which is the starting point of separation - and the starting point is the ending point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that am never safe, secure, certain, or comfortable in who I am as Here.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the experience of insecurity, discomfort, uncertainty, and danger is the consequence of separation that has manifested reality and thus my current experience as who I am within consciousness to be what it is and is the consequence of not cleaning up the mess that exists here on earth as separation of myself from reality here and directing reality to be best for all which would guarantee safety, security, comfort, and certainty for all equally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always look for another as a messiah to come and clean up the mess that exists.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not realize that wanting a messiah to fix things for me is in fact a statement of wanting to enslave another to take responsibility for the consequences I create and thus is a statement of not standing equal to the creator, but standing equal to the slave and thus I become what I accept and allow.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that all my fears come from ignoring the mess.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing the mess I created.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that facing the mess and cleaning it up is the only solution and that avoidance and ignorance will only lead to more consequence.

I commit myself to face all consequence as the mess that exists as my life individually as the energies as thoughts, feelings, emotions that are un-directed within me as well as the physical consequences that exist as manifestations within my physical body as well as in the physical existence without.

I commit myself to show that fear is unnecessary and will only create more consequence and that it is possible to take responsibility breath by breath - day by day and eventually any mess, no matter how big or small can be directed to no longer produce a consequence or result that is not best for all - it just takes time, agreement, and facing any already manifested consequence without allowing the consequence to stop one from walking through the physical points that are continuing to produce a consequence and thus I commit myself to using writing, self-forgiveness, and self corrective application to support myself to understand, take responsibility for, and clean up all the messes that exist here in reality.

The I of the Storm

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame another when I feel angry or frustrated.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the anger and frustration that I feel is never coming from another person, it is always and only ever due to the way in which I have accepted and allowed myself to program my body to respond to certain types of stimuli with the feeling of anger and/or frustration.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, in moments of feeling angry and frustrated, to argue with another from that starting point, when in fact arguing from that starting point is only an attempt to justify the anger and frustration and to find a point of blame in order to convert the negative feeling of anger/frustration into a positive feeling as winning or righteousness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that being angry or frustrated within myself is the same as directly emotionally abusing myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the emotional storm that comes up in a moment is real and has actual control over me, when in fact, the only reason it has control is due to my giving it authority over me, through time, through decisions, through acting within the starting point of the feelings, and that even though I am able to stop participation in a moment through breath, and release myself through self-forgiveness, this does not mean the emotional storm will not come back, because I must also investigate the relationships that I have created and formed which are designed to create the storm automatically.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the missing key of self corrective action/application that is required in order to truly change myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that self-forgiveness alone will not change me, as the CHANGE occurs within and as ME changing the way in which I interact in the world and within my relationships to myself and others, and thus Self-Forgiveness is a KEY however not the only key, as it is only an initial point for me to be able to face the point of then actually changing how I interact, how I behave, how I see things and respond to things within me and the world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the world and other people for how I feel.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have 'dealt' with something because I have done self-forgiveness, but I have not done the self-honest point of checking the physical relationship and seeing whether in self-honesty I have in fact changed and am no longer controlling another or being controlled through the relationship in order to continue creating conflict/friction/energy in order to fuel my mind and self-interest and thus not truly be HERE and doing what is best.

I commit myself to walk this process effectively, to investigate my reactions to myself and my world and to apply self-forgiveness to give myself the opportunity of release from the pattern and to uncover and explain to myself within that what exactly needs to be changed that is not designed in a way that is best for all and to then apply myself within the physical corrective action required to change that relationship through time in order to adjust it to be best for all.

I commit myself to show that the process described above is the key to changing oneself as the inner process as well as changing oneself as the outer process in terms of taking responsibility for what has been accepted and allowed to function as systems in this world in the name of humanity, and to thus adjust those systems so that they function in a way that is best for all.

Application through Time vs Instant Gratification

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be a victim to the feelings produced by my body that I have in fact programmed in to be generated automatically to direct me into a state of pursuing self-interest in order generate positive energy as experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become a slave to thinking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have chained myself to the experience of negative feelings as a motivator and stimulus to seek out positive energy through experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the extent to which I have formed relationships in my world in order to automatically, within the context of the relationship, create a positive energy experience.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire instant gratification.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want GRATIFICATION which is the fulfillment of self-interest as energy experience, which is a form of TAKING, when stopping self-interest and only GIVING what is best for all would eventually result in the RECEIVING of GRATITUDE which would be the receiving of what is best for me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sit and THINK about all the ways in which I can achieve a grandiose, magnificent result, which within the thinking itself I experience the energy and exhilaration of the achievement of the result, which is like another form of orgasm that one would experience as the buildup within a relationship within sex, and yet if the discipline to produce the result is not there, then the result one imagined and THOUGHT about never materializes, and thus this thinking is in fact like a form of mental masturbation where I ALONE WIN and yet I also immediately am placed in the position of the loser because I was only generating energy for the mind to continue existing and not in any way producing a result that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not develop the self-discipline through application, moment by moment, and support myself within self-mastery to in each moment direct myself according to the logic of what is best for all within common sense as to whether or not my actions within moment would accumulate to the result that is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the relationships that I have formed through my mind within/towards my physical body and the physical reality were formed through time, through decisions made in time, reinforced through time, and acted upon in/through time and thus the solution to stopping and reversing these relationships is not something that will happen immediately, as it must be walked through/in time, and that this would constitute the 'proof' of who I am as no longer willing to accept and allow myself to create and engage in relationships that are not best for all.

Within this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it is not enough to 'stop participating' in these relationships but to actively deconstruct them through writing, self-forgiveness, and corrective application as is being walked in this blog.

I commit myself to walk this process, step by step, moment by moment, day by day, in each breath, disengaging in the pursuit of energy, while also daily deconstructing through investigation and self-forgiveness the relationships that are causing the energy pursuit or the consequence of energy experience which happens in a moment to continue coming up.

I commit myself to show that are best for all are not going to be instantaneous while most people/the system/myself have not completely stopped all relationships that are not best and reformed each point of interaction between all parts of reality to only support that which is best for all, and thus only at that point would one expect/know that a result that is best would be instantaneous because it would be the manifestation of the entire collective agreement/movement as what is best for all, and thus until that point is reached, I realize that I am still facing consequences that must walked through and not participated in while stopping the automation of these consequences and thus supporting myself and each one in this reality as one as equal to do the same as a point of self-responsibility, and that this is the only way, and yet the certain way, that reality will eventually be directed to produce always what is best for all at all times and in all ways.

The Vocabulary of Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel frustrated with others that they are not wanting to stand up and make a difference, when the reality is that by me feeling something within, it is indicating that I am not in fact standing up within myself, because standing up means stopping the self-interest within as the energy game of fueling feelings, and thus standing up in this world is simply speaking up, showing the solution within the individual context to others, and to place myself in a position in this world where I am able to assist and support with adjusting the agreed upon rules so that the Right to Life is honored and that systems are placed so that the Right to Life of all is ensured through effective management and distribution of resources and money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I feel frustrated that others are not standing up, obviously this indicates that I am not being self-honest within stopping energy within myself, but it also is an indicator that I am not pushing myself towards presenting the actual solution.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is easier to be angry with others/the system and fight and argue rather than take the self-responsibility to directly present the solution to those with 'ears to hear' and that it may not be obvious who has the 'ears to hear' so I must speak to as many people as possible, as directly as possible, and support them to understand what I am presenting as the solution, and that this means that each person I come into contact with, I must ADJUST MYSELF according to WHAT THEY CAN HEAR which will be based on their current vocabulary, their experiences as memories and what they currently accept themselves as equal to and one with.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that someone's vocabulary means they way in which they think and feel about everything.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that a person who is successful in the system at making money still has a limited vocabulary because they do not understand how the mind works, how they body works, and how to create a world that is best for all, which is a new vocabulary.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Desteni is a new vocabulary for what is best for all, and that unless one learn this vocabulary, and has the ability to integrate new words and adjust the meaning of old words and remove the energy/feeling association with all words within one's vocabulary, then it is virtually impossible to understand the Desteni message, and thus I realize that one direct way to make a measurable difference in the world is to support people individually to rebuild their vocabulary and remove all within it that supports the mind to place self-interest above what is best for all, which primarily is the memories within the body, associated with experiences, and defined with words with feeling and emotion attached, that reinforce the belief/knowledge that one has been abused and thus one cannot ever trust another human being and that the only way to exist is to harm others in order to compete to survive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that parents teach their children the vocabulary of competition, harm, abuse, self-interest, consumerism, spitefulness, blame, dishonesty, fear, anger, mistrust, survival, and lack.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that a parent can support themselves to rebuild their vocabulary as well as their child's vocabulary through dedicated effort using the tool of TechnoTutor which places them back in the state they were in when they were a very young child learning words in the first place.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that parents would not understand the best way to parent on their own, because they were raised by a parent who had already submitted to the system, and without an intervention, the parent will never figure it out, and this intervention is nothing more than a communication of what is possible and a commitment to support the parent to walk through the process of taking self-responsibility for re-educating themselves and their children in the context of what is best for all, and that this choice must be made freely by the parent, and thus, as the parent influences the choice of the child through force, which creates a memory of harm in the child, I realize that no one can/should be forced to take self-responsibility, but that I can instead influence through demonstrating, explaining, and showing by example that it is in the parent's and child's best interest to walk a process of educating oneself and one's child in the best way.

I commit myself to remove all points where I blame others and the system for why things in this world are fucked up, when it is in fact each of us individually that is the solution, and thus I commit myself to stand and walk as the solution myself and to support others through effective communication to stand and walk with me as a group, yet walking alone within and as self-responsibility for rebuilding my vocabulary, but as a group creating an environment of support that allows individuals to lean on so to speak, realizing that at times one's individual process can be very challenging, and thus the group can support the individual through those points, and to also as a group accumulate so that a solution can be presented in a group context where eventually what is best in all ways can be voted on and agreed on by each through the application of common sense and self-honesty.

I commit myself to show to those who are willing to stand in this world for what is best for all that the way to support everyone is to support the re-education of the individual to understand how reality in fact operates, and to be able to reason within common sense to see that what is best for all is the only context in which exists what is best for the individual and thus through education, the individual is supported to develop the insight for themselves that the best way to exercise choice is to only choose what is best.

I commit myself to show that the foundation of effective education is an effective vocabulary, free of error, sound and complete, because anything less will lead to misunderstanding, miscommunication, and thus lead to the formation of groups based on self-interest separated from others and thus lead to conflict, competition, and war, and thus all conflict is based in an unequal, and ineffective vocabulary that is not aligned with what is best for all Life.

I commit myself to show that Desteni is the vocabulary of Life.