Fear of Facing Self

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear speaking to other people about the reality of this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear facing the reality of this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the fear of facing others and facing the reality of this world, is in fact fear of loss of stopping within myself that which is manifesting and has created the world as it is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deceive myself into believing that I am making a difference in the world, when I have in fact taken the point of changing the world and used it as a way to feel special and in that create an energetic feeling within myself of superiority and judgment towards others, which is in fact me not stopping that within myself which is creating the real problems on earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that there are many layers of self deception within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want other to change, when I had not been willing to change for real myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to continue participating in my mind as thoughts, feelings, justifications, fears, and beliefs that I have changed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty that I have not actually stopped participating in my mind and within energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to utilize the point of guilt to manipulate myself further with thoughts and feelings of wanting to give up the point of changing for real, which is just another way to deceive myself into continuing participating in the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that others do not want to change, and within this, I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that this thought is just a way to continue participating in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am special, when in fact I am exactly the same as everyone else, equal and one to what I accept and allow within myself and without.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the point that others may not want to change as a way to not live that which I have realized for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the fear of rejection within myself as a projection of what might happen when I speak up with others about what is really happening within ourselves and within this world and what the real solution is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that changing myself is a process because I had accepted and allowed many layers of memories throughout my life and lifetimes which are now manifested in the physical world, and thus as mentioned in the previous post, I realize that changing myself is a moment to moment, breath by breath, application of self honesty in each moment as to stopping participation in thoughts, feelings, and emotions, and acting as what is best for all in that moment based on what I am practically able to do in that moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to realize that Life is not what I might do in the future, it is what I do in this moment, in this breath, as that is the only point that is guaranteed, is this current moment, and thus it is THE POINT within which I establish myself as self-trust within self-honesty.

I commit myself to breathe, and within my breath, to check whether I am participating in my mind or whether I am acting within self honesty as what is best, and to when I see that I am participating in my mind, as I realize that I have automated this point to a great extent, that I immediately stop, focus on my breath, apply self-forgiveness to release myself from that participation in the mind and to dismantle whatever construct I have created that is causing me to automatically participate in the mind.

I commit myself to stand, even while I am walking this process, to share with others, to present solutions to what we have created as consequences on earth, as well as the tools through which I am supporting myself to take more and more responsibility for what I have accepted and allowed within myself as who I am and to change that, and to thus support others to do the same.

The Long Way is the Short Way

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the only way to create something that is real is breath by breath, proven over time to stand the test of time to produce consistent, predictable results that are best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want/desire results to come all at once, or quickly, as this is an indicator that I had still been participating in energy within my mind as the desire for an experience for the sake of experience itself, and not the actual result that would be best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become more focused on the end result of a process than the process itself, as the end result is the RESULT of the process, and thus the initial focus of seeing whether that end result is best is necessary, and then focusing on what is required to be walked in order to receive the result (as the planning phase) but then the shift of focus must be daily, breath by breath on that which will accumulate and produce the end result.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the guide on this journey is self honesty, within looking at in each breath, each moment, am I participating in my mind, just looking for experience as energy, or am I stopping, slowing down, breathing, bringing energy back to self, and forgiving myself, and thus the starting point in each breath is the ending point.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to not live the word patience as a living word as what is best, but to rather EXPERIENCE the word patience within the mind as an energetic experience wherein patience becomes the experience of delay, the tolerating of delay, the tolerating of suffering, the tolerating of unnecessary pain and conflict, whereas within the living of the word as what is best for all is the recognition that one can only do what one can do in a breath in a moment, and thus the point of patience is to recognize and be self honest within whether one is accumulating in that moment what is best or what is not best, and thus patience is a self honest gratitude within self that one is doing what is best and thus the result, in time, is relatively certain within what one is able to take self-responsibility for, and thus the point of experiencing conflict within the word patience is an indication that one is not doing what is best in a moment, because that is all that one can do, and thus if there are consequences to be walked through, then in those moments, that is what is best, and patience in that context is recognizing that one is facing consequence and taking self responsibility to learn from that consequence what one had accepted and allowed that produced the consequence so that one may change within self to no longer produce such a consequence.

I commit myself to live the word patience as a self honest recognition in the moment that I am doing what is best and to thus within that experience hold the word gratitude as being grateful that I am doing what is best, and that by holding to that point, I know that my effect on the world is best, and within the moments where I feel conflict or impatience in the context of wanting things to happen faster, to see/realize in those moments that I am participating in desire as energy, to stop, to look at what consequences I am walking through, to stop, investigate, and change to no longer produce these consequences and within that to express patience as gratitude that I am giving myself the opportunity in that moment to change and thus give to myself as I would want to receive to thus be able to give to others what is best so that I may receive what is best, and to within this know that breath by breath as I accumulate the action of doing what is best, the result of what is best will accumulate in the world more and more, and to thus support others within the point of patience to walk what is necessary in this world as what is best as facing consequences and taking responsibility and changing within oneself and to let go of the energy/desire game of quick results that do not last, because in reality, the long way is the short way, because what appears to be short - as satisfying that desire for a feeling or experience of result but not producing a result that is best for all in fact - cannot last and only creates more consequences to walk through thus delaying the accumulation of what is best as the REAL LASTING result.

Only a Machine Runs on Polarity

Watch The Battery Scene from the movie, The Matrix for context. 

It is not possible to have POSITIVE without NEGATIVE. That is basic physics.

Why are you OK with people suffering so that you can experience a temporary positive energy when SO MUCH MORE is possible if we ended ALL CONFLICT as both Positive AND Negative?

Life is not a polarity. Only a MACHINE runs on the polarity of Positive and Negative.

Are you NOTHING MORE THAN a Machine?

Are you nothing more than an Organic Robot?

Have you been programmed by the System to just generate Energy?

Are thoughts and feelings nothing more than virtual chains?

Will we wake up and dismantle our chains ONE by ONE until Life is set free from the burden of Thought and Feeling to express what is Best for All FREELY in each moment with no PROGRAM necessary?

Who will stand up? 

People like to say that energy is eternal and is never created or destroyed and only changes forms.

But if you are self-honest, you'll admit that IN REALITY, this is only true of PHYSICAL MATTER.

And that all energy is just placing parts of matter in conflict with itself. And so the only way for energy to exist is for conflict to exist. And so when you justify the existence of energy for energy's sake, you are actually justifying the existence of conflict.

And yet you will complain about the conflict because it always takes you from your positive to a negative. And you NEVER question this, because you don't CARE.

In reality, the physical is what makes energy possible, and thus it is the physical that is REAL and while you focus on energy, you miss what is REALLY HERE as the physical world.

And in this IGNORANCE of what is REAL, you continue to IGNORE what is really going on as the conflict and suffering that exists in order for the few to experience a temporary positive.

Very sad. May you wake up before it is too late. Because judgment day is the day you die, where the physical body no longer supports the illusion of thought and energy and returns to be reformed by the physical, while YOU which was thought only... disappear.

The Missing Key within Education

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that all knowledge and information within a human being, is not stored in the mind, but rather in the body in the physical flesh, and thus any form of learning and education that is based on the mind will never produce a child as an adult that is truly effective and able to reason within common sense, because it is not understanding even the most basic aspect of how a human really learns.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the entire education system as well as most alternative forms of education outside of the mainstream are still based within the idea that the child learns with the mind and do not understand that it is the body that really learns and although the education system does not take this point into consideration, the marketing/advertising arms of the corporations do, and utilize images and sound and experiences to imprint into the physical body of consumers memories that will cause thoughts and feelings to come up and cause the consumer to act in predictable ways as buying patterns in order to drive corporate profits, regardless of negative consequences to the consumer and society and the world as a whole.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the antidote to this abuse of children and adults by corporations is a proper education from birth and even prior to that as a reeducation of the adult when possible based on the understanding that the body itself is where memories are stored and that the mind is a tool THROUGH which information is presented and reflected back from the body as thoughts and feelings and thus the mind as a tool, a window, has a specific place in education, but is not being seeing for what it is, and the body is completely being neglected by the education system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the most effective way to support a child within education is to support them to learn, through the the mind, but IN the physical body, words, without emotional charge, either positive or negative, and with the correct definitions, and that when this is done properly, the child, even as an adult, will not be able to be manipulated by the politicians and corporations, because their body will respond to words and images for what they really are - in other words, the child/adult will be able to see through the illusion presented by the politician/corporation and will see the manipulation that is being attempted, and the child/adult's body will not even respond to the attempted manipulation because it was not programmed to respond, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that parents are not aware of this at all, and are instead leaving the development of their child up to random chance, which is not really random, because the corporations and politicians are MASTERS of systematic manipulation of the population through words, symbols, images, sounds, and experiences that are designed to produce predictable behavior/buying patterns, as is shown evident in documentaries like The Trap, The Century of the Self, and Psywar.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as a parent, to look at my child's behavior as individual preference and individual desire and want and ignore/deliberately not see the reality that their behavior is a reflection of the words, images, sounds, and experiences that I have allowed them to be exposed to, and yet within this I have instead used the child's preference to justify the situation I have placed them in, instead of taking full responsibility for every word, sound, image, and experience that my child is exposed to.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become despondent as a parent and feel apathetic towards taking 100 percent responsibility for everything that my child is exposed to, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the perfect tool to support my child to develop an effective reasoning ability, reading ability, math ability, and common sense awareness of reality exists as TechnoTutor, as this tool was developed by someone who understood how the child learns as a function of their physical body, and the evidence that this tool provides a superior education than anything else that is available, is clear for anyone who wished to investigate.

I commit myself to show parents and educators that the best way to educate a child is to primarily focus on the vocabulary development of the child in the first 7 years to ensure that each word is placed into the child's physical memory without emotional charge and with the correct definition.

I commit myself to stand as an authority in parenting and education to show that there is a way to educate children that will produce a child and thus a society that is reasonable, functionally effective, and cooperative in ways that are best for all.

Please, Distract Me!

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only want to see things on the news that paint a pretty picture about what is happening on earth.

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I only look at pretty images that make me feel good then the earth and life will reflect this inner feeling, when in fact the good feeling that I have is only because I have access to money, and that if I were in a position without money, looking at pretty pictures would not make me feel better except for the point of motivating my desire to make money to create that pretty picture for myself, regardless of what I create in the world as a consequence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I focus on feeling good within, I am actually only focused on my own self interest and thus I am ignoring the suffering that is occurring daily on the planet, not to mention the suffering of my own physical body which I am mining for energy in order to experience a good feeling.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have never questioned the system that is running this world, automatically producing events and situations that are in fact extremely negative as abuse of people, animals, plants, and the physical environment, in order to generate money, which I use to make myself feel good through creating a personal environment where I am surrounded with that which I need and desire as food, shelter, technology, entertainment, etc.

I forgive myself that I have never accepted and allowed myself to realize that entertainment is nothing more than a pretty picture that I use to distract myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that even being entertained by 'negative' images is still a form of distraction because it supports my mind to 'experience' a negative temporarily to then justify seeking a positive state of feeling good, in contrast to the negative.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider the physical toll that making a move, for instance, has on the physical environment and those involved who have to slave away to create a pretend picture for me to distract myself with, or the news, for instance, where someone is required to spend their whole life just putting pictures together for me to experience and thus even my entertainment requires a money system to enslave others to sacrifice their lives creating a picture for me, while I completely ignore the real picture in front of my very eyes as the physical world replete with suffering, abuse, murder, war, starvation, poverty, child abuse, child sacrifice, and so many abhorrent things that I shield myself from using entertainment and positive, pretty pictures to distract my physical body from realizing that I am enslaving it along with the rest of the physical existence just to create a temporary, good feeling within myself that I know, self honestly, cannot last, which is why the system must constantly evolve new ways to distract/entertain me and everyone else, so that we never realize what we are participating in, and yet I cannot self-honestly blame the system, because this is actually what I have asked for and placed value on with my dollars so that I can continue with the energy game within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the media and the elite for producing entertainment and news that distracts when it would not be produced if no one were going to consume it, and further, I cannot blame another for taking advantage of a system that I am taking advantage of within the exact same starting point to generate money for myself to be able to experience as good a life as possible regardless of the physical toll on my body and this physical world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that searching for/seeking positive energy experience is actually a form of entertainment when the physical world is suffering and that the energy game is in itself of no value and that if I were truly a creative being I would stop looking for ways to entertain myself with energy and I would focus all of my attention on the physical world to find/create/promote solutions to the physical problems that exist - an unequal money and education being the two prominent ones that would have the greatest impact on reducing suffering and creating prosperity and a life of dignity for all equally.

I commit myself to investigate, question, and stop all the forms and ways in which I distract myself from what is really Here on earth through not wanting to see a negative image that is in fact showing what is really Here or wanting to see a positive image that misrepresents our current reality or entertains/distracts me while I allow the system to continue as is.

I commit myself to investigate and expose the ways in which the system automatically produces distractions to entertain people to not stand up and adjust the system so that the NEED to be distracted no longer exists, and to investigate and stand within all the ways in which media/business can be used to support people to stand up within themselves and walk this process of self-correction and world-system correction until the system is brought to a point of supporting what is best for all equally as one. 

The Inner Voice as Inner Vice

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not realize that every thought, every word that forms the inner voice of my self-talk, is always trying to convince me in some way that I am either better than another or less than another and in some way to justify my existence as a consumer of products which reinforce a self image that is always seeking to be superior to others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the inner voice is not something that I can trust to ever produce what is best for me and for all, because it is the product of memories that have been placed into me over my entire life and over generations through the copying of the mind from parent to child, in order to keep my controlled as a physical body to never stand up and do what is best from the perspective of the real physical world, but only as a slave to the system of consumption of people, resources, plants, animals - this entire physical existence - for the purpose of profit which is the pursuit of energy for the experience of the individual which is something that cannot last for the individual and thus really only exists for the survival of a program of control of individuals, though, because I as an individual have bought into the lies of the inner voice, I have accepted and allowed a belief that I as an individual in the context of my experiences and feelings is somehow more than everything that exists physically, when common sense shows that the individual experience is extremely limited and obviously temporary while the physical reality is the only thing that is real and is what is making the individual experience possible in the first place.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have formed, over time, a habit of listening to and participating in the inner voice conversation, and that I have bought into the reward of the inner voice conversation as a form of either gossip about another that makes me feel superior or as a form of gossip about myself that makes me feel inferior and that either way causes/motivates me to act in a way to attempt to gain energy at the expense of the physical world..

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to never really question where the inner voice comes from, and to even participate in the belief that the inner voice is the ONLY thing that can be trusted which is like completely buying to the control system that benefits only the profit of the corporation and the individuals who own and control them so that I remain a slave to the consumer system and that buying into the idea of the inner voice is like being a slave who admires their chains and polishes them and brags about them and asks for bigger and better chains all the while wishing that one could be in the position of the slave master, which is the most ridiculous, stupid thing that exists, and yet I and everyone else are doing this, day in day out, moment by moment, breath by breath, participating in this inner voice control mechanism so that we are not here for real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the reason I don't trust anyone else really is because I know that they are participating in the inner voice conversation within themselves just as I am and I know what the content of that conversation is like within me and thus I assume that everyone is just as evil and screwed up, and yet no one, not even myself, has been willing to really stop, and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear giving up the inner voice conversation and being someone who lives in the physical, as the physical completely regardless of what anyone else is doing, and that within this I realize that I can find ways to get through to others just as someone got through to me and I am now taking responsibility for stopping the mind as the inner voice and no longer accepting myself as a slave.

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my inner voice as an inner guidance system is always right, when has been in fact programmed by my parents and environment to always lead me to find ways to be a better consumer, and thus it is not supporting me to walk what is BEST.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that believing that the inner guidance system as my thoughts and feelings is the ONLY THING that I should listen to is equivalent to simply calling up a corporation and asking them what products I should buy - they are never going to tell me what is really best, but only what supports their profits, and thus within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it is the CORPORATIONS THEMSELVES that have designed my inner guidance system through the images and sounds that I am exposed to on a constant, daily basis through advertising.

I commit myself to stopping participation in the inner voice conversation, no matter how challenging or tempting it is because I KNOW that it has no value, and that if I must talk to myself inside, then why can't I share that with others unless I am deliberately trying to have a conversation in secret which would imply that my starting point is to compete for survival, which is not real living and will never produce a world that is best for all.

I commit myself to continue to walk the process of reading Creation's Journey to Life and Heaven's Journey to Life blogs, listening to the EQAFE recordings, writing self-forgiveness daily, daily assessing my process and identifying points where I am still compromising myself as a physical being as Life, stopping participation in my mind, using TechnoTutor daily to support myself to redefine my vocabulary, and to stand as a living example that this process can be walked by anyone and that there is no excuse not to do so.

The Con of Survival

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am going to die at some point and I do not know when that point will be.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within the starting point that my death is not actually inevitable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the delusion that there is such a thing as survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the only thing that is 'surviving' currently is a program of control over physical reality to abuse it in order to produce conflict and friction in order to generate energy which continues the existence of the program.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my continued participation in the fear of dying and the fear of not surviving are indicators that I am not standing up within myself as Life as the Physical in Oneness and Equality and am in fact only existing as a slave to a program through acceptance and allowance that controls my body and this physical reality to only produce energy which in itself is of NO VALUE whatsoever.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the idea that Life is meaningless is only existing because I am not valuing Life, and thus it is my existence for the continuation and survival of a program of abuse that is meaningless and that I would identify that as Life and not the principle of Oneness and Equality as Life as what is Best for All is an indication that I am not standing up within myself and in this physical reality as Life itself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire survival over Living within the context of always acting and expressing within the context of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that even a temporary existence Lived within the context of what is Best for All is of real value and that an infinite existence lived/experienced within the context of simply surviving, with no real expression or experience of what is best for all is of NO VALUE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Life as an eternal principle of what is best for all regardless of context is the only thing of real value and that existence for the mere purpose of existence of survival is of NO VALUE in itself, and thus as a being that currently exist only for survival, I realize that it is my responsibility and duty and in fact privilege to be Here and to walk myself out of the Hell that I have accepted and allowed within and without as a world of abuse where all are condemned to an existence of struggle and competition for survival.

I commit myself to stand within myself and this reality as what is best for all as Life and to assist and support myself to remove, point by point, every fear, belief, thought, feeling, limitation that I have accepted and allowed as an excuse, justification, reason to not stand Here as what is best and to rather focus on survival.

I commit myself to walk within the system of business and to support those who are willing to stand up for what is best equal and one as myself to place ourselves in a position in this world to adjust the system so that it no longer automatically produces conditions that demand for a child to conform to a program of competition for survival so that future generations will have an easier path to walk and so that this world will eventually be a place where one can live, exist, and express in ways that truly honor life and is an environment where always acting in ways that are best for all is normal, natural, and the standard of living.

I commit myself to be a living example to show that even though conditions are not ideal for an individual to do what is best, that by standing within the principle of what is best, and walking as a group, we can do what is best in the context of how things currently are, so that we can adjust things to eventually produce ONLY what is best, and that the context of being in an existence where Life is NOT given unconditionally is no excuse to not stand up and put my LIFE on the line, because that is what Life would do if it existed here. Life would not be afraid to GIVE LIFE, as that is the nature of Life - to GIVE LIFE UNCONDITIONALLY regardless of context and to expand beyond all perceived limitation and become equal to and one with that which would create an optimal condition for the expression of Life within each one that is Here.