Fear as the Source of Fear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to when confronted with the truth of who I am as seeking energy and feeling good and superior that I, instead of breathing, considering, being honest with myself, stopping and changing, I rather go into justification and blame as a form or defense and protection against not changing my starting point as seeking energy and positive experience for myself only.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that the consequences that I see within my life that I know are not best for myself and everyone are here showing me the result of my starting point of who I am and how I am living and thus are an opportunity for reflection for me to change and yet within that I have used these consequences instead as a justification why I cannot change because I must survive, when in fact that which I am attempting to hold onto is the very thing is producing the consequences I am now faced with and thus I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that it is not about changing the past consequences, but stopping and preventing the creation of more consequence, and that until I stop there is no way I would even be able to address the consequences that are already here.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see/realize that I have been living my life, up to now, attempting to manipulate myself and others to change the past rather, not realizing that in having such a starting point I am in fact recreating the past as my present and future, because I am not changing the starting point from which I am creating, which is the pursuit of happiness in contrast to what I see as the sadness of the present, which is really the past.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that those/that which challenge my happiness/pursuit of happiness are not the evil ones, but the ones that are in fact supporting me to see the key to stopping the creation of that which is causing my UNhappiness, but instead I have blamed them as the problem, which is a statement of me not wanting to accepting self responsibility for who I am and what I am creating, which is thus what has kept me in cycles of creating that which I really do not want, ultimately, which is fear and death.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the presence of fear within me is indicating my starting point for why/what I am creating/attempting to create, which is really just an attempt to continue my survival as energy, which is not real, and because I know this deep down, I now realize that this is where the fear is coming from, from the desire to protect that which I know is not real, and as this experience of fear is a negative energy, I am attempting to use this to move myself into a positive experience, and thus within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the positive, which cannot last, as it fades will shift me back into a state of fear, and unless I stop, this is all I will ever exist as - fear - because that which I am attempting to create/hold onto/protect in my moments of fear and in response to fear will never be real, because it is the very UNreality of that which I am attempting to create/hold onto which is driving the fear in the first place.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to ever question my starting point nature as fear, and instead took my fear for granted.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to question WHAT exactly it is that fears dying.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear everything being taken, and within that to not question WHAT the nature of that which I believe can be taken is - is it REAL or UNreal?

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that within the starting point of fearing everything/anything being taken from me, I have manifested myself as the very embodiment/expression of TAKING only, taking out of fear, and thus I am not really living, not really giving, and thus because I am TAKING only - what I will receive in EQUAL MEASURE is TAKING in the absolute sense as I have taken that which gives me Life and not allowed that which gives Life to all to be given to all equally - and I have manifested every excuse possible to allow myself to blame this fact on everything/anything but ME to the point where I have accepted and allowed, participated in and benefited from, a system of distribution that creates immense suffering for most all life on earth and in this, because it at least allows me to survive temporarily, I never question or stand up within it to change it, which shows my shortsightedness as well as my starting point of not really caring about anything real, because no one survives existence currently, no one survives death that is not real, because that is the nature of not being real, and thus within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the only way to stop fear is to - STOP FEAR - to stop attempting to take and secure my existence as feeling good as feeling positive as getting energy for myself and rather STOP and ask myself, if I were REAL what would I be doing, what would I be doing with this temporary existence that I have, if there were no fear - if I KNEW that no matter what, I am real, and that only then would I be able to ACT within the starting point of that which is real and that unless I give up all illusions of something MORE and ACT AS IF I am already complete, not lacking, knowing that the only thing that matters is the EFFECT I have in reality in taking back that which I have allowed to be projected from the physical as my symbolic self, bringing myself back to earth, and adjusting the systems that exist here to distribute what is here to all equally - unless I become the solution within/as my self - the living example, then I will in fact never be real and thus all I would ever experience, eternally is fear and death - and thus I forgive myself that I have never stopped before, and that I have used this never having stopped before as a justification to not stop now, in this Life, and I forgive myself that I have allowed any excuse whatsoever to not stop once and for all and allow myself to find out what is beyond fear, what is real, what is Here, and to no longer search for something more, but to simply be Here and discover what is Here, and allow myself to stand equal to and one with all that is here and let go of the need to be special or important, understanding that those things have no meaning or value in the context of having let go of fear as a starting point for existing.

I commit myself to stopping fear in all its facets, both within myself and without as the system that automatically creates reasons for fear in the form of unequal distribution of what is required to function and exist as Life in all its various forms as how Life is currently manifested here as the physical reality.

I commit myself to - through writing, self-forgiveness, and self-corrective application - identify and remove all fear from within me, to breath by breath check the movement within me as energy, feeling, and thought, and to stop participation within each knowing that all energy movement within me as thought and feeling is coming from the starting point of fear, to motivate me to move in response to fear to continue the cycles of negative to positive to negative ad infinitum, and thus I commit myself to stop the cycles of creation of energy and bring back that which I have allowed as energy projection within and as my self as personality and relationship, to bring it back to self and ground that and thus re-learn how to live and act in the world from the starting point of how to create a living system on earth that supports and allows each of us to practically give life to each other - to remove any reason and excuse for fear, and to never give in to fear, but to stop it, question it, see where I am still holding on to a desire to exist as energy and use the tools that I have here to remove it and realign myself to live here unconditionally even while the system is still conditional - to show and prove that there is no valid excuse and that this can be done and to thus support others to do the same until this is done and fear has no place whatsoever in existence any more.

Sacrificing the Moment for a Future That Never Comes

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that it is the small daily, breath by breath actions that accumulate into the big picture of my life and this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in thoughts, feelings and emotions of anticipation for an event in the future, expecting and hoping that event to bring me some feeling of satisfaction, peace, joy, relaxation, respite, rest, happiness, etc when I have been sacrificing the everyday moments where I could be creating that which I want while waiting for the 'big event' to come.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that by placing my expectation on a future event to bring me some form of happiness that I am thus allowing myself to remain open to manipulation of how I am living in the day to day, moment to moment. For example: by placing all my expectation of happiness onto a holiday like christmas or a vacation or as party, I allow myself to experience frustration, unhappiness, on a moment to moment basis during the days, weeks, and months leading up to the event I am looking forward to, and thus I am missing out on why I am feeling negatively during the moment moment, day to day, not questioning what I am really participating in both within and without in the day to day. Another example: I place my children in school and force them to go each day, rushing them to wake up, go to school, come home, do their homework, hurry up and eat, shower and go to bed only to repeat, looking forward to that small amount of time where we can spend some moments of happiness over the holiday, not realizing that all I am doing in fact is participating in a moment to moment negative experience, self honestly I am not in fact enjoying the moment to moment, I feel stressed, I feel rushed, I feel like I 'just have to get through it' - doing all of this to justify the experience of an amazing positive experience of happiness in that small, but seemingly big, moment of the holiday, for example, but even within that I can feel the tension and stress still there - and thus I realize that the whole thing is a lie - I never actually experience anything real, substantial as happiness, it is more like the build up and release of a sneeze, where I experience a lot of friction and then eventually release,

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that everything I have defined as positive only has meaning and value in contrast to the negative that I must go through in order to create the positive experience, and thus I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that by participating in this cycle, I am in fact teaching my children, by example, to do the same and condemning them to a life of mostly negative experience punctuated by brief moments of relative 'happiness' but deep down I know that it is not real happiness, it is just me participating in a short-lived cookie cutter, pre-set system where I can believe that I am enjoying the company of my loved ones for a moment, but it is not real self-expression of happiness or joy, it is just me playing a game, without question, for no other reason than that I have never questioned it and stopped and asked myself 'what would be the actual best way to experience myself on earth and how would that look in relation to everyone else on earth'.

I commit myself to investigate through writing, self forgiveness, and self corrective application all the ways in which I participate in the negative (and positive) in the little breath by breath moment to moment basis in anticipation of something bigger at some point in the future and to thus stop participation and realign my living to be of substance and practically best for all in EACH MOMENT because I realize that it is the moment to moment basis that creates my life, not the temporary, short lived moments, and thus I commit myself to show others, as a living example as well as through communication, that we can create a life here on earth, together, where each moment is of substance and value if we would start paying attention to what we accept and allow in ourselves in each moment and to question that, forgive ourselves and realign our living in each moment to what is best for all, and within that the expression and experience of all on earth will be a moment to moment experience of what is best, and thus there will be no need to ever again look to the future for some promise of reward as the reward will be Here present in each moment as a gift we are giving to ourselves and each other simply through our individual and thus collective self responsibility for what we accept and allow in each moment, as that is all, practically we can really direct ourselves as individuals.

The Silent Judgment of Other Parents

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that judging other parents as not making the best decisions for their child is not supportive either for myself, the other other parent, the child or anyone.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that each parent acts in accordance to the programming that they have accepted and allowed breath by breath over the course of their lives, especially in the first 7 years of their life and thus when their child is in the first 7 years they are busy programming their child with their patterns which is what perpetuates the problems on earth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think/believe/feel that I am better/superior to another parent when I see another parent do something that I judge as not best for their child, when this judgment and feeling of being better/superior is an indication that I am still participating in the energy of mind searching for feelings of positivity within myself which would indicate that I am in fact equal to the other parent whom I am judging as less than.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that in my observation of other parents, because I am able to see that they are not doing what is best for their child and themselves, that I am thus responsible for what I see BECAUSE I am aware, and thus I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to take full responsibility for this awareness.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself myself to realize that I am able to take responsibility for what I see in others as behaviors that are less than what is best through, identifying the points within me where I use the reflection to feel less than/better than, which is a form of judgment which shows me where I am still participating in my mind, and to show what patterns still exist in the world that must be corrected and thus give me an opportunity to investigate why this pattern exists to show that the root cause is always the money system as it is currently existing which places parents in a survival state and virtually unable to question and correct their behaviors.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that I, as someone who is aware of the problem, have a greater responsibility at the moment than those that do not, and yet within that the responsibility is to find ways to show others how they can take responsibility for themselves, and thus playing the game of silent judgment will in no way make an impact on supporting others to change themselves because within that I would just be distracting myself and preventing myself from standing within and changing the systems that are causing parents to go into survival mode because to challenge such a system and stop this whole mess from perpetuating would place me in a position where I am no longer 'superior' or 'better' than another because the patterns that I have judged would no longer exist.

Thus, I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that by participating in the backchat in my secret mind towards other parents who are not doing what is best for their child, I am disempowering myself, the opposite of what it 'feels like' in my mind as feeling 'superior' or 'better than' and perpetuating the system of abuse to continue because I have disempowered myself from standing up and changing it, all for the temporary reward of energy in my mind which will never last and will require me to judge MORE in order to feed that system within me, thus I realize that this silent judgment game is of no real value for anyone.

I see/realize that there is a difference between seeing a pattern in another that is not best and judging that pattern and generating a feeling within which I participate, and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place value on the feeling generated and allowed myself to participate in these 'silent' judgments in my mind while never questioning or seeing that I am in fact engaging in a behavior pattern that is not best.

I commit myself to stop participation in all thoughts and feelings of judgment towards other parents, and take responsibility by supporting others to see how I have corrected those patterns of behavior as a parent towards my child to show a living example of how a parent can communicate and interact with their child in a way that not only allows them to physically survive but supports them to develop a character where the child values Life, is effective a communicating and learning, and is a person who others would like to be around naturally.

I commit myself to stop participation in the game of energy through judgment and to thus stand up and support other parents directly by showing them the tools to correct the words that are misaligned within them that is creating behavior patterns that are not best both within the parent and the child.

I commit myself to show those who are willing and able at the moment the way to create financial freeom, as much as it is possible in this current system, through educating themselves, their children, and others and to find those parents who are willing and able through that to stand up in the system and support their children to eventually stand up in the system as well so that the system can be adjusted to eventually support all parents and children, even those who are currently in positions to not be able to improve their lives and their children's lives significantly at the moment.

In Food I Trust

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear eating only what is best for my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can only prefer to eat what is not best for my body.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I have participated in and allowed a world where my body is a slave to my mind and through my mind, corporations that do not have my best interest at heart have programmed me to only prefer foods that are designed to make me want more of that food regardless of whether it supports the body, and yet I realize that I have accepted and allowed this due to my desire to experience positive feelings from what I eat and due to not directing all of the negative points within me that accumulate into feelings of stress, sadness, depress, loneliness, etc trough which I justify using food to alleviate these feelings, when in reality they are the excuse to participate in eating that which I have defined and allowed to be defined as giving me pleasure as positive energy experience, despite of the consequence to my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame corporations or even food itself for causing dysfunction in my body, when in fact it is the use, abuse, and manipulation that I put my body through by participating in the desire for positive experience and thus my own deliberate spite of my body as the physical living being that gives me life that is the only thing that deserves blame, and thus I take responsibility for who I am and have allowed myself to become in relation to my body.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only care about what happens to my body when it forms into a state that either cause me to experience physical pain or emotional pain the sense of not giving me a positive feeling through either how it appears or how it functions.

I forgive myself that I have refused to allow myself to see the extent to which I have abused my body and this physical world in the pursuit of feeling good.

I forgive myself that I have not gone to the root cause of why I feel bad and forgiven that and instead went to abusing my body to make me feel good, whether through food, drugs, and/or sex.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to from a young age attempt to cope with feelings of boredom and irritation with eating foods that make me feel better temporarily despite them not being best for the optimal functioning of my body and making me feel bad later.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let negative emotion go unchecked and to respond to it by focusing on the positive instead of taking responsibility for the negative and stopping it in its tracks.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is no consequence to participating in energy, not being honest with myself about what I am really doing to myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear letting go of eating myself into positivity which is an indicator that I desire to continue to abuse myself through searching for positive energy.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that there is so much more to Life than the experience of positive energy and that my fear of stopping participation in such is due to having accepted myself as less than Life.

I commit myself to stopping participation in the mind as thoughts and feelings that direct me what to eat or do and instead breathe and look within self honesty if there is any justification at all, especially based on avoiding, covering up, dealing with, managing, suppressing negative feeling or seeking some positive feeling, which would indicate that I had already moved from the negative to the point of already accepting that I am now in the mode of suppression - to in those moments stop and re-evaluate and allow myself to make the decision that is best, and to investigate through writing and self forgiveness all the points that justify the fear within me to not stop participating in the negative/positive creation cycle within what I choose to eat.

I commit myself to investigate how I can align my preferences within eating and physical activity so that they are supportive of the optimal functioning of my body and support me within this world to remain here and not go into cycles of negative/positive but to focus myself in each moment to do what is best for all.

Reclaiming Energy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only move if I feel positive or negative energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to motivate myself only through the cycles of positive and negative energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be less than my physical body and thus abdicate the responsibility for moving myself as my physical body to the mind where only energy directs me.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the small movements and actions that I do breath by breath are what accumulate results in this world and in my life and thus if I allow myself to be motivated only by energy of the mind then I am missing what I am actually accumulating breath by breath and thus I have no right to be surprised when things in my life and world don't work out because I have actually been participating in them either through direct action or lack of action because I have instead been focused on only the energy experience in my mind, like a movie or form of entertainment.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that my life is not what I am experiencing in the moment as energy of my mind, it is the final result of what I accumulate breath by breath by the time my experience here in this life ends at death and that at death, none of those momentary experiences will matter to me, because I cannot take them with me, all I have is what I have accepted and allowed myself to accumulate breath by breath physically which stands as who and what I am.

I forgive myself that I have refused to allow myself to accept and realize that I can and am able to check each breath to assess whether I am doing what is best and that the only reason it appears that I cannot is because I have become addicted to the energy of the mind where results seem to appear quickly, but where they fade just as quickly and thus are not real, and thus I realize that it may take time as more than one breath before I am able to see everything and check everything I am accepting and allowing within one breath and thus I will not use the excuse that it is impossible to be aware of everything I am accepting and allowing in a breath to not walk my process, as I realize it is a process, though, self honestly, I really do not know how many breaths it will take, thus the only thing I can do is walk breath by breath from here forward until this is done as there is no acceptable alternative in any case.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that if living breath by breath were tedious then the body would not function, and that this belief is an indicator of the extent to which I have become my mind only and completely separated myself from my physical body.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be grateful that I am aware that it is possible to stop participation in the abuse of myself and this world in the pursuit of energy.

I commit myself to checking each breath and learning (relearning) to live breath by breath so that I may only accumulate a result in the physical that is best for all and that I will utilize self-honesty when and as I become aware that I am missing breaths or that I am allowing less than what is best in a breath and thus I commit to using writing, self-forgiveness, and self-corrective application to right the mistakes that I allow in a breath that are not best for all.

I commit myself to be a living example that there is no valid excuse to not walk oneself back to physical reality and reclaim the energy that I have accepted and allowed to be generated unfairly from the physical for no reason but spitefulness and within this I will stand as a living example that there is no reason to use blame as a justification for why anything in this world is not best for all but to instead take self-responsibility to correct myself as how I am creating what is not best and to support others to do the same through reasonable communication as well as my living example.

I commit myself to be a living example of a parent who shows and communicates with their children how to live in this world in a way that one's living is a giving and not just a self interested taking and that my child can be an example of what is possible when parent and child communicate as equals and no excuses are allowed in the name of survival or self interest to create a separation that will harm everyone including oneself and one's child.

Personal Risk As a Form of Self-Interest

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am taking a personal risk by standing up and doing what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the world is the way it is because of WHO I AM and WHAT I DO and HOW I DO it.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the only way the world can change is if I change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe the illusion presented to me in my mind as fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to misuse my imagination to imagine all kinds of negative scenarios that could happen if I stand up and take the risk of no longer accepting and allowing myself and others to continue along our preprogrammed paths that only support the world to remain as is.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that fear is the way my mind keeps control over my body and it is the way that I control other through the world system to remain enslaved to only exist to create money for the few and that if I allow my mind to direct what I do then I am equal to the abusers of this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is such a thing as personal risk in this world where in fact the world is a reflection of me and thus the REAL RISK is in not changing in this life, because if I do not I will have to come back to this world and be programmed again even more effectively to not wake up and change this world to one that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to look at the examples of others who are standing up, in spite of perceived personal risk, to do what is best, and that if they can do it, so can I.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that as I stand up, others will stand up, and thus the group that represents the interest of Life will grow and through the growth of this group, we will be a force to be reckoned with as we have reckoned that the system is not supporting life and in that we will hold ourselves and everyone else accountable until our system is adjusted in a measurable way to always produce a result that is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that the friction I experience when I stand up for what is best is only temporary and is there as a test for myself to see if my standing is real or in my imagination only.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that up to now I have been 'standing up' in my mind only and that is why I constantly experience judgments towards others who I perceive as 'not standing up' because really I have been abusing the concept of standing up as a way to make myself feel better about continuing with my life as is, but when I am honest with myself I know that I have not changed, my situation has not changed, the world has not changed, and that I have never stood up in fact, and that now I have the opportunity to stand up and have that stand reflected in the world.

I forgive myself that I have not realized that personal risk is only exists when I stand to lose something of value, when I have in fact already rejected that which is of the only value, which is life, and thus if I use personal risk as an excuse to not stand up, I am risking the only thing that is real, and I may never get another chance.

I commit myself to push past all resistance, whether in my mind or presented to me through others/events, in order to stand up for what is best, whether that simply be stopping participation in a thought/feeling/emotion/energy in a moment, stopping participating in someone else's self-dishonesty, or communicating through common sense reason to support another to see their dishonesty, or placing myself in a financial position to be able to have an effect in the world through politics, and always to through writing, self-forgiveness, and self-corrective application identify, let go, and change the patterns that are within my that cause me to act in automated fashion in ways that are not best.

I commit myself to work with others in a group, to put aside personal interest and ego, to let go of the idea of personal risk and to stand up for Life as what is best, as I now realize that this is the only option in which I will know that I have done my best in the limited time I have in this Life.

It Is Possible to Change

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the purpose of my existence is to experience energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I do not change, if I do not stop participating in energy as the starting point of my existence, then I am fucked, and as I would not be worthy of life, because I would show that I cannot be trusted with Life because when given Life, I abuse it and I justify why I should be allowed to continue to abuse it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use feelings of guilt and fear to manipulate myself into not considering the real starting point of my existence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify that I do not need to change as there is no real consequence to anything, that this world is not real and that nothing matters, when in fact I know deep down that I do not REALLY FEEL that way, but it is a symptom of me not believing/accepting/considering that it is possible to change, that it is possible to stop participating in the abuse of Life for the experience of energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed only those events that are extremely negative, to move me to 'make decisions' from within the starting point of attempting to create a positive experience.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that every major event in my life has been the creation of some negative situation, and within that I have manipulated myself to feel justified within the creation of the positive, when in fact none of this was necessary.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not question my starting point of trying to create positive energy experiences for myself, and within that to actually deliberately create negative situations in order to justify the creation of the positive, and within that I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see that this game has been the starting point of my life since the beginning.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make situations worse in order for me to justify changing them, instead of just looking at what is not best within a situation and directing it to be best, instead I distracted myself with seeking only the positive as contrast to the negative situation, and within that never taking actual responsibility to really create something better as a solution, and thus always returning to a point of wanting to create a negative in order to justify creating a positive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become trapped within cycles of negative/positive creation and within the word trap, to deceive myself into believing that I cannot get out of the trap, and thus within this I see/realize that it is not about 'getting out of the trap' it is simply a matter of stopping participation in both the positive/negative as well as the neutral which I have defined as an absence of positive or negative experience, it is simply about stopping, recapturing the energy that I have allowed to run rampant as my mind as a program of all the information that I accepted and allowed throughout my life to define who I am and have used to justify who I am as the starting point of participating in energy.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I do not know anything really about my physical body or physical reality and that I have only ever participated in knowledge and information within my mind that I have used to define who I am and how physical reality works, when in fact all that knowledge and information has always been designed/created from the starting point of myself and others seeking energy as a positive experience of reward and thus all knowledge and information has really just been a form of control to make sure that we never stand equal and one to ourselves as physical bodies and this physical reality to always act in ways that are best for all, and thus within this, I cannot blame anyone else for the problems in this world, even if I can't see how I have directly contributed to them, because all the problems stem from the exact same starting point from which I have lived within myself and this world, and thus through that I have accepted and allowed the world to be the way it is because then I do not have to change.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the only valid knowledge and information is that which support me and others equally to be here, physically, and work with reality in a way that produces results at all times that are best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to refuse to see that, in my mind, I have never and would never consider what is best for all, because the mind is based on energy only and knows nothing about how physical reality works.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify myself within not supporting myself to stop as 'my decision' when in reality I am not making any decisions, the mind as a program that only seeks its continued existence is in control and making all the decisions, and it used feelings as positive rewards to prevent me from ever standing up and taking back directive control of the mind and thus stand equal and one within my physical body and using the mind more an an interface with reality as a map of existence to navigate, but instead I have used it as the starting point of my existence, and thus I have just walked blindly through life following the whims of the mind to continue to feed it energy, and then I complain when I experience consequences of this blind pursuit that we are all participating in, but I have never stood up and said "No more!"

I commit myself to stand in all ways and in every action to STOP this game of energy search within myself and to say "No more!" as the proof of my physical actions show that I am no longer accepting and allowing my mind to be in the driver's seat of the body, but to stand equal and one with my body and use the Mind as a GPS, and within this I commit myself to reprogramming the mind as GPS so that the Mind is not based on seeking energy but is simply a map of what exists physically and thus I commit myself to reprogram myself to act in all ways only as what is best and to not allow myself to fall into the trap of seeking energy as reward, and when I fall as may happen from time to time as I learn the extent to which I have automated the reward seeking behavior within myself - to STOP, stand back up, to use writing, self-forgiveness, and self corrective application to remove the dysfunctional behavior patterns and to redirect myself to do what is best.