Do You Realize Your Potential?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see my real potential.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist and reject my real potential.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to hold onto my potential AS potential and not realize it, as an excuse for not walking the discipline of self-change required to realize my potential as ACTUALITY.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not perform a self honest self assessment as to what my real potential, as life, as supporting the creation of a world that is best for all, and instead have defined potential within myself in comparison with others as to image, ability to make money, recognition from others as fame and pats on the back, and not consider that they only person I have to answer to is myself, within my own self honesty as to whether I am moving through resistance and changing myself or letting go of that which prevents me from speaking up, creating a world that is best, and DOING that which is best in each moment.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to succumb to the temptation of excuse, where I believe that I can excuse myself from having to do what is currently uncomfortable, what my mind considers boring, of no consequence or purpose, not exhilarating, or giving me a good feeling.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others whom I see are not living their full potential.

I forgive myself that I have judged myself for not living my full potential.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear standing up and having the spotlight on me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I change, the spotlight will be on me, because everyone fears change and I would represent what others fear, but I would also represent what others really want for themselves, and thus they would potentially be jealous, at least initially, but that is a point for them to face, as they will see that their jealousy and spite towards me will not change my standing up, and thus I would show them that it is ok to live as one's potential.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be jealous of others whom I perceive as living their potential to some degree, separating myself from them, and separating myself from the potential within myself and not giving myself the opportunity to step into, and walk into, my potential as Life, as expression and expansion, and doing what is best even in a limited context.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must impress anyone but myself, and within that the only thing that is worth considering as impressive is whether I stand up more and more each day, each moment, to speak up and share about what is best and to do what is best, and to support in the creation of a system that is best for all in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the excuse that others are not living their potential, whom I previously looked up to, as a way to excuse myself from standing up and being the example for them temporarily until all are walking this point, as equals and as one, within walking the process of expanding into each one's true potential as living what is best for all in all ways at all times.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to WANT to make an excuse to not realize my potential as activating it, living it, doing it and instead have feared what might happen, when the reality is, what WILL happen if I don't is that I will END and lose this ONE OPPORTUNITY to have BECOME MY REAL POTENTIAL AS LIFE.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that although I may see the potential in myself or another, it is up to the individual to live as that potential in reality, and the only thing I can do is SPEAK the truth in self honesty, and LIVE as what is best for all, which may be at times standing in the face of another and showing them their bullshit and showing them the path to self forgiveness and will also be in EVERY MOMENT standing in the mirror of reality seeing my reflection in everything as what is the truth of my inner world and thus every excuse I make will eventually become reflected and thus no amount of judgment will ever change anything, no amount of anger will ever change anything, no amount of frustration or begging or crying or yelling will ever change unless we are SELF HONEST and let go of ALL EXCUSES and stand up clearly in this world and support ourselves and each other to realize that WE ARE LIFE and we are currently living as equal to LESS than LIFE and yet we can change, it won't happen completely overnight, but the change in the moment happens in the moment, and the moment by moment changes WILL accumulate to eventually become the FINAL MOMENT of change that is necessary to shed all illusion and live here fully without fear, in total self trust, and ability to give as we would like to receive and thus give and receive life equally as one.

I commit myself to challenge EVERY excuse that comes up within me - every thought - and to dissolve every thought that repeats in my head with self-forgiveness, realizing that if I try to simply ignore my thoughts or suppress them, they will always come back in a more exaggerated form, and thus if I see something that I am continually judging or reacting to, that I MUST write and speak self-forgiveness on the point, I give myself NO CHOICE in this matter as it is the statement and ACTION of living as my full potential in the current context of where I am at in my process, and thus I realize that as I do this, I will express and live as my potential MORE AND MORE and eventually I will be EQUAL TO my full potential as an individual and within that I will support others through my example and through communication, through sharing, to do the same, and thus eventually the WORLD will be EQUAL TO its FULL POTENTIAL as a place that is best in all ways - thus - HEAVEN ON EARTH and HEAVEN AS EARTH Equal and One.

Did Jesus Say to Fear Our Neighbor?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have nothing to say.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to speak freely in my mind, but be afraid of speaking openly with others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear speaking up about what is best or the problems that I see in this world, because as a child, I was punished for questioning the status quo, I was belittled, I was hit, I was told to shut up.

I forgive myself as my parents for attempting to suppress the expression of a child questioning what the adults are doing, as I realize that they were just trying to survive and support me to survive, and they did not have the awareness as a parent that I have now, and yet they brought me into this world, and now I am here, and thus it is MY responsibility to speak up and stop all abuse on this planet.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is not my place to tell another what they are doing that is not best, and yet I would have no problem telling my child or someone who works for me to change their behavior.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being rejected by others for speaking the truth, when the acceptance that I currently feel is not real, it is only based on conforming to the standards of a system that is not best, and thus I would rather speak the truth, and support others to see through the illusion of this system within and without than be accepted by those who only want to system to continue as is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that as soon as I begin speaking up, I will receive criticism, rejection, slander, vitriol, argument, disagreement, backlash, and even threats, because I am now challenging the pursuit of happiness, which is the greatest lie, and very few at the moment want to be honest about it, yet if I say nothing, knowing what I know, then those who may have been willing to reconsider Life on earth may never get the opportunity because if I am not willing to speak common sense and give the solutions then who will?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that there is no consequence for not doing what is best when I see what to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify others not standing up and speaking up because I had justified it within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize my real potential to support others to let go of their bullshit and begin walking the journey to life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed others opinions of me to DICTATE what I do or don't do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must prove to others in their minds and convince them of what I am doing and my starting point as to support the creation of what is best - when my actions show and will show my intentions, and although others may misinterpret them, that is based on their starting point, thus although I may use others' feedback in order to check reactions and weakness within myself, the only person that I can answer to at the end of the day is myself within my own self honesty.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that simply by speaking and writing, and sharing that, I can influence others to stop accepting less than who they are - as this is the way I was influenced and continued to influence myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I allow myself to chase/participate in feelings and emotions then I open myself up to be susceptible to manipulation, but in the end I would have only myself to blame, because that is what I accepted and allowed myself to be and to place value on.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I fear my neighbor in any way, then I am not living the Jesus pattern/message of love my neighbor as myself and give as I want to receive, because this is not possible when there is fear of another or even fear of myself, and thus within that I realize that a lot of fear is due to the survival system that we are all participating in, and thus I am able to push through my fear of others by speaking up, sharing, challenging others and myself when I see something that is not best, but also placing myself in a position to change the system so that it is not requiring us to only focus on survival, because even if I walk my own process of 'not fearing others' I have to be self honest that others will still find it difficult to not fear if they are constantly under the pressures of survival, and furthermore, if the solution to fear is self-forgiveness, which it is, then if someone is focused on survival all the time, they will not have the time or space to focus on self-forgiveness, and thus I realize that the best purpose to give myself for this life, is to stand up and change the system so that all our basic needs are guaranteed, and that this will create the space and time for the majority of humanity to walk their process, and thus I realize that this life that I have been given is a gift for me to give Life to others and that is only possible by stopping the systems of abuse and creating systems that support Life equally for all, and thus I do not expect anyone else to walk this before me, I walk this until it is done, and through that I realize others will be empowered to walk as well.

I commit myself to releasing myself from all the fears within me towards speaking up and sharing my process and speaking up about what is best, regardless of what others say, using the feedback to support me to remove all weakness as what is not supportive of me expressing myself fully as Life as what is best, removing all ego as that which I have allowed to control me and manipulate myself with through the pursuit of energy and feelings.

I commit myself to stand in the face of everyone, including myself, to challenge all points where I am accepting less than what is best, both within myself and within others, to not fear the reactions within myself or others, to walk through the energy, to breathe through it, to look at where I react to either myself or others, to walk through these points and remove them through writing, self-forgiveness, and corrective action.

Equality within the Family

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my family members are not special - they each individual beings just like myself, equal and one.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my family is a collective of individuals with whom I am walking in this life, supporting equally as one with myself, and within which I have an agreement to support practically within providing basic needs within the context of the current system through labor, as well as being an example of individual integrity to the principle of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my family is a unit within which I am allowed to hide within feelings and emotions, like a special place where I can create the warm fuzzy feelings that I desire that I do not get out there in the world with so called strangers.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that seeing my family as a means to get a warm fuzzy feeling or a feeling of comfort is actually to abuse another for self-interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my primary starting point within being in a family is to do what is best in all ways, and thus I am here within a family to support myself to change and then eventually stand completely as what is best and to receive support from my family in that context and also to be a support point within giving to those in my family what they require to stand, stable in reality in order to be and do what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want my family to stay together in order to keep my memories in tact, when my memories are in fact that which I am using to keep myself from really living here, breathing, expressing what is best - it is my memories that are being used by my mind to keep my in character, a character which is compromised, which is not best, which is limited.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have used friendships for essentially the same purpose as family, just that friends support a different character than family members, because usually I am more aligned with friends in terms of likes and dislikes whereas with family it is more a point of participating in traditions and rituals, like christmas, easter, birthdays, etc.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have been more honest with those who are not my family than with my family members, because I have been using my family members as way to maintain the ultimate dishonesty within myself, which is the pursuit of love and happiness as feelings, and therefore I have never really got to know my family members as who they really are.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rather keep my family as a unit, where each is compromising themselves in order keep each others' characters fed with energy than to challenge myself and my family members to really change and become what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the wrath of my family members.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the feelings and emotions that are within me that come up when my family withholds 'love' as expressions of symbols like saying "i love you" versus "i'm angry with you" and that I would compromise doing what is best in order to keep the other family member from being angry, which is really just a way to support the other person to not face themselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that my family members are beings equal to me - and when I die, which is inevitable, and we face each other as equal beings, we will not see each other as family members, that relationships only exists in my mind and in the context of this current system on earth and especially the relationships of feelings and emotions towards my family members, none of that will exist when we are dead and thus how could I use that as an excuse as to why did not stand up and why I did not challenge them when I saw that they are accepting and allowing less than who they are?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I were my family member, I would want me to stand up and do what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I can let go of the memories that I have built up around my family members and I can reestablish an agreement of real support with them and that even if they do not agree, this is not a reason to compromise myself, but letting them go, if they do not agree, would be the best thing for them so that they can face the reality that they are the ones unwilling to change.

I commit myself to stand up within my family and live as the example of self-forgiveness and self-correction to what is best for all.

I commit myself to support my family members within their survival needs in this reality while they are children, to support them with the skills necessary to take full responsibility as an adult, and as adults to support them within facing themselves as the programming that they have accepted and allowed that is not best for all in the context of the current system.

Sowing the Seeds of Equality Between Male and Female

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see the real equality between males and females.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want females to be exactly like males and for males to be exactly like females.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as a male, to not understand what it is like to be female.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as a female, to not understand what it is like to be a male.

I forgive myself that I have accepted myself to believe that being a female is superior to being a male, that females are able to be gentle, and caring, and supportive, and graceful and that this is not acceptable to be as a male.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that being a male is superior to being a female, that males are strong, assertive, confident, and powerful, and that this is not acceptable to be as a female.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that being a male or female does not determine whether someone is ABLE to be caring, supportive, understanding, creative, responsible, directive, strong, or any other quality, as the ability to live a word is not dependent on being male or female, however I recognize that throughout time we have separated ourselves more and more into the expressions and experiences of male/female and that we have created systems that reinforce this separation and within that have created a mirror to reflect back our original decisions/starting point of separation.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a male to believe that I am not able to communicate with a female as an equal, believing that, unless they express themselves as I would or as a male would, as I had defined it, that therefore the communication is not possible or equal.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a male to think/believe that I must compromise myself when speaking to a female, from the perspective that I must act in a certain way in order to not trigger certain emotions or behaviors or feelings within the female, which is in fact a way of justifying inequality, because the equality between males and females is that both are equally capable of directing themselves within their emotions, feelings, and thoughts, although the ways in which they express themselves, due to our current forms, and due to deeply ingrained acceptances and allowances will be different - but this does not mean that one is better or worse or that the only way for us to communicate as equal is to take on the exact same expression, but I realize that it is to stop the reactions within myself, both within reacting to what female says, does, or express, or how they express something, but also within how I as a male believe I must act in order to not offend or cause a reaction within a female, to which I then react further.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must change my expression to suit females.

I forgive myself, as a female, that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must change my expression as a female to suit the male.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that males and females, due to our current differences in form, will naturally be better at different things, but that does not mean that being a male or female is better than the other, any more than being a flower is better or worse than being a bee. They are both necessary in the context of the system that we live in in order for us to exist in this reality due to the way things have evolved due to our acceptances and allowances, and thus we can either continue to blame the opposite sex for our reactions, feelings, thoughts, fears, abuse, etc, or we can realize that we are in fact equal as Life and that it was this decision to not recognize our equality as life that has led us to the point we are in now where it seems there is a fundamental difference between men and women - yes we are different in form, but we are equals as Life - and thus if we can learn to understand each other, accept each others differences, recognize our equality as Life, and work together to support each other to develop their weaknesses into strengths, then we can sort out this reality and create a system that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted myself as a female to be jealous of what I perceive as power and strength within a male, and within that blame them and define masculinity as aggression - which to a degree is the reality of what a male is in expression - as the male is the point of creating conflict in reality to generate energy as is explained in the Heaven's Journey to Life blogs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a male to be jealous of what I perceive as gentleness, grace, and ability for caring within females  and within that blame the females and define femininity as weakness as only caring about feelings rather than logic - which to a degree is the reality of what a female expression is  - as the female is the point of circulating the energy within consciousness from the negative to the neutral to the positive as is explained in the Heaven's Journey to Life Blogs.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that women are the cause of the problems in this world and that it is up to them to change in order for the world to improve.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that men are the cause of the problems in this world and that it is up to them to change in order for the world to improve.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the reason the world is the way it is - is because I have accepted and allowed myself to place value in the experience of myself as energy, and thus I have allowed myself to abdicate my responsibility to expressing myself as what is best, as who I really am as Life, to the pursuit of experience, whether in the form of male or female, they are equal and one in not recognizing and living from the starting point of Life as Equality and Oneness and always making every decision from that starting point of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that although I am a male body, that is just the form that I am in, that in reality I am the principle of Life as that which gives Life to whatever context or form I am in and that I accept and allow - and thus the point is not to blame the form, but to look at my self-responsibility for what I am giving life to as a system that does not care for all equally.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as a female, to blame males as the ones who created this system, when it is in fact all of us equally who from the beginning of time decided to participate in the reversal of Life as abusing substance to generate energy as experience, and that this occurred before the existence of the male and female form and that the male and female form came to be as beings became more or less aware of themselves as the experience of either generating the energy through conflict as placing substance in opposition with itself to create the separation necessary to experience the 'more' of energy or as the experience and awareness itself the energy circulating/cycling through the negative to the neutral to the positive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as a male to blame females for why males have a harder time experiencing the positive feelings and energy associated with existence in the system, where males tend to experience more the conflict, the competition, the fighting, and not really the positive points, but this is not the fault of females, this is because males have separated themselves in their awareness more into the conflict in order to generate energy, and have just suppressed the experience of the circulation of the energy within themselves and this is why as males we have felt like we cannot feel happy without a woman's touch, without sex, without their body being near ours, without being able to possess the woman's body, without having a woman to look up to us, without having a women to tell us that we are the best, that we are champions, that we are powerful, which is why if you look at it, men create so much conflict in order to produce things that they believe will attract females, like cars and things like that, the male doesn't care about the car, he thinks it will make him more attractive to females, which in many cases it does because it represents the male's ability to create money in the system which represents energy to use to create an environment with, which is what the female has defined their awareness as, the experience and playfulness with energy - and I realize that none of these things are inherently bad - it is that we are not looking at how we could be here in reality, equal and one with substance, without having to abuse it in order to create or live or experience ourselves, and we are not truly working together, male and female, as equals, but using each other and abusing each other, and believing that we need the other to give us security or energy when in fact we have not realized the most basic point that we must give to each other that which the other requires in order to express themselves as their utmost potential within the form that they are in, and in that we would receive that which we are really looking for and thus as a male, I do not have to TAKE from the female, and as the female I do not have to DEMAND from the male, but through learning to see and understand and recognize our differences within our equality as Life, we can come together to be like two equal structures, like the pillar and the roof, both of which are required to create a sound structure that supports Life and provides what is required for ALL LIFE equally.

I commit myself to investigate and find and uncover every point within myself as a male where I have separated myself from females and within which I blame females for either my own weaknesses, lack of self-responsibility, or for any point in which I have a life that is less than best, and within this I commit myself to take responsibility for everything that comes into my awareness that is not best, to learn how to direct it, and to direct it, regardless of whether it is a male or female or otherwise.

I commit myself to be open to learning how females experience themselves and to see where my expression, as a male, is coming from a point of aggression as wanting to control or posses rather than understanding and strength as awareness of how to support myself and another in a moment to let go of that which is standing in our way of creating a system that is best.

I commit myself to honor females as an equal part of the reality of being human - to learn from them and to consider them in the balance of this world and how it could function in the best way, and to recognize that females are able to birth life in this world and thus as a male, because that is not something I am able to do, I commit myself to using whatever strength, power, physical ability that I have as a male, to create a stable environment for both males and females, to support females in their most vulnerable time which is as they are pregnant and giving birth and raising a child - to support the creation of a system that gives the female and the child everything they need to not have any unnecessary stress, conflict, danger - anything which might compromise the development of the bond of support between mother and child and the development of the child as a human being which is able to stand in reality, stable, able to take self-responsibility and live only as what is best for all.

I commit myself to honor females as the support they provide me as a male to create en environment where all are considered, where I as a male am able to focus on specific tasks, like a laser beam, to get done what needs to be done as quickly as possible, yet within taking no shortcuts, and to appreciate the support that females provide males as a point of balance to not go into the extreme of aggressive violence and competition but to use our masculine strength and aggression to dismantle the systems of inequality and build the structures of support that will support man, woman, child, animal, plant, and earth - all Life equal and one.

Remember Why We Are Here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be certain of why I am here.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain doubt as to why I am here and what I am here to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I am here just to experience life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am currently within the context of what I have created and accepted and allowed to be created.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify not walking the Desteni process with fear and excuses of survival.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the excuses that my mind comes up with to not walk this process are not the actual reasons, the actual reason is that I have not made the decision to walk this process without looking back.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear supporting another person through their process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist supporting others within clarity and within the willingness to challenge them, because I have not been willing to do the same for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to challenge others because I want to hold on to limitations and excuses and desires within myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am aware of this process due to another standing up and actively placing themselves at 'risk' so to speak in the context of the survival system so that I would have the opportunity to be exposed to this process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the ONLY PURPOSE of being here at the moment that is valid is to support the creation of an equal money system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the purpose of walking my process is to remove that within myself which would prevent me from either standing up and supporting the implementation of or at the very least being able to give my full consent and being able to participate within an equal money system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the Journey to Life is the way to equalize the process for everyone.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to give others the excuse to not walk their process in writing, so that I may give myself the same excuse.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that selling is nothing more than clear communication about the value that I see within something support another person from where they are at currently to see the value as I do - thus selling another person is a process in itself, and also a way for me to quantify my own process to show, measurably, how I have actually changed to be able face others, and support them through their own resistances to changing, just as I have supported myself and received support from others, and to thus not walk my process within an internal feelings-based assessment of whether I am changing, but to measure it based on the principle of 1 + 1 = 2 where I support another person to begin walking their process and support them to support others and then to continue and find another person to share within them the value of this process.

I commit myself to stand in the open and participate in selling others on why they should walk their process - because this is MY reality just as much as it is EVERYONE ELSE's and thus I must be clear on where I stand and what I stand for and although I realize that force is never the answer, I must be clear in communicating the value of walking this process so that everyone will eventually come to this point.

Who am I as a Parent?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe/feel/think that I am in competition with another when in fact I am the other person in another life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want another to do what I was not willing to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want another to do what I was afraid to do.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being open with another person, which is showing that I did not trust my neighbor as myself, and thus I did not trust myself, that I fear my neighbor, which shows that I have allowed fear to direct me and not trusted myself in the moment to forgive myself and direct myself as what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize the potential of walking with other parents who understand the Desteni process and are walking it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to be the leader.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear walking with other parents.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge other parents instead of bringing the point back to myself and forgiving myself for whatever patterns I see within another that are not best and to forgive for the reactions that I have towards what I believe that I see in another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have reacted to the words of another that I am not good enough and within that believe that I must prove that I am better, which is not possible within the context of polarity, because I cannot be the best if I believe that someone else must be inferior.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suppress the fear of being less than the best parent.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that everyone has a right to parent their child how they see fit, and that I therefore have a right to parent as I see fit, without having first questioned why I see things the way that I do, and looking at whether what I see fit is actually what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I cannot find out what is best for my child, just as I have feared that I cannot find out what is best for myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want another's expression as a parent to be the same as mine in order to justify to myself that my expression is cool, or valid, or the best, when it is not about the expression itself, but one's starting point, and thus I realize that if my starting point is comparison with another's expression, I am not looking at what is real and what is best practically, physically, because I am instead in my mind playing a game of comparison of pictures, some of which I have defined in a way that is associated with a positive feeling and others with a negative feeling, and thus when I play the comparison as picture presentation game, I am not considering what is best in any way, but only participating in self-interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear offending another parent.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to control what another parent does.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I do not have a right to challenge another parent in terms of what they are presenting as best for a child, when the reality is that if I am able to place myself in their shoes completely as who they are, then I would be able to see what is best for their child - and yet within that, I realize the mind is quick to judge as a point of comparison, and thus I must stick to the basics of what a child requires and how a child learns, and not judge a parents' expression but assist and support the other parent to see their starting point within how they are supporting their child's development, to realign that to considering what is best for the child rather than what makes the parent feel good/bad.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I am male that I am not able to communicate with parents who are females as equals.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that, as a father, I am not able to speak about what a mother does or does not do with regards to what is best for their child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that mothers and fathers bring different experiences and approaches to parenting that, when they are aligned with what is best, are both equally valid although they will be different in expression.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear challenging another parent's starting point within how they are supporting their child, as I realize that this is a protected realm within the parent where the parent fears that they are not doing what is best and yet suppresses the fear so much that if another parent suggests another way that the parent will react with anger and blame in order to not look at the possibility that they might change in order to align themselves more towards what is best for their child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear another parent challenging me wherein I would react, and thus I realize that within the reaction, I see that there is something that I am hiding and protecting that I must look at it in order to really investigate in self-honesty whether what is being challenged is a pattern that I am participating in that is not best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself as a parent from other parents, not realizing that as parents, we are all responsible for supporting this and future generations of children to develop in a way that allows them to take more responsibility for themselves and this world, and ultimately to stand up and make the changes necessary so that the world system is adjusted to be best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself care more about whether I get credit for my child being impressive to others than what is actually best for the child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear verbal conflict.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being rejected by other parents if I were to speak up for what is best for children.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as a parent, to fear that I have fucked up my child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to realize that I am 100% responsible for who my child becomes, that I am in fact the creator of my child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to realize that I am responsible for who my child becomes because when I look at the world and my environment, I feel out of control of so much that is influencing my child, that it is easier to simply believe that my child is creating themselves, rather than face the fact that the environment is fucked and thus my child is fucked, and yet within this I do not need to feel bad, as that would be a reaction, but denying reality to make myself feel 'ok' or 'good' or 'stable' or 'balanced' will not support me to do what is best for my child even though I am in a quite limited environment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the the tools to support my child to become the best possible within the limitations that are currently here as consequences of the past, are Here within my hands, and are ONLY available through Desteni.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel lost as a parent, that I must figure everything out on my own, when the reality is that the path has been laid before me, and thus I must take revenge on my ego to not allow myself to be directed by the desire to carve my own path - realizing that if I follow my own path, this is giving permission for all to do so, but there are only 2 paths: that which is best, and that which is self-interest and thus not what is best, and one is either walking what is best or what is not best, and if this world is to be sorted out, we must all equalize ourselves as walking the path as what is best, and within this there is no need to compare my process to another from the perspective how many times I fall and have to get back up, but I cannot use 'comparison of process' as an excuse to accept that there are 'many paths' as there is only 1 path: self-honest, self-forgiveness, spoken aloud and in writing, to forgive every point within self that is acting, automatically within self-interest and to then re-create oneself in the image and likeness of equality and oneness as what is best, which means then walking in the world system to create the system in the same image and likeness.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have been looking for acceptance from others, instead being bold and standing up, sharing the path that I am walking, and holding myself accountable as to whether I am in fact walking the path or wandering around in paths that are not best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the way to be the best parent is to forgive myself for everything, and to support my child to develop a clear, effective vocabulary that is unbiased, as I am supporting myself to do the same.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Bernard left all the keys we need in Desteni to know how to parent in the best way, and that I must stop trying to protect myself from the fear that I have fucked up as a parent, realizing that it would be impossible at this point NOT to fuck up your child, because the total environment of this world is fucked, but that doesn't mean we can't give our child the best within this limited context and support them from a young age to even begin understanding and integrating the tools that they will require to eventually support themselves as an adult to walk the Desteni process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel judged by other parents, when the reality is I have been judging myself.

I commit myself to connect with every parent within whom I can see the potential for them to walk the Desteni process and to support their children in the best way possible.

I commit myself to challenge all parents who refuse to acknowldge and realize that there is a best way to parent which is simple, and not personal to me or based on my own desires, it is practical and based on common sense, and I realize that all may not be in a position to hear me, but I will not compromise and assume that another will not be able to hear me, because at the end I will be responsible for how I have influenced others whether I stood clearly within speaking up for what is best or whether I allowed a point where I feared challenging another and let them believe that I agreed with how they are approaching parenting when I didn't, as I commit myself to no longer fear my neighbor no matter how angry they may get, I realize that anger is not to be feared, an angry parent is to be supported as an equal because I am in no position to judge whether another would be open to change, I am only here to support myself and others to be what is best for all.

I commit myself to take on, and learn how to take on, the expression required to support a parent, individually and on a larger scale for them to see what I am presenting as what is best, and within this to continue walking my process, realizing that I will likely make mistakes, and yet within that mistakes are part of the learning process, and thus if I make a mistake, I will trust myself to learn from it, forgive myself, correct myself and live the correction, with NO EXCUSES.

I commit myself to support the creation of the BEST PARENTING GROUP that exists, calling on all those who are willing to apply self-honesty, self-forgiveness, and drop all ego - which means I open myself to being challenged by others and commit myself to challenge others one and equal, not fearing conflict, embracing conflict as communication, letting go of the need/desire to force/control others to change, to always bring everything back to myself FIRST, to forgive myself within first, and then express only what is best - realizing that I may require consequence as feedback from time to time - but within that I will not hold back, because I only have this ONE LIFE to do what is best.

I Tie Me Up through Time

Continuing on the theme of the past few days of sales/entrepreneurship support:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I decide what I do with my time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the excuse that I must survive in order to justify what I had been doing with my time as just going to work and then going home and relaxing/entertaining myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel trapped by time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that when I feel tired, that this means I cannot do anything that is actually productive in the context of what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the excuse that "I don't have enough time" to do things that are best for me, when the fact is that I am using time to do things that are not best for me, thus where are my priorities at?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have used the excuse of not having enough time for the things that really matter my entire existence, and thus if I continue to allow this excuse, nothing will ever change.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become ingrained within the belief that I cannot control what I do with my time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be honest with myself regarding what I actually do with the time I have during the day and how much time I actually have to do things that would support me to be in a position of creating more time freedom and financial freedom for myself and that would have an impact in the world that is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to rather fantasize about making a difference in the world and judge others who I perceive as not caring about the world than actually standing up within my reality and directing myself and my reality as what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not really consider my environment and the people in and look at what I can ACTUALLY do in order to direct myself and others to create a better environment for ourselves.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wait for another to do something.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see that I have waited for others to do things and then I complain about how/what they are doing and yet I had not been willing to take full responsibility for directing what I see to the outcome that is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not realize that this is my last opportunity - and that each day that passes where I have made the excuse that I just have to survive is another part of my being that is no longer available as I have given it to a system of abuse and thus I now realize that the consequence for this is that I will no longer exist.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become complacent.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place hope in another.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I make the decision to move myself as what is best for all, time will open up, opportunities will open up, but every time I see what to do and cower in fear, time and opportunities will close up, until eventually there will be none left.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have tied myself up through time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that when I use the excuse that I don't enough time, I am the one that is tying myself up.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel trapped in my reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel trapped by my job.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that when I retire, then I will have time, when the reality is that I will be even more TIRED.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to trade my time for a mere pittance.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to tie myself to a job and to this lose freedom to decide what I do with my time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I am a creator and I can create time to do whatever I decide.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that eventually my time will come to an end, as is evidenced by all those I see around me dropping like flies, and when I get to the end, I will think "wow, the time really flies by" and I will have nothing to show for it except my excuses - unless I act Here, in this moment, because that is the only moment that is guaranteed.

I commit myself to show that the only way to create more time and more opportunity to do what is best, is to use the time and opportunity that I have in the moment to do what is best, and that I will see more once I have done that.

I commit myself to let go of the excuse of time, to realize that time is how I TIE ME to the system and thus the only way to cut the ties is to make the decision that I will stand up and do what I fear, regardless of the consequence, because the consequence is already Here.


I commit myself to create 4 hours each day where I use the time to plan and/or act within my plan to build my business.