I, Parent

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that all education and parenting approaches that have existed up to now have all been from the starting point of reinforcing the system as it is, one of inequality, where a world that is divided into a few at the top having more than they need and with many at the bottom have less than what they need.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define parenting according to the system's definition which is to train my child to survive in the system, and to in no way prepare my child to take full self responsibility as a co creator of this world and of their life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as a parent, to use the justification that the world is the way it is and therefore I have to go along with the way the system presents education and parenting, otherwise my child will not survive.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that if we can survive on earth with a system of inequality, then we can do MORE THAN SURVIVE in a system of equality where all Life is respected, valued, and give to as equal.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself, as a parent, to realize that I my purpose as a parent is to prepare my child to take responsibility for themselves as a creator and to impart to them as a living example and through the education I provide in terms of their ability to read, write, communicate, and be able to use mathematics to understand and solve problems, to take responsibility for what is Here as what we have created as Human Beings on the Earth.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to use the excuse of my and my family's survival as an excuse to not take responsibility for what I have created as my internal world and as the external world system.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the existence of others in this world who are not in a position to do anything about their lives or to take any level of self responsibility for the world system due to their not even being able to survive effectively as an excuse or justification for my not taking responsibility for myself and this world system, arguing that since they cannot change, what is the point. Within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that, were I to stand up and support others to stand up, who are not in a position of extreme survival conditions, we could adjust the system to alleviate the survival pressures that so many face in this world that are preventing them from having the time and space to walk the process of taking self responsibility for their mind's and this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see my role as a parent as a burden, that children are something that I must support just enough to survive to the age of 18 so that they can then be responsible for their own survival, when in fact my primary responsibility as a parent is to support my child/children to be know who they are as a physical being, to understand how their body and mind works, to learn to use the mind for its intended purpose as a map of physical reality, and to develop an effective ability to reason and use common sense in a way that is best for all, and within this I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that if all parents had this starting point, the world would be able to transform into something that we would call Heaven on Earth.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the reason Jesus said that one must become like a child to enter Heaven, was to show that it is what we accept and allow as 'adults' as simply existing as a system of survival that must be questioned and removed from within us, because Heaven is a state where survival is irrelevant, because one is truly and fully alive and living as what is best for all, and I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that such a state cannot exist on Earth, when in fact it is my responsibility as a parent to create such a state, both through myself and my children.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to on the one hand say and believe that children are a blessing, and on the other hand to treat and act as if children are a curse, not realizing that it has nothing to do with the child, it has to do with the way the world, which I have accepted and allowed and directly/indirectly created as an adult that creates the conditions where it is extremely difficult/impossible to support a child to develop in this world without losing their innocence, and yet using this as an excuse to not do what is best would be to abdicate my own responsibility towards the problem and thus BE THE PROBLEM.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself realize that the children now will be my ancestors in a future life, if I have one, and that I am therefore preparing/raising/developing those who will some day raise me as a child and that if I want to receive the best possible support as a child, which I would have liked in this life, I must give as I want to receive and prepare the children now to be better prepared to adjust the systems in this world, and within themselves, so that the conditions of equality that are best for all can eventually manifest on this planet.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that my child learns all of their basic patterns of existence from me as the parent based on Who I Am in their presence, and that while I copied these patterns from my parent, if I blame my parents or the system that I am within, then I lose all ability to support my child effectively, and that the only solution to this problem is to take responsibility for who I have become within myself and in this world and to apply self forgiveness and correct myself into a form that is best for all, so that my child may copy these patterns or at the very least see my example of self change so that they may change themselves if they are beyond the stage where my patterns imprint into them physically and so I am able to support my child either directly or indirectly simply by changing ME.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I cannot shape my child into something that I am not.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the use of the statement "the children are the future" as a way to make myself feel better for not having been the solution in this world and to instead expect the children to be the solution, not realizing that the adults that came before me had the same expectations, yet did not prepare me to take full responsibility for myself and this world as a reflection of myself and thus the problem continued and got worse where now I have even less hope for the children to come.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the madness that is existent in the world, such as racism, blame, victimization, abuse, unequal distribution of resources, all stems from children not being prepared by their parents to be effective, equal co-creators of reality, and that if I don't stand up, there is no reason to expect that anyone else will either.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself place the responsibility of instilling reason and common sense in my child onto a system that clearly is unreasonable and defies common sense because it is the same system that educated me and I have proven myself to be unreasonable and without common sense in the context of being able to see and do what is best for all, and yet I subject my child to the same system.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see the irrationality of placing my child into an education system to learn things that I do not feel qualified to teach even though I went through the same system, and that the evidence that I do not remember anything I was apparently taught should be a red flag that clearly the system is not teaching effectively, and yet because I have accepted that my life is merely about survival I will place my children in an ineffective system so that I may go to work and thus the system continues.

I commit myself to question every thought, feeling, emotion, and belief I have as a parent that I am here to only teach my child to survive, and to show in all ways that I can support my child to realize who they really are as a creator of their life and this world and to show to other parents that there is a best way to parent, and that best way is not based on belief but based on common sense and working with what is here physically and can in fact be known and understood.

I commit myself to stand as an example of parenting that is best for all and to show other parents that it is possible to both support a child to exist in this world while also supporting them to develop into an expression that understands Life and how to live in a world where all Life is honored equally, and to within that show that a parent's responsibility is the greatest that there is, to actually support the birth of Real Life on this planet.

I commit myself to stand as a parent who is willing to stand in the face of criticism from the system and from other parents who would become defensive, as a system would, when their methods are questioned, and to stand within what is best to show that no amount of criticism or fear can move me because I know what is best and I know why I am here as a parent.

I commit myself to stand as a parent who question all abuse of children in every way and show how all aspects of the system we live in through the current accepted ways of education and parenting are in fact abuse of the child and destruction of the child's innocence and are in fact a child sacrifice to the economic system that places no value on life itself but only the continued existence of the system.

Investigate All Things and Keep What is Best

The friction we generate within, puts us in opposition with everything and everyone without. What we do within our minds is to create conditions that generate energy as feeling with those outside of us and within this, it creates a friction not only within, which we experience as energy and feeling, but also with each other which is manifested as conflicts. When we love another in a special way, we place all others in opposition to that love. When we want to protect another as special, we place all others in a point of attack from our perspective and thus generate and ripple out conflict into the world which eventually comes to a head. This rippling accumulates and builds and eventually erupts within our personal lives as interpersonal conflict and in the bigger picture as war.

See this video to see how small ripples, as opposing forces, eventually creates an extreme form explosion as the opposing ripples build and build: FloWave movie concentric wave spike

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I am the source of all conflict, as I have accepted and allowed a system of conflict within me as I search for experience as feelings and as energy.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize the obvious fact that it is not possible to generate positive energy without generating negative energy as well, when I am only considering 'my self' within the perspective of who the energy is generated for, because this puts me in opposition to everything that is 'not me' as I have defined me and not me within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the statement that the negative energy that others experience that was generated by my creation of positive energy is not my responsibility because 'you attract the energy based on what you are focusing on' is in fact a justification for me to abuse others as only existing for me to experience energy, especially considering that in order for me to exist in my body to experience energy, I have to support my body with necessities that I am only able to obtain with money. And the money system that provides these clothes is in fact only a control mechanism to make sure that there are slaves to produce the necessities that I require and that those who have to do the 'dirty work' of creating the necessities for me are in that position because they were not born into the same point in the system that I was, and that this was by chance, and that I did nothing to deserve the position I am in, and in fact have only shown that I in fact DO NOT deserve the position I am in, because I have allowed myself to only focus on ME ME ME getting what I need and want, and not care at all about those who have to work to survive to produce what I need and want, and that there are BILLIONS of humans in that position and thus I have directly enslaved BILLIONS of others, and yet I will ignore the problem as long as I get to experience positive energy, because that is all I care about, me and my experience.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that this existence of me in a position of benefit from the system while many others receive little to no benefit, is only temporary and can only be temporary and that I will eventually end up on the losing end of this game, and that this is in fact me receiving as I have given.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as special, superior, amazing, or a good person because I am able to have money flow to me or to have things that I want and need flow to me, using the self deceptive belief that this has something to do with WHO I AM when in common sense fact is has everything to do with WHERE I AM IN THE SYSTEM which is based on my education, what country I was born into, etc., all accidents of my birth, not a result of me being in any way special as a being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that others have what they have because they have attracted it, when I also believe that we use our minds to attract what we want, and yet I could not have attracted the circumstances of my birth, because when I came into this body, as a baby, I had no mind and this can be verified clearly with scientific means and I know this with common sense because if I saw a baby with no clothes or food left by itself I would not pass it by telling myself that the baby has attracted this situation to itself. And yet, I allow myself to not investigate the living conditions of a majority of humans on this planet where they are like the baby, unable to create a living condition of having everything they need and want as I am because they are in a position in the system where they are in the receiving in of the conflict and lack of care, of the opposing forces that I am pariticpating within everytime I participate in energy or use money or simply sit idly by while doing nothing to stand up and say that the current state of how we live as HUMANS is UNACCEPTABLE. And I will justify this with many ideas and beliefs about God, being afraid, not being capable, but in fact I do not want to give up my position in the system, because I believe that if I challenge the system, I will lose, which proves that I do not really believe my statements that everyone is attracting what they have by virtue of what they are focusing on, because if I stand up for all Life, which would be the highest, most noble act possible, I am afraid that I will lose the support of the system, which further proves that the system does not support Life.

I commit myself to stand up and challenge the system that I have accepted and allowed and created within myself and without to automatically put me in opposition with everything outside of me as I have defined me in my mind to generate conflict to generate energy whether for my own person experience or to support the continuation of a system based on energy generated from conflict.

I commit myself to question every feeling, thought, and belief that I have within me and that I see without and to deconstruct them through writing, self forgiveness, and living corrective application so that I may leave no stone unturned and know that I have done everything possible within what I have accepted and allowed to stop the creation and maintenance of a system and way of existing that does not honor Life as all as one as equal.

Friction as Energy

The friction we generate within, puts us in opposition with everything and everyone without. What we do within our minds is to create conditions that generate energy as feeling with those outside of us and within this, it creates a friction not only within, which we experience as energy and feeling, but also with each other which is manifested as conflicts. When we love another in a special way, we place all others in opposition to that love. When we want to protect another as special, we place all others in a point of attack from our perspective and thus generate and ripple out conflict into the world which eventually comes to a head. This rippling accumulates and builds and eventually erupts within our personal lives as interpersonal conflict and in the bigger picture as war.

See this video to see how small ripples, as opposing forces, eventually creates an extreme form explosion as the opposing ripples build and build: FloWave movie concentric wave spike

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I am the source of all conflict, as I have accepted and allowed a system of conflict within me as I search for experience as feelings and as energy.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize the obvious fact that it is not possible to generate positive energy without generating negative energy as well, when I am only considering 'my self' within the perspective of who the energy is generated for, because this puts me in opposition to everything that is 'not me' as I have defined me and not me within my mind.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the statement that the negative energy that others experience that was generated by my creation of positive energy is not my responsibility because 'you attract the energy based on what you are focusing on' is in fact a justification for me to abuse others as only existing for me to experience energy, especially considering that in order for me to exist in my body to experience energy, I have to support my body with necessities that I am only able to obtain with money. And the money system that provides these clothes is in fact only a control mechanism to make sure that there are slaves to produce the necessities that I require and that those who have to do the 'dirty work' of creating the necessities for me are in that position because they were not born into the same point in the system that I was, and that this was by chance, and that I did nothing to deserve the position I am in, and in fact have only shown that I in fact DO NOT deserve the position I am in, because I have allowed myself to only focus on ME ME ME getting what I need and want, and not care at all about those who have to work to survive to produce what I need and want, and that there are BILLIONS of humans in that position and thus I have directly enslaved BILLIONS of others, and yet I will ignore the problem as long as I get to experience positive energy, because that is all I care about, me and my experience.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that this existence of me in a position of benefit from the system while many others receive little to no benefit, is only temporary and can only be temporary and that I will eventually end up on the losing end of this game, and that this is in fact me receiving as I have given.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as special, superior, amazing, or a good person because I am able to have money flow to me or to have things that I want and need flow to me, using the self deceptive belief that this has something to do with WHO I AM when in common sense fact is has everything to do with WHERE I AM IN THE SYSTEM which is based on my education, what country I was born into, etc., all accidents of my birth, not a result of me being in any way special as a being.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that others have what they have because they have attracted it, when I also believe that we use our minds to attract what we want, and yet I could not have attracted the circumstances of my birth, because when I came into this body, as a baby, I had no mind and this can be verified clearly with scientific means and I know this with common sense because if I saw a baby with no clothes or food left by itself I would not pass it by telling myself that the baby has attracted this situation to itself. And yet, I allow myself to not investigate the living conditions of a majority of humans on this planet where they are like the baby, unable to create a living condition of having everything they need and want as I am because they are in a position in the system where they are in the receiving in of the conflict and lack of care, of the opposing forces that I am pariticpating within everytime I participate in energy or use money or simply sit idly by while doing nothing to stand up and say that the current state of how we live as HUMANS is UNACCEPTABLE. And I will justify this with many ideas and beliefs about God, being afraid, not being capable, but in fact I do not want to give up my position in the system, because I believe that if I challenge the system, I will lose, which proves that I do not really believe my statements that everyone is attracting what they have by virtue of what they are focusing on, because if I stand up for all Life, which would be the highest, most noble act possible, I am afraid that I will lose the support of the system, which further proves that the system does not support Life.

I commit myself to stand up and challenge the system that I have accepted and allowed and created within myself and without to automatically put me in opposition with everything outside of me as I have defined me in my mind to generate conflict to generate energy whether for my own person experience or to support the continuation of a system based on energy generated from conflict.

I commit myself to question every feeling, thought, and belief that I have within me and that I see without and to deconstruct them through writing, self forgiveness, and living corrective application so that I may leave no stone unturned and know that I have done everything possible within what I have accepted and allowed to stop the creation and maintenance of a system and way of existing that does not honor Life as all as one as equal.

Belief vs Knowing

What is the difference between believing in God and KNOWING God?

Why do we need to believe in God?

As a being Here on Earth, do I walk in each moment, in each breath as God would walk?

Do I abuse or do I support and assist all as well as myself to have the best life possible?

What would God do if He were Here walking amongst us?

Would he accept and allow a system of abuse that create daily suffering of millions of humans, children, animals and destroys nature as the plants and pollutes the oceans and all in the name of the survival of the System?

What is a System but a machine?

Are systems "bad"? No, of course not. In itself a system is just a system. What make system worthy of existing is whether it produces an outcome that is best for all that it affects.

Perhaps our system has become so vast that we believe only God can take responsibility for it, or that there is no way to take responsibility for it, and so we must simply strive to be the best person we can within the context of the system as it is.

But, what would that look like? How can you be a good person while using and benefiting from a system that CREATES suffering for another? If God were Here wouldn't He do everything in his power to adjust the system so that it is best for all? Wouldn't He expect that of you and I?

Is it enough to simply BELIEVE that God exists and that He loves us for us to be Good?

Or does it really matter whether we believe in anything at all and only that we do what is best?

Does that mean we are not allowed to have any belief whatsoever? For myself, according to my own reasoning process, I can't see any value in a belief, because a belief is like an assumption at best, and at worst a hope or a wish. In other words, it does not serve me Here in a physical reality where I must KNOW with certainty how things work in order to produce a result that is best.

If we allow ourselves to overlook things or just let things be, but in that we allow a result that is not best, then what is the purpose of being here at all? Why would God put us here to simply acknowledge His existence, but not expect us to do anything about the conditions Here.

Some might say it is a test. If it is a test, then what would make the most sense that is being tested?

Our faith in the existence of something that is beyond our perceptual ability, of which we can only know through our mind, in which it is far too easy to imagine things that do not exist?

Or is it more reasonable that we would be tested in terms of what we would do if we were placed into an existence, the context of which, we are facing the consequences of what we have accepted and allowed and in fact contributed to creating, and whether we would take responsibility for our creation?

If God is a Creator, then woudn't he create Creators? Isn't that what it means to be created in His image and likeness?

But if we are given free will and free choice, then we can create things that are not best. And if we accept and allow others to create things that are not best and not stand up and say anything then we are creating indirectly.

Is this Life a test to see what you will create? To see whether you can be trusted with the powers of REAL CREATION?

When you look deep within yourself, do you REALLY KNOW or are you just BELIEVING in something, the likes of which you do not fully understand.

Even the point of saying that God is not able to be understood by mere humans is perhaps part of the test. Will you use your God given capabilities of reason and understanding to get to know this reality and get to know yourself and get to know each other and find a way to come together as one and make this reality what is best for all.

For all you know, you have been coming back to this place over and over again and God each time sends you back because you have not realized that He is not going to take responsibility for you, but is expecting you to Stand Up and become a creator in your own right, a fully self responsible creator.

It is important that we question all of our beliefs and make sure that we are not using them to cover up consequences of what we are busy creating and accepting and allowing.

For example, if we are, in fact, participating in a system that is not making it possible for all to give as they would like to receive, but then we ignore this and say that it is up to them to believe in God and allow God to give them what they deserve, then haven't we missed the whole point?

What if this entire existence, all parts, are in fact you? What if you have simply fragmented yourself into you and me and in reality we are one and equal?

In that context, what is God except that potential for us to be self responsible creators and create Heaven here on Earth?

Are we going to accept ourselves as less than? Are we going to place the burden of FULL RESPONSIBILITY for creation onto another being? Or shall we take our place as equals in creating this world as it is?

now i LIE me down to sleep

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that the statement: "don't challenge my beliefs, because I have the right to my beliefs and so you have the right to yours," is a statement with no substance or validity, that it contradicts itself and is in fact not self honest, as the starting point is not about allowing other to have their own beliefs, it is only about self not questioning self's beliefs.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that all of my beliefs were formed primarily in the beginning of my life in the womb and as a child and copied from my parents, passed down in my DNA as well as programmed into me through my environment, including school and the media as news and entertainment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold on use the excuse that I believe what I believe because I want to as a statement of refusal to examine by beliefs.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to fully examine the nature of my beliefs and consider what the consequence of my beliefs are in how they would form my thoughts, feelings, and emotions and how that would affect my behavior and participation in the world and how it would also influence what I accept and allow in the world as systems and behavior of others, where I will not even say anything when I see something that is clearly unacceptable as what is not best for all because then I would have to experience the pain and discomfort of the energy and emotion that I have associated with my belief being lost.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear examining a belief that I hold because I know deep down that if I do so, it will lead to a cascade of other beliefs being questioned within myself, and within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to have the courage to examine my beliefs and face the discomfort that might come with doing so, opting to instead feel 'safe' which is in fact an illusion, because I am only 'safe' as long as my beliefs are not being challenged, and yet the world around me is full of people who hold beliefs different to mine and so in order to 'feel' safe I have to create a bubble of protection around me to keep other people's beliefs and words from causing me to question my beliefs so that I do not feel comfortable.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only question a belief when something tragic or extremely physically or emotionally painful occurs in my life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself in moments where I am not experiencing pain or tragic circumstances to justify why the pain or tragic moments I have experienced were necessary for me to feel good now as contrast, and thus I form beliefs that justify such experiences and that justify such types of experiences of others, even though in most cases the experiences that others have that are tragic and extremely painful are preventable and for those people they never experience the contrast of happiness because of their position in the world system in which I participate and accept and allow while holding on to my belief and justifying the way the world is through not being willing to challenge my belief and understand how it leads to the world being the way it is.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to tell another person that they can believe whatever they want but they are not allowed to challenge my belief, which is a form of controlling other's behavior which would be an outflow of their belief, but not be willing to look at the outflows of my beliefs and how they have in fact contributed to creating a world where people are now challenging my belief, and within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I am, through my words, stating that I do not give as I want to receive, however I am in fact receiving as I have given.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to label anyone who challenges my belief through their words or actions, or calls my beliefs into question, or makes a direct statement that my beliefs are false as someone who is dark, or having evil intentions, when in fact I am afraid of the dark, and this fear within me is the real evil because it is from this starting point of fear that I am not willing to challenge my beliefs for fear that I will lose something, and from this starting point of fear of loss I have accepted in direct and indirect ways a world that is a reflection of my fear of loss, where I constantly lose throughout my life, and where others constantly lose throughout their life, and where even when I lose I will not stand up within myself and question what I am doing because I still fear to lose more, and yet I never learn the lesson that it is the fear of loss that is creating the loss, and that if I were to give instead of fear, and each were to do so, that this world would in fact be the paradise that I believe I will enter when I die.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that what I experience when I die is not a matter of what I believe in here on earth, in so far as if my belief separates me from what is real here, then I am not in fact real and that therefore at death I would no longer exist because I have not allowed myself to be real, I have separated myself from physical reality, through participation in belief, and not even ever been here. I have in fact ignored what is here, despite the many warning signs that I receive throughout life that there is an inconsistency with my belief and what is here, and that my belief is producing the living conditions here on earth either directly and/or indirectly and that if that is my starting point, that I would not live here for real, then why would what I experience after death be any different?

I forgive myself for not allowing myself to realize that my beliefs are a way in which I shield/veil/protect myself from self responsibility, because if there is something greater than me, then I am relieved of responsibility for the way the world is and/or what happens to me when I die, thus, my belief is not a certainty, but rather a hope and wish, and a form of magical thinking, because I cannot sit and work out with common sense and basic math that what I believe is in fact true and will produce the result I believe it will, and the energy I experience when challenged is a defense mechanism I have created as my ego to protect me from fully seeing/realizing that I am not in fact certain about what I believe and that I am therefore not certain whether the result my belief apparently guarantees me is certain.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that if I were absolutely certain within what I believe I would feel no need to defend my belief when challenged, I would explain clearly how my belief leads to the outcome I believe it will lead to, but instead I will request that others not challenge my believe which is an indication that I am not certain.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist questioning and removing beliefs because I think that i would look foolish for having accepted something without question when in fact I would be doing what few are willing to do currently and it would be an act of extreme bravery and intelligence to examine a belief, not knowing what the outcome will be, but dedicated to the truth of what my belief implies, and that it would be an act of teachability to be able to change a belief within myself, even if I have held it without question for years and years, and that it would show that I am a being of great strength and dedication to what is best, as that is what I would be doing in fact.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist questioning and removing beliefs because I think that i would look foolish for having accepted something without question when in fact I would be doing what few are willing to do currently and it would be an act of extreme bravery and intelligence to examine a belief, not knowing what the outcome will be, but dedicated to the truth of what my belief implies, and that it would be an act of teachability to be able to change a belief within myself, even if I have held it without question for years and years, and that it would show that I am a being of great strength and dedication to what is best, as that is what I would be doing in fact.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that Belief implies doubt and that the discomfort I feel when my belief is challenged is in fact doubt resonating throughout my body, and that by asking others to not challenge my beliefs it shows that I am more interested in suppressing doubt than seeking truth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the experience of energy as doubt and that I haven't allowed myself to realize that if I do not face and remove all doubt from within me, the consequence will be that I face the result of not knowing reality directly and therefore I will cease to exist at death because I was not real.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see/recognize that the word "lie" exists in the middle of the word "belief" and that this should have been a warning to me to question my beliefs, and I have never allowed allowed myself to realize that I have used beliefs to LIE to myself, as I was taught to believe in lies from a young age.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel angry towards those who have told me lies that I believed in which turned out not to be true and wherein I felt pain, let down, lied to, and became fearful of questioning any other beliefs so as not to feel the pain of having lied to/been lied to and have to face the possibility that everything I believe is in fact a lie, when I clearly see deep down that I do not in fact know anything for certain and that therefore the basis of my entire existence is a lie.

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to deliberately perpetuate lies to children such as santa clause and the tooth fairy in order control their behavior instead of explaining to them how reality works so they can learn how to reason properly and never have to suffer the consequences of believing something that is not true and only finding out later when it is too late.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that my beliefs were GIVEN to me by others in order to control my behavior and that I am in fact a slave to my beliefs, and that even when someone would come along to point out that I am a slave, I would put the chains back on my feet and hands and neck so that I would not have to feel the fear I have towards not having someone else in control of my behavior and destiny.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to accept 100 percent responsibility for myself.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that my beliefs are in fact ways I use to suppress my fear of death and the feeling of uncertainty that comes up when I consider the fact that I die, and that I have constructed a complex set of beliefs that promise me something that makes me, personally, feel secure about existing and dying.

I commit myself to not allow a feeling of anger, fear, frustration, sadness, or any other emotion to stand in the way of me examining my beliefs fully.

I commit myself to examining my beliefs and when I feel a moment of being challenged withing something I think/feel/believe to be true, that I will use that opportunity to first examine what I believe until I am certain, within self honesty that what I held as true is in fact true, and where I see it would be supportive, I commit myself to explaining as clearly as possible to others how I have arrived at the conclusion that I have so that they may be able to see/learn/understand how to examine their own beliefs and ideas they hold as true and learn to reason effectively.

I commit myself to standing as the one who challenges what others believe as I am doing the same for myself, to support myself and others as myself to remove all that which is uncertain, to support myself and others to become certain within what is really Here a this physical world and how we have shaped it through our beliefs and to align what we accept and allow within ourselves to only ever produce what is best for all in every moment.

I commit myself to taking 100 percent responsibility, step by step, moment by moment, for what I do, think, feel, and believe and remove all parts of myself and my behavior that do not serve me as all as what is best for all Life.

Bound by Beliefs and Chained to Opinions

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see/realize that it is possible to understand/be aware of the consequences of every thought, feeling, emotion, and action that I participate in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use the excuse that it's not possible to know every outflow of everything I do/participate in and that every thing has a positive and a negative anyway, so there is no reason to investigate what I think, feel, and do and the effect that that has on my reality and others and how that shapes the physical existence that I and others are within and manifests consequences that we all have to face at some point.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to consider that if I were to take the time to stop and really be honest with myself about a specific thought, feeling, or action that I participate in and used common sense and considered each point carefully and fully that I could begin to identify the ways in which my thoughts, feelings, and actions play out in the world and affect myself and others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to actually not really care about the consequences of my thoughts, feelings, and actions as to how they actually play out and manifest in the world, and that instead of taking the time to really investigate and consider step-by-step in detail how my thoughts feelings, and actions are playing out and manifesting, I have invested my limited time on earth in creating and participating in beliefs and ideas that generate feelings and thoughts and from which I act that justify to myself that there are no real consequences for my thoughts, feelings, and actions, even though this is not a common sense, reasonable conclusion that I have worked out in detail, because I have already made the statement/commitment within myself that I will not fully investigate anything I believe or think or feel, and thus when the consequences of my thoughts, feelings, and actions do manifest in my awareness/reality, I have a readymade answer as to why I am experiencing myself in a less than optimal way and I use this excuse to justify why others experience themselves in a less than optimal way.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that "education" exists in any form within the systems that I have accepted and allowed to exist and participate in and place my children and allowed others to place their children within, without realizing/allowing myself to even consider that the "education systems" that currently exist only exist within the starting point of turning human beings into consumers of energy/workers within the money system and thus the essence of all education promoted within the system currently is to in fact dumb a human down from their full potential to the point where they believe it is not even possible to know/understand/trace/consider/see/realize the consequences of their thoughts/feelings/actions and yet will believe they are educated and therefore have the ability to reason, even though the evidence is clear they aren't and don't, and therefore trust their fault reasoning ability to come to the conclusion that it is not possible to know the consequences of what one participates within in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in cynicism and apathy towards investigating how my actions create consequences that are less than optimal for myself and everyone else in this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and participate within a belief within myself that I have broken out of the matrix, that I am an 'out of the box thinker' or that I am somehow not affected or am above the problems that I see in this world and I have even projected them on to everyone else so as not to seriously examine/consider how I am in fact contributing to these problems in every moment, in every breath, with every thought, feeling, emotion, and action that I participate in.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a belief that each individual person is choosing to either be evil or good when in fact I have not actually defined what evil and good are and I would even justify that they are defined individually and thus within that have defeated the entire point of having such a standard as evil and good, because I am not willing to apply it absolutely with others or myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to justify not fully investigating my own beliefs, ideas, and opinions by the statement "everyone has a right to their opinion".

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that the statement "everyone has a right to their opinion" is actually a way of giving myself and excuse to not investigate what I believe and what I would argue or hold to as an opinion when my belief/opinion is challenged, even though I am ready at a moment's notice to try and prove someone else's opinion as invalid/wrong/flawed, and yet the moment I feel any form of cognitive dissonance or inability to argue my opinion effectively or being to see/realize/suspect that my belief is not reasonable or fully considered, instead of stopping and taking the time and effort and discipline to examine my belief/opinion and what it actually implies and how the outflows of such a belief/opinion would affect others and myself, I will instead revert to the statement "everyone has a right to their opinion" which is actually saying "everyone has a right to be stupid and no consider how they affect themselves and others in reality".

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I have within myself placed utmost value and importance on the 'right to an opinion' and would defend it with all my vigor and energy, and yet I would place very little or no value on 'the right to life' and the 'right to basic necessities' for all humans and animals and plants and all Life in this world, and that this would indicate that I am actually just arguing for the continued existence of myself and everyone/everything else on earth to remain bound and enslaved to a system that placed value only on self interest, money, and quality of life for the very few, and that it is the opinion of some that even I have no right to life when it interferes with their comfort and I have blinded myself to this fact through the veil of the statement "everyone has a right to their opinion" and accordingly I will be given and am begin given as I have and am giving, which implies that I will be a slave in this system until I die and I will have done it to myself and having not done anything to stop this continued enslavement of myself and everyone else to the whim of opinion, I will judge myself accordingly at the end of my life.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that everyone is doing the same as me, holding on to and acting from their opinions and not considering the consequences doing so, and therefore the excuse that it is not possible to understand all the consequences of every action or thought or belief that I have is not valid, because it only seems impossible due to the fact that EVERYONE is participating in such a belief and NO ONE is taking responsibility for themselves and their starting point within how they participate in this world, and the fact that I am one of those people, doing the same thing, implies that I AM THE PROBLEM, and that it is a reflection of WHO I AM whether I would be willing to investigate my participation in this world and how it is influenced by my beliefs and opinions, and within that I allow myself to realize that regardless of what everyone else is doing, thoroughly investigating my opinions and attempting to understand how they cause consequences in this world is the best thing to do, and as I do so, it will serve as an example to others, and now that I am aware of the possibility of doing so, I am in fact now responsible for doing so, and I know within self honesty that this is the best thing to do, even if it takes up a lot of time and focus, because everything else I am preoccupied with is simply concern for survival and this concern for survival is a consequence of everyone, including me, not taking full responsibility for every thought, feeling, and action within which I participate, and if I take responsibility and others do so as well, we could provide for each other's survival quite effectively so that it doesn't require much focus, especially compared to the level of focus that it requires now, because we could, instead of defending our individual opinions actually sit down and work out what would be best, though that will never be possible if I don't do this for myself.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that the way to understand how my thoughts, feelings, emotions, beliefs, and actions create consequences in this world is to examine my thoughts, feelings, and emotions, and beliefs that come up within my mind and question their starting point, to question, why I have them, and to ask myself, in self honesty, if everyone were to have this thought, would it produce an optimal or less than optimal way of living, and to ask myself if I would be willing to trade places within anyone else in a world where everyone accepts this thought, feeling or belief, and to simply be honest with myself and see where my investigation leads me, and within this I forgive myself that I have stopped myself short from really investigating by assuming that I won't be able to work out how my thoughts, feelings, emotions, beliefs and actions produce less than optimal consequences for myself and others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that questioning my thoughts, feelings, beliefs, emotions, actions, would restrict my freedom, when in fact it would allow me the opportunity to stop any and all thoughts, feelings, beliefs, emotions, and actions that are producing less than optimal consequences in reality that would in fact restrict my freedom as an individual, because optimal freedom is that which only produces optimal outcomes and this is something I can work out and understand if I use common sense and I am self honest and I discipline myself within investigating everything as far as I can and to educate myself when I see that I am limited within investigating further due to a limited vocabulary/education/knowledge/understanding, and within this I realize that this is the REAL purpose of education, to produce a human being who is able to reason effectively and understand fully how this reality operates and how we affect each other physically in reality.

I commit myself to investigate my opinions and beliefs one by one, step by step, fully to the point where I am satisfied within myself in self honesty that I know/see/realize the full consequence of an opinion or belief that I hold within me and where I find that such belief or opinion produces any outcome or consequence that is not best for all, to apply self forgiveness and deconstruct such belief or opinion until I am able to see for myself that it is not something that I am willing to accept or allow within myself or another and so release it as a pattern within myself that would dictate my participation in this world in any way whatsoever.

Letting go of Illusions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the fear of not knowing what happens when I die.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to convince myself that I know what happens when I die, not realizing that I am simply accepting a belief that makes me feel certain about what happens when I die, which in fact I have no certainty.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize that I can work out what happens when I die using common sense, because the principle of 1 + 1 = 2 shows me that if I live only in my mind, dependent on energy as experiences and defining me as my relationship to energy, then that would imply that when I die, I will no longer exist, because the me I have accepted and allowed myself to define me as would no longer exist, because the energy that is created from my body will no longer exist after the body ceases to function in its current form.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I have been using my body as a way to generate experiences as feelings and emotions and thoughts and I have not actually been here in physical reality working with physical reality in a practical common sense way, and that all of the things that I complain about within my life are simply a result of the physical reality not being structured in the best possible way, and that all of the pleasurable or happy things in my life have simply been ways to distract myself to not see that I am not Here in physical reality but only in my mind, therefore not addressing the practical problems in reality that create, as a manifested consequence, the 'negative' things in my life and others' lives.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the belief that everyone has a choice of how to live their life and that ultimately what I do or what another does, does not affect each other, because we all have a 'choice', when in fact everything I do comes back to affect me, either in this life, or the next, and it affects everyone else as well, because we are all connected and in fact ONE THING through the physical substance from which we emerged and remain as within this physical reality.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a fantasy in my imagination or participate in a fantasy that I have learned about through the words and pictures of others that, as I focus on it, becomes more and more 'real' in my imagination, and which I invest a lot of energy, emotion, feeling, and thought in, so that eventually this fantasy seems 'real' to me, but in fact I have just trapped myself in an illusion that I created through my participation in a 1 + 1, step by step fashion.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I have participated in creating, shaping, molding, and forming the physical reality that I am within through a similar step by step, 1 + 1 fashion through my actions and through what I accept and allow from others in reality, whether directly or indirectly, and within that I have now trapped myself in a physical form that is subject to the physical consequences that I have manifested through this step by step participation process.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that I have created fantasies as stories and imaginations in order to distract myself from the realization that I am Here physically and that I can in fact, through a step by step process, support myself and others to take responsibility for what we have created here on Earth and to walk our creation back to a point of equality and oneness where we are no longer experiencing the manifested consequences of accepting and allowing what is not best for ourselves and each other.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to realize that, although this process may take generations upon generations, that there is no valid reason to not begin walking the process of uncovering how I have deceived myself into believing that I am not 100 percent responsible for who I am and have become and have accepted and allowed in this world as its current form and manifestation as separation, suffering, and abuse, and even though I may not experience those things all the time directly, this is also part of the self deception that I have created so that I do not have to experience all of the consequences of what I have accepted and allowed, but this 'protection mechanism' is itself an illusion and through me participating in it, I have ensured that I will not exist after death, because not only can I not be trusted with life, due to my own proof through what I am participating in, but also due to the fact that I have become this illusion as my mind, as this protectionary bubble so completely that would I die, this is all that I would be, and so that of me that is physical that would remain after death would be so foreign to me, that I would have essentially no ability to direct it at all, and thus I would not be able to remember what it was that I participated in that would have caused this consequence and would have lost all ability to correct the situation. And within this, I would not be able to prevent myself from having to experience more consequences as whatever is left of me as a physical being, because I wouldn't even know how to do that, because all I have become is in essence the avoidance of responsibility, and the avoidance of pain, and the avoidance of directing reality in a way that is best for all.

I commit myself to investigating all the ways in which I am deluding myself and participating in fantasies and illusions that distract me from taking full responsibility for myself and my participation in reality and from standing in a position to direct whatever parts of reality that I practically can to a point where they are best for all.

I commit myself to letting go of all illusions that prevent me from taking responsibility here on Earth for what I have accepted and allowed as manifested separation and consequence that is not best for all.

I commit myself to identifying and letting go of all excuses that would prevent me from standing up within myself and within this world to direct what I practically can to a point of equality and oneness so that there can be no regret within myself, no guilt possible, no fear when I face the moment of death, because I know that I am and will do in each moment what is best, no matter where I am, what form I am in, or what limitations I find myself within.