Happiness in a Ruthless System

 

Feeling happy and blissful, enjoying Life is ok. It is best, in fact. Just like, everyone having proper nutrition, proper education, etc is best. Though it is not a guaranteed right for most. Neither is personal happiness. At the moment, though, we have a system that does not support most to be able to enjoy Life, because they don't even have the basics to subsist.

Feeling satisfied, happy, feeling enjoyment, these are all good things and do not need to be suppressed. Justifying your decisions based on those feelings, though is NOT acceptable. Your decisions should be based on what will support the creation of a system that is Best for All. I have discovered that there is great enjoyment, satisfaction, and happiness within that purpose. Some may not be able to, at the moment, stand within that purpose. That purpose requires a level of emotional stability that supports you to not waiver in your purpose when things get challenging (because they will.)

We are in a ruthless, brutal system. If you think you are going to 'make a difference' and not have to challenge that system and face the brutality of it, then you are mistaken. If you choose to stand up with us, then prepare yourself through establishing increasing levels of emotional stability. It is ok to fall, to make mistakes, as long as you are learning within that what to change within yourself to not make that mistake or to allow yourself through choice to fall into those same patterns again.

Interestingly, I have found that the more I focus on my purpose and the less on how I feel (as in making decisions in order to either NOT feel bad or in order TO feel good), but rather on whether what I am doing or saying is in alignment with my purpose and principles (regardless of how I am feeling in that moment, and yet being self aware and honest with myself about how I am feeling to discover where I am limiting myself or where I am accepting and allowing something that is not best within myself), the more I have done this, the more happiness comes, like a little bird that flies into a tree as I sip my morning coffee. It is there for a moment, and then it is gone. That is ok. I don't judge myself according to whether I feel happy. I judge myself based on whether what I am doing, saying, accepting and allowing will create a system that is best for all which will guarantee the right to happiness for all Life as a basic, minimum standard of existence. When Happiness can be taken for granted by all, then I will expect that I should be happy in each moment as well. Until then, I assume that my existence will be challenging as hell, and grateful for those moments of happiness.

I stop being greedy. I am grateful. I enjoy Life. I push myself beyond all my perceived limitations and I will do the same for you. Whether you like it or not. That is my gift to you, because it is what I want from you. I will give as I want to receive.

Without the Desteni Principles, I would still be lost in chasing a temporary feeling. With them, I have established within myself an unwavering dedication to standing up in this world and creating a system that is best for all (even if I don't get to see the fruits of that in this lifetime).

Without TechnoTutor, I would not be able to, consistently, every day, GROW and redefine those words within me that I have lived in a limited, self-sabotaging way.

Without the Global Information Network, I would never have found the vocabulary to build Financial Stability and I would never have built my network to include the most dedicated, talented people that I have ever met. People who, like me, are willing to give up this one life to stand up and create a system that is best for all.

With Self Perfected, we have put all these groups/tools together to support people to move faster in their process (as fast as they can and are willing to) and to bring even more people to this Purpose, this Mission.

And we are just getting started.

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Why Are You Here?

 Have you ever asked yourself, "Why am I here? Why am I alive?"

I would be surprised if you haven't. And yet, I wonder what was the answer you came up with. Was the answer immediate? Did you really ponder on it? Did you experience any anxiety when you think about it? Did you experience any exhilaration or perhaps hesitancy to "go there" within yourself?

In case you haven't or even if you have, I'd like to explore the idea with you a bit. I think the answer is important. I mean, you could just tell yourself, "well, I'm here to just experience myself, nothing else." But that answer wasn't ultimately satisfying to me. You could come up with a ready-baked answer like "I was created by God to love him or others" or something like that. You might have come up with the classic "I'm just here to be happy" or one of its derivatives like "I'm here to pursue my passion" but I wonder how deep you went within questioning your passion. I mean, how can someone be truly passionate about something arbitrary? It would be good to know whether your "passion" is in fact arbitrary or not. 

You might have come up with "there is no meaning to my life or anything." But, really no one lives as if that were true. They still act like they want to be here and continue existing.

Look, I know "philosophers" have explored this idea for a long time. But that is like just a way of YOU not taking responsibility to come up with an answer for yourself. Even what I suggest, you should still consider it for yourself. Decide whether what I suggest is something that you ultimately WANT to accept.

Like, why does someone WANT to accept that they are here to just serve God, for example? What is the starting point within that?

Why does someone WANT to accept that they are just here to be happy or at least TRY to be happy? What is the starting point within THAT?

Many years ago, depending on how you look at it, I was confronted with this question within myself in a very "serious" way. I mean, not just thinking about it for a moment, but like it became the central focus of my life. I had to figure it out. 

I'm the kind of being that doesn't like to just accept someone else's answer. I don't want to just "believe". I want to KNOW for MYSELF.

Now, KNOWING is an interesting thing. Because some might think that means you need to have PROOF. But knowing does not require proof. It requires NO DOUBT. And from what I have seen within myself I can KNOW something because it makes sense to the degree that when I am HONEST within myself and let go of all the points that I WANT something to be a certain way which would influence how I interpret even the "proof" then I can really KNOW something.

I mean we are seeing this issue play out right now in our world where we are being exhorted to trust things like 'experts' and 'science' but at the end of the day, what you trust is based on what you want to trust. You can find two people who KNOW opposite things just as you can find two experts who disagree. So an expert becomes someone who "knows" things that fit one's personal bias. And, clearly, those who are spending the most resources to influence society have some bias. And everyone who is 'listening' to them have a bias.

 And, from what I can gather, the most fundamental bias that one has is based on how one answers the question "Why am I here? What am I alive? Why do I exist?"

 It's actually amazing that we can be born into this world and not already KNOW. It's like we have to 'find out.' But even that is an illusion, because it is simply our deep acceptance of not wanting to take full responsibility for being Here that has "led" us to creating a world, a reality if you want to call it that, where we "don't seem to know why we are here."

 When I was a young child, it was "obvious" there was no "God" because there were so many different beliefs about what "God" was. The fact that it was something where you could have one opinion vs another seemed to me to indicate that there was no reality to the concept. And yet, that doesn't mean that humans weren't "created" or that there isn't an "intelligence" shaping and molding reality as we know it, but all the concepts of God assumed that we as an individual are not responsible "ultimately" for what is Here.

 Even the idea of who is responsible for reality implies a false dichotomy. Like either its ONE being responsible for EVERYONE's reality or its each of us responsible for OUR OWN INDIVIDUAL realities.

Here's what I see. We are each individually responsible for EVERYONE's reality.

This "could" be a scary idea. Because you don't want to believe that you have any responsibility for anyone else and you don't want anyone else to be responsible for you. But just even a moment of self-honesty will show you that it's already the case. If you could create your "own reality" you certainly wouldn't be in the body or experience you are in right now.

And some say "You just have to know the keys to create your own reality". Ok, but those keys sure seem to come from "others" and require the "cooperation" of others.

Like, can you really just imagine something you want "really hard" and it is manifested and doesn't require ANYONE ELSE? Even your body is a collection of individual cells working in concert. To them, you are a dictator. You might say "my body is just an extension of me". Well, stop breathing then and see what happens. You are here at the "pleasure" of your body, not the other way around. We take this for granted because of our starting point of reality is all about ME.

Why is there so much fear when we go down this path of reasoning. Why does there seem to be a sign that says "Beware, any thoughts that you are responsible for others and vice versa will lead to COMMUNISM."

What's funny is that we were told that "capitalism" would eventually lead to "communism" and we wanted to believe that "no, we are special, we can do anything, we can create our own individual realities and everyone has to just fend for themselves." And now it is all the capitalists promoting communism and those with 'jobs' defending capitalism. If I were a better writer I could make this as obvious to you as it is to me, but the problem is that its not really my writing ability, it is your willingness to be HONEST with yourself. 

We are in a world where a child is born and doesn't know anything, per se, and yet has DNA and an environment that will shape them into fitting into a point in our system where a certain level of comfort will just come to them. Like, what does an upper middle class child "do" to "deserve" their parents putting them in a private school instead of a public school?

What does a child do to deserve being emotionally and sexually abused to the point where they will automatically turn to drugs and destructive behaviors and never develop the self-discipline required to participate in the economic system to achieve the success that each one argues is just at everyone's fingertips.

I know some will argue that there is that one in a million who goes from poverty to riches. And yet, why are they RARELY able to replicate it? Because you don't realize how PROGRAMMED our world is. YOU CREATED IT THIS WAY. Just look at your starting point. You said "I am not responsible for others. Others are not responsible for me." So you did not direct this world in a way to actually exist as that. You did not educate yourself and your children to ACTUALLY LIVE that. You just EXPECT it. 

 Why am I here? Every answer, save one, is this: GREED.

 And what is this lesson we are not learning. WE ARE HERE TO GIVE.

And yet we will try to GIVE always in the context of not changing our starting point. You cannot give within the context of greed and create anything but a greedy world.

Capitalism will not save the day any more than communism will. It is not an ISM that will save anything. It is only by us changing our starting that we are here to GIVE.

 How are you living, in the deepest sense, at the level of what you have given to yourself as your PURPOSE in your Life, how are you living from the starting point of GREED?

 Are you here to make a difference or just to take?

 Am I creating friction within you? Are you angry? Perhaps you are self-righteous and thinking "I give all the time."

But how does your "giving" change the system that we live in to reflect that this is a collective reality where each physical form has needs and requirements and that those needs and requirements have every right to be met at every moment just as much as you feel you have a right to 'happiness' or whatever else you believe in?

Will this be your final Life? Or are you going to stand up and do what God would do if there were such a thing. Funny, you don't want to be responsible but you want God to be responsible. You can't see beyond your own nose so you think so little of yourself. Do we, as humans, suffer from low self-esteem? And those who seem to believe in themselves at all, they are not seeing that they are responsible for supporting EVERYONE else to be EQUAL TO THEM. 

Uh oh! Communism! I said "EQUAL". No, what you are afraid of, you are already in the process of manifesting. And YOU will become EQUAL to the least in this world. Look around. Why is it that those who seem the most FUCKED UP seem to have the most influence? It is because they are THE REAL YOU. You are in a process of becoming the least that exists. The only solution is to support the LEAST to be in a position that you wouldn't mind being in. So now you are RESPONSIBLE for everyone else's equality. You say you fear a dictator, but you believe in God. HA! YOU ARE THE DICTATOR. Because you WANT to accept a reality where you have NO REAL RESPONSIBILITY.

WAKE UP.

THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN THE WORLD.

Math is just Vocabulary

This seems to be a difficult point for people to grasp, but we notice that it usually comes up for people who, by their own admission were 'never good at math.' So we'd like to take the time to break down what mathematics really is, why so few are  'good at it' and how to support yourself to become better with math.

Firstly, if you haven't read The Missing Key within Education, we suggest to make a point to do so either before reading this or after. We will place more resources at the end of this post that will support with building context. For now, let's look at the point of why many people think there is something to math beyond vocabulary.

In the course of your math education, you were exposed, slowly but surely, to new words. Words you probably didn't hear in your day to day life. You were exposed to numerators and denominators, logarithms and exponents, variables and coefficients, graphs, quadratic equations, slopes, functions, integrals, derivatives, trigonometry, sines, cosines, Pythagorean theorems, letters that you were told were numbers, and there was that one kid who sat near you in class for whom it all seemed to just make sense. (I was NOT that kid in high school by the way, far from it. I was the kid who, perhaps like you, just memorized what I could, never did my homework, barely scraped by, sometimes got A's through what seemed like sheer luck, but really had no idea what I was doing.)

At a certain point, after I had been exposed to TechnoTutor by Bernard Poolman, I went back to university and decided to test out my new understanding of the role of vocabulary in education along with the technology to put this understanding into action. I decided, to really test myself, to take (after a 6 year hiatus from school) the most difficult courses I could qualify to enroll in: Analysis, multi-variable calculus, object-oriented programming, probability, and others.) Lo and behold, I was the TOP STUDENT in EVERY SINGLE CLASS that I took. And what I did was really quite simple. When I reveal to you the secret to doing well in school, you will laugh.

When we were presented with a new lesson, I would take the text book, skim it for new vocabulary that either jumped out at me or seemed relevant to the material (usually these are given to you at the beginning of the lesson in the book) and I would integrate them using TechnoTutor. Then... wait for it... keep waiting... here it comes... you'll never guess it in a million years...

I would read the book and work out every exercise, both embedded in the text and at the end of the section (the 'homework exercises' that usually are assigned to you, but I just did them all immediately after reading the new section).

Guess what happened?

I understood what I was doing, because I focused first on the vocabulary and then I read to understand what each word meant and how it related to the other words. Then I applied it by trying to solve problems based on the new information or techniques I had just read about it. This gave me the opportunity to see if I really understood what I had read while also allowing me to develop a more intimate understanding that wasn't just abstract but practical.

Genius, huh? 

What's funny is that is the part no one wants to do. And the reason is because, by the time you are learning math, you are already outside of your natural learning ability's open window and so it becomes nearly impossible to learn new vocabulary at the level of unconscious competence, where you just absorb it and can immediately begin using it. Like, have you ever told a 4 year old something and they just from that moment on starting using what you told them and never forgot it? That's NORMAL! The problem is that we are systematically SLOWED DOWN by untrained parents and educators who (to be honest usually were the WORST students).

Ok, so maybe my example is not enough for you. Maybe you need to UNDERSTAND how math is really just vocabulary. 

Part of the problem here, is that you erroneously think there is something more to it. It's like you are trying to ask me how I know the sky is blue and you are blind. Well, what makes you think otherwise?

Math is no different to anything else. It just seems different because the vocabulary is so far outside of your normal day to day life, at least the math they teach in school, and so it seems like you have to be some kind of special genius to understand it. But in fact you just have to understand what all the words mean and how they relate to each other (which is just another way of saying 'what the all mean in the context of math').

This probably won't be satisfying to many people because you are likely experiencing the cognitive dissonance of being brainwashed to believe math is amazing, extraordinary, special, etc. But it is actually quite mundane. I mean, look at an accountant. They get paid to do math all day. But beyond just addition, subtraction, multiplication and division, they understand the words of balance sheet, profit, loss, gross, net, taxes, deductions, assets, liabilities, appreciation, depreciation, etc, etc, etc. 

The same goes for a physicist. The same goes for an actuary. The same goes for a mathematician. They just have vocabulary to work within specific contexts that you are not familiar with. This is also why its difficult for specialists to think outside of their profession and put things together from various fields. Their vocabulary in many cases is extremely narrow. That's why most engineers are not Elon Musk level. He knows a lot about a lot. Not just a lot about a little. And it's interesting because people who know a lot about a lot, tend to have more power in this world. They have a larger, broader vocabulary and ability to translate a vision into words that others can understand, even if they don't know all the details of the whole vision, they can at least understand what they need to do to make the powerful person's vision a reality. 

And this is fundamentally the root of all inequality in this world. In a world that is MADE of words, the one with the most words is the ruler. So the solution? Support everyone to know EVERY WORD and what it means. Doesn't mean people can't still focus and develop a specific point of interest and create cool stuff, but seriously, by the time a child is 18, they can have the vocabulary of Einstein, Elon Musk, Bill Gates, and MLK Jr (assuming they use the right tools of course). 

Speaking of the right tools,  Max (our 4 year old) and I are reading Richard Feynman's autobiography and in it he talks about learning algebra and some other points and Max asks me to tell him more about algebra. This is at 9:30pm, mind you. 

So I get out the little magnetic drawing board and I write out the following equation: 4 + 3 = 7

I ask him if this is a true statement? Does 4 + 3 in fact equal 7? He says yes. I said how do you know. He says "because, 5, 6, 7... 7 is 3 more than 4. It just makes sense."

Ok, cool. So then I write X + 3 = 7 and I explain to him that this is like a problem where we are trying to figure out what number we could replace X with so that the equation is a true statement. Clearly the answer is 4, we already know that, but I showed him how I would use algebraic techniques to figure it out. I showed him that I could subtract 3 from both sides of the equation, that I do it to both sides because it keeps the equation balanced, just like adding or removing something from both sides of a scale in equal amounts (something I know he is already familiar with). I then say, so here I have 3 minus 3 which equals? He says "zero". Ok, and what is X plus 0? He says "X". 

Now how did he know that? I didn't explain that to him? But he is not thinking oh there are numbers and letters and these are different things, how can you add a number and a letter? He just doesn't have that issue. We integrated the letters, numbers, math symbols, punctuation, all symbols in the English language by the time he was 2. You can go back and watch the videos we put out and see. So at this point, these symbols are just a part of him.

Another point to consider. If I ask you what are the symbols of the alphabet, you probably list them from A to Z. But that is not correct. Take all of the letters, then follow that with the numerals 0 through 9, then all of the other symbols for math and punctuation and THAT is the real alphabet. If you only really learned part of it, well you can see why you are limited. And really, what is the difference between a letter and a number? I mean, computers really only know 0 and 1 and yet here you are reading words being displayed by a computer who only knows 0 and 1. The understanding of which I could only explain to you using words that are likely not within your current vocabulary. In any case, once they ran out of numerals in math, they started using Greek letters. Remember Pi ? That is just a Greek letter, similar to our P.

So back to Max. Then on the other side of the equation I do 7 minus 3. I say 'this part we call simplifying' and what does it equal, he says '4'. So now we have X = 4. Which we already knew but this is how we would have figured it out if we didn't'.'

So then he says, enthusiastically, let's do another one! This time with W! So I write W + 2 = 6 and then we go through the steps again, subtracting 2 from each side, simplifying, etc. He wants another one, with a different letter this time! Then he wants an equation with TWO letters! Well, I explain that now we are moving beyond the concepts that I've already explained and we need to build a little more context to do something like that, but hey, we can still do it and play around, why not! So we play around and HE starts writing out his own equations! Oh, and in case you haven't seen the videos or posts on social media, Max already knows the Greek letters and can draw them from memory. So, who do you think would have the advantage when they get to high school and start learning trigonometry? Well, of course, Max will have no reason to go to high school, but I think you get my point.

Now, why do 12 year olds have trouble understanding and doing what Max just learned in less than 10 minutes? Some of it has to do with the fact that the teacher cannot properly teach 20 different children at the same time effectively. Geez, I took the kids to the park yesterday while Katie was on the phone with some other women, and directing 2 kids requires a lot of focus. Imagine 20! or 30! And you're trying to teach them algebra!

But the bigger issue is that each child does not have the symbols and the words (which are just larger symbols made of clusters of the smaller ones) integrated physically with clear definitions and without emotional bias. And instead, at a certain age, Life becomes less about learning and rather about fitting in based on what you were brainwashed to believe about yourself based on a limited ability to learn new things. Sad, really.

I know it's difficult, emotionally, for you to accept, but Math is just Vocabulary.

Everything is just vocabulary.

Education is every word you know, can process, and comprehend. That's it.

BUT WHAT ABOUT APPLICATION?????

Ironic question given that most professors spend their lives teaching and not doing, but hey its actually a valid question.

When I ask people what is it that you think math is beyond vocabulary, usually the response is, but don't you have to know how to apply it?

Well yes, but, when you understand all the words, the application becomes a result of applying common sense, testing assumptions, and trial and error over time. After all, who taught Pythagoras how to apply the Pythagorean theorem. And before you think about the chicken and the egg, let me enlighten you. He FIGURED OUT THE APPLICATION. Einstein came up with his own way to prove it when he was 12 just because he understood all the prerequisite vocabulary and thought about it long enough. If he didn't know what a triangle was, my guess it that it would have taken him quite a bit longer, as in, he would still be trying to figure it out. 

But the reason your mind jumps to 'but what about the application' is because that is ALL THAT IS TAUGHT in school. They don't really make sure you understand what things mean. They just demand that you memorize the steps of how to solve the problem, but if you're given a problem you have never seen before, you have a melt down. Well, why would THEY not want you to know how to solve problems you've never seen before. Probably because workers just need to do what they are told. And when you solve problems that have never been solved before, you gain power over others. So in a world where they want you wearing a mask and standing 6 feet apart, it's just better if you don't actually know how to think for yourself or figure things out but instead repeat what you are told, even if it changes on a week to week basis.

The reality is that, more than anything, Math is a way of thinking. It is really similar to Scientific thinking. You start with a set of assumptions and then look at how you can put together those assumptions in ways to draw conclusions beyond what was initially obvious. And then you look to see if those conclusions are useful in any way. And if you have a clear vocabulary and understand how reality works (which means the same thing as having a clear vocabulary) and then you apply mathematical thinking to the problems in this world, well, hell. You just might be able to solve things like "why do so many children go to bed without enough food?" Or "in a world of abundance, why do we have to compete to survive?"

And if enough people had the vocabulary and ability to think mathematically, in other words to put two and two together, well, we just might become our own authority and no longer place responsibility for creating a world that is best for all outside of ourselves. And if you weren't supported to develop an effective vocabulary and ability to think mathematically from a young age, you just might never realize that a world that is best for all means a world that is best for YOU.

Resources:

Science and Langauge in an Equal Money System

How to Learn Effectively

The Red Pill of Education

The Secret Behind the Secret

What is God?

Are we willing to let go of that which gives us the ultimate feeling of security, that in the end everything will be ok?

Unless we are willing to drop that, how can we ever take full self-responsibility? Won't we inevitably reach a point where we are not willing to go further, whether in our reasoning or our actions, because "well, that can't change, only God can change it".

For example, I've heard the objection when discussing creating a system where all have what they required to live a dignified life: "there will always be poverty, human nature is evil and all we can do is follow God's plan."

But how do you know that 'God's plan' doesn't include YOU taking full responsibility for creating a new system that provides for all's needs based on their physical form?

What I see is that God (and even believing that there is no God) is just a cop out where one does not see HOW they can take full responsibility for this Life, for ALL LIFE and one wrings their hands and says "Only God can do that, its up to him/it and if it's in his plan then it will happen."

This line of thinking applies to ALL religion, whether there is a "God" in the picture or not. Even the faiths that purport to be about universal acceptance of everyone's equality and to be based on principles such as do unto others what one wants done unto themselves, never offer a practical way to implement this in a global, system-wide fashion. And if that never happens, then what is the point?

What is the point of religion, faith, God, etc if it does not support one to practically stand in this world and create/maintain a system that is best for all? Isn't that what everyone WANTS GOD TO BE?

We want God to be that force or entity that makes everything ok, that provides some ultimate order or justice in the universe, and because we project that outward as separate from us, or MORE than us, then we do not take self-responsibility for LIVING that ourselves.

What if instead, we realized that the concept of God as that which makes sure all is right in the universe is our responsibility to CREATE?

The GOD SYSTEM of EQUALITY.

Is it possible? Well, what excuses do we have that don't involve at some level the hope/belief/desire for God to work things out for us or to be the reason why we can't do it ourselves.

Can we develop the reason and common sense, both individually and collectively, required to create such a system? Can we say, this has been tried before and never works? Human nature can't change?
But in the moment of making such an excuse, are we not MAKING THE CHOICE to not change OUR human nature? Is human nature 'inherent' or is it simply what we, as humans are allowing ourselves to do automatically and not even attempting to change?

Is it not obvious that a child is born into an environment that does not value all Life equally? If this environment were changed, would the child not automatically develop a nature that values all life equally?

Is the responsibility to change and at least implement the systems that will even gradually adjust the environment that children are born into, isn't that OUR responsibility?

Are we not the GOD that we have been hoping for? If we cannot do what is best for our children then why would we assume God would do what is best for us? If we are 'absent' from reality, chasing imaginary happiness in our heads, then why wouldn't we assume God is doing the same? Perhaps God is relying on us to change so that we can all be unified.

Believing that we are all one source, without considering what you, as a source of thought and action, are giving acceptance and allowance to in this world, is nothing more than abdicating responsibility to a personified God. It is no different than the ultra religious faith that you probably thought you were eschewing by 'evolving spiritually' to recognize that we are all 'one'. You do not even recognize your own unity. Perhaps you missed that lesson in math where the number 1 is called unity. Perhaps you did not realize that you are One individual and that your individual choices along with everyone else's accumulate into the reality we see today. Perhaps the 'oneness' you believe in as us all returning to the same source is really not the oneness you want. Just like an animal carcass returns to the earth when it dies, yes you will return to that source. But did you think the individual personality you have now will continue when it is clearly a function of your body? Were you hoping God would grant you a soul to continue on?

What would be the point when you aren't even using it to take full responsibility here?

Dropping the Mask

With the events happening today regarding lock downs, quarantines, shutting down of businesses, face masks, banning of public gatherings, etc we are all collectively experiencing the manifestation of the opposite of Jesus' message, which was to "Love your neighbor as yourself."

We are all collectively witnessing the impulsing and the manifestation of Fear your Neighbor as your Enemy.

How did we get here?

This is not something new we are experiencing. If you had been living in a third world country with little access to resources, you never really saw the common man as your neighbor, certainly not the man in the first world country.

But in schools, even the first world, we teach our children to compete with each other. Only so many people can get that scholarship. Not everyone can get an A. Why is it that our education process which ought to be designed in a way to bring everyone to a point of equal effectiveness, is based on competing? The times I have really learned something was not when I was competing with someone but rather the times when I sat, focused, clarified the vocabulary and went through the information with the intention of really understanding it so that I could apply the knowledge in some context.

The point of economy should be to firstly support everyone to have a life of dignity and comfort and then to expand beyond that and constantly improve the balance, but instead we have relegated our economy to one of competition as well.

And so none of what is happening currently is surprising to me. It is showing the real face of humanity, ironically by everyone wearing a mask.

We have been wearing a mask this whole time perhaps. Pretending we are good people while not considering the consequences of the system that we support and benefit from while it causes massive inequality in this world.

And it is not just the third world that experiences the inequality. The first world experiences it as mental illness and anxiety; existential angst, fear, paranoia, and mistrust of their neighbor.

Now we see the collective education level of even the first world where so many are ready to put on a mask that cannot protect them from something that is already within and without. We have been brainwashed by a corporate medical establishment to believe we understand science just enough to listen to the medical/scientific authority but not enough to question and evaluate the information for ourselves.

And so now, when the authority says that we should fear our neighbor's breath, we so easily comply with whatever solution is imposed.

We tell our children they can't play at the playground because we either fear them 'catching something' or we fear being reprimanded by the authority or even, perhaps worse, by our neighbor.

What will the neighbor's think of me if I allow my children to play at the playground? Will they think I am not concerned for their health? That I don't love my children? That I don't care about others' children? That I am not to be trusted and must be kept an eye on?

The thoughts of paranoia begin to pop up within us as it starts to dawn that we have been impulsed through images, videos, articles, to FEAR our neighbor as we FEAR ourselves.

We know that we cannot be trusted because we have placed our trust in a system that we know does not have our best interest at heart. So, surely I cannot trust my neighbor?

What is the solution?

The only solution is to firstly be honest that his is how we are feeling. That we are afraid. That we are worried, concerned about the future. That we do not know if this is a sign that things will only get worse.

We are worried that the governments will use this as an excuse to control our lives even more, that we will lose our freedom. But we have never exercised our freedom in a responsible way! We have only cared about our own comfort and ability to exercise choice in fulfilling our desires. We never really considered the consequences of our desires being fulfilled. We never thought about the poorly educated who have no choice but to work at the big box store for next to nothing so that we could get our desires CHEAP.

LOW PRICES means LOW WAGES which means we do not value our neighbor as equals as Life, but rather a means to an end. And now we FEAR our neighbor that they might be the means to our END when we don't even really understand what it is that we are afraid of. All we know is that CNN told us to be afraid. They used numbers that go UP to turn up our emotions just like the fever that we so fear.

Where to go from here?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear suffering.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain myself with images of suffering and dying while at the same time never want to experience that for real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that while I chase the fulfillment of my desires, people experience suffering and death for real as a consequence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to know about the Butterfly Effect but not consider that a simple purchase that I make feeds and supports a system that is based on slavery.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wear the mask of pretending to care so that I can go on my merry way of following my bliss like I am some kind of superhero in my own life who will make my life as fun and exciting and exhilarating as possible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that everything is in reverse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it is time to drop ALL the masks and to figure out what I can do to no longer accept and allow a system based on fearing one's neighbor and competing with one's neighbor to survive, when we all die as a matter of course, but the system we have created and continue to participate in ensures that we never really live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can hide my true nature behind a mask but in reality who I really am shows in what I accept and allow.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the judgment of others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not transcend judgment which would be to make a self honest assessment of what I accept and allow individually and collectively that is not best for all and to then support myself to stand up and change that which is not best to what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the weakness of thinking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my neighbor and to thus not want to participate in creating a system that is best for all.

I commit myself to stand clearly, openly as who I am, sharing what I accept, showing others that it is ok and possible to change, to value all Life equally and my living application of increasing my levels of responsibility in the system to bring about a system equal education for all and equal money for all will be the proof of who I am.

Struggle as Teacher

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the harder I struggle, the better I will be able to survive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that Life is about surviving and thus struggle is a necessary part of that.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that either one must struggle and then become very good at surviving, or one must be completely dependent on others with no self responsibility which would lead to suffering.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have created a false dichotomy within myself which actually does not make sense- that being the belief that in order to alleviate suffering, which is to survive, that I must go through constant suffering and struggle, which means I believe that I am here to simply experience myself struggling for survival until I die, but this is the meaning that I have accepted, not the REAL meaning of Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the meaning of Life is survival, which is limited definition of Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Life is perfection, even within the context of limitation, and the constant expansion beyond limitations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that children must struggle in order to develop self-responsibility, when it is not struggle that creates self-responsibility per se, but education and self-mastery that does, and that this is best taught through patience and example by the parents.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place undue importance on the idea of self-reliance, not considering that although self does rely on self, we have limited our definition of self to just our own personal consciousness, which is a system based on energy that has a beginning and an end, and thus we have condemned ourselves through that definition.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that all Life is co-dependent in that even within myself as a physical body, there are trillions of cells that must work together even though they are individuals and that my body does not place value on self-reliance but rather self-responsibility within the context of being part of an interdependent collective.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the best thing to teach my child, as opposed to valuing self-reliance, is self-responsibility and self-honesty so that one can live as an individual within a collective in a way that always improves the balance in a way that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have not ever really thought for myself about Life, living, existence, and myself, but only taken information from the world that was based on someone's opinions on how to survive in the context of a competitive based system, not one based on voluntary cooperation amongst equals.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I teach my children to survive as the starting point, they will become lost in the world and will never reach their full potential.

I forgive myself that the existence of Feral Children proves that the statement that making Life harder leads to more self-responsibility, because a feral child would not be able to survive or function effectively in human society.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as a parent, to not question what a child's full potential really is, within the best definition of Life, rather than the definition of Life given to me by a competitive system that does not value all Life equally.








I commit myself to teach my children about the value of all Life equally.

I commit myself to show other parents that if we educated our children to value all Life equally and create systems to honor that value, that our children will not have to struggle, and that it doesn't mean that they will become weak or overly dependent on others, because part of that education would be teaching our children self-responsibility in the context of being part of a collective of equals, but this would already require each parent to take responsibility for their child to be educated in the best possible way.

Weakness in Parenting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that a child is not able to master their emotions and feelings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a parent to project my weaknesses onto my child, not realizing that I am the product of my environment, education, and choices and that by supporting myself to no longer allow weakness within myself as manipulating myself with emotions and feelings, that I can support my child to do the same.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe/perceive that children are weak/inferior to adults.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that a child who is supported effectively with vocabulary development and effective living examples will become an adult that is far more effective in Life than any adult that I have thus far been able to imagine.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take pride, as a parent, in my child becoming a copy of me, even a copy of my weaknesses, instead of taking pride in my child becoming a living example of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my child becoming better than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to limit my child, unconsciously, subconsciously, and consciously, so that they do not surpass me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Life always seeks to grow, surpass limitation, and improve the balance in the context of what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have wanted to limit my child so that I do not have to face my own self-judgment, and thus I have resisted being the best that I could be.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself and my children and others with my inner feeling state and behavior to attempt to make them feel bad or guilty or ashamed out of my own self interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow my child to manipulate me through feelings and emotions out of self interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to buy or give something to my child because they said they were sad, thus supporting emotional manipulation patterns and weakness as manipulating oneself with emotions to generate energy within self interest which is neither best for me nor my child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if parents allow emotional manipulation patterns within themselves and their children, then the world will become a place where emotional manipulation is the dominant pattern and experience in the world, thus removing any right to complain about the state of the world and that they only point left is to take responsibility for myself and my children and the systems based on these patterns to redirect them in a way that is best for all.

I commit myself to not allow any point within myself where I would accept weakness and I commit myself to not allow any point within my child where they would accept weakness, realizing that I am the example that my child automatically learns from, and that the best support is to stop weakness within myself and thus remain stable and clear and direct with my child and not support or accept weakness within them.

I commit myself to support parents by showing them that a new way of parenting is possible, one of directness, strength, understanding, patience, guidance, and living example to produce children that are better than the parent and more capable of creating and living in a world that is best for all, so that eventually Life may manifest on Earth in full expression.