Tuesday, May 12, 2020

Dropping the Mask

With the events happening today regarding lock downs, quarantines, shutting down of businesses, face masks, banning of public gatherings, etc we are all collectively experiencing the manifestation of the opposite of Jesus' message, which was to "Love your neighbor as yourself."

We are all collectively witnessing the impulsing and the manifestation of Fear your Neighbor as your Enemy.

How did we get here?

This is not something new we are experiencing. If you had been living in a third world country with little access to resources, you never really saw the common man as your neighbor, certainly not the man in the first world country.

But in schools, even the first world, we teach our children to compete with each other. Only so many people can get that scholarship. Not everyone can get an A. Why is it that our education process which ought to be designed in a way to bring everyone to a point of equal effectiveness, is based on competing? The times I have really learned something was not when I was competing with someone but rather the times when I sat, focused, clarified the vocabulary and went through the information with the intention of really understanding it so that I could apply the knowledge in some context.

The point of economy should be to firstly support everyone to have a life of dignity and comfort and then to expand beyond that and constantly improve the balance, but instead we have relegated our economy to one of competition as well.

And so none of what is happening currently is surprising to me. It is showing the real face of humanity, ironically by everyone wearing a mask.

We have been wearing a mask this whole time perhaps. Pretending we are good people while not considering the consequences of the system that we support and benefit from while it causes massive inequality in this world.

And it is not just the third world that experiences the inequality. The first world experiences it as mental illness and anxiety; existential angst, fear, paranoia, and mistrust of their neighbor.

Now we see the collective education level of even the first world where so many are ready to put on a mask that cannot protect them from something that is already within and without. We have been brainwashed by a corporate medical establishment to believe we understand science just enough to listen to the medical/scientific authority but not enough to question and evaluate the information for ourselves.

And so now, when the authority says that we should fear our neighbor's breath, we so easily comply with whatever solution is imposed.

We tell our children they can't play at the playground because we either fear them 'catching something' or we fear being reprimanded by the authority or even, perhaps worse, by our neighbor.

What will the neighbor's think of me if I allow my children to play at the playground? Will they think I am not concerned for their health? That I don't love my children? That I don't care about others' children? That I am not to be trusted and must be kept an eye on?

The thoughts of paranoia begin to pop up within us as it starts to dawn that we have been impulsed through images, videos, articles, to FEAR our neighbor as we FEAR ourselves.

We know that we cannot be trusted because we have placed our trust in a system that we know does not have our best interest at heart. So, surely I cannot trust my neighbor?

What is the solution?

The only solution is to firstly be honest that his is how we are feeling. That we are afraid. That we are worried, concerned about the future. That we do not know if this is a sign that things will only get worse.

We are worried that the governments will use this as an excuse to control our lives even more, that we will lose our freedom. But we have never exercised our freedom in a responsible way! We have only cared about our own comfort and ability to exercise choice in fulfilling our desires. We never really considered the consequences of our desires being fulfilled. We never thought about the poorly educated who have no choice but to work at the big box store for next to nothing so that we could get our desires CHEAP.

LOW PRICES means LOW WAGES which means we do not value our neighbor as equals as Life, but rather a means to an end. And now we FEAR our neighbor that they might be the means to our END when we don't even really understand what it is that we are afraid of. All we know is that CNN told us to be afraid. They used numbers that go UP to turn up our emotions just like the fever that we so fear.

Where to go from here?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear dying.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear suffering.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to entertain myself with images of suffering and dying while at the same time never want to experience that for real.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that while I chase the fulfillment of my desires, people experience suffering and death for real as a consequence.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to know about the Butterfly Effect but not consider that a simple purchase that I make feeds and supports a system that is based on slavery.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wear the mask of pretending to care so that I can go on my merry way of following my bliss like I am some kind of superhero in my own life who will make my life as fun and exciting and exhilarating as possible.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that everything is in reverse.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it is time to drop ALL the masks and to figure out what I can do to no longer accept and allow a system based on fearing one's neighbor and competing with one's neighbor to survive, when we all die as a matter of course, but the system we have created and continue to participate in ensures that we never really live.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I can hide my true nature behind a mask but in reality who I really am shows in what I accept and allow.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the judgment of others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge others.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not transcend judgment which would be to make a self honest assessment of what I accept and allow individually and collectively that is not best for all and to then support myself to stand up and change that which is not best to what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the weakness of thinking.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my neighbor and to thus not want to participate in creating a system that is best for all.

I commit myself to stand clearly, openly as who I am, sharing what I accept, showing others that it is ok and possible to change, to value all Life equally and my living application of increasing my levels of responsibility in the system to bring about a system equal education for all and equal money for all will be the proof of who I am.


Friday, May 8, 2020

Struggle as Teacher

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the harder I struggle, the better I will be able to survive.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that Life is about surviving and thus struggle is a necessary part of that.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that either one must struggle and then become very good at surviving, or one must be completely dependent on others with no self responsibility which would lead to suffering.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have created a false dichotomy within myself which actually does not make sense- that being the belief that in order to alleviate suffering, which is to survive, that I must go through constant suffering and struggle, which means I believe that I am here to simply experience myself struggling for survival until I die, but this is the meaning that I have accepted, not the REAL meaning of Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the meaning of Life is survival, which is limited definition of Life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Life is perfection, even within the context of limitation, and the constant expansion beyond limitations.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that children must struggle in order to develop self-responsibility, when it is not struggle that creates self-responsibility per se, but education and self-mastery that does, and that this is best taught through patience and example by the parents.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place undue importance on the idea of self-reliance, not considering that although self does rely on self, we have limited our definition of self to just our own personal consciousness, which is a system based on energy that has a beginning and an end, and thus we have condemned ourselves through that definition.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that all Life is co-dependent in that even within myself as a physical body, there are trillions of cells that must work together even though they are individuals and that my body does not place value on self-reliance but rather self-responsibility within the context of being part of an interdependent collective.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the best thing to teach my child, as opposed to valuing self-reliance, is self-responsibility and self-honesty so that one can live as an individual within a collective in a way that always improves the balance in a way that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have not ever really thought for myself about Life, living, existence, and myself, but only taken information from the world that was based on someone's opinions on how to survive in the context of a competitive based system, not one based on voluntary cooperation amongst equals.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if I teach my children to survive as the starting point, they will become lost in the world and will never reach their full potential.

I forgive myself that the existence of Feral Children proves that the statement that making Life harder leads to more self-responsibility, because a feral child would not be able to survive or function effectively in human society.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself, as a parent, to not question what a child's full potential really is, within the best definition of Life, rather than the definition of Life given to me by a competitive system that does not value all Life equally.








I commit myself to teach my children about the value of all Life equally.

I commit myself to show other parents that if we educated our children to value all Life equally and create systems to honor that value, that our children will not have to struggle, and that it doesn't mean that they will become weak or overly dependent on others, because part of that education would be teaching our children self-responsibility in the context of being part of a collective of equals, but this would already require each parent to take responsibility for their child to be educated in the best possible way.

Thursday, May 7, 2020

Weakness in Parenting

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that a child is not able to master their emotions and feelings.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a parent to project my weaknesses onto my child, not realizing that I am the product of my environment, education, and choices and that by supporting myself to no longer allow weakness within myself as manipulating myself with emotions and feelings, that I can support my child to do the same.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe/perceive that children are weak/inferior to adults.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that a child who is supported effectively with vocabulary development and effective living examples will become an adult that is far more effective in Life than any adult that I have thus far been able to imagine.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take pride, as a parent, in my child becoming a copy of me, even a copy of my weaknesses, instead of taking pride in my child becoming a living example of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my child becoming better than me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to limit my child, unconsciously, subconsciously, and consciously, so that they do not surpass me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that Life always seeks to grow, surpass limitation, and improve the balance in the context of what is best.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have wanted to limit my child so that I do not have to face my own self-judgment, and thus I have resisted being the best that I could be.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself and my children and others with my inner feeling state and behavior to attempt to make them feel bad or guilty or ashamed out of my own self interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow my child to manipulate me through feelings and emotions out of self interest.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to buy or give something to my child because they said they were sad, thus supporting emotional manipulation patterns and weakness as manipulating oneself with emotions to generate energy within self interest which is neither best for me nor my child.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that if parents allow emotional manipulation patterns within themselves and their children, then the world will become a place where emotional manipulation is the dominant pattern and experience in the world, thus removing any right to complain about the state of the world and that they only point left is to take responsibility for myself and my children and the systems based on these patterns to redirect them in a way that is best for all.

I commit myself to not allow any point within myself where I would accept weakness and I commit myself to not allow any point within my child where they would accept weakness, realizing that I am the example that my child automatically learns from, and that the best support is to stop weakness within myself and thus remain stable and clear and direct with my child and not support or accept weakness within them.

I commit myself to support parents by showing them that a new way of parenting is possible, one of directness, strength, understanding, patience, guidance, and living example to produce children that are better than the parent and more capable of creating and living in a world that is best for all, so that eventually Life may manifest on Earth in full expression.